Can I borrow your kiss? I promise I'll give it back.
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Beauty's POV
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There was no one inside when I entered the room. There's a massive drink on the table consumed. The song was paused on the big screen. I chuckled when I saw the music title on the big flat-screen TV. I shook my head.
"Too bad I can't do both. I can't sing and dance." I shrugged my shoulder.
I shifted my body and noticed the other door that led to a small room was halfway open. I strode closer to check what was inside. But I paused, and my body froze when I heard a woman's voice moaning. I stepped backward and swallowed hard.
Shit. I need to get out of here. Ceilo told me about this, and a lot of times, she remind me not to accept invites.
I was almost at the door, but I froze at his presence. My heart pounded hard the moment our eyes met. He perplexly looked at me, and his brow furrowed.
"What are you doing here?" He asked, leaning his body on the side of the door's frame. I could no longer get out.
If you come to think of it, he's not that bad. He is a one-hell hot, sexy beast. My face flushed, and my heart fluttered.
Oh, God. What's happening to me? This is my first time getting attracted straight away.
I shut my eyes quickly to ease the tension, but when I opened my eyes to face him, a shivering feeling crawled into my flesh.
"I-I think I got lost. Excuse me." I stepped towards him to get out, but he didn't move.
"And do you expect me to believe that?" in his baritone voice.
My heart pounded harder. I need to get out. My knees wobble, and my head spins a little bit. If this man before me offers something, I might not refuse it. My goodness, self!
"Look? I'm not into this. I'm not a cheap hooker or slut in the corner, for your information. In short, I'm a virgin," I smiled as we stared. This is the only way for me to get the hell out of here. I don't think he will do virgins.
He licked his lips and surveyed the whole of me. I blinked a few times, waiting for him to say something.
"Who bought you here?" His eyebrows slightly crossed. Our eyes locked, and my mouth parted a little bit. We are both looking at each other's lips.
I can't understand these feelings. It's strange, and I don't feel intimidated by how he looked at me. I honestly want to taste him.
Oh, Beauty. Where's your brain?
"That lustful stare," I whispered.
He pressed his lips together, and a thin-line smile on his lips made me want to touch him.
"I'm sorry, Miss, but I don't do virgins because they're clingy in the end." He faced me and sarcastically smirked.
A strike of lightning came, hitting my head.
"Exactly! That's my point." I nodded. "Then please move away so I can get out," I said in relief.
Thank goodness! I know this man will never do anything with me. But why the hell I felt clingy?
For some reason, I want him to hold me a little bit. I don't know, but I felt like a magnet towards him.
Then we heard the squeaking sound of the door. We both looked in its direction, and a man who looked creepy, huge, and slightly fat came out from there.
"Drew! That's my baby for tonight, bud." He chuckled, wiping his sweat.
Drew? So, this person in front of me, his name is Drew?
I looked back at him, and my eyes were pleading, wanting him to save me. His jaw tightened as we stared.
"Help me get out of here, please. . ." I whispered as I looked into his eyes. The bouncers were outside. I couldn't escape from them. I need Drew's help to get out.
Drew's lean body covered me from the person behind him. His eyes settled on my lips, and I swallowed hard. I could no longer move my body, and my feet were nailed to the floor. I don't know what's wrong with me.
"Sorry, Bradley, but she's actually one of the girls I had before." Drew looped his hand around my waist and pulled my body against him. I gasped when I felt a thousand tingling sensations all over me.
"Fuck, Drew. You don't repeat girls, bud. You're a Mondragon." Bradley laughed.
"No, not this one, Bradley," in Drew's warning to Bradley.
Bradley shook his head and chuckled. "Then prove it, Drew! Or else you'll lose five million tonight, bud."
"Dammit," Drew swore in silence while looking me in the eyes. His jaw tightened while giving me an intensifying stare.
My face flushed, and I felt hot. The two bottles of vodka made my body into jelly at his touch.
"Loosen up, sweetheart. I'll take you to cloud nine," he silently whispered.
My heart pounded hard in excitement. I looped my arms around his nape, preparing myself for whatever would happen. If this is the only way to get out of here, then I will play along with him. I know he won't touch me. He doesn't do virgin for sex. I heard that from him, and I trust him.
"French kiss?" I asked, and my eyes twinkled. My fingers slowly made their way to the back of his hair, giving him a gentle massage.
"Embrace yourself whoever you are," he hoarsely uttered.
"It's Beauty," I whispered. I shut my eyes, and my lips landed against his. Then we kiss. . .
The warm touch of his tongue inside my mouth made my whole body scream for more. I pressed my body against him and felt his hand move my side. I caress his nape tenderly without warning, giving him what my body wants.
Our kisses went deeper. I felt his tongue pushing, nipping, and biting my lower lip. I meet each stroke of his lips to mine. It's sweet and crispy. He pulled my body against his solid frame, and my arms clung to him. I can even feel his member below, and it's hard, pushing right on my belly.
My goodness! This is my first time. It feels beautiful, and I don't want to let go.
"Dammit." He swore between our kisses.
I heard the door shut. Bradley came out, and that leaves us two here. We are still kissing, and I have no plan to stop. My body can't give up. My mind is telling me to stop, but my body is betraying me.
He hasn't done anything yet. His hands were all intact in my waist. I moaned loud enough as we feast kissing. Oh, God, I really don't want him to stop.
"Fucking virgin," he uttered and stopped. Shocking as we stared, I felt shy for the first time, catching my breath.
How did this happen? How come I want him to kiss me non-stop?
I licked my lips, and my head weakly dipped, looking at his pants. He is hard, and I am wet.
"Dammit. Come on, let's go." He grabbed my hand for us to get out.
I felt like my body was floating on cloud nine after that kiss. Drew's hand snaked through me while we were walking downstairs. His bodyguards surrounded us, and the noise around the place deafened my senses. The girls were screaming when they saw him.
"Drew Mondragon! I love you!!"
"Drew, fuck me, please!"
I paused and looked at everyone. It's confusing as I look again at Drew.
Who the hell is he? And why girls are dying to be fuck by him.
"They're crazy!" I chuckled and shook my head as I looked at his face. I wanted to laugh, but my stomach swirled.
"Sorry, I-I need to. . ." I covered my mouth. I felt like throwing up.
"Dammit." He swore silently and held my hand, pulling me with him.
"H-Hang on!" I gasped, almost losing my balance, and we trailed off.
With force, he pushed my body inside his car.
"Fasten your seatbelt if you don't want me to fuck you!"
"W-What?" I stammered, and my eyes widened. It took me a few seconds until I got his message.
Straight away, I fasten my seatbelt. He slid himself onto the driver's seat and started the ignition. It scared the living daylight of me when he stepped on the accelerator hard, jerking my body.
"My God! Are you going to kill us?"
He didn't respond. I covered my mouth again. Any moment, I will vomit for sure.
"Do you have some candy? I don't feel good. I want to vomit."
He ignored me again. I grabbed my pouch hurriedly to look for a minty candy, but there was none. I remember the last candy I had. Ceilo took it. This is what I do every time I feel like vomiting. A candy will help me stop it.
"Ugh, God. Candy, please?" I desperately looked at him.
His jaw tightened, ignoring my presence. I swore behind my mind and inhaled deeply while covering my mouth.
"Address?" he coldly asked.
My brows furrowed. "What?"
"Where the hell do you live?"
I pressed my lips together and slightly laughed.
"Sorry, but I'm not interested in you," I responded and shook my head.
"The fuck!" He bitterly swore.
"Give me your effing address! Or else you will be ended up in my condo, and I'm going to fuck you hard."
A spark came alive inside me, and we stared. His deep brown eyes are telling me no jokes. He was serious, alright.
My cheek flushed, and as I bit my lower lip, my throat became dry.
Yes, he is not joking. I don't think he's joking. People like him will never play for this. They get what they want. I twinkled my eyes, trying to clear up my thoughts, but our kiss inside the bar kept playing inside my mind. I want to taste him again. I honestly liked it.
My goodness. What's wrong with me?
"Uhm, number 28, New St. La Miranda Bloomingdale Subdivision," I answered, covering my mouth. I am going to puke my eyes if I will vomit inside this luxurious car. I don't think I can afford a car cleaning.
I saw how Drew's adam's apple moved as he swallowed hard. He inputted my address on the car's GPS and accelerated the car. I grip tightly on the side of my seat. The car felt like flying, and my stomach swirls again. I need something sweet and minty now! Or else I will vomit.
"Don't you have any candy? I will vomit." I covered my mouth.
"Hold it!"
"Hold this? But how?"
"Just effing hold it!"
My lips trembled. I could no longer hold it. I grab my bag and open it. I will do it here. In my bag! This is insane!
"Can you pull over?" I swallowed my saliva.
"Dammit!" He swore, cold enough to listen to my request.
"I said pull over! You, dickhead! Do you want me to vomit here? And then what!?"
I'm fuming with anger now while looking at him straight. I don't care anymore. It's better to vomit outside than inside his car.
He opened the glove box and took something out from it, and immediately, he put something in his mouth. My body jerked as he stepped on the brakes. The car stopped, and Drew quickly unfastened his seatbelt.
"Did you just call me a dickhead?"
My eyes widened when he quickly came forward and kissed me. My heart stopped beating when I felt the push of his tongue inside. It's shocking and yet felt satisfying! I immediately tasted the sweet, minty candy inside his mouth. I shut my eyes and embraced his kisses. It's like we're sucking the candy in our mouth in between our kisses.
I can't believe it! Is this even possible? My whole body turns into jelly. I can't take it anymore. I just want to melt in his arms. I was about to vomit, right? But it seems like I forgot all about it. This is heaven!
I hear the click of the seat adjustment on my side, putting my seat into a laid position. I moaned in excitement when I felt Drew's half-body on top of me.
Oh, my goodness! Will it happen tonight? Inside this car to a stranger? Shit! Wake up, Beauty! This can't be! But I can't stop this. I like how he kissed me. I'm floating on cloud nine. I wanted to be touched by him.
Slowly, I was about to embrace him, but he stopped! He quickly broke away from the kiss and returned to his seat. I was left dumbfounded and still lying down. What a shame! I just give in to him just like that.
He immediately started the car's ignition and accelerated it quickly. I covered my face, feeling ashamed of what happened. The nauseous feeling I had earlier disappeared. The kiss with a minty sweet taste had become my medicine.
I felt the car stop. Drew quickly got out and immediately opened my door side. I was surprised to see a much more precise version of his face, and my heart palpitated.
"Get out. You're home," in his cold, baritone voice.
My forehead creased. It's challenging to get out of his car as my body refuses it. Our eyes locked again one last time, and I could no longer understand the beat of my heart. I twinkled my eyes, feeling hypnotized at this moment. He slowly leaned towards me, and I held my breath. He unlocks my seatbelt, and I release an air as soon as he steps back.
"Oh, God, what was that?" I silently uttered to myself the moment I got out.
I looked at him one last time as he entered his car before he trailed off. He is bloody hot and handsome and, yes, definitely my type.
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I still remember the feeling I felt when we first kissed. -- Beauty's POV I woke up with a headache. Thank goodness it's Saturday today, and I have two days to fix myself in this mess. I stood up and went straight to the kitchen for a coffee. Oh my God! I nearly let go of my cup when I remembered what happened last night. My whole body felt cold when I remembered the kiss. I shook my head and laughed a little bit. That wasn't me. I'm a very reserved person, but the hell, yes, I was crazy. All I have is beauty but not brains. As I sipped my coffee, I found myself silently cursing while imagining his kisses that had the power to melt me. Oh, God! What's wrong with me? Oh, hang on, I forgot something. . . Ceilo! I grabbed my phone and dialed her number. "Ceilo? My goodness! Are you okay? Did you get home safely? I'm sorry I forgot about you." She laughed in the line before talking. "Don't you know that you are like that? Whenever you get drunk, you suddenly disappear. Wossh!"
'The best relationships usually begin unexpectedly.'***Drew's POV.Everything was running fast like a clock when it came to Monde. I'm glad I had the right people in these jobs. Xavion managed the rest during my absence, and now that I am back, the pile of paperwork has made me like a prisoner for two days. I'm glad that it was all sorted out."How did it go? I saw you with someone two nights ago. Who is she?" Xavion asked in the line.I grinned with mischief as I fixed the button on my polo shirt before answering him. "My new secretary.""Your —what? Where's Amalia?""She's on a holiday for two months. Her sister, Beauty Acuesta, will cover for two months." A thin smile crept onto my face when I received all her details the other day.I was ready to forget about her because of work, but her exquisite lips and addictive scent lingered in my nostrils. It's weird because it hasn't happened to me since, and her name, Beauty, suits her perfectly.I didn't expect that Beauty would be my
Ninety percent of true love is acute - ear burning, embarrassment.***Beauty's POV.I could no longer put my best smile on, and I could no longer open my mouth. No matter how hard I try to speak, my tongue just retracts. He slightly frowned as he watched me and smiled a little bit—his index finger sliding on the table, playing like a piano, checking for dust."Beauty Acuesta," in his deep baritone voice.I composed myself once more and bit my inside cheek as we stared. I felt like melting at this moment. There was a dominant demand in how he looked at me, and I swallowed hard."Tell the heads for a meeting resume in thirty minutes," he calmly said.Meeting Resume? Have they started already without me? Is that why all the staff stood at their desk when I arrived? Oh, God, I'm doomed!"Y-Yes, Sir." I stammered and looked away, avoiding his gaze. I spun around to exit the room, but he called my name before I could reach the door."Hang on, Beauty.""Yes, sir!" I respond promptly, turni
Believe in yourself a little bit more. *** Beauty's POV . Drew has a perfectly toned masculine physique that is quite impressive. I felt the tingling sensations crawl on me when I remembered our kiss. I shook my head slightly, attempting to clear my mind. Drew Mondragon has a reputation for maintaining a professional relationship with all his employees, so I was relieved he didn't bring up the incident. I must remind myself that he is my boss here, and I'm just nothing. With a snap of his fingers, he can quickly fire me. "Is that the best you can present? Do you want this company to disseminate?" Disseminate? I looked straight at Bobita and the rest of the head management. Their heads dipped halfway, avoiding eye contact with him. Drew Mondragon is not happy. I kept clicking the laptop's keyboard without a sentence. I am figuring out what to write. I was only away for six months, and the company is struggling. What kind of leadership do we have? Is this all you can do?" Drew
'Love is reckless, not reason. Reason seeks a profit.'***Beauty's POV.The food we ordered was served, and we began to eat. I was hungry, alright, but my first bite took a turn inside my stomach.I can't chew my food properly, and I'm having indigestion already. It's awkward, pretending not to know each other, and it's killing me. I hope today is not my last day.We've been so quiet eating, and the only noise I could hear was him clearing his throat now and then. I drank my water, trying to ease the tension I felt inside.Oh God, I want this to end. Come on, Universe, do me a favor, please. Take me out of here!I swallowed hard again, and Drew cleared his throat, dabbing his lips with a tissue before speaking."I want you to call me by my name when we're alone, Beauty," he said formally.Confused at what he meant by that, I raised my head to meet his gaze."What do you mean, Sir?" I blinked."I have a name, Beauty."Drew's jaw tightened as we both continued to stare at each other.
I like you even though you annoy me more than I ever thought possible. But I want to spend every irritating minute with you.***Beauty's POV.As soon as I arrived home, I carelessly tossed my sling bag onto the couch.Who wouldn't get annoyed with my situation?Mr. Drew Mondragon returned half of the paperwork to me earlier, asking me to revise it.Darn him!That was a week of work for me. How come he couldn't understand anything? Is he doing this on purpose? I bet he is.If only I weren't late today, he'd probably be a little bit gentle with me about this. But no, not! He is a Mondragon, a closer cousin to a 'dragon'; cunning, vicious, temperament, sly, and extremely dangerous.I stopped pacing, now looking at the thick pile of papers. How am I going to finish this all overnight? Oh, God help me."Hello, Beauty? How's everything, my beautiful sister?" my sister Amalia asked in the line.I twisted my lips, and my shoulder deflated. I sat on the comfortable chair and raised both of m
I had to touch you with my hands. I had to taste you with my tongue. One can't love and do nothing. *** Beauty's POV . After a few hours, the janitor knocked on the open door and entered the room. I had no smile when I looked at him as I was battling to finish the revision. He nodded halfway and smiled at me. While carrying cleaning tools, he never spoke and only raised his hands slightly. I gave him a nod and returned to my work. I can occasionally hear the janitor moving around. His cleaning is limited to the area before my desk. He is prohibited from entering the CEO's office. The office is off-limits to everyone except me. That's why it has become my sister's job to clean her boss's office, and now it has become mine. I stood up after an hour to get the reports on the side but couldn't reach the desired number in the filing cabinet towering to the ceiling. I looked around me. I thought I saw a stool the other day, and I used it to reach some files that were out of my reach.
"It means purity and holiness, Beauty, and at the same time jealousy and infidelity." -Drew James Mondragon- . Beauty's POV . I got so busy after returning and continued what I had to do. When I returned to my desk, Drew Mondragon was nowhere to be found, and I felt relieved. Now, I'm wearing a full-body suit to ensure that no part of my skin is visible. I paused when I heard someone clearing a throat behind me. He almost rested his chin on my shoulder, looking at the monitor and all the papers in my hand. "Yes, Bobita? Anything I can do to help you?" I sighed and didn't look at him. I'm on the last page after four hours and can't wait to finish this. I spun my swivel chair, yawned, and stretched my arms to face him. But my jaw dislocated on my mouth the moment I saw his face. It was not Bobita, but the mighty Drew Mondragon was now in front of me. Oh, heck! I closed my mouth, pressed my lips together, and held my breath for barely ten seconds. Our eyes locked, and I saw the
Special Chapter "One, two, three, pose. Good job, Beauty! One more round." I watch her quietly while drinking my coffee. She smiles in my direction, and my heart melts how beautiful my lovely wife is. . .my Beauty. I'm attempting to concentrate on the reports Amalia handed me this morning, but I found my gaze returning to my wife. She's seven months pregnant now, and she still looks very sexy to me. I was considering terminating her contract with Atticus at Monde Fashion because she's pregnant and gets tired quickly, but Atticus refused to let her go, so I let her do what she likes. A lot of companies want Beauty as their endorsement, especially now that she's pregnant. Our wedding was simple, and it happened privately. It was solemn as we celebrated it with our families. Beauty wanted it that way, and I was happy as long as she was. We even went to Italy and Paris together for our honeymoon and stayed two months over there. From there, she experienced a life living outside the
The Interview . "Relax, everything will be fine," I said, brushing my thumb on her lips. She looked nervous, and I could sense it. "I'm worried," she sighed. "Is my dress okay?" I slightly chuckled and sweetly nodded. "You are beautiful, Beauty. Perfect as it can be." I looked at her from head to toe while biting my lower lip. I am a proud husband-to-be, and like Beauty, I have many insecurities. I'm insecure because I don't know if I am enough for her. I don't know if I'm doing the right thing, but I guess I am. She has no complaints about everything and just goes with the flow. I want to hold her and cover her against the eyes of many, but I know she will never like that. "You are the most beautiful woman on Earth, darling. Trust me," I winked, acting cute and sexy. She laughed. "You and your moves." She quickly looped her arms around my neck and brought her body against mine. She rubbed our noses together, which alone ignited the whole of me. "I want to eat you," I whispered
Beauty’s POV . “And where are you taking me, Drew?” “We’re nearly there.” I giggle with excitement, and our hands remain entwined. Drew’s other hand holds the steering wheel while the other grasps mine. I called my sister earlier, letting her know I am with Drew and will probably be late or I will be staying at Drew’s place. Either way, she’s okay with that and is happy for me. She saw what happened earlier as it was live on TV. “Are you mad?” I looked at him thoughtfully. “Do I look like I was angry?” He smiled. It was only quick. The whole country knows now about us, and I will no longer go to Paris. He doesn’t seem unhappy with that. I was just making sure that he is not. “Do you like me that much?” he teased, his eyes beamed. “Uhm, I like you the way how you like me,” I winked wickedly. He chuckled and kissed my hand. “I love you, darling.” “And I love you more,” I responded. It took us an hour, and my eyes are weary now. But when my eyes gave up, Drew announced we ar
Beauty's Pov.I felt shy and didn't speak much while eating gently beside Drew. Everyone at the table ate quietly, with only the sound of utensils breaking the silence being all you could hear.Sitting across me is Skye, the wife of Liam, Drew's brother. Between them is their son, Logan, and beside Logan is their youngest, Amber. The little boy Logan caught my attention with his constant smile, especially when he was with his grandfather. Both kids are adorable.After the sweet confession, Drew and I quickly left the place with his family. It was a rush, and the reporters had many questions, but Drew never answered them. We walked past them.I was just thankful that Drew's family seemed okay with what happened right after that. His father remained calm and didn't utter a single word.Logan walked over to his grandfather, who was seated on the edge of the table. It is a reminder that Drew's father was the head of the household."Nonno, voglio sedermi accanto a 'te," Logan smiled, and
Beauty's POV.Holding the folder that contains all the reports, I exited the building comfortably.Vincent held the car door open for me, and I slid onto the leather seat before buckling my seatbelt. We have to drive for another five minutes, and then we will reach our destination.I composed myself when I stepped out and cleared my throat when I entered the building. I followed my sister's instructions for me to be able to get inside the place.It is a secluded venue exclusively reserved for the gatherings of high-profile individuals. The reporters and media personnel are present, as indicated by the cars outside and Vincent's earlier message."Thank you, Miss," I said to the lady at the information desk. She gave me a visitor's ID for entry.One of the security in-charge accompanied me all the way to where the venue was located. I smiled at him, and he formally smiled back. He never said a word, and we were quiet until we arrived on the right level.The moment the elevator opens, t
My love for you comes with a lifetime guarantee..Beauty's POV."Are you sure about this?" Ceilo looked at me seriously."Yes," I nodded without regrets. It felt good to be on the right track in my life.This morning, I woke up feeling complete. This is the best feeling I have had so far, after so long. I always have my worries with me before, and I don't look forward to my day. My mind is busy thinking of other things, including modeling, Drew's family, and my own family.It seemed like I was walking in a path like a robot with a clear direction but without a heart. I wasn't happy.*(conversation I had with Atticus the other day)"Are you sure you will not regret this, Beauty?""Yes, Atticus. I will not. I contemplated a lot and thought not just once but more than a hundred times. And my decision is final, Art."He shook his head slightly and smiled at me. "Beauty, true happiness, and contentment come from within. If you have found that, then nothing more is needed. If this is you
Drew's POV.Damn this. When are they going to stop this nonsense?I heaved a sigh after reading the articles online. I barely had any time to have my coffee as the business in Greece was facing inclination.Xavion has to fly there to check the conspiracy. A few people on the board of directors are doing the pullouts, giving a scare to the rest of the investors.I've been receiving calls for the meeting since last night. I didn't have a drop of sleep as I also took care of the annual year-end financial scheme of the El Monde Towers. My father is crushing me to the bones, manipulating the rest of the investors again, threatening me of the decision I've made.I will never let him arrange my marriage to someone this time. I will rule my life, and I mean it. If he wants war against me, I will face him, heads on high."Don't worry, Drew. I have already talked to Samuel. He will help us." Liam said in the line. "Just take care of Beauty. The articles about you and Beatrice may hurt her. You
Beauty's POVI let the warm water wash my face while my tears are flowing. I waited an hour in his room, but he never returned. I had the heaviest heart when I left the place and came back here, in my hotel room. I don't think I will be okay after this. I just can't take it.My message to Drew:Drew, darling, I love you, and I'm sorry. I got carried away with my insecurities and jealousy. I forgot your sacrifices. I love you so much. I will see you back home.I stared at my cell phone simultaneously and still had no messages from Drew. I know that he left Japan last night. Mamita confirmed it with me. Today is the day I will also return with Mamita. I turned off my cell phone and have no plans of turning it back on."You, alright?" Mamita asked beside me. She probably noticed I wasn't at myself as I was quiet the whole time."I'm good, Mamita. Thank you," I weakly responded, and she smiled.***My eyebrows met while watching the TV. I paused to eat the banana bread that my sister Amal
Beauty's POV I walked towards Drew's shut door without a plan. I looked around, and there was no one. I took a deep breath and was about to knock but changed my mind. I felt my flesh shaking thinking of Beatrice. I fisted my hands and took another deep breath. I stared at the door before me briefly and stepped back. I dialed Drew's number, and it rang a few times. He didn't answer it. I chuckled, feeling so annoyed now. Me to Drew: Drew, are you free to talk? I waited long enough for a response, but I realized he would never respond and probably chose to ignore me today. My blood rose to the limit of what I could handle. So, straight away, I knocked heavily on his door. It opened, and it was no longer a surprise for him to see me. He left the door open for me to enter and turned his back to me. I stepped in and looked around. The empty cups of coffee are still sitting on the coffee table. My brows furrowed at the thought of Beatrice being here a while ago. "Drew?" I looked beh