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69THEABenedict pulled himself away after hearing those words coming from me.Why?He stares at me eagerly with no words coming out from his mouth.Why does he look at me differently? Why does he look at me like that? Is he sympathizing me?We were both silent. It wasn't just an ordinary type of silence but there was something else. My heart was beating crazy inside my chest after letting go of those words and his silence was making my heartbeat much crazier.Shit."Say something..." I muffled softly.I waited…But nothing is coming out from his mouth.I take a deep breath in and exhaled as I said the word…"Please." I pleaded.He blinks at me twice before he could say, "You love me."I nod without hesitation. "Yes.""I dont know when I felt it. I guess I have been trying to deny it for so many times when I knew what I really felt about you." My lips shaking.I exhale heavily while I play with my fingers as my eyes set on my lap. "I knew it was there, I just didn't mind about it. And
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70THEAGoodbye...What's good in goodbyes?I wonder why there are some points in our lives when we need to get hurt just to learn some lessons. I wonder why some people would come to our lives and then would stay but most people would just come and go.So quick.No excuse. No warnings. No heads up.They just leave….so suddenly.So easily.I wonder why people do that. I wonder why how a person can easily leave forgetting all the things and times that you two shared together.And those people who leaves, are the ones who we wanted to stay."Thea?"I travelled my eyes back to Sebastian as he sits there on the chair across me."You okay?" He asked before putting the piece of meat inside his mouth.I nod as I take a quick sip from my glass of wine."Yes. The foods are amazing here." I commented but I honestly didn’t like what he ordered for me.Sebastian smiled happily."I’m happy you love it." He says.I stare out of the window again and London is still the same. Thick snow has covered
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71THEAIt’s Ben.It’s really Benedict Saintclare.When you least expect to see him, that’s when I get to see him out of the blue. I stare eagerly at Benedict and he was also doing the same thing. I couldn’t move, I felt stuck on my seat even though I wanted to leave this pizza place. I’m stuck here, looking back into his alluring bluish-greenish eyes while he doesn’t say a word anymore after greeting me.Honestly?I wanna hug him. I wanna wrap my arms around him. I wanna hold him so tight and tell him that I miss him terribly. It has been two long years and I have been missing him more than I should. I should be mad at him. I should get angry for what he did to me and how he led me on.But…Does he wanna do the same thing to me? I wonder if he also wants to hug me. I wonder if he also wants to wrap his arms around me and lift me off the ground. I wonder if he wants to hug me so tight and tell me that he missed me too.Do you miss me Ben?Because I did.I missed you even though I shou
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72BENEDICTTwo years ago…“I can’t have that now.”I click my tongue as I scan to the next page.“No.” I said firmly as I talk to someone over the phone as I was signing papers over my desk. “No Hans, report to me this Friday about the new because-effective plan. I need to see the record before you decide without me knowing it.”I look up at my secretary, “Update me about my sched.” I instructed.“Two meetings this afternoon Mr. Styles and the Arabian investors are arriving tonight at 8pm. I have already booked everything for them. The service car, hotel, restaurant and such.” She reported.“Good. Hans stop. I told you already, I have read it. I don’t like it. Change it. If I cant see your new report by Friday then I have to fire you and your team. Go find a new plan and work for it. You hear me?”I hang up and handed my secretary all the files I finished signing. Shit my hand and wrist feels tired.“Anything else?” I asked her.I have done three meetings this morning though I still
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73BENEDICT“How are you?” I questioned.She wears a bright red trench coat, wrapped a thick white scarf around her neck and finished her look with a brown knee-length boots as she sits right across me while she blows on her hot drink. Her hair was brown now and she cut it really really short, pixie cut. Elizabeth used to have a very long platinum blond hair and this look was new to me. It has been so many years since I have seen her and we all knew she was avoiding all of us, especially Sebastian, because she was scared we’d get her child from her.“I have been really really great.” She answers with a smile.My eyes landed at the beautiful girl sitting on the other chair who was just next to her. She had a very long straight blond hair, she wore a pink furry coat, pink boots with a white woolen scarf wrapped around her neck and white gloves on her hands. The little girl stares at me and she seemed shy.“That’s really great El. I’m happy things are turning out well for you.” I tell h
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74THEAI didn't understand what I felt when I saw Benedict carrying that little girl on his arms with a woman standing close to him. It was the most unexpected thing to see after what happened that day when I saw him for the first time after two years.It was something I wanted to have with him. A family. A child. Us being husband and wife.I sigh.There were so many questions. So many and too many of them filling my head.Who was that woman? Who were they? Why were they together? Who was that child? And whose child was that? Was that Ben's? My mind filled with so many unanswered questions coming out of nowhere and all of a sudden I felt betrayed all these years.Was that Ben's family? Did he hide them in secret? Didn't he want anyone to know about them? Or didn’t they tell me anything about his past?“You alright?” Kylie nudges my side.I clipped my jaws together and stared at my friends who looked worried after what we all witnessed. I nodded subtly.I hated how he acted that he di
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75The room was silent for a couple of seconds and my eyes were locked with his bluish-greenish eyes. I had so many things to tell him yet I can’t seem to find them now.Ben licks his lips and I just remembered that I was still on this bathrobe. I cleared my throat and said, “I need to put on some clothes.”He nods.“I’ll be back.” I quickly scooted my way back to the bedroom where I slept.As soon as the door was shut behind me, I breathe out heavily and felt my heart pounding. Shit. Why did Bethany have to do this? She didn’t even ask me if I was okay with it. I rushed to the walk-in closet and put on some casual clothes like some white shorts, a pale pink body-hugging shirt and tried to fix my hair. I stared at my pale face, no make up. I look too pale and my dark circles were too evident. I grabbed my bag from last night and put on some light powder and a little blush on. I began biting my lips till it got pinkish red.My eyes landed on my beeping phone, Sebastian is calling me ag
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76T H E A“You’ve been looking sad the entire time since we got here.”I pulled my head up to hear Sebastian’s voice. He smiles calmly but I wasn’t in the mood to join the others. We’re all here now and everybody seems to be merry.“It’s Christmas.” He says as he sits next to me.I half-smiled.“And everyone’s downstairs. Why you’re here alone in the library?” he asks.“it’s warmer here. And… I wanted to see how many books they have.” I reasoned.Sebastian smiles. “Come on, everyone’s looking for you.”If everyone includes Benedict then I would be downstairs joining but he’s skipping this get-together because he needed to be there for his dad and mom. Bethany isn’t here too which makes things awfully quieter. I sigh inwardly and I have never talked to them since that day. It’s been almost three days since Benedict and I talked. I could still remember how beautiful that day was yet how we left things undone.I stand from my seat and Sebastian’s face lit up. “Now you want to party.” He
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87 T H E A Sebastian committed suicide. He ended his own life with a gun in his head. No one even knew how he had a gun in the first place and no one had any idea he was going to do that. He was supposed to meet Ben and the others tomorrow for a reunion. He was supposed to live a new life after being sentenced in prison for seven years. He was supposed to live in a tropical place and start a new life for himself. He was supposed to live a life filled with dreams now that he is out in prison. Sebastian was supposed to live. I was supposed to forgive him. The autopsy report stated that it happened around twelve midnight which means just a few hours after he left our home. I have never felt so depressed in my entire life that I wasn't even able to tell him a lot of things that I wanted to say. I didnt know what I was exactly feeling, completely lost in my thoughts and emotions after Sebastian's passing. I knew that there was something wrong in his eyes when he talked to me becaus
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86T H E A"How have you been?" He asks.Sebastian wore blue, white and light pink plaided top, a pair of faded jeans and a dirty white sneakers. He looked older than the last time I saw him and his hair has gotten longer too. He looked different, but those eyes still frightens me.Those merciless eyes.I couldn't stare at him longer and I had to look away from his gaze. I clear my throat, "I have been well." I answered."I'm really glad that you are." Sebastian tells me."Um, do you want to drink something Sebastian? Tea?" Ben offers.I quickly held his wrist, stopping him from leaving me alone in here and stared into his eyes as I said to him. "Please don't leave me here."Ben stares intently at me before he turns to Sebastian who speaks, "You dont really have to offer me anything."I bite my inner cheek and breathe in some confidence before I faced Sebastian. "What are you doing here?"Sebastian stares at me eagerly."What do you want?" I asked firmly."I came here to see if you ha
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85T H E AI couldn't sleep the entire night as I was bothered about Sebastian's release happening in just a few hours.Thoughts were filling and piling inside my head one over the other and I don't know if this was going to let me sleep at all.So I slipped out of the bed where Ben was sleeping soundly and headed out of bedroom to get myself a glass of wine from downstairs. I hate myself when I turn to alcohol every time my thoughts are fogged up and fucked up. I hate when there are questions left unanswered and my solution is alcohol.I hated it.I hated it so much I hate myself too.I finished two glasses of wine and spent almost thirty minutes just sitting on a chair where I tried to drown and sort my troubled thoughts. I finally pulled myself up and headed back to my bedroom only until I saw Xavier heading out of his room, crying. I rushed to his side and wished that he wouldn't smell the stingy scent of alcohol from my breath."Xavier." I cooed. "What happened?""Mommy I had a n
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84T H E A“Why didn’t you tell him?”Benedict's question still lingers in my mind.Why didn't I tell Sebastian back in the day?I have been asking myself that same question over and over again for the past couple of years. I used to tell myself that I wasn't ready and I know I wasn't ready. I lied to myself when I said I was ready to confess to him about our child but I was absentmindedly denying the fact that my mind was filled with so many thoughts as soon as I faced Sebastian.When I saw him, I was reminded of how he raped me mercilessly. When I saw him, I was reminded of how dirty of a woman I was. When I saw him, I was reminded of how I didn't want this baby to be born if only it hadn't been for Ben.Ben has always been my rock and my strength after everything that happened to me. All these years, he accepted me no matter what and I have been beyond blessed to have a man like that in my life.That kind of love and care he showed me is going to be something I didn't want to waste
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83T H E AI stare at my own reflection in front of the mirror, I gained weight but I look different compared to the old me a few weeks ago. My eyes travelled down to my baby bump and as I turn to my side, I feel more anxiety building in the back of my head. I am not confident enough that I will be a good mother to this baby once it’s out when I know this baby came from a man who I trusted so much but just raped me. My bump is starting to show now and I know I have a lifelong responsibility waiting ahead of me. I just hope I will be responsible enough.I rub my hand over my small tummy then smiled at myself.“You will be fine.” I told my baby.Ben is here for me and for us. He always has. He made everything feel better. He made me better and happier without asking too much in return. He is a very selfless man and I owe him my life. My everything and all that I have left.I breathe out heavily and tucked my hair behind my ears as I stare at myself wearing this white dress and white ba
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82B E N E D I C TShe stands by the balcony sliding door, staring at an empty space wearing my shirt and some pajamas. Standing here afar from Thea, looking at her, I can see and I can feel that her mind is full. It’s full of endless thoughts and worries. I wish I could take some from her restless bothered thoughts and I wish I could help her with what she is going through.Thea is strong but I don’t want her to have another breakdown. I hope I can share the pain and confusions she is going through right now. I wish, at least I could make her happy despite of what has happened lately.But I don’t know what to do as well.I am bothered too, restless, anxious, troubled and angry. I still have this growing hate in me and unwillingness to befriend Sebastian.I hate him.I walk towards Thea and wrapped my arms around her. She didn’t budge but still sets her eyes out the window. “There are no stars tonight.” I say.She sighs heavily.“Aren’t you hungry sweetheart?” I ask.She didn’t answer
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81B E N E D I C T“The CEO of Saintclare Enterprises , finally off the market!!”I read mentally the newspaper’s headlines as soon as I got into my office. I scan through the magazines which were also over my desk, and the headlines were also all about me.I sigh. “I knew this was gonna come out first thing in the morning.”The phone on top of my desk rings, I quickly picked it up, “Yes.”“Mr. Saintclare everyone is calling in for an interview with you. They’re all asking if you have any available time.” I can hear telephones ringing from my secretary’s background.“Cancel all interviews. Tell them I have a busy schedule up until next week.” I hung up.Suddenly the phone in my pocket rings. I stare at the screen and it was Mrs. Brown, my PR.I sigh as I answer, “I know what you’re going to say.”“It’s everywhere. My phone has been ringing since six o’clock this morning. I don’t know what to answer them.”“Did you say anything about Thea?”“No. Not unless you tell me to. I’m only wait
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80BENEDICTI stare at Thea, and she has been looking out of the window for minutes now. I know she still has a lot of things in mind with what has happened lately and I’m sure she’s tired of thinking about it too. She has talked to Khaleel and I have had talked to him too. Despite her past, we wanted to keep it to ourselves than letting the others know about it. They wouldn’t understand what she went through to survive and it isn’t our story to tell.I have asked myself a couple of times why she had to choose such job but then I didn’t have the courage to ask her. I don’t want her to feel bad about herself and the more I ask about her past, the more she would think it bothers me.Honestly, it has been in the past and we all have had done crazy shit a thing or two. All of us deserves a second chance and women like Thea who strives hard to change herself to become a better woman deserves more than that. I am proud of her and she knows it.A smile creeps on her face as soon as I rubbed
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79THEASometimes, in our lives there are instances when you just want to disappear because of awkward situations or embarrassing moments. And right now, that’s what I want to happen. I want to teleport to another place far from here.It feels like everything inside my system malfunctioned and brain feels dead. I have never felt more disgusted of myself and my past than how Sebastian is embarrassing me right now in front of Ben. No one has ever made me feel so little of myself, only Sebastian.This bastard. This one of a hell man. I wish he dies.My tears were just flowing from my closed eyes and I feel this growing pain against my chest. I try to breathe in but the pain grows as I exhale so I remained quiet. I don’t want to face anyone or see how they look at me with disgust and filth. I just want to disappear like one pop of a bubble or run out of this house and never look back.But I cant, I know I have to face them now. I have to face Khaleel. I have to face Benedict even if it’s
