HE LIED TO ME......WHAT HAVE YOU BEEN EATING

"I got so many candies from my new friend and who could it be.....ummmm, a human" I smug in triumph while rambling around them.

"Didn't someone say I was going insane....guess who the crazy one is now uh? Well, not me" I laughed.

"All right, we believe you now...Happy" Dan hissed and proceeded on his book.

"You don't have to show off in front of us..." Arthur scoffed.

"Whatever, I just proved to you all...I won...hehe hehe hehe" My eyes wandered off to Earth, whose face looks gloomy for some reason. I ceased my brows in bamboozlement as he sat listlessly on one of the branches of the sapling.

Is he unhappy that I won?.

I looked at the other two to realise they were staring at me. Why did it feel like they have been doing that for a long?.

"What? what's with the leering?" I grumbled. Earth's languid demeanour was igniting some feeling in me that I don't have a grip on it. And these two were annoying me.

"I am just wondering....are you actually dumb or pretending to be? Are you blind or faking" I heard Arthur utter out his balderdash words, once again.

"Do I look visually impaired?" I frowned "I still don't understand why he is acting weird..." I turned my gaze to earth.

"Earth, I thought out of the four of us, you are the intelligent one but today I just realised you are dumb...." I discerned Dan's cheerful but solemn voice say.

"What are you hinting at here?" I scowled at his words.

"Earth's weird behaviour towards you...the caring....getting you your favoured ice cream. Don't tell me you don't......" He paused and took a deep breath.

"He likes you" 

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I ran a hand through my hair as I approached Earth. If he actually likes me as Arthur had said. I should just clarify things to him, so I won't turn him on.

I am unusually perturbed for no reason. And why are my legs shaking?.

Keeping that at the back of my head, I finally managed to reach him.

"E...Earth" I faltered feeling edgy. He turned his gaze towards me, and for a moment, I felt his eyes simpered but soon he went placid and intently stared at me. My eyes darted towards his fisted hand. In a panic, I shifted backwards, forthwith. 

Didn't they say he has a soft spot for me, why then does it feel like I am in deep trouble?

"You are here" He plunged down from the tree and stared at me with brooding eyes. He might radiate an air of serenity but I could still sense something wrong. I calmed myself down and parted my rigid lips to say "D...do y....you....like me?"

I promptly turned my back to him in awkwardness. Gosh, this is insane. Why did I enquire that? What if what those two told me was false? How will I be able to face him?. Before I knew it, I was perspiring in fear. Maybe I should leave to avoid embarrassing myself.

I shut my eyes tight and disappeared.

"Yes" 

My body froze. 

He said 'Yes'. He really likes me. I felt him touch my shoulder and turn me around to face him.

The first thing to come to my view was his long-lashed eyes. He was gazing studiously at me. At some point, he'd clench his hands and unclench them. But most importantly, his eyes were explaining to me, something I have no idea about.

"Earth, i...didn't know you had feelings for me but I can't reciprocate them...i...i...I am sorry" I finally opened my mouth to say.

"I foreknowledge you'd say that. I am not forcing you or anything to reciprocate my feelings Earth. All I want is for you to give me a space in your heart. I want you to give me a chance to love you. You don't have to do anything. I will do everything for you" He cried.

I blinked my eyes furiously and tried to say something but he placed his thumb on my lips to shush me.

"Earth please...just give me a chance. I can get one right?".

Aren't I doomed?.

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I kept my ideals because in spite of everything I still believe that humans are really are good at heart. Few really believe. The most only believe what they believe or even make-believe.

And I believed in him.

But.......

He lied to me.

He was never going to come back and didn't. 

They were right. Trusting humans gains you nothing but pain. And right now, I feel asphyxiated. Why did he have to lie to me? Why did he say he would come back?.

Why?.

Lies Lies Lies.

All were lies from the very beginning and I was too stupid to fall for them.

How could I allow that naughty kid to fool me? It is honestly humiliating. I feel gullible and naive.

I have questions running through my mind.

Should I just give up?

Should I just accept my rueful fate?

Should I let nature take course?.

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It is another day of despair and disconsolateness for me.

I should congratulate myself as a twenty-five years old ghost. I have always hated my form but here I am toasting to myself. The irony of Life.

"Incense sticks here...buy your incense stick"

"Hehehehehehehehe"

"Grandmother, I hope your soul rests in peace...look, I brought my sixth girlfriend along...say hello"

"Ghost, do not exist"

My face was crumpled by the voices. Another day of torment. If I must say, the worse day of my life is probably today. Padang Day (The day of the dead) - is a day, when families gather to honour and remember deceased loved ones. 

What's the point in feeling sad? I am used to all of it anyway. Maybe, my family didn't want to bother with me. Maybe I was not a nice kid back when I was still alive. All of this makes sense now. I was probably a delinquent.

"Why don't you accept Earth's proposal and let your heart go...I hate seeing you like this"

"Earth, we understand you are a bit different from the three of us but can you please free your mind?. Forget all of these ambitions and move on...Arthur is right, you should accept Earth's proposal. He really loves you"

"Do I look like I care?" I groaned and left.

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After the little argument with my friends, I regretted it because they weren't speaking with me. 

I am becoming selfish lately but what can I do? I feel pissed off at that boy. Maybe if he hadn't lied to me, maybe then this feeling wouldn't be destroying me. 

"Wait for me...hehe hehe hehe" I turned my gaze towards the merry voice and froze on the spot.

I didn't know why? But I ran after the familiar face.

I called out his name but he didn't seem to stop. He was running too fast and soon he left the cemetery. I called his name and sort to leave as well but the usual force pulled me back in.

"Pete" I called but the boy had already left. I grumbled in annoyance.

Isn't lying to me enough proof, I am not wanted at all. Why does my heart still lighten whenever I see him? Why do I still think of him? I want his name and face out of my mind, I want him out.

I don't want to hurt myself anymore.

Sadly, I dispersed from there, back to my tomb.

"Leave my head, please" I murmured painfully while grabbing my head in my palms.

"I want you out"

"Leave"

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"Just get out"

I am so tired.

"Really? You want me to leave"

My heart shook tremendously when I heard that familiar voice but...i won't fall for it. It could be my hallucination.

"I am back" The same voice cried. I tried my best not to look up but I just couldn't help it.

I raised my dejected face to the intruder and to my surprise it was the boy. The tormentor.

But something was wrong. Different. 

He was no longer that young boy anymore. The person in front of me was a teenage version of the boy. I dilated my eyes in pure shock.

"Earth" He called out my name with a broad smile.

He came back. He really did.