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Chapter 86: Pain & Tears

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Ava's POV

It felt like someone had suddenly yanked the band-aid off an old wound, and now the bruise was new.

Bleeding, stinging, festering, doing all the things it had once done, and the worst part —the pain was twice as bad as the first time.

I was younger then. A little alienated from the concept of the loss.

Everything I felt back then was merely the tip of the iceberg compared to how I felt at this moment.

The loss was big, like an ocean, and I fell straight into it.

The pain was raw and intense, cutting its way through every tendon in me. It was unbearable. My heart felt like it was being sliced open over and over again.

I heard the clock tick from where I sat on the rug. Time was going by, but I couldn't move. My ass felt glued to the earth, and my feet, as far as I knew, were liquid. I doubt I could support myself enough to stand, much less leave this place. I was feeble.

My chest was hurting so badly I could hardly breathe. Everything was painful.

Every fucking bit of me
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I hope she talks to Miguel before doing something foolish. That tape could be a fake.
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