5: My New Life

ELINNA

THREE MONTHS LATER

I sat down at the window, staring out. This time around, it had been three weeks. Three weeks since I last saw Carlisle. Three weeks since he had last locked me in this room and barred me from going out or speaking to anyone.

He didn't have a care in the world for me. And it bothered me. The man that I had married, the man that seemed to be my escape had suddenly turned out to be something else.

After our wedding night, he barely looked at my face. My dinner was served upstairs and when I asked why, the maid said that he had prohibited them from speaking to me.

It has to be something I did. It was probably because I had zoned out during the wedding.

But no, he just hated me. He would shout at me, curse at me and tell me how he didn't want to see my face anymore and how he had made a mistake in marrying me.

I don't know how we got here.

The door opened and I already knew who it was so I didn't even bother to look around.

“Don’t tell me you still haven't had breakfast.”

I sighed, hearing Lizzy, my assistant, walk around in the room. He had assigned Lizzy to me in the week of our marriage for her to run errands for me.

“What’s the whole point of eating when I'm not happy? I can't even look at the plate.”

I lost my appetite for food along time ago. He has stopped me from seeing my family and even my mum. Lizzy was the one who was helping me check on her and make sure that she's doing well.

“The whole point is that you're sick and you need to eat. I stopped by the pharmacy to get you some drugs.”

I collected the bag from her and walked back to the bed to eat. I felt nauseous just from looking at the plate.

“Elinna, you can't continue like this. it's been only three months and see what he has made you.”

I gave her a look..she knew better than to talk about him like that. What if he was around and he heard her?

“What do you want me to do? Run away?”

She was silent..

“No. Forget it. Just forget it.”

She came to sit beside me.

“What do you mean no? Cbat you see what he's doing? He doesn't care, he treats you like an object, he doesn't come to see you except to have sex with you. How long will you continue? He's my boss but that man is a beast.”

I acted like I didn't hear her and kept forcing the food down my throat.

“You are better than this, Elinna. You're not house furniture. You have the chance to leave him and you're going to take it.”

Leave him?

If there was anything that I could do, it surely wasn't that. My father had made sure that promised not to embarrass him in this marriage and talks of divorce would certainly get to him. I don't even know what he would do to me.

“Listen, it's not that easy. He's the one taking care of the bills of my family. He pays my mother's hospital bills which my father abandoned. Why do you think I agreed to this marriage? Because I wanted to be Lycan Queen?”

Being Queen hadn't been part of the package. I hadn't been treated like that for once in my life.

She placed her hand on my shoulder.

“Look into the bag I gave you.”

I pulled out the drugs and then the pregnancy test.

“What is this?”

“I want you to take it. I think you're pregnant.”

Pregnant. That would explain it. The fatigue, soreness, loss of appetite, everything that I thought was wrong with me.

I stood up immediately and walked in to the bathroom and did my business.

I brought the stick out and placed it on the table, while my heart was beating in my chest.

What if it's positive? That means I'm pregnant. I'm not ready to be a mother.

“If that test is positive, it means you're pregnant..is this what you want to bring your baby into? This pain and suffering? He's not even treating you right. How will he treat the baby right?”

I wouldn't want to raise a child that he would hate. And I don't want my baby to think they're not loved. I would hate for that to happen.

But how do I leave a man that has taken over my life?

“But how would I leave? There is no way-”

My eyes caught the stick and saw the lines. There were two lines on it.

I am pregnant. I was carrying Carlisle's baby in me. The man who didn't give me, who didn't give me the time of day.

I sat down on the bed as my legs felt weak.

Lizzy left the table and came to sit beside me.

“Do you see what I'm saying now? You have to run for your dear life. He will not care that you're pregnant. I can't let you stay here and.have this baby. You have yourself, your baby and your mother to think about.”

The tears fell from my eyes.

“But where will I go? I can't leave my mother. I don't know what they will do to her. Besides,I don't have anywhere else to go.”

Why did things always turn out like this for me? She pulled me into her chest.

“Don’t worry. I'll take care of all that. I will make sure that your mother is well taken care of. All you need to do is tell me that you will leave. And I will make arrangements.”

At this point, I didn't have a choice. He had turned me into a trophy that he kept at home, locked up in this room that he only remembered when he needed sex. I hated what he turned me into.

I cleaned my tears and looked at her

“Okay, I'll leave him.”