Chapter -1

Pallavi

Sunsets is the most beautiful scenery. It says, When the Sun sets, he took everyone's misery with him and When the Sunrises, he gave everyone a new hope to start new day with more positive attitude and more opportunity. But Today Sun won't set alone because i'll accompany him. Today i'll end my misery or should i say my parents misery that is me.

Thankfully, no one is here. Slowly slowly the waves were hiting my feet. As I am moving forward, the water is rising above my body from the bottom. That's it. Finally, my 24 years of life is getting it's end. Unlike Everyone i finally smile. My whole life is running like infront of my eyes like a movie.

Happiness and love.... This two words are unknown to me. It's like it does not belong to me. From the day i was born i didn't get the chance to feel this happy emotions. What are the most important things in life?? Friends and family. I don't have any of these. My biggest failure in my life that i couldn't prove my worth to my parents because of that they never showed any kind of love or respect to me.

I am girl who has seen only ignorance and pain all my life. I was always an undesired child of my parents. They never wanted me because i was not boy. I have been continuously told since childhood that i'm the biggest disappointment in their life. No matter how hard i tried, they never find me worthy of their love and support.

My parents always told me these things repeatedly that not only i bring disappointment to them after my birth as girl but also they feel ashamed of me because of my appearance.

Is it my fault that i was born as a girl?? Is it my fault that i don't have fair skin?? Is it my fault that i'm little Chubby??

These are questions i always ask myself because my mother never failed to remind me this part everyday. Due to their constant taunts i became introvert child. I feel very awkward with people, i don't know how to communicate with them. My parents rarely took me to family function or gathering. I always get embarrassed in this kind of parties as they think i'm a disgrace to my family. So, i stopped attending them anymore.

Papa always say, it would have been better if my mom didn't conceive rather than me born as a girl. And today i am fulfilling their wish by giving up my life for their happiness.

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Raghav

Like every other day, today also i came for my running in my favourite place. I don't know why this place gives me an unknown peace. After running for sometime, i sat on a big rock near the shore.

Sitting there i started thinking about my life. For me, my family is everything. My parents, my sister and my friends are the one who make me the person i'm today. Without them i'm nothing, specially my sister. I don't want to break my small and happy family. That's why i have been ignoring this Marrige topic since last 2 years.

But yesterday, My sister Ravi asked me when will i settle down?? Well she's a doctor and living with her husband Prithvi who's also a doctor. I was reluctant to get her married to him as he was her senior and also i don't wanted to her to get marry to anyone. Alas, that idiot husband of her took her away from me.

But he love her like anything and that is the only reason i agree for their Marrige. Sometimes looking at them i also wanted to feel the same love, to be loved. But when i think about my parents, then the only aim i have is to make them happy and to able spend my time with them. I hate it when i see children's left their parents to be with their spouse. And i don't want that to happen in my life.

It's not like i'm a saint or something. I had a relationship. And just To be with her i left everything behind, just because she wanted to live separately. But when i saw my mother in the hospital bed, her whole body connecting with different wires it shook me to the core. Thinking that she got heart attack because of me, always make me sleepless.

From the childhood they took care of us and now when it's my responsibility i don't want to run from that. But my sister is also right They need someone who can fill our place to some extent. Because even if i don't want to separate from them but due to work i spend most of the time in office. Looking back at my Past relationship two questions are coming in my mind

Should i take the risk?? Should i give chance to Marrige??

Pondering over this questions when i was looking at sea waves then i saw a feminine figure. First i thought she was enjoying the waves that's why she was going ahead and looking at her i don't know why a small smile formed in my lips. But when I looked closely at her I found out she was not enjoying the waves rather going inside deeper. Realisation hit me.

Holy Crap!! Cursing loudly i run towards her to stop. Near the sea shore i removed my shoes and t-shirt and placing my phone and headphone on it, i again ran towards her. After swimming for sometime i finally able to catch her. With great difficulty I brought her to the shore.

I patted her checks but she was not responding at all. So i pressed her stomach and the excessive water that enter inside her system come out from her mouth. But still She didn't open her eyes. I took my phone and switch on the flashlight. And i come face to face with the most innocent face like my sister.

I called my sister and inform her about the situation. She told me to took her to the hospital. Without thinking anything i just cover her front with my t-shirt and picked up my things. Without wasting any time picking up her i ran towards my car.

Suddenly She started coughing badly, so i helped her to sit. But when i tried to rub her back, she flinched back. I asked her if she's okay, but the reply i get from her, make me too much angry. She asked me why did i save her?? Without any emotions.

''What?? Are you out of your mind??" I tried to speak calmly but ended up shouting at her.

''I..i..didn't ask..ask you...to save....me....me.'' She replied trembling.

''Looks like water didn't come out completely from your system, that's why you're talking rubbish. What were you thinking, huh?? when you are going inside the sea??'' When she didn't replied i again ask her

''Don't you have mouth?? Can't you speak when i'm asking you something?? Aaa....your boyfriend dumped you??'' In this question she look at me wide eye. So, my guess is correct.

''Does your life is joke to you?? Did you think about your family or anyone before deciding to end your life?? Is it so simple for you to die, huh?? Did you ever thought what they'll feel?? Just for a guy you decided to leave your mother who gave birth to you?? Your father who raised you with his hard earned money?? For a guy you decided to leave your parents.'' I shouted at her punching my car which caused me knuckles bleeding.

I didn't realised that i was looking at myself in her place. That unfortunate day was running infront of my eyes again. I didn't even realised that she started trembling due to my shouting. Closing my eyes, i took a deep breath and calm myself before turning towards her.

I don't know why looking at her and her tears my heart ache. When she look at me with her tearful eyes it held so much pain. I just wanted comfort her by hugging but i know i'm just a strange for her. So, i gave her my towel which i bought for me. She was hesitant at first but looking at me glaring at her she took it silently.

I saw a small tea vendor in the opposite side of the road. I know she must be feeling cold, so without asking her i went towards the vendor and brought two cups of tea for us. I held the cup infront of her eyes. But she was continuously looking at my hand before speaking

''Your...your ha...hand...''