The first day of Senior Year started off different from any other. Normally, I would jump in the car with Kye, we'd laugh and sing to the radio, then part to reach our lockers which were on opposite sides of the school. However, this time there was an air of awkward silence as if both of us were holding our breaths, scared of the truths that might be offered up had we not.
"Hi…" I muttered as I sat in the passenger's seat.
"Hey…" He murmured back, his face erased of all of the happiness and joy that he was known for.
"I… I'm sorry…" I said shyly, biting down on my lip. He just closed his eyes and stared the engine in silence. I wasn't sure how long we drove before he broke the veil of awkwardness that had been set upon us.
"Why…" He said almost inaudibly, his voice hoarse and frail.
"I need some time to think," I said quickly, hoping to get myself more time to understand the whole situation. He didn't say another word about the night before, instead we drove in silence. I hoped that this meant he was okay with giving me some time; I felt really bad about it all, I did but I just couldn't let myself say those words back and that scared me. We pulled up to the school, getting out of the car in silence.
"I'll wait for you, you're worth it. Just… don't make it too long, okay?" The boy said, giving me the first grin since the night before. I smiled back, placing a soft kiss on his cheek.
"I won't. I promise." A promise was something of large significance to me. A promise wasn't just a string of words that determine whether something may or may not happen. A promise was fragile and sacred, like an ancient building that no one could bring themselves to destroy. A promise, for me, meant more than a thousand words. Kye knew this, nodding and running his hand up my jawline.
"See you soon…" He said slowly before pulling his bag up onto his shoulders and turning to leave me, standing alone in front of the car.
May and Brie were stood by their lockers, barely metres behind my own, waiting for me. I put in the combination and swung the door open, turning to face them.
"Morning!" I smiled, trying the hide my nerves from the morning. I sub-consciously reached into the locker for my books as they smiled back cheerfully. Swinging the door shut, I turned to walk towards them.
Bang!
My forehead smacked into an object in front of me and I helplessly tumbled to the floor.
It wasn't unusual for me to be clumsy. May always used to joke that I would find a way to fall over any place we go. What made this fall different from any other, was because I met her. A girl lay centimetres from me clutching her head, books scattered on the floor around her. When I first saw her, I wasn't even conscious of what I was thinking. I just couldn't take my eyes off her. Her thick auburn hair was cut short, hanging just a centimetre above her shoulders, her eyes a light green shade- slightly blue. Everything about her was perfect. And even as she smiled at me apologetically, I couldn't find a single flaw. Realising I was staring, I glanced down quickly, frantically snatching up all the books.
"I'm so sorry. I wasn't looking." I stuttered, the words bouncing around incoherently in my brain. She smiled at me causing a tingly sensation to trickle down my spine.
"No, it was me. I wasn't looking either." She exclaimed cheerfully, taking her books from my outstretched arms. In that one second, our faces were only inches apart. Another strange feeling ran through my veins. I was shaking- my legs feeling like they had turned into jelly. I couldn't get up- my body wouldn't allow it. I just watched as she rose, offering me her hand. My nerves relaxed a little as my hand slipped into hers and my blood started to bubble. That feeling, like when you first sit on a rollercoaster, was coursing vigorously through my veins. I could barely breathe. At the time I blamed it on the hit to my head. In hindsight, I'm pretty much sure it wasn't.
"Thanks," I murmured. Trying to find something to do with the arm that had just fallen from her grasp. I probably looked like an idiot, flailing my arm up and down. She smiled again sending yet another chill through my blood.
"I've got to go but I'll see you around." She lit up the world with that smile. I just nodded and felt the sudden pain as my teeth dug into my lip. Then she was gone, and I was left feeling like an idiot. May raised her eyebrows at me wearily,
"What was that?" she asked curiously. What that had been, I didn't know at the time. I didn't know how much pain and happiness that one moment would cause me. I just shook my head,
"I've got double music; I'll meet you in the library after." I said. She nodded cautiously at this statement and, wrapping her arm around Brie's, smiled and walked past me into the theatre, her long black hair swishing gracefully behind her.
Music. The one subject I love more than anything; I was the only one taking a music SAT, hoping to get into MSM the next year. My only other option was Berklee which was around forty minutes from my house however, for as long as I can remember, I had wanted live in New York- the centre of it all. And although I really did enjoy living in a small town in Massachusetts- I’d never wanted to stay here. I wanted to put myself out there, get seen, recognised.
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I never expected Thalia to be there. There had never been anyone I knew in my music classes. Not that I knew her. There had never been anyone that I wanted to get to know in my class. I never really minded; the music had always been enough for me. She was sat in the middle row, beckoning me over the chair beside her. Our music class had always been laid out in a weird way; it was carpeted, and 3 rows of desks faced a whiteboard on the left side. Then you had the actual music rooms stationed behind it. Enough room for 5 groups to practise at once. I calmed myself, sitting slowly into the seat beside her just as Mr Wood began to speak.
"Welcome Seniors. So, this year is serious for you guys and I know some of you have big aspirations for college." He looked over at me, jokingly and I rolled my eyes. A habit. "Anyway, I thought we could start the year in a more relaxed way. I am giving you lot complete freedom to create whatever piece of music you want under one very small condition. You must work together with a partner, combining your personalities into a piece that showcases both of yourselves as a whole. I suggest picking someone you think you might connect with to make it easier for you. That's all from me. Go, create!" As he said the last part, he waved his arms in the air allowing us to start.
Normally I would have been worried about the partner thing but this time I just turned to my side and offered a hand,
"I'm Melody, but everyone calls me Mel, you?" I blurted fairly confidently which even surprised me.
"Thalia. And I'm guessing you want to do this project together." She smiled, making the lights in the room shine a little brighter. I nodded, popping out of the chair a little too enthusiastically, grabbing a guitar off the rack and walking into the room in the far corner.
"So… did you move here this year?" I asked as we sat down in the studio."Yeah… my mum got remarried this summer and we moved here from Manhattan…" She replied, smiling slightly."What do you think? Must be really different…" I questioned as I positioned the guitar under my arm."It is… quieter and… calmer…" She seemed to linger on the words, intertwining her fingers in her lap. There was a moment of silence, the air filling with tension. I wanted to say something- comfort her. I just… couldn't. Although I had grown my confidence over these past few years, I was still quite a closed-off person. I normally kept to myself but something about the allure of this girl made me want to open up to her- to tell her all my secrets.
"Kye. Is he your... boyfriend?" Thalia asked as we sat in the music room the next day. It seemed to be the only time we could spend together without the others around. I did love them all but sometimes it was too much. I nodded, pulling out the notes we'd made last time."You look happy together." I looked up at her, narrowing my eyes,
School had been hell that day. There was just so much going in my head and once I got home, I just seemed to collapse onto the bed. My heart had been racing, my brow sweaty and my head boiling with all these thoughts. I just wished I could find a way to just shut them all out. I turned my playlist on and turned the phone up to full volume, lying flat on my bed. I do this sometimes. When I get so caught up in life, I take a minute to just sit and calm myself. Just worry about nothing. However, this time it didn't work. I didn't understand why I was so upset. I just was. Every part of me felt broken and damaged yet, this past week, my life had been the best it ever had. So why was I feeling like this?
I mean, don't get me wrong, I was worried, but she said she didn't want to talk so I didn't push it. I should've. We did have fun that weekend. First, we saw Lion King in the cinema then we went for dinner at McDonald's. After, all of us being pretty stuffed, we decided against bowling and went back to May's instead for a sleepover."Hey… let’s play truth or dare!" May said, turning around to us. I smiled as we moved to form a circle, May taking a bite of the chocolate bar in her hand. Brie used the moment to her advantage,
Once everyone had woken up on Sunday, we had picked up Ali and taken her bowling with us. After we had parted ways, most of us wanted to get a fairly early night because of school the next day.Kye was quite quiet the next morning. He had driven up to the house in his car, ready to pick me up, however, had not gotten out of the car as usual. Instead, he sat, parked up outside and sent me a text.
My eyes fluttered open and I took in my surroundings. I was home. You know when you have stared at one thing for so long that you just instantly know when you come across it again? It was like that. That one patch of off-tone white on my ceiling told me everything I needed to know. I sat up, my head groggy and clouded by a layer of dust and placed my head in my hands, sighing. After a few seconds, I noticed how strangely bright it is outside and reach over wearily to pick up my phone from where I'd previously spotted it on my bedside table. The screen blared and my eyes began to sting. I closed them and opened them again, hearing an unusual silence echo through the house.
At the soft knock on the door, I heaved my weak limbs off my bed, my legs tingling as I placed them on the floor. I hadn't walked for at least a day and a half. As I walked, I started to get my pace back, the nerves in my brain once again strengthening their loose connections. The stairs creaked under my weight, the anticipation building with every step I took. Opening the door, I admired the face I'd longed to see for the past two days (Asleep or not). She was breathtaking. Her stunning auburn hair, curled loosely, hanging just above her shoulders and her forest green eyes mixed with a tinge of light blue, once again sent me to another realm. Then, I found my gaze lowering to her lips. I let every thought flood
I watched her from across the table. I watched the tears form in her eyes. I watched the expression on my mom's face turn to worry. I couldn't do anything. I felt so helpless. All I wanted to do was hug Thalia and tell her everything would be okay. She recited story after story of her home life. Broken glass; shed tears. The days she was beaten, the days sat in fear that her dad wouldn't come home and the days she thought they wouldn't even be able to pay rent. When she finished her story, she broke into a fit of sobs. In response, I placed my hand on her shoulder and she leant into my touch.
The world is a winding puzzle full of different stories and experiences. Full of people fated to die young and others fated to change the world. But sometimes, a person stumbles into the wrong thing, a person, a thing, a small object with the ability to change worlds. And, on occasion, the roles are switched. Because nothing is fixed. The world can separate people. In the world, we are living in especially. There's so much noise, so many people begging to get their voice heard. So many screams. So many yells for freedom. And those yells echo across the universe; they bounce off every wall in the galaxy until things change and suddenly the yell is one of a different message.
Mel's POV"What's that one...?" I murmured into the air. It was the night after graduation, Thalia and I were curled up next to each other on her back porch looking up at the stars. I pulled the duvet closer to my chest, shivering in the bitter air.
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4 Months Later- Mel's POVHave you ever experienced a moment where everything seems so perfect that you could live there for the rest of your life? Like, at any time, just close your eyes and do right back to that one moment. And suddenly you feel safe again, wrapped in the soft embrace of those few perfect seconds. That wasn't just a moment for me, it was a person- one person who could instantly make me feel as if I were floating o
Thalia's POVI pressed my head further into my hands, my breath picking up. Quicker and quicker, I felt the cold air rush through my lungs, begging to enter my blood. This can't be happening... But it was. It was all happening at once- the loud noises echoing in my head, the soft crack as my heart began to split in two. I was breaking, every bone in my body shaking with the relapse of emotion that had just been struck upon me. I felt it pushing against me, crushing me under its abnormal weight. I tried. I tried so hard to beat it. But, as the water fell in streams from my eyes I felt a soft release in my chest and my world came tumbling down.***They say that the night is when you feel the most. When there are no more distractions. No background noise, nothing to distract you from the thoughts lurking inside of your head, aching to claw their way out. It's the time you are alone, with no one to guide you through the darkness inside your own head. For me, it was never quiet, there was