Getting to school Tan doesn't expect Lin to be waiting at their locker with morning coffees and she wasn't, he hasn't slept all night. Somehow if everyone could forget how weird he's been acting it would help. His best friend is probably going to take his other best friends away and the only other person he had, he can't look in the eyes without wanting to kill himself."Tanner" he hears the principal behind him as he drags himself to class looking like a pile of dirty laundry with bed head."Yes Principal Taylor" he turns aroundShe notices his state but doesn't question or comment, "I need you to sit in on the prom committee meeting today during advisory."He sighs "but that's my free period I was going to take a nap in the library""Excuse me?" Her tone changesHe laughs nervously "whaaaaat I don't nap in the library I'm just kidding PT""Meeting today at 1 will you go?""Of course anything for my favorite principal" Tan tries to be cute but she doesn't buy it and walks away. He dr
It's lunch and Tan rushes to his friends, well Erica and Ronnie. Sitting across from them at the table he says "Sven just told me he wants to be with me and I need you guys to talk me into doing it." He wants to be with Sven but Harris is hanging over his head. How do you get your cake and eat it too?"Just be with him, it's not that hard" Erica replies"Ok but what if there's a third person in the picture? Say Sven had someone else he really cares about and doesn't want to hurt, but he really likes me too. Do you guys think he should stay faithful to the other person or...""Are you asking us if you should be Sven's side bitch?" Erica asks"Tan, what's wrong with you?" Ronnie and Erica obviously don't agree"Ok when you put it like that it sounds bad""Anyway you put it, it'll sound bad Tan! If he's seeing someone else then he shouldn't be coming on to you""Fair enough." Now Tan really doesn't know what to do, his morals are telling him no, his friends are telling him no so the answ
"Fuck!" Shiela rushes down the hall as Tan eats his bagel "why didn't you wake me up?" She sees him dressed and ready for school"You didn't ask me to""Well we're running late and I have a meeting in 20 minutes""Responsibilities am I right?" Tan jokes as his mother collects her stuff and looks for her keys"Can I trust you to get to school by yourself?" She looks over at him sitting at the counter eating his bagel and drinking his orange juice."Yes mother I'm not a child""All right I'll probably be working late so your father will pick you up, make sure you eat dinner Tanner!" she leaves shutting the door.Getting a better idea Tan picks up his phone calling Sven, Not expecting him to pick up Tan's eyes grow when he hears "Hey""Hi didn't think you would answer""Why wouldn't I?""You're mad at me and are ignoring me""Do you need me for something Tan? I'm about to drive to school" Tan called as he was climbing in the car"That's why I was calling, I need a ride to school and was
"It's a park?" Tan question as Sven parks the car"Basketball court" Sven corrects him. "I like to play basketball here sometimes but I haven't been in awhile. I thought maybe you and I can play for a little bit""You want me to play basketball? Sven, I can't even hold a ball longer than 30 seconds without it somehow falling through my hands, look at my hands!" He holds them outSven smiles "they're cute""They're small" he puts them down.Sven gets out of the car and opens the back seat grabbing his ball, "come on Tan" he says to Tan who's still sitting in the car."I'm gonna embarrass you" Tan walks behind him"There's no one else on the court so we're good""You're gonna regret those words."They both walk on the court and Sven pulls Tan to where the hoop is, "how about we start with just some free throws that's pretty easy." He hands Tan the ball standing him a small distance away from the basket"I don't know what that means"Sven laughs "just make some shots Tan that's all it is
After having breakfast together the boys reside on Tan's couch and Tan lays on top of Sven, they're watching tv while they cuddle.Tan's phone rings on the coffee table and Sven reaches it and hands it to him, he answers the call "Hey, Ron""Hey Boobs hope you're ready Erica and I are on our way"Confused Tan asks "ready for what?""Yoga? 11:30 remember? It was your idea""Fuck" he whispers pulling the phone from his face"What's up?" Sven asks whispering"Umm I kinda made plans with my friends to go to yoga today and I totally forgot""That's ok I can head home" he sits up"No, I don't want that" putting the phone back to his ear "hey Ron am I on speaker?""Yep""Hey, Tan!" Erica greets on speaker phone"Hey, listen I'm in for yoga but there's a slight change of plans""Change?" Erica asks"Yeah umm Sven's joining us," he says"Tanner Milton!" Ronnie barks"What the fuck Tan?!" Erica yells at him "why is he coming to our yoga class?""Because I completely forgot about yoga and what's
"Are you ready?" Shiela walks into Tan's room as he ties his shoes"To go to therapy for no reason? Yep""Be sarcastic all you want Tan but you're father and I could've easily gotten a divorce, that would be worst.""For who?!" Tan stands up facing his mother "I'm only doing this so I won't have to fight with you guys about not wanting to do this. You and dad are doing this to waste everyone's time." Tan walks out, going to the car he gets in the back seat and crosses his arms waiting for his parents.Scott gets in the driver seat and Shiela in the passenger "Tan when we get there can you not embarrass us please?" Scott drives away "I said please""I wouldn't dream of it.""Just be honest and it'll all be ok" Shiela turns back at him smiling"Yep.""Welcome Milton Family, why don't we go around and introduce ourselves? I'll start" Tan and his parents get to the therapists and they sit down to meet her. "I'm Doctor Jacquelyn Dwyer but my patients call me Jackie," She turns to her left
The next morning Tan sits in the car with his mother avoiding eye contact. "Your father and I love each other" Shiela starts talking as she drives "I know you told the therapist you want us to get a divorce-""I've also told you guys a thousand times""But that's not what we want, Tan""That makes no sense to me!" he yells turning to her "all you ever do is fight! Every single day, no matter what time or where we are you guys find a reason to fight. Don't you hate each other-""We don't hate each other Tanner your father and I love each other""Then you have a funny fucking way of showing it""Watch your language.""Yep," he leans back in his seat crossing his arms."We're going to learn how to be good parents, Tanner" his mom's voice gets softer."Do you understand how sad it is to hear you say that? I'm 17 mom, you guys had 17 years to be good parents but weren't and you want to try now? Kinda too late""We were young when we had you Tan" she gets into the drop off lane "Scott was
Kissing on the bed with Sven hovering over him, Tan starts to unbutton Sven's shirt "you look so cute" Sven caresses his face.Tan giggles "shut up you're gonna make me blush"They kiss grinding on each other shirtless, they didn't make a peep but the tension between them filled the room. Making out as they roll back and forth on Sven's bed, the boys catch glimpses of each other and chuckle making each other turn red in the cheeks even more.Tan lays in Sven's arm as Sven plays with his hair and gives him comforting kisses on the face "do you really want to meet my parents?" Tan asks looking up at Sven"Yes and I also want to tell them to their faces to fuck off and realize how amazing their son is" they both chuckle "but I'll settle for just meeting them."Sighing knowing he'll probably regret this "ok you can meet them"Sven grins "yeah?"Tan nods "the night after we went to therapy my mom gave me my camera back, she said that she's willing to try so I have to try too, right? She as
Still, without a way to contact Damien, I sit in my room impatiently waiting, leaving the window open for him I sit at my desk trying to do homework but failing miserably. I just got him back for 2 seconds and it's been 5 hours since I saw him. What the fuck else could've happened between then and now? Getting up I walk out of my room heading to the kitchen for a drink, staring at my phone as I walk around my house I'm almost to the kitchen when the doorbell goes off. "I'll get it" I reply being the closest to the door, walking over I turn the knob and freeze. Damien smiles as soon as he sees my face, "what are you doing?" I ask in a lowered voice "Is this not ok?" He asks walking in, "really wasn't in the mood to climb the tree""I-" "Who's at the door Ewan?" my mom comes from the kitchen asking. Stopping when she sees Damien and I standing there, "oh" this is happening way too fucking fast! Realizing I'm not going to say anything Damien walks to my mom, "Hi Mrs. Basilton my name
It's been rough I'm not going to lie, yes I know the truth now and sure I should be calm but I think I'm more worried than I was before. The thought of Damien in foster care scares me, and he might never come back, what if they make him switch schools? And I know he can't contact anyone who isn't family, but I just want to hear his voice, I need to know how he really is. Jaded and checked out of class I sit there but my mind is elsewhere. "Baz?" I hear the faint sound of my name but I'm too far dazed to focus on it. "Baz!" The person barks and I jump to find my teacher standing in front of me, realizing I'm sitting in English lit, I shift in my seat trying to make it seem as if I've been paying attention, and my teacher says "you need to focus Baz." "Sorry," I sit up straight."Now," she starts as she walks back to the front of the class, "Amber said that she thinks Ulysses' dream is the main symbol that moves the story, do you agree Baz?" I don't need to focus to tell her how wrong
Do it! Just do it Baz, this isn't about you or her, it's about Damien and you need to know where he is. No one else can tell me besides Eddie, and since he'll never say 2 words to me, my best bet is to make Silver ask him for me. Knowing her schedule as if it were my own, I wait outside her social studies class before lunch, when it's finally done everyone starts walking out and I don't see her until everyone's gone and she's the only one left still packing up. Walking in as the teacher leaves, the door shuts and we're alone. Throwing her bag over her shoulder, Silver doesn't see me until she turns Looking around she realizes we're alone "hi," she smiles even though I'm maintaining a straight face."I need help and I can't really go to anyone else with this" "Okay" "That's the only reason I'm coming to you nothing else" "I understand" "Seriously I mean it this isn't me giving you another chance, or thinking about it. Me talking to you is purely circumstantial." "I get it Baz,"
"I don't know I heard it was a fight," "A fight? With who?" "Not really a fight more like he got jumped by guys from Mesa High.""Damien got jumped?" I eavesdrop on the girls sitting at the lunch table behind me Turning around I ask, "are you guys talking about Damien Allen?" They nod, "who told you he got jumped?" One of them answers "some girls from the cheer team," of course, there are no bigger gossips in this school than the fucking cheer team. It's Tuesday and still not a single word from Damien, yesterday I was pissed but now I'm kind of worried 'You got jumped are you ok?' Why am I even bothering he's not going to answer. What the fuck am I supposed to do? Go to his house? Oh my god, should I go to his house? No that's crazy I can't just show up to his house if he's ignoring me. You did it before idiot... but that was different something is clearly wrong, and if it's not with us then it has to be with him. I'm not going to believe he got jumped until I talk to him thoug
"Ewan?" I hear my mom's voice as she softly knocks on my door "are you awake?" "I am now" I answer opening my eyes, Sticking her head in with a smile "good morning" "Morning" I reply "Dad and I are going out for breakfast and maybe go to the museum, would you like to join us?" "Um," I think about it and answer "sure I'm not doing anything better" "Great!" She grins "we're leaving in 10 so go brush your teeth and get dressed" She walks out and I sit up yawning, getting up I check the time on my phone it's almost 10. Leaving my room I walk to the bathroom picking up my toothbrush, as I'm brushing my teeth the doorbell goes off and I wonder who it could be. Not minding it I continue brushing After a minute I hear my mom call "Ewan!" "What?!" I shout back from the bathroom "Someone's here for you" me? Who the hell could that be? Rinsing my mouth I walk out of the bathroom going to the door to find Damien standing there with my mom behind him shutting the door. I stare at him st
"HOLY SHIT I WON!" I jump out of the chair throwing my controller down "I WON! OH MY GOD!" Jumping up and down I don't focus on the scream "YESSSSSS" I cheer hopping around my room "What's going on?" My mom opens my bedroom door confused by the screaming, "why all the yelling?" "Mom" I rush to her grabbing her hand pulling her to my desktop "look! I've been playing this online tournament for the last 5 weeks and I actually won! Against like a bunch of people" I explain while showing her the screen Reading the popup because I'm too distracted to do it, she says "well it says here you have to call that number since you're the winner, have you called?" "What no I was too busy winning!" I can't believe I fucking won and the only person I can tell is my mom who doesn't give 2 shits about video games."Well is there a prize" As I open my mouth about to answer I stop, I don't know how they'll react when they hear about the money. I shouldn't tell them until I actually have the money, rig
Days later...Walking out of the bathroom my mom catches me before I make it to my room, "hey honey" she stops me in the hall by standing in front of me. "How was your date with the college boy?" "It wasn't a date mom just coffee after school" "I know but how'd it go? Meeting for the first time, what'd you guys even talk about?" "Um he mostly talked but it was fine" "Think you'll go out again?" I shrug "maybe" then walk past her. Heading for my room my heart stops the moment I walk in "Jesus!" I jump seeing Damien just standing there. "You have to at least text me you're coming I'm too young for a heart attack" "You actually went out with that girl's brother?" He asks ignoring my comment "You say actually like I wasn't supposed to" "No just surprised didn't think you'd do it," why because you give me everything I want and need, so I don't have to go find it from someone else? "Well I did and it was fun, he actually invited me to a party this weekend and best part he lives alo
Here's a synopsis of my weekend, after blocking Silver everywhere she showed up to my house multiple times begging to talk to me, but I already told my parents not to let her in. Deciding to climb the tree she tries to come in through the window, but I locked it and ignored her, I haven't said a word to her yet because I'm not even sure what I want to say. I'm tired of her betraying me and I know for a fact that I'm completely done with her, the problem is convincing her of that. Monday morning I walk into school unprepared to see either of them, it feels like I'm going to spend the rest of my high school life avoiding these people. It'll be hard staying away from Silver because she knows all of my hideouts, and wouldn't you believe I see her standing at my locker waiting. Groaning I turn before she sees me and just go to class without my books. "Good morning class" my teacher starts, "before we get started why don't you guys pass up your homework so I can collect them," everyone st
Hearing the doorbell I sigh relieved heading towards it, as soon as I open the door Silver gasps "oh my god!" Her jaw drops and she grins "you look so good Baz!" "You too" "Oh I know" she walks in, "if this dress doesn't get me the attention I want tonight I'm gonna set it on fire.""Hurry and let's go before-""Picture time!" My mom walks to us holding her phone, "oh my god you guys look so cute get close""Mom we have to go we're going to be late" I roll my eyes annoyed, she's been doing this since I got dressed."Just one picture please it's not every day I get to see my son going to homecoming," yeah and it'll never happen again. I know what you're thinking, why would I ever agree to Silver's stupid ass plan? It won't work and I'm just wasting my time, well it's not much of a waste when you have nothing but time, and I'm tired of sitting around I need to start making shit happen and this is how. At least that's how Silver put it when she explained her plan. "Trust me there's n