Alex's pov
I'm fucking livid. It was enough that Stacey was talking shit to Emma about me but to attack her, to call her fat? I don't agree with hurting women but Fuck It took everything I had to hold me and Nate back.
I pull Emma along to my room and straight into the bathroom, she hasn't said a word since it happened but I have a feeling that it's affected her. I grip her hips and hoist her up onto the sink unit before I hock a finger under her chin and lift her head up so I can take a better look at her lip.
"It doesn't need stitches, I'll clean it up and it should be healed in a few hours." She nods her head and a single tear slides down her cheek, I wipe it away with my thumb but soon more are pouring out of her eyes and it's killing me.
She doesn't say a word as she hops off the unit and walks out of my bathroom and straight out the bedroom door. I want to call after her, I want to hug her until she stops crying, I want to take her pain away and I want to bring Jay back and make him suffer all over again but I can't.
I wish I knew how to help her but I'm at a loss and I'm worried that she's losing herself but more than that I'm worried that I'm losing her. I know now's not the time to think about any future with Emma but I can't help it, I've wanted it since the moment I met her and I'm worried more than anything that she won't want it, won't want me. Instead of running after her, I decided to give her some time to herself, I'll take a shower and then go check on her.
20 minutes later I'm showered and feel more relaxed not that Emma has left my mind even for a moment. When I've only got my boxers, socks and jeans on I get distracted by my bedroom door opening, hoping it's Emma I quickly leave my closest but I'm greeted with the unpleasant sight of Stacey laying naked on my bed and I'm instantly pissed.
"Stacey, what are you doing here? why aren't you with the doc?" she has a cocky smirk on her face and it honestly makes me want to throw up, fuck this girl grates on me!
"do you really think someone like Emma can keep me down for long?" I feel my temper rise but I bite my tongue and try to remember the manners I was raised with.
"Stacey, how many times are you going to do this?" this has happened many times since I've been here but more than ever since Jay died, I don't know if she's realised that I like Emma or not but she has definitely upped her game since it all happened.
"as many times as it takes for you to realise it's what you want Beta Alex!" her purring tone makes me want to throw up and throw her out of my room.
"I'm not a Beta anymore and there's nothing for me to realise Stacey, I've told you more than once that we aren't going to happen and I'm not going to change my mind so why don't you concentrate on hoping you get a second chance mate and leave me alone!"
"huh, how did-"
"I've known since I first come here about you rejecting your first mate and the reasons for it and believe me when I say it doesn't make me think any good of you, now get out of my room and don't let this happen again Stacey I fucking mean it!"
My voice has risen along with my anger, my tone leaving no room for argument and thankfully she quickly realises I'm not messing. She gets dressed and leaves without saying a word and I'm instantly relieved until I see she's left her jacket on the bed, I don't know if she's left it behind on purpose for an excise to come back or if it's just an accident but either way I don't want it here.
I quickly run after her but the moment I open my door and call out to her I want the ground to open up and swallow me. Standing only a few feet away I see Emma and for a moment she looks so sad before she masks it up, plasters on a smile that I know is fake and walks away in the opposite direction of my room, FUCK!
Emma's pov
I take a long hot shower, the water is so hot it's burning my skin but I'm too fucking angry to even realise, of all people I let Stacey get to me. I let her stupid fucking comment remind me of Jay and pull me down into the darkness and I completely blanked Alex after he helped me yet again. I didn't even say goodbye to him, I just walked away from him, fuck I'm a bitch.
Well, I've had enough! It's time to be me again, Emma the top warrior of the blue lake pack. No more tears for the prick who didn't give a fuck about me, no more sadness over what he has done or what he called me. I'm stronger than that, stronger than him, he's dead and he can't hurt me anymore.
But by living how I am I'm still letting him win but not anymore it's time to take back control and with that, it's also time to find out how Alex really feels about me, even if he only wants me as a friend I need to know. I need to start living my life again and moving forward and if my instinct is right Alex will be a part of that.
While I still have my courage I quickly throw on a black knee-length wool dress, black tights and black ankle boots. I leave my long blonde hair hanging down my back then add some mascara and lipgloss and then I head straight for Alex's room before I can talk myself out of it.
I'm soon on his floor but the moment I turn around the corner to get to his room I instantly regret ever leaving my room as I literally bump into none other than fucking Stacey. We both step back but I'm not going to let her drag me into another argument so I step to the side intending to let her past but of course this is Stacey and she never wants any peace in life.
She moves to the side so that she's now standing back in front of me causing Zoe to start snarling and growling in my head wanting to tear her throat out.
"get out of the way Stacey!" She gives me her perfected snake grin before stepping forward until we are practically touching and leans in towards my ear making me want to grip her by her throat and break her fucking neck.
"I'm only going to say this once so listen up bitch! you made a big mistake fucking with me you stupid Omega, Just because you don't like the truth you attack me. It's not my fault you can't stand the truth and it's not my fault that it's me Alex wants and not you!"
"you really are fucking bat shit crazy!" I'm laughing so hard I can barely get my words out.
"Yeah, well if that's true then why have I just come from Alex's room where he has made love to me, told me he loves me and has officially made me his chosen mate." the shit that falls out of this girls mouth just keeps getting better and better.
"oh fuck off Stacey, your so desperate that I'm actually starting to feel sorry for you!"
"believe what you want Emma, Alex has just told me he was fighting it because he knows you like him and he doesn't want to hurt your feelings but it's me he wants, it's me he loves. If you don't believe me then go ahead and let yourself into his bedroom where you'll find my jacket on his bed and my panties underneath it." she winks at me with her twisted grin and I want to slap it off her.
"Stacey, you left your jacket here!" before I can say anymore the door to Alex's bedroom opens and he walks out shirtless carrying her jacket and I literally feel my heart split in two. I mask my hurt and hope neither of them has seen it, my throats dry and I know if I try and speak I will break down so I do the only thing I can at that moment I walk away, feeling lost and more than anything feeling heartbroken.
Alex's pov
"What the fuck have you done Stacey?" Emma knows how Stacey acts with me so for her to walk away with that crushing look on her face can only lead me to assume that Stacey has played this game of her's well.
"Nothing baby just told her some home truths that she needed to hear!"
"What did you tell her Stacey?" my anger is rising quicker than ever before while Nates banging fuck out of my head because I won't let him out.
"The truth baby, only the truth!" before I can say another word she blows me a kiss and walks off swaying her hips like she thinks it's my biggest turn on when in fact it just makes me want to throw up. FUCK!
I try to link Emma but it's not going through. I quickly run back into my room, throw on a tee-shirt and sneakers before grabbing my phone and heading out to find Emma. I've called and linked her so many times that I've lost count. She's already suffering and without knowing exactly what Stacey has said to her I can only imagine the worst. I need to find her and I need to find her now!
Emma's pov I quickly make my way through the packhouse, I don't want to run and bring attention to myself and I don't want to talk to anyone right now because if I do I don't think I'll be able to keep it inside anymore and I don't want anyone to know how stupid I've been, it hurts to even think about it. How the fuck could I get this so wrong? I was convinced Alex liked me, really liked me but I guess it was all in my head, fuck I'm stupid. Thankfully I manage to make it through the house without bumping into anyone which is a goddam miracle in its self as this place is never empty. Maybe the moon goddess is finally giving me a little break. I quickly head for the back of the packhouse and into the forest, soon arriving at my favourite place in the parklands. I just need some time alone right now and this is the best place for me to
Emma's pov This is my favourite place to go in the parklands, It's my own little paradise, somewhere I come often and very few know about it. I'm not sure how long I've been here but I've cried every last tear possible and I don't feel much better. My heart is breaking and I feel like a goddam fool, why would Alex want me? I'm broken and as much as Stacey is a bitch she is also incredibly pretty and much younger than me. "EMMA WHERE ARE YOU?" my dad's voice suddenly slams through my head, he's all Alpha and the hairs on the back of my neck instantly stand to attention "I'm at my garden dad, what's wrong?" the moment I stop linking my dad I pick up the scent of another wolf close by, the scents familiar and it doesn't take me long to realise whose scent it is but how is that possible? he's dead. I pray I'm imagining it but the scents only getting stronger as I can hear my dad's faint voice in my head but I don't register a word he is saying. M
Alex's pov It's only 9 am but I'm so ready for bed. I couldn't sleep even before Emma turned up in my room last night but after she left I had more chance of growing wings than getting any rest and now I'm paying for it. I still don't understand what the fuck happened last night, one minute we were getting ready to talk everything over and I was going to tell Emma how I feel then the next minute I'm left in the hallway watching the woman I love walk away while I'm left standing there holding panties, where the fuck did they even come from? "you look like shit!" "We can't all wake up looking as handsome as you now can we!" Noah's laughter fills the kitchen as he slaps me on the back before taking the seat next to me. "what's up brother? I take it you haven't sorted things with my sister yet?" if only. "no I haven't, she turned up at my room at 2 am this morning and agreed to talk but it didn't end well!" I roughly rub my eyes attempting t
Alex's pov The moment I hear Levi and Logan I feel a huge relief I've missed those guys and the fact that they have my back even though they don't know what's going on means so much to me and I'll make sure they know it. Stacey is instantly angry and I have to bite back the laugh that tries to spill out at the look on her face. "FINE! I set Alex up ok, I set you both up. The day I told you that my jacket and panties were in his room, I set it all up. While Alex was in the shower I snuck into his room, hid my panties under his bed as a gift for him and got naked. Of course, he continued to fight his feelings so when he made me leave I thought I would help him out and get you away from him by letting you know about the panties and I left my jacket there on purpose too, although I didn't plan on him bringing my jacket straight out to me so you can imagine my happiness when he did and it made the plan look all the more real!" "you fucking bitch!" Savannah s
Emma's pov I can't believe Alex told me he loves me, he's actually in love with me and hell if I don't feel like the luckiest she-wolf alive right now. I love him too but I didn't tell him, as much as I believe that he does in fact love me I'm still too scared to tell him how I feel, I will but just not yet. I don't want to mess this up, I don't want Alex to be a brief relationship, I want him for the long haul, chosen mate, marriage, children, everything. Before we had a chance to talk anymore my dad linked me to go and talk to him about what happened yesterday in the forest and Alex insisted he come with me, all this talk with Alex had made me forget about Jay but now everything that happened yesterday is flooding straight back to me and I fucking hate the feeling that it's given me. "you ok sweetheart?" I look up to catch Alex looking down at me with nothing but concern on his face and I realise we are outside my dad's office and I've been in a trance the
Emma's pov "I'm not bothered about doing anything em, after what Callum did, it doesn't feel right!" "your birthday has fuck all to do with Callum or what he did and I'm not going to say it again. Your 18 tomorrow Emily it's a huge birthday, you may even find your mate and we're not letting it pass by without celebrating, end of discussion!" I arranged for Emily and me to be paired during training this morning so I could talk her into celebrating her 18th birthday tomorrow, it was a favour to Savannah because Emily won't listen to her but I agree with Savannah and I mean every word I say to Emily, she's not Callum and I'm not going to stand by while she ruins her big day over someone who's not even here anymore. "are you two training or talking?" Levi's voice breaks through our chat but I don't miss the amused look on his face. "we're talking!" Emily bites back a giggle that Levi doesn't miss. "more training less talk
Alex's pov 3 more hours until my date with Emma, 3 more hours. On one hand, it doesn't seem that far away but on the other, it feels like days but either way I can't wait! I'm honestly so excited for tonight that I feel like a kid on Christmas eve. I've spent most of this afternoon double checking all of my plans and making sure every last detail is perfect for tonight because nothing can go wrong. I'm pretty confident that it won't be still I can't shake these nervous butterflies from swarming my stomach. "Alex, can you come to my office please son?" Jake's voice echoes through my head as I'm heading inside the packhouse, I let him know I'll be right up but I'm so distracted by all the thoughts invading my head today that I don't pay attention to where I'm going and walk straight bang into Noah, shit! "If you wanted a hug you only had to say brother!" Noah's cheeky comment and smile very quickly pulls me back to reality as I greet him with my mid
Emma's pov"wow em, you look incredible!" the one thing I love about Savannah is her honesty and right now I need it more than anything."Are you sure I look ok Sav, I've never been on a first date before, I want to look the best I can!""and you do, Alex is going to pass out when he sees you!" I know she means every word she says and I'm grateful for the small bound of confidence it is giving me but I don't think anything will help ease the nerves that are tearing through my body.I'm ready for my date with Alex and in all honestly, I am shitting myself, I've never been out on a first date before and I'm just praying I don't make a fool of myself. I've been with savannah and Emily all afternoon we went to get our nails done and some new clothes but mainly Sav has to spend the afternoon teaching me everything she can think of about first dates which was a great help but it seems the closer I get to the date the more I forget everything she has
Beta Alex's pov "YOU FUCKING WHAT?" I shout out at the doc as I fight to hold Nate back as the doc starts to remove my mate's shorts. "I believe Beta Emma may be in labour!" I look at Emma and I know that the shock on her face resembles mine, a yelp pulls my face away from Emma's only to be met by Sophia's shocked face as she puts her hand over her mouth. "Huh, how, what, I don't understand!" Emma stumbles out the words and I'm right there with her, the doc goes to remove Emma's panties but my hand flies out and stops him without me even realising it. "it's ok Alex, let the doc do his job baby!" Emma's small voice chimes in my ears as I see her squeeze her eyes shut and breathe through the pain, I nod towards the doc but I don't take my eyes off what he's doing. "Holly moon goddess!" Doc shouts out and I'm straight by his side looking at the same view as him but I'm not sure what it is I'm seeing and doc quickly picks up on this. "That's t
4 months laterBeta Emma's pov"How's it going with my brother's Em?""Really good, I didn't think it could work with it being so soon but they are so kind and patient with me!" Her beaming smile brings on my own and I'm so happy for her and the twins.Emily started warrior training again two months ago and I'm so glad that she did because every day I see her slowly getting back to herself and it's amazing to see and it must feel incredible for her."Ahh!" I bend over as pain slices through my stomach, It's the third time it's happened since training started 15 minutes ago and I'm starting to get a little worried that something's is wrong."Emma, what's wrong?" I feel Emily's hand come down on my back as I'm bent over breathing through the pain, seconds later I smell the scent of my mate and then his face appears in front of mine as he gets down on his haunches in front of me."Baby what's wrong?" Finally, the pain p
Beta Alex's pov After our shower and mind-blowing sex, we finally managed to get washed up and now we're both getting ready for what I have planned. It's our last night here tonight and I want to end it on a high so with the help of our warrior's Jonah and Jacob I managed to pull this together last minute. "What should I wear?" Emma has been looking at her clothes for the last 20 minutes deciding what to wear and trying to get me to tell her where we are going or what we are doing so that she'll know what to wear but I'm not caving here so instead I decide to help her another way. I walk up behind her looking at her clothes before leaning forwards and pulling out a white knee-length dress, I've seen her wear it a couple of times and she looks fucking fantastic in it! "This is perfect!" I hand it to her but she doesn't say anything just smiles and heads towards her shoes. She's not dull and knows exactly why I choose her dress but as always
Beta Emma's pov I feel so relaxed as the sun beams down on my back that I could fall asleep at any second, I pull my sunglasses down a little bit and check out my mate as he sits next to me on his sun lounger reading his book, he's only wearing his swimming trunks and looks hot as fuck! "You finished checking me out yet mate?" I pull the glasses off of my face fully and give him a cheesy grin feeling no embarrassed from being caught, he's my mate so I'm allowed to check him out as much as I want plus he's hot as fuck so why wouldn't I? "Nope!" He lets out a low laugh before shooting me a wink and as always I feel the effects work their way through my body. "Fancy some more snorkelling?" "Yes!" I beam out causing him to laugh again. I'd never been snorkelling before Alex brought me two days ago but I loved it and I'm more than happy to do it again. It's been 4 days since we arrived at the cabin, 4 days of the beach, hi
Beta Alex's pov "I want you to pair up, we are practising attack and defence today!" I bellow out to the warriors in my class which include my girl. It's been just over a month since Noah's death and it's been incredibly hard, the whole pack has felt the effects of his death and as much as Jake has struggled poor Sophia really couldn't cope and was close to having a breakdown so Jake has taken her away for a little while in the hope it will do her some good. They have been gone a week and from what we can see from when we have face timed them Sophia definitely seems to be improving already but I have a feeling it will be a while until they are back home. Emma hid away for a while but I made her come to training 5 days ago and thankfully she was grateful for it and has kept coming since and for the first time since the attack both Mia and Josh have come to warrior training this morning and I'm proud of them for it. As you can imagine they have
Beta Alex's pov "He's your what?" Sophia stutters out from across the room grabbing everyone's attention. "If I'm right, Theo is my brother mom, my baby brother from before I came to live here!" "I don't understand!" Jake says as he and Sophia walk towards us and fuck am I glad that I'm not the only one confused here! "Wait, when you came here you told us about your family. I remember you said that you had a twin sister Ella and a little brother..." Sophia seems shocked as she relives the past. "Theodore!" Jake shouts out seeming to finish Sophia's sentence for her but also in a state of shock. "Theodore?" I look to Emma the name coming from my lips as a question. "Theodore was my brother's name but I always called him Theo bear and he always called me bunny because I loved rabbits and he always called Ella." "Ella terror," Theo says before she finishes her sentence. "Because she wa
Beta Alex's povIt's been 2 weeks since Noah's death and things are still raw but I know from personal experience that this isn't something that's going to just go away, you never get over losing the people that you love but you just learn to live with it somehow. Some days are harder than others but day by day slowly things are starting to get back into a routine.The day after the battle we managed to get final numbers on deaths and it turns out that we lost four more wolves than we first thought, 11 of our pack members were lost that day and the effects are still being felt just as strong.They were someone's son or daughter and someone's sister or brother. Some of them were mates and parents and they will always be honoured at this pack. Two days after the battle we held a funeral for Noah, Tim, Zac, Cory and Jenny and a memorial for Lewis, Kyle, Hailey, Paddy, Elsa and Scott and we've also got a bench with their names on it in Emma's sunflower g
Beta Alex's pov We walk through the last of the forest and into the clearing in front of the packhouse, no one has said a word while we have walked back. The twins took the lead while Josh is walking behind everyone and despite being offered help he insisted on being the one to carry Noah's body home while Emma has walked numbly next to me while I've tugged her along. I hear noise and look up to see Sophia, Jake, Savannah and Mia all coming out of the packhouse looking both relieved and worried. We haven't spoken to any of them as we all agreed that this isn't something that should be said over link but Mia would have felt incredible pain when Noah died so at the very least they will assume that either he or Josh are hurt. There is a small bit of hope across their faces and it kills me to see it because clearly, they are still hoping for a miracle when in reality Jake and Sophia are about to find out that they have lost their youngest son and Mia
Beta Emma's pov We get to the exit and the pain-filled screams are making the hairs on my arms stand up, the relief that I felt when Noah and the guys came in to rescue us was gone the moment we were told that Levi, kyle and Lewis are missing and at the moment we don't even know if Logan and the other men have come back yet, there's a possibility that they are all missing and it's making my stomach turn with worry. We make it outside and the place is a bloodbath, never in my life have I seen so much blood and the moment that we are spotted wolves come straight at us. Alex gives my hand a gentle squeeze and we share a quick look before we get into a fighting stance ready to protect ourselves. We both know there's a chance that we won't get out of here alive but I've waited long enough to be his mate and I ain't about to give in easily and I'm pretty sure that he's thinking the same thing. A wolf comes at me but I manage to shift into my wolf before he re