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30. The Pool Lounge
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2022-01-24 05:02:21Later at night, after Melanie asleep, I get up from my bed. I stayed in bed to wait for sleep, but it didn't come. This is happening to me since I've shifted to this house. My stress keeps me restless all night.
Straightening my pull over, long-sleeved, V-neckline, orange pink sweater, I move a brush in my long hair to remove the tangles. Casting a quick glance at the wall clock, I grab a bag of salted, potato chips and wander to the swimming pool lounge.
It's 1'o clock in the morning. The lounge is located at the backside of the mansion. I'm going there since three consecutive nights to get some fresh air. The calm and silent environment of that place helps me to sleep. Moreover it's the only place for me nowadays where I can see the sky and inhale fresh oxygen.
I roll up my ankle-length pants and about to dip my legs into water when I suddenly hear voice. My heart skips a beat and I involuntarily stand up. All of a sudden, Ashar appears, talking on his phon
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