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Desperate Hope

Author: Jessica HJ
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Scarlett's POV:

I watched as Lucian sat in our bedroom, my letters scattered around him like fallen leaves. His hands trembled as he picked up each one, reading them over and over until the paper was stained with his tears.

"Lottie," he whispered, tracing my handwriting. "My sweet, faithful Lottie..."

Every few minutes, he would press the letters to his chest, as if trying to hold onto some piece of me.

"I'm sorry," he choked out. "I was such a fool. Such a worthless mate."

Through our bond, I felt his anguish twisting deeper with each word he read.

"It was always you," he continued, his voice breaking. "You were the only one who truly loved me. The only one who never betrayed me."

He picked up another letter, this one describing how I'd felt watching him with Lily.

"I was just so angry," he confessed to the paper. "When Lily chose James over me, it broke my heart. As a man, my pride was shattered and I couldn't tolerate it. So I wanted to get revenge, to make her feel that same pain."
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