The Silence part two ... "Louisiana!" Kaden boomed in his Alpha's tone, but his voice did nothing to me. Maybe I had indeed gone mad. If Hannah wasn't going to help me, I would find another way. There are millions of ways to die, aren't there? Maybe Kaden would be willing to help me, since he hated me so much. I released Hannah's coat and focused my attention on Kaden. "You don't want me, you hate me. Do it! Kill me! Spare me from this pain!" I cried. Kaden stared at me, dumbfounded. "Hannah, leave!" Kaden ordered. "But Alpha—" Hannah hesitated, but Kaden cut her off. "Now!" he yelled, and Hannah scurried out of the room. Then there were just the two of us. "Please, Alpha, please," I cried in desperation. "I can't," he said in a surprisingly calm voice. "Why? I am your torture, a reminder of your pain. I am the daughter of the man who killed your mate, your pup. I do not deserve mercy. Kill me!" "I can't," he responded again. I was disappointed. Why wouldn't he free me? Di
. Life in the Pack part one . . . I have had time to think while I lay on the hospital bed. It was wrong to wish for death. I may hate my situation, but I still have time, and nothing lasts forever. As hard as it might be, I will make a life in the pack—a quiet life. Here, I might never be respected or loved, but I am not in a cage, and I can be happy by myself. I just have to make sure my wolf does not die. It will be her and me against the world. Kaden has not returned to my room since that day, but there are two bulky wolves mounted at the door, making sure I don't harm myself. I have never actually harmed myself, despite the torture I faced in my former pack. This time, the possibility of truly losing my wolf shook me. I don't need a doctor to tell me that I need therapy, but how am I going to get it when I am still trapped in this pack? Werewolf mental health is not exactly treated as a thing in my world. Werewolves are naturally unpredictable, feral, and quick to anger, ex
Life in the pack part two... "It is the only way, Alpha," Hannah said, as if pleading on my behalf. Was my life really worth saving to her? Or was it her nature and her career field that made her this way? Anytime now, Kaden would reject the idea, and he would say no. I closed my eyes, waiting for the word to come out. I waited a few seconds, but the words I had expected never came. Instead, its opposite did. "Yes, I will do it," he sounded, and it was like I was suddenly drenched with water. My eyes shot open immediately. "What?" I was deeply confused. Why was he doing this? "How soon do we get this done?" Kaden asked Hannah. "Soonest, Alpha. The full moon is in two days, and the shift would come naturally. You both must have been marked and mated before that time if we are going to save her wolf and her life," Hannah answered. "We will get it done tonight," Kaden announced, like it was the simplest thing to say in the world. Does my word not even matter in this? It is my ow
Deity Forbids . . . I hadn't realized I had fallen asleep until there was a knock on the door of the room. I rose up, realizing that I was still naked and it was morning. How had I slept for so long? I wrapped the linens around my body, but not without noticing the bloodstain on the sheets, the proof of my lost virtue. I carefully hid it as I watched Kaden enter the room. He closed the door and stood by it, staring at me. "I'm sorry," he apologized. I felt the guilt seep through the bond for a moment before it faded away. He was locking me out of his mind, and I couldn't even think of peeking into his mind in the first place. I nodded in acknowledgment of his apology. The deed was already done, and there was no need to cry over spilled milk. I had done enough crying last night. As a matter of fact, I had done a lot of crying since I arrived at this pack. I got up from the bed, ignoring the fact that his gaze was still fixed on me, making sure that the linens were wrapped around
The Slightest Possibility . . . "I hadn't thought of the possibility, the slightest possibility, that I might be pregnant because I have been caught up in my own emotions and my own inner battles to have thought of it. I immediately placed my hands on my flat belly. This possibility was far from the slightest if Kaden had not used protection during our sexual encounter. Werewolves were far more fertile than humans. The full moon was already a day away, and werewolf females' hormones are heightened to prepare their bodies for mating. Mating done during the full moon always resulted in a child unless the female had difficulties. Days before the full moon, there was still a strong possibility of getting pregnant since we were still partly wired like human females and all mammals. I still menstruated, and then there was the heat. If I was yet with child because of the full moon, the heat came once a month for like three to four days, around the time a human female would ovulate. The
The Shift Under The Full Moon . . . The pack was buzzing by the time I woke up, and howls could be heard everywhere. Everyone must be anticipating the full moon that was coming tonight, but I only thought of the pain I was going to endure and the pain Kaden would endure as well. I woke up early today. I hadn't slept much. I took my shower around five a.m., and when I was ready, I made my way, with slight difficulty, to the pack kitchen to help those who were preparing breakfast. They were a bit surprised to see me, but they allowed me to help, although they made sure I was given minimal work despite my protests. Were they afraid to overwork me, fearing the Alpha's wrath? They should know by now where I stood in Kaden's life, and that was nowhere. Breakfast was ready. As much as I would have wanted to eat in the kitchen, the head of the kitchen, Nathaniel, informed me that it was against the Alpha's orders to eat anywhere other than the dining halls. He explained that it was Kaden
15. Call me by my name . . . Kaden was leading me by the hand deep into the forest, a part I have not thought of venturing into myself, I don't know much about the pack grounds since I have only spent my time in the pack house, Kaden's house, the pack clinic and the dining halls. I could hear the howls of the pack members from several directions, the full moon was almost approaching and they all could feel it coming. The sparks of the bond between us are heightened in me and I feel it strongly, my wolf is already scratching at the surface, I feel her closer to me, the moon has brought her closer to me. Kaden stops abruptly and I stop as well. "The pack members would not intrude on us here" he says, he lets go of my hand and I take in the surroundings before me, there was a small lake a couple of feet from us and fireflies surrounded the water dancing in the moonlight , there were scrubs everywhere and I finally understand that this was a meadow, I had not expected a place l
A New Dawn . . . After Kaden had led me out of the forest, he invited me to stay in his house, I wanted to decline because I feel as though we are moving at a fast speed but I didn't, why?, I could not provide a proper answer—maybe I wanted to be close to him in anyway or maybe I just wanted to please him. We have spent so much time apart as mates. Most mates get marked and mated in the first three days of meeting but there was also the rare cases like Kaden and I. I feel sad thinking that our mating process had been inspired by obligations but I could not change the past no matter how much I wanted to. As I rest on Kaden's chest, I listen to his steady heartbeat that was calming to my soul and body, I could not properly sleep in spite of Kaden's warmth,—I was scared that if I closed my eyes and let the sleep consume me, I will wake up and this would all be a dream. "Sleep" Kaden voice sounded groggily, I look up to see him staring at me "I can't" I mumbled "Why?" He as