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Chapter Forty Two: Elior’s MissionZarina's POVIt was very dark and cold in the evening.The moon was high up in the sky, and the wind blew against the windows softly.My triplets were fast asleep beside me, their tiny chests rising and falling slowly.I pulled the blanket over them so they were cozy.I sat on the bed for a second, just watching them.My heart was heavy.I knew what would happen tonight.Everyone knew.The fight between Asher and Elior.It was going to take place tonight.I bit my lower lip hard, not to cry.I didn't want the babies to wake up.I didn't want them to see their mother frightened and broken.Gingerly, I got up and went to the door.I looked back again at my children."I'll come back to you," I whispered, my voice shaking."I promise."I took a cloak and slipped out of the room quietly.The night air hit my face, cold and sharp.I went as fast as I could but was careful, my heart beating so loudly I thought everyone could hear it.I knew I wasn't suppose
Last Updated : 2025-04-26Alpha’s Deal: Be My Mate The Fight
Chapter Forty-Three: The FightZarina's POVThe night was even colder as I returned.My hands were shaking, and my heart felt heavy.I kept looking back over my shoulder, making sure no one followed me.The trees were blacker, and every slight sound made me jump.I hugged my cloak around me tighter and kept walking.I had to get back to my babies.I had to hold them near.But way down inside of me, I knew I wasn't going to sleep tonight.Not until Asher was safe.I ducked behind a tree near the fighting area.There were already individuals there.Lots of them.Some of them looked worried.Some of them looked excited.Everyone wanted to know who would be Alpha tonight.I saw Asher standing on one side.He looked relaxed, but I could see the spark in his eyes.He wore plain fighting gear.His muscles were tense, ready for battle.And then I saw Elior.He was on the other side.He was smiling confidently.He thought that he had already won.I pressed my lip hard.I prayed silently.Pleas
Last Updated : 2025-04-26Alpha’s Deal: Be My Mate A Cold Goodbye
Chapter Forty-Four: A Cold GoodbyeZarina's POVI sat on the ground, cold, behind the trees, my heart still racing from what I had done.My hands wouldn't stop shaking.My chest felt tight like someone had put a tight rope around it.I had poisoned Elior.I had put that strange thing in his drink.I had swapped Asher's cup and saved him.But now… what if someone found out?What if Elior found out?What if they blamed me?Fear crawled up my spine.I wrapped my arms around my knees and pulled them tight against my chest.Tears stung the back of my eyes, but I blinked them back."I had to do it," I whispered to myself."I had to… for Asher. For the babies."But still, the fear would not leave me.My mind would not quit racing.What if Elior got sick?What if he got mad and came after me?What if Asher discovered what I had done and despised me even more?I shut my eyes tight.The images of my babies appeared in my mind.Their little hands, their gentle breaths."I had no choice," I whisp
Last Updated : 2025-04-26Alpha’s Deal: Be My Mate The Weight Of My Heart
Chapter Forty-Five: The Weight on My Heart(Asher's POV)It was a cold night.A cold, cold night.I could sense it in my bones, but I remained silent.I simply stood there outside the healer's home, my children tightly holding on to me.Their little bodies were warm against mine, their tiny faces so calm, so innocent.They didn't understand what was happening.They didn't understand how broken everything was around them.I was jealous of that.I glared at Zarina.She was a couple of paces ahead of me, arms folded tightly across her chest.She was so tiny.So lost.Her face was pale.Her eyes, usually so bright, were empty now.She didn't even look in my direction.She just stood gazing at the floor as if she didn't have energy left in her body.I clenched the babies tighter.I had no idea what to say.I had no idea what to do.Some of me did want to yell for her, to snatch her from thin air and swear to her that all would be well.But the rest of me.The hurtful, bitter half.It stopp
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Last Updated : 2025-04-26Alpha’s Deal: Be My Mate The Pressure
Chapter Forty SevenChapter Forty Seven: The PressureAsher's POVThe morning had been filled with nothing but tension. The silence hung thick in the air, the kind of silence that makes your thoughts sound too loud, too loud. I stood in the hallway outside my parents' room, taking a deep breath before pushing the door open. My mother and father were sitting by the large fireplace, talking quietly, but when they saw me, they grew quiet.My chest was tight, and I could even feel my hands shake. I had kept this inside for far too long, but today, I simply could not take it anymore. Not after what they had done to Zarina yesterday."Mom. Dad," I said, my voice a little bit harsher than I intended it to be. "We need to talk."They both looked at me in surprise but did not utter a word. I took a step closer, my heart pounding in my chest."Why are you treating Zarina like that?" I asked, my voice now lower but still laced with irritation. "She just gave birth to our children. She needs to r
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Chapter Forty N: She CameZarina's POVThe sun filtered through the curtains.I sat in the nursery, cradling my baby boy in my arms.He was so small, so cuddly. His tiny hands were clutching at my dress as if he'd never let me go.I smiled ruefully.At least he still needed me.At least someone still did.In the corner of the room, Asher's mother gently swayed another of the babies in her arms.She didn't glance at me.She hadn't spoken to me that morning.Asher's father was leaning against the window, cradling the third triplet as if he was carrying a sack of groceries, not a baby.There was nothing warm in their expressions, only chilly courtesy.I didn't mind.I tried to comfort myself — "It's all right, Zarina. You have your children. They adore you. That's enough."But deep within, it pained.It pained so excruciatingly that it became hard to breathe sometimes.I carefully shifted my son and placed a soft kiss upon his forehead."You're my everything," I whispered.Then the front
Last Updated : 2025-04-26Alpha’s Deal: Be My Mate The Gathering
Chapter Forty Nine: The GatheringAsher’s POVThe meeting hall smelled like old wood and burning firewood.I stood at the front, my arms crossed, trying to stay calm.Zarina was upstairs in the packhouse with the babies.I told her to rest — she didn’t need to hear whatever foolishness the elders were planning to say.I could feel her suffering every day.I could see how isolated she was.Tonight, though…Tonight would be worse.The big doors creaked open one by one, and the pack members started to enter.Beta Damon stayed with me.He nodded discreetly, but even he was on edge.The elders sat down first, their faces firm and unyielding.Other wolves, young and old, filled the seats and the benches.Whispers had already started before anyone said anything official.I clenched my fists.They were whispering about her.About Zarina.The Luna.My mate.The mother of my children.I gritted teeth and stared straight ahead.Finally, Elder Warren stood up.His voice was old, but his words sli
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Chapter: The Elders' DemandThe weight of being Alpha had never rested more heavily on me than it did today. Every step, every decision I took, came under such close inspection that the weight was suffocating. But what the elders were demanding—no, insisting upon—was something I could never possibly consent to.I stood in the center of the black hall, the air thick with the heaviness of unwritten words. The elders were seated, faces grim, eyes blazing with accusation. They had waited for me to decide, but this. this was something more than I had expected.We've waited long enough, Asher," Elder Rurik's voice was deep, but his words cut through the silence. "The pack demands a sacrifice. It's the only choice. You understand this."I clenched my fists at my sides, my heart pounding in my chest. This was the moment I'd feared. The moment when I would break or remain unbroken."I told you," I said, my tone steady even as my gut churned with queasiness, "there must be another way. The pack
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