Word got out fast that I was looking to find ways to keep busy. I found myself helping weed garden beds and chase kids around. I read books to a blind shifter, learned how to cook chili in a huge pot, and told ghost stories around a campfire.Best of all, I finally found my sense of direction. I could make it to the lake and back by myself and managed to keep my bearings all over camp. A few times, I found myself at Alec’s door, but he was never home. Nobody seemed to know where he was, but any time I asked, he was simply,away. It was probably better that way. While I wanted to ask him for more details about his plan to help break my mating bond, it wasn’t going to solve my wolf problem.The days bled into night and I’d collapse on my cot, exhausted. My mind didn’t race, I didn’t worry, I didn’t overthink anything. I was too tired to wonder.It made the time fly, but it didn’t help me get any closer to figuring out what I wanted or drive any connection with my wolf.“Knock, knock,” I s
When I stepped into my tent, I discovered I wasn’t alone. Alec stood when I entered. “How’s the soul searching going?”“I wasn’t under the impression that Greta was sharing the process with you,” I said.“There’s not a whole lot that happens here that I don’t know about,” he said.“Then you already know the answer to your question.”“True. Which is why I thought I’d see if I could help,” he offered.“Where have you been all week?” I asked. “I could have used the help.”“I’m afraid I had to deal with some things away from camp,” he said.“Any of it having to do with me?”“Yes,” he said. “Your pack is out hunting you. We can’t wait until the full moon. We’ll have to go while they’re weaker.”“When?” I asked.“We’ll go tomorrow.”My heart raced. I wasn’t ready. I couldn’t shift and I wasn’t mentally prepared to face them. “I can’t.”“You have no choice,” he said. “If we play this right, you won’t even have to see him if that’s what you’re worried about.”“How do we do it?” I asked. “Break
“Why don’t we find out?” He unbuttoned my shorts. I lifted my hips so he could pull them down. Then I sat up and pulled my tee over my head.“Fuck, you’re gorgeous.” His eyes traveled up and down my body and to my surprise, I didn’t feel self-conscious. It wasn’t light enough for him to see everything, but he was getting an eyeful.Where I grew up, I always worried about how I looked or what I was wearing. Mostly, because I didn’t want to draw attention to myself. I rarely did anything to make myself look pretty. I didn’t wear clothes that showed off my body and kept my hair simple. My whole life, I had the sense that I was meant to hide so if anyone noticed me, I would shut down, find a way to flee.With Alec, I didn’t need to do that. He made me feel like it was safe to be who I was. And I had to admit, it was nice to have someone tell you that you’re beautiful.“Are you going to kiss me or are you just going to stare at me?” I demanded playfully.Alec growled again as he pounced on
Sheila looked at me, then over at Alec. Then her eyes found the broken cot.“I knew it!” Sheila said.“Fine, yes, you were right. Can we get a couple of minutes?” I asked.“This is my tent,” she teased.“Please,” I said.“Fine, I’ll wait outside,” she said dramatically. “Next time put a sock on the door or something.”“Is that even possible on a tent flap?” I asked.“Alec does live alone, just saying,” she said on her way out.I looked over at Alec and the two of us burst into laughter. “I guess we weren’t fast enough.”“What did she mean by that?” Alec asked. “When she said she knew it?”I rolled my eyes. “She’s been saying the two of us should hook up for a while.”“She’s smart,” he said.I pulled my shirt over my head. “She’s pretty great.” When I poked my head out of my shirt, Alec was glaring at me.I looked around. There was nobody else in the tent. That look was aimed at me. “What’s wrong?”His eyes moved down to my still naked hips. “Were you going to tell me?”I looked down an
Curious, I followed her out of the tent. We hurried past the common area and ducked into the woods. My heart beat faster as we approached Alec’s house but thankfully, we didn’t slow down.When we reached the lake, Sheila started to take off her shoes. “The kids will be gone any minute and we’ll have the whole place to ourselves.”She sat down on the sand and leaned her head back, her eyes closed. “Isn’t the sun marvelous today?”I didn’t see how this was going to make me feel better, but I joined her. Closing my eyes, I leaned my head back. The warmth of the sun did feel amazing on my skin.“You know, Alec is my best friend. But he can be a real dick sometimes,” she said. “But he’ll stick to his word. Whatever you two have planned, he’ll follow through. Even if things don’t work out romantically.”I wasn’t sure how to respond to that. I still wanted that bond broken, but I wasn’t sure I was ready to face Alec.The sky was streaked with pink and the heat of the day made the cold lake wa
Sheila turned on a lantern when we reached her tent. My heart sank when I saw that the cot was back to normal. Alec had either had it fixed or found a replacement. Was that his attempt at an apology or was he simply fulfilling his role as the leader of the feral shifters?“You’ll want to get some sleep tonight,” Sheila said. “I don’t know all the details, but I think tomorrow will be a big day for you.”“If it’s still happening,” I said.“You had a fight. It happens. But we never let disagreements take us away from our plans. We have to be careful out here to survive,” she said.I swallowed down the guilt again. I shouldn’t be here. I’d put them all at risk. Alec knew it from the beginning, yet he let me stay. I should have taken my chances walking to town and found a job. Stuck to my plan. Moved on with my life as a human. My wolf seemed to growl at the notion.I sighed. I’m not going to go back to the old plan.I couldn’t now that I’d started to wake my wolf. I had to break the bond
“I’m eating,” I said.The mood at the table around me shifted. It was like I could feel the tension in the air and I was pretty sure my companions were holding their breath.“This can’t wait,” he said.“It’s going to have to wait,” I countered.He growled.“Lola…” Sheila elbowed me.“Unless someone is dying, I am going to finish my dinner.” I wanted to speak to Alec, but his actions weren’t giving me confidence that he was going to react any better to me than he had earlier.I took a bite of my hamburger. After my last experience leaving Wolf Creek and going without food for several days, I wasn’t about to waste a good meal.To my surprise, Alec sat down on the bench next to Sheila. Tension hung thick in the air but I went back to my dinner, pretending I wasn’t bothered by him.“I’m sorry,” Alec said.All heads turned to him, then I felt their eyes on me. My cheeks burned. “You’re sorry?”“I had no right,” he said.I wasn’t expecting an apology. Sure, I sort of hoped he’d see how much
“Lola, it’s time to go.”My eyes fluttered open to see Alec standing over me. My heart started racing and I was excited to see him. Then I remembered why he was here and all of yesterday came crashing in around me.“Shh, Sheila’s still sleeping,” he warned.I wasn’t sure how long I’d slept or what time it was, but this trip down memory lane wasn’t going to be any easier no matter when I went or how rested I was.Tossing the sleeping bag aside, I sat and tugged on my boots. Then I followed Alec to the front of the tent. I paused at the door, glancing behind me at Sheila. My stomach tightened and I suddenly wished I’d said goodbye last night, just in case.For some reason, I had a sinking feeling I might not be returning here. I wasn’t as set on running anymore, but I knew I couldn’t put Sheila, Mario, Megan, and all the others I’d met at risk. If it was too dangerous for me to return, I’d find somewhere else to go.With lingering sadness, I exited the tent. Hopefully, we’d cross paths