I woke up with a start, my heart pounding in my chest. The first thing that registered was the fact that I was naked. I felt my skin flush with embarrassment, and my eyes darted around the room, searching for clues.
“What the fuck!” I cursed.
“What did you do, Bella?!”I preached to myself.
I saw a man lying next to me, his back to me. I had no idea who he was. Slowly, memories of last night came back to me, of the bar and the drinks and the moment when he had asked me to drink with him. I had been desperate for an escape from my heartbreak after I saw my father with another woman, so I had agreed.
“No it’s impossible,” I can’t accept the fact.
My heart sank in my chest. I had practically thrown myself at a complete stranger. I had been so careless and reckless. I felt my stomach twist with anxiety, and I slowly slid out of bed, careful not to wake him. I grabbed my clothes from the floor and got dressed as quickly as I could, my hands trembling.As I grabbed my purse and made my way to the door, I was filled with shame and regret. I had made a huge mistake, and now I had to find a way to live with it.
When I arrived home, I was met with my mother's familiar scolding. But this time, I didn't have the patience to hear her out. All I could think about was what had happened earlier that day. I quickly brushed past her and hurried to my room.
“Are you like that now? “she asked, angrily.
“You don't want to listen to me anymore. You always come home early in the morning!" she added.
"Where did you sleep last night?!"she asked again as her forehead frowned.
"Mom, please stop. I don't have time to listen to you now,"I responded, firmly and close the door of my room.
"Stubborn!" I heard her shouted.
Shaking my head to clear the thoughts, I quickly made my way to the bathroom, needing to feel clean and safe again. I turned the shower on and stepped in, letting the hot water wash away the dirt and the memories last night.“I hope we never meet again!” I told myself as I remembered what happened.
I closed my eyes and let the water run over my body, trying to erase the trace of his hands on me. But no matter how much I scrubbed, I still felt unclean.I wanted to forget, but the memories kept coming back. It felt like hours had passed before I finally got out of the shower, but the water had done nothing to help ease my mind. I grabbed a towel and dried myself off before getting dressed.“Bella, let’s have lunch now. Don’t be stubborn! “My mom shouted from outside my room.
“I’m coming, mom” I answered.
{15 minutes ago}
I left my room and I saw my mother putting food on the table.
"Let's eat," she invited.
I didn't say a word and just sat down.
"Bella, do you have a problem? “She asked me as she looked into my eyes.
"None," I answered, sparingly.
"Why don't you want to listen to our advice? “she asked and her head shaken.
"You always come home in the morning. Where did you sleep last night? “she asked me.
"Mom, please let's not talk about that anymore. I'm sorry. Okay?" I told her as I took a deep breath.
"You're old enough. You know what's right and wrong, so I hope you'll make up your mind.
I just held my breath at what she said. I know I have not been a good daughter to them and I always give them disappointment. But how about my father who was a cheater?
"I'm sorry, mom. I know I disappointed you. Don't worry, I can take care of myself,"I apologized.
Honestly, I don’t have a courage to tell her about my father’s stupid betrayal. I don’t want her to get hurt but the more I hide the truth, it became complicated for me and burden.
"You can't take me away from worrying because I'm your mother," she insisted.
Suddenly someone knocking the door and I’m sure it was my father. My mother immediately stood up and opened the door.
“Hello my beautiful wife,” he greeted.
“Where have you been? You are already late, sweetheart,” my mother obviously sulk.
“Sweetheart, I went to the flower shop to buy this for you,” my father said, sweetly.
I can’t help but get mad at what he said to mom. He is really a cheater and liar. My father was so very sweet at words but full of lies. That’s why I don’t take man seriously because I want to play with their hearts like what my father did to my mother.
“Anyway, how’s your day, daughter?” he asked me, gently.
I have no choice but to pretend that I’m okay after what happened to me last night. My mother suddenly interrupt and told him that I came home just this morning.
“I’m good,” I answered, sparingly.
“Where have you been last night, daughter?” my father asked me, curiously.
I don’t want to remember it but he insisted to ask me and I lied to him. I told him that I was with my friends last night even the truth is I had sex with a stranger guy last night.
I really hate him for asking me question like he really cares. He don’t have the right to question me after all.
“Sweet heart, just let her enjoy with her friends. She’s an old enough so stop controlling her, “my father said.
“I’m not controlling her. I just want the best for her,” my mother insisted.
“I know it and I understand but you have to be open-minded. She’s not a kid anymore, “my father explained his point.
“Stop your nonsense argument, dad, and mom” I said as I took deep breath.
Suddenly my phone rang and I saw my friend, Erica calling. I immediately answered her call. I said goodbye to them for a while so I can talk to Erica.
“Hello, Sofia. Night out again?” she asked me.
“Okay. I also need to tell you something,” I replied.
“What is it all about? “she asked, curiously.
“I will tell you later,” I answered.
“Okay. See you later. Bye!” she said and dropped the call.
In the Evening, I said goodbye to my parents again and my father convinced my mother to let me do what I want. I want to escape from all the burdens and problems in my life.
“Take care, Daughter. Just don’t forget to know your limits. Okay? “My mother told me.
“Okay, Noted. Bye mom!” I said goodbye to them.
When I arrived at the Bar, I immediately called Sofia and asked her where she was. I can’t help but remembered the guy I Had sex last night and I don’t want to see him anymore. I can’t explain what I have felt right now.
“Come inside, “Sofia told me and dropped the call.
I took a deep breath as I entered the bar. I am walking inside while looking for Sofia. I have never seen her face and I was starting to be annoyed. I called her again but she didn’t even answered my call. I have no choice but to order a shot of whiskey to calm myself while waiting for her.
{30 minutes ago}
I was surprised and look behind when I heard a cold voice of a man behind me. Black wavy hair, brown eyes, pointed nose and pinkish lips. He was so very handsome and I can’t help but admire his looks. But his face was very familiar to me and my heart suddenly beat faster.
“Do you still remember what happened last night? “he asked, seriously.
He approached my table and said, “We know each other don't we?” I shook my head and lied, “I don't know you.”He smirked and said, “I have proofs.” He pulled out his phone and showed me a steamy photo of us from the night before. I was shocked and cursed out loud.“So, did you already remember what happened last night?” he asked. I was embarrassed and furious at the same time.“What the heck! Delete it!” I commanded as I’m try to take away his phone.He looked at me seriously.“Marry me,” he said as he looked into my eyes. I frowned at what he said and shook my head.'What are you talking about?!' he asked.“I'm serious,” he answered seriously.“You are going crazy!” I raised my voice. “Don't worry it's only one year and then we will divorce,”I told him.“What if I don't want to?!” I refused.“I'm easy to talk to. How about posting our pictures on social media?” he blackmailed me.“What?!” I asked him, angrily.“You can't do that to me!” I said angrily.“I can and I will,” he replied
My two eyes could see his naked body resting on a woman while he was swinging on top. I don't know how I should feel at those times. It was like cold water was poured on me at that time.Why do I feel pain in my chest?I don't care what he does because we are just a couple on paper. But why do I feel this way? Is it because I'm jealous?I was standing there for a few minutes, my eyes glued to the scene in front of me. I can't believe that this is happening. I don't know what to do. Do I confront them? Do I leave? I can't do anything but just stand there with my mouth open, watching the scene unfold. His hands were all over her body, caressing her curves. I felt sick to my stomach watching them.“What the hell he is doing!” I said irritably.I immediately looked away and walked straight to my room. I took off my sandals because my feet hurt. What the hell did I care about him?I lay down on my bed and breathe deeply. I can't be bothered to think about what I saw earlier. How dare he br
"You're acting like a jealous wife," he smirked.I was very annoyed by what he said to me. His face is too thick for him to talk to me like that. I was taken aback when he accused me of being a jealous wife. I had never felt jealousy towards him, not even when he was out with his women and fucking them in front of me. I had never been the type of person to be possessive or controlling especially I don’t love him and I hate him so much.“I will never be jealous. Keep it on your mind!”I defend myself against his accusation.I tried to defend myself, telling him that I had never been jealous of him and that I had never felt the need to be. I couldn't understand why he would think I was jealous when I had never given him any reason to believe that I was.“Stop being defensive. I’m just kidding, “he smirked.“Anyway, let’s go now. Just follow me because my friend want to meet you,” his voice turn into a serious tone now.The truth was, I had never been in love with him so I just need to cl