RYKERUnbelievable.I told her what I am and she thought I was joking. Seriously.What is she? A small girl messing with my mind, that’s so fucking weird.How did I end up telling her about myself so easily? I have never told anyone about it before, not even my own sister or Britney.The name echoes in my mind and makes me sigh to myself. I drop my head in my hands and stare at the floor.Natalie is hurting. When something hurts her, it makes my heart hurt too. No matter how hard she tries to act unbothered about me not being able to get over Britney, I know it pains her deeply.But what am I supposed to do?I didn’t think I will get another mate after Britney’s death, so I lived with her memories. She has lived with me for years…How am I supposed to get rid of her right away?No doubt, I do have a fucking soft spot for little miss pesky. She is my mate but…there is just something which keeps coming between us.It’s not her fault. It’s mine. And it’s eating away at my guts.“ What ar
ANNE “ Spar? ” A girl rushes off to me when she sees me standing by the tree near the training ground. I look back at her and shake my head. I have been watching the young girls and boys training in the ground for a while and by the looks of it, no one here is of high status. Everyone is the son or daughter of Patrol guards or lower ranked warriors. I shouldn’t be wasting my time with them. “ Haven’t seen you around before. Who are you by the way? ” She asks curiously instead of leaving me here. “ Did you come with our new Luna? ” She adds, her honey eyes sparkling with excitement. At least, the pack is happy with getting the Luna. The news travelled too fast around the pack though. I bet it’s Ryker or Zio’s doing. “ I am your Luna’s friend. ” I shrug my shoulders and look behind her. A new girl has come in the training ground. The amateur fighters give her way. There is reluctance in everyone’s stance and the aura of respect can not be ignored. “ Really? ” She steps closer to
ANNE “ Our pack doesn’t have such weird… ” She can’t find the right words as she tries to sympathise with me. She goes silent and helps me to her house. It’s a huge villa, close to Zio’s house. Her parents are not home. She tells me that they live in the city and look after Ryker’s business along with his sister. I didn’t know he had a sister. Wow. After sitting me down on one of the couches in her living room, she goes to the kitchen to fetch a glass of water. I take the time to look around her tidy living room. There are pictures hanged everywhere, so out of place yet oddly fitting in with the blue and white theme. “ Here. ” She comes back and hands me the glass of water. I take the glass and gulp down the water in one go before placing the glass down on the centre table. “ Are you living alone for the time being? ” I inquire. I have to get to the part now. “ Yes. ” She replies curtly and plops down on the couch beside me. I stay silent, giving her the chance to start blurt
NATALIEI am burning. That’s all I feel and sense.But it’s not the usual kind of I—am—feeling—hot burning sensation. It’s more like My—body—is—kept—on—an—ice—block kind of burning sensation.I am itching to get off this block or control this sensation somehow.Lost in the abyss of my own battling conscious, I see the silhouette in the dark. A raven haired woman stands in the distance, her back facing me. As I watch her, fire starts licking her long fingers, spreading to her palms, engulfing the sleeves of her gown.I gasp but find myself unable to move, to talk, to reach out.The fire brightens everything, the darkness hides away like a scared child. She turns around, her soft features coming into my view. Gradually, the corner of her lips turn up. The gesture makes me uneasy unlike the expectation.The icy burn becomes worse. The surroundings become suffocating. I suck in huge breaths, trying my best to keep myself alive, less suffocated.But it all disappears. I break out of whate
NATALIE “ W—Who? ” I stammer. My eyes land on my face in the mirror. The Amber in my eyes is burning brightly. I touch my cheeks, trailing my finger up to my eye to open it wide. I lean in to the mirror to be sure if my eyes are actually shining or not. “ Natalie! Are you fine in there? ” Anne knocks on the door, startling me. My head snaps to the door. The normal rhythm of my heart gets distorted. Gulping, I glance in the mirror. My eyes are back to normal. The dull look, the useless Amber colour. I shake my head and open the bathroom’s door. It’s all in my mind. When I step out, Anne comes to me. “ Can you walk? ” She questions, lifting her hands to support me. “ Yes. Yes, I can walk. ” I reply in a confused tone and stroll back to the bed before plopping over it. My hands start aching again, the icy burning sensation returns gradually. Anne hands me a glass of water and I gulp it down mindlessly. My eye stay focused on my hands. Something comes to life underneath my skin,
NATALIEI inhale slowly and hold my breath in to calm myself down. Ryker assesses me, waiting for me to burst out on him and pour everything out.“ Take me home. ” I utter after a while. I can’t lash out on him in the hospital when so many of his pack members can hear us fighting. Even if I feel like killing him, I can’t bring myself to let others know that we are fighting, that there is a rift between their Alpha and Luna. It will damage his image and mine too.Ryker understands my point and starts walking out of the room. I get up and follow him with small steps.The same car is parked outside the small hospital building. I make my way to the passenger seat and settle down. Ryker starts the engine and drives the car away from the hospital silently. “ Babylove. ” He calls my weird as fuck nickname he has given me when I don’t say anything for the longest time.I breathe heavily and shake my head. For some reason, my heart refuses to believe he can be this mean to me.The brutal ma
NATALIEThis man before me is chosen by the Moon Goddess for me. Upsetting him, rejecting his advances makes me regret my actions in a natural way. I can’t describe the weight which falls over my chest when I see his eyes slowly shifting to my figure and a look of hurt crossing them. It weighs me down, urges me to embrace him but I don’t want to end up there again.“ We are moving too fast. Too fast for me to understand what you want or what I want. ” I whisper, trying to make him understand my point. “ We need to stop here so you can take care of your past first, Ryker. If we don’t do this today…” I point to the floor. “ …right here, we might end up hating each other later. ” His eyes flash grey again. From my experience with him, I can tell he is trying his absolute best to not lash out on me or show me the ugly side of his.It’s progress. But not enough. Not nearly sufficient.“ Can you really hate me? ” He narrows his eyes, his jaw clenching dangerously.A bitter taste invades
NATALIEA lump lodges in my throat as I find myself lost in his eyes. This is so fucked up. He is hurting. I am hurting. We both are hurting from inside. And now, we are hurting each other.“ Ryker. Please. This is not what I want… ” I trail off, lifting my hand to touch his face. “ This is not what I want at all. ”Ryker grips my hand right when my fingers come in contact with his smooth skin. “ Then what is it that you want from me? Tell me! Tell me so I can do it and end this headache screwing me over all the time. ” Ryker seethes, his eyes flashing between colours.The weight on my chest becomes heavier, deadlier. His grip over my hand tightens until it starts hurting.“ I want you to tell me that I am important to you. Or — or that I am not just some thing you can use. Or I am not here with you to become a child birthing fucking machine for you that you are planning to dump as soon as you are done with it! ” Tears leak out of my eyes again, disappearing in my hair.Anger flares