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Alpha of Gods Memories
Chapter 26: MemoriesRyderDemi paused. She’s gaging my reaction to what she is telling me. I can see it in her eyes. My mind feels strange as the want… no, the need to know what happened to her burns like an inferno deep inside my soul. My fingers tingle and I sense that my instincts are trying to guide me to do something, but I’m not sure what it could be. I brush the urge aside and focus on Demi.“Selene and Typhon saw what was happening and stepped in to help me. Typhon told me not to come back until they call for me. I’m stopping there, Ryder. There’s no need to go into further detail.” “What are you not telling me Demi? There’s more to it than that. What did Selene and Typhon stop? What was he doing to you?” I am unable to control my anger, and my voice came out in a demanding tone. “He was assaulting me, Ryder. What else would they have to step in for?” Demi raised her voice to meet the tone of mine. Her eyebrows were pressed together, and I could tell t
Alpha of Gods Bloodlust
Chapter 27: BloodlustRyderShe hits the pavement hard when she goes down. The next few seconds seem like minutes as I watch him hold her there. He put his hands on her without her permission, groping and violating her body as she cries. The feeling of helplessness is overtaking me as I walk towards where he has her held against the ground.“You are a fucking coward! She’s innocent, you are disgusting piece of shit. You’re an abomination, unworthy to be called a god!” I punch at his body, but again my fists just pass right through him. “Ares!” I hear a male voice call out. “Take your fucking hands off her. You and I will be going to speak with Zeus right now.” I turn to see who I assume is Typhon. His expression reflects mine looking like he is ready to peel the skin from Ares’ bones. I recognize Selene and watch her rip Ares off Demi. I move to help Demi up, but I can’t grab hold of her. I stand to watch what happens as Typhon instructs Demi to leave. Selene
Alpha of Gods Trapped
Chapter 28: TrappedRyderAres and his accomplices are at the opposite end of the factory walking towards Demi and I. I keep my eyes trained on them. “Ryder, I think Ares has done something to stop interference from outside sources. This means Selene and Typhon can’t help us. Ares has Aphrodite and a half blood god with him. We are outnumbered and outmatched.” “Demi, the only thing I am worried about is you.” I turn towards her. I let my words spill from my mouth quickly because I don’t know when this battle is going to begin. “I need you to find somewhere and hide, Demi. Stay away from this Psycho. Let me handle this.” “Ryder, if you think that I am going to tuck my tail between my legs and run you are wrong. I can’t physically attack them, but maybe I can be a destrac-”Demi didn’t have the chance to finish what she was trying to say. Aphrodite, Ares, and the half blood was right upon us now. I repositioned myself back in front of Demi, ready to
Alpha of Gods Worlds Between Us
Chapter 29: Worlds Between UsRyder “Zeus! It’s not what it looks like!” Demi runs in the man’s direction. She’s begging him to listen to her. “Restrain her!” His voice echoed through the building. I let out a loud growl and moved to stop the half blood from touching her, but thick black chains burst from the earth and encircled my arms, legs, waist, and neck. I clenched my teeth still trying to get to Demi. “Get your fucking hands off her!” She’s struggling to get out of the mans grasp while still pleading with Zeus to listen to her.He pins his intense gaze on me, and I glare back at him with one of my own. I won’t cower to anyone, not even the god of thunder and lightning.“Bow, Ryder! Prove to me that you are capable to being tamed.” I laughed out loud.“You could strike me dead right now, still I will never submit. I may not be a god, but I wasn’t born to bow down to you!” I spat the words at him. Anger and rage evident with every word that lef
Alpha of Gods No God to Pray to
Chapter 30: NO God to Pray toDemiI guess I should be thankful that Selene and Typhon saw everything that happened with Ryder. They were waiting to intercept me when Ares and I returned to Olympus. We are all situated in the main meeting hall as they discuss who I will be assigned to next. Will it be with Ares, or will I remain assigned to Selene and Typhon? I don’t care to listen to the arguments being tossed over the table regarding me. All I can think of is the way Ryder looked as he let himself fall into hell. My heart squeezed in my chest and a new flood of tears threatened to spill from my eyes. He’s, my mate. This entire time, Ryder Layden and I have been mated. It is unheard of for a Keres to have a mate. Wait a second, if I am Ryder’s mate doesn’t that mean Selene was the one who gave me to him? This is something I will ask her about when and if I ever get the chance. I raise my head to look at the pathetic excuse of a god sitting across the table from me. He too
Alpha of Gods Lunar Sword
Chapter 31: Lunar SwordNarratorAphrodite walked through the doors of the meeting room. Her usual seductive walk was replaced with a stiff unnatural looking gate. Aphrodite had no plans of admitting what she had been an accomplice to. Selene knew right away that Aphrodite knew exactly what had happened, and it was in this moment that she remembered something that Demi had said to Ares. ‘You want me so bad, don’t you? Well now you can have me, but I promise you this. You will regret ever separating me from my mate.’ This could only mean one thing. Aphrodite released the mate bond that was restricting Ryder and Demi from recognizing that they were fated mates! Selene’s heart broke as she realized what Ares had done in the moments before sending Ryder to hell. He let Ryder and Demi realize that they were bonded then separated them from each other. What better way to really break someone? There are no words to describe such a pain that they must have felt. Truly there is nothing worse t
Alpha of Gods Unworthy
Chapter 32: UnworthyNarrator “Aphrodite, no!” Ares yelled for her to stop talking. He moved past Typhon but was rapidly grabbed by the back of his neck and body slammed through a stone chair. The chair laid in pieces all around Ares. The black claws of Typhon’s dragon protruded from his fingertips and extended into the back of Ares neck, effectively holding him against the floor with no effort or struggle at all.Aphrodite heard Ares’s yell for her to stop, but she had no choice. Selene wouldn’t hesitate to behead her if she didn’t come out with the truth, and no man was worth that. “The truth Aphrodite!” Zeus commands. “What Selene said is all true!” Aphrodite cried as she spoke. She still held onto Selene’s arm trying to keep the lunar blade from piercing her neck. “Ares did send Ryder to hell after I released the hold on his mate bond with Demi. I don’t know anything else though, I promise.” Aphrodite’s eyes pleaded silently with Selene.
Alpha of Gods Fierce and Intense
Chapter 33: Fierce and IntenseDemiI felt my mood lighten the moment I formed a plan that could lead me back to Ryder. I can’t get him out of hell, but I can go to be with him. “Demi, Demi. Are you okay? You’re worrying me honey. Demi, can you hear me?” Suddenly I realized that Selene was crouched down in front of where I was sitting. I don’t know how long she had been trying to get my attention, but I only heard her voice just now. I blinked to clear my eyes. They felt dry and sticky like I hadn’t blinked for a while. I raised my eyes to look at Selene, then Typhon to her right. “Sorry Selene, my mind was somewhere else.” “Oh honey, I know where your mind was. It was on Ryder, and we will find a way to get him back. If I have to…” She leaned into me and whispered closely to my ear. “If I have to, I’ll convince Typhon to go seduce Hades. You know that Hades has a bizarre sexual appetite, right?” That actually got me giggling. I know that’s what sh
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Alpha of Gods Can't Judge Me
Chapter 87: Can’t Judge MeDemiI held onto him, not wanting to let Ryder go. Ryder gave me a reassuring glance then leans down to place a soft kiss on my lips. Pulling back, he let his forehead rest on mine the way he always did when he wanted to reassure me. “Demi, I promise you this. I won’t let anything, or anyone separate us ever again. Trust me.” His voice was calming, and I believed him, always.Ryder led me over to Selene. She gave him a promising look with her canine eyes. One’s that said she would take care of me. I snuggled into her silver blue fur, not knowing what else to do with myself. My heart was ready to beat out of my chest. Every step Ryder made that led him closer to Zeus made me want to vomit.Once Ryder was standing in front of Zeus they had both met in the middle. Noone was around them, but their voices could still be heard clearly. Ryder was standing tall. He was just as tall as Zeus now. “Ryder, I was ready to be done with you. You are
Alpha of Gods He's Here
Chapter 86: He’s HereRyderShe ran over to my side positioning herself as if she was ready to fight for me. I’ll destroy Olympus and every living thing who calls it home if they even think of taking her from me ever again. I stand. Ares tries to move but my aura keeps him in place. Demi looks up towards me with worry filled eyes. I kiss her forehead and using one arm I push her behind me. She sobs into my back, and it makes me want to end Zeus for causing her tears to fall.Black clouds roll over each other in the sky. Everything around us becomes even darker. Bolts of lightning travel from east to west with one flash after another. “Dramatic much?” I ask waiting on Zeus to show up. “Ryder! Shhhh!” Demi scolded.The fighting around us stopped a bit ago and Drake stepped up to my side. Zeus appeared right in front of me walking as if he was on a mission. I clenched my teeth and prepared myself. Poseidon and another god appeared at his side though I couldn’t nam
Alpha of Gods Let's Go
Chapter 85: Let’s GoDemiJust because I promised Ryder I would stay away from his fight with Ares doesn’t mean I plan to stay out of the fight all together. I grab hold of an Olympus soldier. He screamed as I lifted him high into the air. I have already used my healing powers, why would I hold my other powers back now? I dropped him placing both palms of my hands together then released a golden blast that degenerated both his body and armor. Simply dropping him wouldn’t have killed him. He’s an Olympus soldier, they are the strongest of all armies. It’s best not to play around with them.I was elated to see that Luca and Drake were alive. Luca looked like he had been road hard and put up wet, but he was alive none the less. I Kept my eyes trained on Ryder to make sure nothing surprised him from behind. He kept giving me an angry side eye every time I dropped down to assist. It was his way of telling me to get back and stay safe, but what kind of mate would I be to allow him to fight
Alpha of Gods Broken Chains
Chapter 84: Broken Chains**Demi**I blinked and Ares had ahold of my hand, stopping the blade from piercing my heart. “I… I love you Ryder. If we can’t be together in life, maybe… Maybe we can be together in death.” I whispered into the dusty air.Tears streamed down my cheeks. I am praying that I can see him again. I feel the blade make its way through the skin of my chest, only inches away from its target, my heart. Warm sticky liquid exits the wound and makes its way down, leaving a growing red spot on my white bustier. Then something stopped me. “You really didn’t think I would let you kill yourself, do you? Not when I finally have you all to myself.” Ares spoke. “Ares! No, let me go!”Ares hand covers mine, halting it so that it can move no further. My mind told me to scream and kick, but something else happened. It’s almost like a camera flash. I blinked, then standing before me is a solid black form. Scales so dark that it was almost like you
Alpha of Gods Nothing
Chapter 83: NothingRyderWhere the hell am I? Not this again, damn it! It’s pitch black. This reminds me of when I fell from earth straight into hell, but this time, I know I am not alive. I have lost to… him. Raising my hands to look, I don’t see any wounds, I don’t feel any pain. Well… I do feel the pain in my chest that comes with the fact that I have let everyone down. I let Demi down. What’s happening on the surface right now? What is he doing to her? Are my parent’s dead? Drake… I watched his lifeless body disintegrate. He got blown away into the air. Luca… He, fuck! There’s no way he would have walked away from an attack on Ares. They were my best friends. Everyone has sacrificed so much for me. I’m useless.I drop to my knees and fisted my hair. Squeezing my eyes shut, all I see is her, my Demi. Hot liquid seeps from my eyes, and that’s when I realize that I am crying. A Lycan who cries, ha! I’m useless. So… damn, useless! “I… I love you Ryder. If we can’t be toget
Alpha of Gods Numb
Chapter 82: NumbRyderConsciousness evaded me. Every hit that landed on my head and face caused me to temporarily lose my eyesight. Black dots swirled and blurred my vision as I thought about what it was that I was doing. I can’t let this guy beat me. Not this time. He successfully tore me away from Demi once. It won’t happen again. Where’s my Lycan?Ahh there he is… I grinned as my teeth elongated, and my eyes shifted from crystal blue to amber with red swirls. A ferocious growl left my lips as my body continued to shape and morph. Ares attacks and blows, making everything a bit harder. My skin tore as fur sprouted to cover my entire body. I had huge paws for my back feet and humanoid hands. Surprisingly I can move just as easily in my Lycan form as I can in my humanoid form. “Your Lycan will do you no good here boy!” Ares continued. “Give up, Ryder. You are nothing.” Ares spoke and I laughed.Catching his fist in my hand, I stood in a flash and kicked his legs out from under him. H
Alpha of Gods Terrifying
Chapter 81: TerrifyingDemiMy heart was beating so hard. My eyes didn’t leave Ryder’s growing dragon frame as he flew closer, gaining speed with every massive thrust of his giant wings. I heard Drake’s body fall to the ground. I heard his heart stop pumping, but still, I didn’t look away. I didn’t want Ryder to be here. Though I knew he would come, the fear of something happening to him again creates a pain within me that could never be mirrored or overshadowed by anything else. The loss of Drake would linger forever. Sorrow was a heavy feeling, but there was another feeling in the atmosphere, bloodlust. It’s accompanied by a static energy fueled by not only Ares anger and aggression, but Ryder’s as well. Energy produced from this much anger and aggression has been building for years. This is the most dangerous energy there is. It can become its own kind of power. It brings the fight between Ryder’s parents and Hades to the front of my mind. The one where together they created the new
Alpha of Gods Then There Was Nothing
Chapter 80: Then There Was Nothing--Drake-- “Fuck! Demi no!” What the hell is she doing? There’s no way Demi can fight against this son of a bitch. He’s way stronger than I anticipated. They don’t call him the God of War for no reason. I am dead tired. I’m blaming it on being out of the game for twenty years or so. I can’t let my fatigue stop me. I have to keep pushing. I can’t let anything happen to Demi.I moved to place myself in front of her. She is a keres, but being a Demi god makes me faster. I angle my fist letting my demonic flames take over my entire form. Swinging I am confident that I am going to connect with Ares face, but I miss.“Damn it!” I growl out.I drop sliding on one knee and spin, only to be hit with an iron fist directly in my temple. My sight blurs, but I can’t stop now. This isn’t going to end well for me, but this is me making up for everything that I put Willow through. If I can hold this mother fucker off until Ryder gets here then maybe, just
Alpha of Gods Been Waiting
Chapter 79: Been WaitingDemi No words come to mind that could help me describe the scene playing out before me. That’s Beta Tanner. I can tell by the distinct features of his wolf form. He’s a loved and adored member of the Harmony Moon pack. Ares has given up his disguise of Gavin and is finally showing his real face. He has Tanner pinned down, his foot crushing the massive wolf’s neck as he struggles to breath. His wolf form kicking and bending, desperate to get loose from Ares’ grip. It’s no use. He’s not strong enough. I can tell he has fought against the God hard. Many wolves would have perished way before now, but not this one. He will fight till the end and if I don’t do something, it’s sure to happen. Drake threw his arm out attempting to hold me back. I had forgotten that he had come here with me. “Demi, don’t. Let me!”Before I could protest, Drake’s body started to change. I have never seen his true demonic form before. He began to morph
