Please drop a gem and a rating if you have enjoyed Alpha Zander so far. Follow my Social account for updates, announcements and inspo pics. Enjoy xoxo
We sit and talk for about an hour, the sun set long past. It is getting colder in the evenings now being so close to winter. It doesn’t bother us shifters much but we could feel the nip in the air. The more I get to know Ashleigh the more strongly I feel about her. I have never felt love before, not from a girlfriend or any of my fuck girls at least. They may have loved me or my status but I was always explicit in my intentions. Everyone knows that wolves have mates, and I was not going to give mine up for some one night stand or some girlfriend I could barely stand or know. I try not to make her uncomfortable, she is still sitting so stiffly on the other side of the lounge, not even budging to move closer to me. I am a bit surprised she doesn’t lean into me and relax a bit. I've felt the itch to be closer to her all evening. 'Kia says she wants to know us before doing anything further,' Jace mumbles, answering my thoughts for me. 'That makes sense I guess,’ I reply. I remember th
Monday morning rolls around, but all too quickly. The weekend is never long enough. It was great to see Zander on Saturday evening. I loved the little cottage and could imagine us maybe living there or in something similar if we had to be on the pack lands. It felt somewhat familiar being there. I couldn't quite put my figure on it, but I had a few weird flashbacks and a strange feeling of deja vu. After a while, I brushed away the odd feelings and enjoyed his company. It was nice to get to know him a bit and try to understand him and put aside all the rumours and previous encounters we have had. As hard as some of them were, I was still going to be mindful that he had a past. I didn't want to hold it against him, but I still had to keep it in mind. Kia loved running around with Jace. She is a bit more of a free spirit than I am, but we are always in sync, epically more so, now we have found our mate. While I am still getting to know Zander, Kia has already decided she wants Jace an
It was a very frustrating start to the day. Every time I smelt him, I had to act as though it was nothing. Every time he walked passed it killed me that I couldn’t speak to him. I didn’t realize how hard this was going to be, is it hard for him, too? It seems he is just moving along casually without any care for the world. ‘Remember this is what you wanted, I’m 100% sure Zander would have loved to mate and mark Saturday night when we saw him,’ Kia oh so helpfully reminded me every time I pined for him. ‘I know, Kia, I just wish it wasn’t so hard. I wanted to, at least, be able to speak to him a little bit. But even then, I don’t know what we could discuss.’ I wait for the girls at the steps by my locker. We always have lunch at the cafeteria and today is no different. I feel a pull towards the football grounds, I walk towards the windows that open up all through the hallways to provide sunlight through the dark corridors. I see Zander in a sports outfit with a red rugby top, bla
Mia launched herself at me while her sister whispered things in my ear while playing with my collar. The kiss feels like sandpaper scratching against my mouth, it is the most horrible thing I have ever felt. I hate hated this. all I want is my mate, but right now she doesn’t want to tell anyone so I have to still act like my old self before. Jace is pissed at me as usual. 'She didn't mean flaunt yourself around with other women, you dumbass.' 'Honestly, I'm confused as to what she wants.' I snap back at him. 'Just because you had a shitty weekend after she left on Saturday does not give you the right to hurt her like this. She can fucking see us! Do you know the pain you are causing her? The pain you are causing us by going against the bond?' Jace growls. No, no I didn't know the pain I was causing her, I didn't want to look at her and see the brokenness I caused. I hear Oliver call her name, snapping me out of my funk. I look up just in time to see her leave the cafeteria and he
From school, the drive is only tab out 20 minutes. Yesterday I took the time to set up the electricity and water. I also made a key cut in case she ever needed to go to the house and I placed it in a hiding spot last night and messaged her so she would at least know where that is to get in. As I drive, I think about how to explain away my actions. Hell, I bet she'll be pissed off considering the way she left, but at the same time, that is how I always acted even before. I can't go out of character, can I? Jace stayed quiet on the drive there. He purposely blocked me from his thoughts and feelings. Before he did that, I could sense that he was filled with anger and hurt so it's probably best I didn't get those feelings right now. I needed to figure this out on my own. When I pull up to the cottage there’s no car in the driveway or any lights on in the house. 'it's in the middle of the day,' Jace mutters softly to me. . I sigh. Of course he is right again. I park in the middle of t
Anger. That is all I feel right now. The pain from his actions is long gone and now just a memory of what happened. He doesn’t deserve to be my first kiss, he doesn’t deserve to be my mate. Not with how he was flaunting himself around everyone. Kia didn't say anything while my mind was in this mess, we agreed if he cheated or did something of the same vein he could be rejected. I didn't think he would, especially after what he said on the evening of my birthday. Was none of it true? I'm surprised she didn't stop me when I tried to reject him. She stayed silent letting me make the decisions on our mate. I know she was hurt by his actions, probably even more so because Jace allowed him to do such a thing. But she hasn't said anything to me since arriving at the cottage, even on our run here she was silent lost in her own thoughts and emotions. I honestly wasn't expecting him to come after me, but Kia chose to come here while running. To our surprise he arrived shortly after, of co
As soon as she let go and moved away, my body felt numb and cold, and the incredible sensation of tingles left my body. All I want is for her to be back in my arms and her scent all around me. “What do you want to do then?” She asks, blinking up at me shyly. This girl will be the death of me... one minute, she’s all angry and annoyed. Then the next minute, she’s all blushing and shy. I stop suddenly before moving forward to grab her hand. I hadn’t realized she was only wearing the grey shirt. ‘Because she ran here stupid,’ Jace grumbles. ‘Nice of you to join,’ I grumble back. ‘Don’t give me attitude. You're lucky it wasn’t worse; I had to calm Kia down a lot, and half the time, I couldn’t get to her because she blocked me,’ Jace mumbles. 'She almost rejected me,' I reply, protesting. 'Yes, thank goodness you knew to kiss her, or we would be mateless, and our pack wouldn't have a Luna." I block Jace as he continues his rant and takes in her figure while she's waiting for my ans
Tingles fill my body as I snuggle against Zander. Kia is practically purring with happiness being so close to our mate. The sun has moved over to this side of the house, slowly setting into the evening, warming up the bedrooms upstairs as we sit here, flicking through the photos and talking. I have to give him credit. I half thought he would make a move, something sexual or another kiss. I was hoping he would lean in for another kiss just a little bit, but I guess he didn't want to push his luck. It worries me a little bit that Mum knows Zander is my mate. It explains what happened this morning. The weird thing is I couldn't even remember anything from back then. He was so cute when he was a baby. It seems his hair sprouted as he got older and he has the same eyes as his mother. I wish I remembered her or knew her. She and mum looked like they were great friends, like Chloe and me. A pang of guilt washes over me as I think about my friends and family not knowing about Zander yet.
**Grace** I lay on the hotel's disgusting bed, looking up at the cracked pink paint, watching every scrap as it peels off, falling from the ceiling. The dimly lit light flickers through the room as I try to focus on the walls around me. “Happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me,” I softly sing as tears stream down my face. How did everything get so fucked up? I had a foolproof plan that would have worked if he didn’t find his fucking mate. Who would have guessed Ashleigh Steward was my boyfriend's mate? I honestly thought it would be me. I’m an Alpha's daughter; I had a higher possibility. We had a magnetic attraction from the start, and everyone back home said we were perfect together. Dad is obsessed with Zander. But then, all he ever wants is power and money. Charwood, being the biggest pack in the country, has both. ‘We should go out. I saw a bar when we walked past here,’ my wolf Talia says encouragingly, pushing forward hopefully. ‘We need to stay hidden, Talia,’ I
I stand at the end of the aisle in front of a room full of hundreds of people, the majority of whom I know. I know most of my pack and most of the Alphas and Betas who accepted today's invitation. Dad made a point of inviting nearly everyone to Ash’s Luna ceremony. Guess he was finally over all of the grudges and is ready for a new beginning. Jace is bouncing around in my head, anticipation to finally see her. Danni is next to me, buzzing with excitement. This kid, it feels like he’s always a ball of happiness. He and Eric adore Ash, and I couldn’t have chosen anyone better to help protect her and be by our side in leadership. Her family are here except for her uncle and aunt. I’m glad her mother and father were able to come today. I could feel how happy she was through our bond. She was fucking ecstatic when they arrived this morning. Oliver and Brent are sitting next to Kylie in the front. Brent looks a little uneasy, but Oliver doesn’t seem to mind anymore. He's been back he
After everything that life has thrown at me this year, I was so proud and excited to finish school and go to one of the best universities in the country to study psychology. Graduation went beautifully; I was so happy mum and dad both came and saw me give my valedictorian speech, and despite everything I was glad they supported me. It was a huge honour to be the school's valedictorian this year. it put a little bit of pressure on me, having to write a speech, but it wasn’t anything I couldn’t handle. The dinner was beautiful, something they held yearly to send off the seniors after stressful exams. I appreciated saying thank you and goodbye to everyone, I hoped I would still see them in the future, but no one can make any promises. I had one more fabulous night with my girls, Chloe and Skyla and I was filled with laughter and love. Our friendship won’t ever change, no matter what pack we are in. Thankfully, Zander has accepted that. I’m glad I chose psychology. I wanted to choose
The last few weeks have been crazy. With Ashleigh’s recovery, our exams finally ending, and graduation just around the corner … It has just been a whirlwind of activities. I was so fucking proud of my girl when she announced that she got accepted into all the universities she applied to. Now she just has to choose her major and decide which one to go to. Personally, I admit that I am running pretty low on energy just dealing with Ashley’s anxiety and dad showing me the ropes of running the pack. Don’t get me wrong, I love my girl, but sometimes, feeling her anxiety through our bond can hit me like a tidal wave and completely throw me off for the entire day. As Danni has learnt, whatever she is feeling, I feel it tenfold. Today we finally had a meeting with the council. We tried to have one immediately, but they kept changing it and blocking us. It was their fifth time adjusting the schedule, and even then, they called everyone this morning and said today was open only for an hour
The pain that radiated throughout my body is now gone. I can’t feel anything ... I can't see anything. Instead, I find myself alone in this pitch-black void. ‘Kia, Kia’, I try to call out to her, hoping she will help me pull out of this. Once again, I’m left with emptiness. My mind spirals, thinking of all the possibilities, the “what ifs”, and trying to figure out what just happened. I’m numb; it feels like nothing exists anymore. If this is death, it is a horrible place to be … a black void with nothing by me and my hazy, uncertain thoughts. I miss them … Zander, my family, my friends. The idea of never seeing them again scares me. I feel like I’ve been floating around in this void for hours when suddenly I smell this odd yet familiar scent. It is a sweet, floral scent making my mind spin, trying to remember what it reminded me of. I try to move in the void to get closer to the scent. I need to get closer. A strong pull snaps me out of the darkness as the scent becomes overwhel
The putrid scent of antiseptic assaults my nose as I pace in the hospital's emergency room, waiting for the doctor to tell me why my Luna, Beta, and Gamma are in the state they are in. I burst through the doors earlier to find Ashleigh, only to be kicked out, so the hospital staff had space to work on her. I hoped they were helping her. I can’t lose her. Her bloodstains on my skin from holding her close have now dried as I didn’t want to wash away her scent. It was the only thing keeping me sane right now. Oliver comes flying down the hall with Brent hot on his heels. I sent him and her parents a message as soon as I arrived, and Danni was checked in. He looked so pale when we got to the hospital, and it fucking killed me the state they were all in. I hate the smell of hospitals … The smell of disinfectant stings my nose, making my eyes water. I fight Jace for control, trying not to let him take over and go on a rampage. Hospitals always bring back bad memories so the smell al
I felt a sense of loss when Zander wasn’t by my side. I suppose that’s why they allow mates to be in the same classes, so our wolves don’t go crazy on us. I had a crappy feeling for the rest of the day after this morning's conversation with Brent. I was already feeling bad that I was upset with him only a few weeks ago about hiding the same thing from Ollie and me, and yet here I am doing the exact same thing to him. No wonder he's so upset. At least Ollie and mum already had time to accept Zander and me being mates. Some girls at lunchtime came up and congratulated us, but all I could see was jealousy and frustration in most of them. It hurt that they weren't actually happy. They probably just wanted him because of his title or maybe because they were ex-lovers or a number of other reasons. I don’t have the courage to ask Zander how many he’s been with at school. I’m sure it's a lot. I won’t dwell on that fact because he is my present and future. So after everything that happene
Ashleigh's emotions are heightened by a thousand after marking her. I feel everything - happiness, frustration, sadness … It was a rollercoaster of a night, trying to navigate everything. Out of all of her emotions, happiness and joy were what I felt the most. I was so fucking grateful that she is happy to be with us. After the incident this morning with her brother, Jace was more aware of what was happening. He is unsettled that her family's drama saddens our mate, and I promise I will get to the bottom of it for her. I only want what is best for her and, at the same time, to have a relationship with her family. I want to work together and fix it. Oliver seems to be on board with an alliance. We just have to convince everyone else. Thankfully, the day is easygoing; I have a few classes without her, but that was in the afternoon. Lunchtime rolled around quickly, and everyone gushed around her, trying to get information on what happened and how we found out we were mates. I know
It was a challenging weekend. I barely went home, I had about 20 missed calls from mum, frantic messages from Kylie to know where Ashleigh was, and neither Robert nor Kylie got to say goodbye to their daughter. Now they couldn’t reach her via the pack link or family link. It was a fucked up situation just because Blackwood was her mate. I didn’t even know how to begin to explain things to Brent when he got home. He walked into a house of chaos after his patrol run that night. As much as those two niggle and bicker, they were siblings. He looked up to Ashleigh as his sister and the pack’s Beta. He respected her and appreciated her guidance. Now, I don’t even know what their relationship will be like. After seeing Ashleigh the other night with Blackwood, I knew she made the right choice. She had to be with her mate. She was his Luna, and rejecting him wasn’t an option for either of them. It was nice to see that they loved each other. However, I made a promise to myself and our family