CHAPTER 37XAVIER'S POV:I wondered what guest had arrived at this time. I was sure it wasn't Tracy because the last time she was here, she talked about going over the coast to find a new life.I walked behind my guard, keen on seeing who the first guest was because I wasn't even expecting anyone this early.Actually, I had used this opportunity to walk away from the quite awkward conversation I and Iris were soon going to engage in as I was not even ready for it.I remember waking up and not finding her on the bed. I knew she was shocked to see me and had probably freaked out so I did what was best for her by leaving.On getting to the living room, I found Lily seated on one of the chairs with one leg crossed over to the other. I was taken by surprise because I hadn't expected to see her here.I didn't even send her an invitation!I kept my cool and walked towards her as I dismissed my guard. She hadn't changed one bit. Her hair, a dirty blond shade and her characteristic brown eyes
HAZEL'S POV:Seeing that I had lost every appetite to eat, I decided to leave the dining room and look for somewhere to clear my head.I was slightly embarrassed that Xavier had left me hanging just because a guest had arrived. I guessed the guest was far more important than I was.Sighing, I let my fork drop to the plate. Wiping my mouth, I pushed my chair back and exited the dining room.While I was curious to know who the first guest was, I knew it wasn't any of my business but I couldn't even stop myself from looking to see who it was. As I walked out of the dining room, I made a beeline for the living room.There was a woman seated on the couch with legs crossed. She was extremely beautiful and slender. Tall also, something I didn't really possess. I wasn't really perturbed by it as I was a confident woman on my own. I didn't need to compare myself with anyone.I stood there for a while till Xavier spoke.Damn, he was asking her why she was here. That meant that they didn't reall
HAZEL'S POV;I was having a slight panic attack. I hadn't left my room yet and that was because of the music I was hearing from the last floor.Xavier never told me there was going to be music and a lot of people and car horns and chatters and people walking through the corridors and talking in excited voices.I wasn't a social person when it came to parties. The only place I felt like my real self had to be at the war front.I knew someone was going to come to find me and just as I had thought, I heard a knock on the door.Felix was standing before me and looking at me. He raised a brow. "Why aren't you at the party?"I opened my mouth and closed it and opened my mouth again. I didn't have anything tangible to say and he sighed before stretching out his hands for me to take.I took his hands and shut the door as he began to lead me away from my room."I know you're nervous," He began."You know me so well," I said and rolled my eyes. Felix had this thing with overanalyzing people and
XAVIER'S POV;Lily was really making things uncomfortable for me. I hadn't expected her to come to my party and knowing her, I knew she was going to find a way to make things worse.I don't want her to meet Iris. Infact, I do not want the both of them to meet so I am going to try my best to make sure they both stay away from each other."You really changed, Xa. I can't believe it's you who used to be a lover boy. Now, you're the Alpha and of a pack and everyone is suddenly respecting you,"I smiled at her. I didn't want to take what she said as an offense because it triggered a trauma response.Years back, when we were still dating, she used to joke about people bullying me and how she was the only one who understood me. At that time, I had been blinded by love and the urge to please her. Everything I wanted to do was to make her happy and that was what I did, in all honesty.But now, looking at her and listening to her, I began to feel upset. I shouldn't have started this conversatio
CHAPTER 41HAZEL'S POV;I hadn't planned on crying, I had to admit. I shook with tremors as I spoke, controlling the floodgates from opening up and rushing out in torrents but I couldn't hold back any longer.I was battling with several emotions and trying to keep them in check. From anger to shame to uncertainty to not feeling like I was enough to pain and everything negative!So when I burst into tears, I had seen it coming.Xavier hadn't seen it coming. It was obvious in the way he looked at me. He was surprised and when he drew close to me, I quickly turned away from him and wiped my tears while sniffling. I felt embarrassed that he had seen me in tears but I still couldn't stop. I kept sobbing till I got to the entrance of the bathroom. I was about to shut the door and stay there till I was able to dry my tears and wash my face but before I could shut the door, Xavi6 stuck his leg on the threshold.I looked up at him, still with teary eyes. "I need privacy, Xavier. Leave, please.
HAZEL'S POVSlowly, I watched him undress me and when bud fingers came in contact with my skin, I felt a sweet sensation crawl up my skin and my eyes closed momentarily.I was breathing heavily now, my chest heaving deeply and causing my breasts to pour out of my dress.Slowly and carefully, he pulled down my dress and all that was left were a pair of lacy panties I had found in one of the drawers.His eyes lingered on my waist for a long time and he said nothing. This scared me. What if he didn't like it on me? Or was it smelling musty because I didn't even wash it.I leaned up but he looked at me and smiled. "What's wrong?""You don't like them?" I asked awkwardly. "The panties, I mean. Don't you like them?"He looked at me and laughed. "Bloody hell. They look so sexy on you. I love them!"I sighed in relief and nodded before leaning back on the bed. "These are really beautiful on you. Your hips, Hazel. Fuck. This is what you've been hiding underneath your pants?"Before I could spe
XAVIER'S POV;As soon as she walked out of the kitchen, I made to go after her but Lily held me back and gave me a stern look. She shook her head and I sighed."What exactly do you want from me?"Lily gave me a confused look. "We were talking before she came down and you lost every ability to focus on listening to me!"I rolled my eyes. "And so what? If I lost control, so? For crying out loud, she's my mate!""But you don't love her," Lily said, smiling bitterly. She walked slowly towards me and gave me a look. "You don't love her, do you?"I shook my head. "You're not going to ask me such questions and expect an answer from me. I should go to bed and you should, too. You're leaving early tomorrow, have you forgotten?""I know you're avoiding answering this question at all cost but that's totally fine. I know you do not want to answer me. But know one thing, I will always come first in your life and you are not going to get over me,""I have been over you for years. You think I am in
HAZEL'S POV;I stayed all day in my room, trying hard not to think about Xavier stepping out of Lily's room. I didn't want to overthink the whole situation but the harder I tried not to think about it, the worse it became.At one point, I wanted to leave my room and confront him, ask him what he really wanted from me or if I was a joke to him. At a point, I shed a few tears and regretted over and over again why I met him.There was nothing much to do anyway. Ever since my identity was revealed, the workload on me had drastically reduced and I hated it.After much thinking and sitting idly for a long time, I decided that maybe I needed to blow off some steam. The idea had me smiling and light hearted.Standing up from the Chippendale chair, I raised my skirt and went to stand in front of the dresser, my eyes scanning for what to wear.My eyes caught a pair of dark green combat pants and I unhung it and tossed it on the chair close by. I decided to go for a tube that flattered my flat,