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Chapter 32: Our Bond, My Feelings
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Sydney
I can finally breathe. Being in the middle of a fight was the worst time for my heat to start. Thora was completely out of control, and it was terrifying. It took everything I could to hold her back. Keeping her under control was the only thing I could focus on when I felt Silas with me; Thora’s rage became a yearning that was even more intense. I couldn’t keep a hold on her any longer, and control over my body was yanked away.
“Sydney, I’m here. It’s OK.” I could feel Silas pulling me into the bond; it was oddly comforting. Thora and Bram were going at it in the shower, but I was disconnected from what was happening.
“I’m an emotional mess right now.” My spirit is shacky, and I honestly just want to scream, but at the same time, I want Silas to hold me close as he did hours ago.
“Focus on me. Let it all go. I’m not going anywhere.” I search through the bond till
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