Him

Adea

As soon as the doors closed behind us Ethan’s body tensed. I wasn’t looking at him, but I didn’t need to be, I could feel it. His arms flexed against my small ones, his wrist shook with what I would assume is anger. His steps quicken and I’m pulled along like a doll. I’m already noticing the difference between Ethan and him.

I don’t know when I decided. All I know is that it happened sometime from the moment he said he was the reason I had to stay here and realizing Gabriel was nowhere to be found. I had decided to lock his name away in a small box and bury it deep inside my heart. The deeper the better, if it was out of reach I wouldn’t have to think about him. Because if I did, my eyes were already starting to water.

If I did think about him in the next few days I would lose it. I couldn’t be strong, I couldn’t go through with what was going to happen if I thought about him. If I had him on my mind I would break into a thousand little pieces. If that happened I didn’t think I w