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Alpha, Not Luna 9- Working Through Some Things
Jax Gazing at Emily’s profile again, I see she has posted the guy she claimed was ‘only a friend’ just five months back and my chest ached. Social media will be the end of me. Inside me, Blue shakes his head, in disapproval. I thought I had everything figured out. I am young, I could fall in love, or not, play around with a bunch of human girls- women whatever, and have an enjoyable time until I get my mate. I knew there was a chance that the human I was with would receive some sort of degree of hurt when I got my mate and broke up with her. But I figured I would cross that bridge when I came to it. Only Emily spun me faster. Blue is not much of a talker and he broods silently. My affairs are mine, and his is his. He did not like the whole idea of human dating but he is a supernatural creature that is made for one and will wait for that one. He made it abundantly clear that he wants nothing to do with the ‘human courtship’ when he already knows when he will get his mate.
Alpha, Not Luna 10- Why Reply?
Meg Waking up with a smile is another first for me, so I send Jax a message, but he does not reply and by the next morning, I am in a depressed mood. My headache is so extreme from all my over-thinking. Am I being over dramatic again? Too clingy? Red, is also now waking up and attempting to soothe my mood. Then my thoughts go to Soren, the alpha and our one night to the last night I saw him- between Battemptingeth’s legs. Am I so starved for love that the first person to give me a bit of affection, I become a total psych and break into his house? Ignoring Red, I continue with my irrational thoughts. I’m so lucky that all the alpha did was look at me. Had he been triggered; I would have been in bloodied chunks on the spot that night. Maybe even in one of the cages in the dungeon at the back of his house. Red agrees with me here and keeps mum. Now, I am doing the sam
Alpha, Not Luna 11- Alpha!
Meg Red starts whining, her paws over her eyes as she tries to cower away- I mean I cannot see her, but I feel her movements. I am still reeling from the fact that the alpha’s scent was soothing to me when he growls, “Answer me.” And why now, out of all my life, did I suddenly sense wolves? I could have felt their powerful aura before but never their wolves. This is all new to me. Disgust is what I feel when I see the alpha because it brings back a memory of the last time I saw him. With Beth’s legs around him. And him moaning and groaning out her name in sweet bliss. Red senses my perception and I could feel her courageous stance. I beamed at her bravery and she did a happy puppy dance, at my praise. Another first. My nose twitches when I pick up another scent. It’s as if my olfactory system is now being activated. My head twists a bit to the side, my eyes sort of dropping as well from the alpha as I dissect it. Same as the beta and alpha- woodsy, musky, sort of earthly but les
Alpha, Not Luna 12- Mate
Meg His thumbs press up against the lower region of my face so that my head is forced upwards as well where his eyes meet mine then slowly down to my mouth. I drag in a shaky breath- half a breath and his hold slackens. Red vanishes after throwing that out. Without a second to spare, he ravages my mouth then with his own causing me to now taste the intoxicating liquor he had swallowed. Sweet yet bitter. My eyelids blink a few times before shutting down completely. My resentment vanishes. As if sensing my surrender, he drags me closer, roughly, moving his full lips over mine just like before. His wicked tongue exploring every part of my softness that it could reach, and my senses left as his scent invaded my mind. And like before, I try to follow his pattern of kissing, but I am not yet good at it, so I allow him to lead. This is a disaster. But I still am allowing him to ravage me, powerless to resist. Starved. My chest swells and my heart aches with such a force. His tast
Alpha, Not Luna 13- ...When I can Just Show Up?
Meg Staring at the huge metal-framed front door, I inhaled deeply, exhaling and repeating the process, counting again to three before I once again hesitated but this time, I knocked. My anxiety has been on a high but as soon as I entered the property and I picked up his scent, I was a bit ...serene. I do not comprehend why Jax has this calming effect on me when he is not my mate. While our alpha says he is my mate and I do not feel this with him. I figured this is similar to what Jax meant by the mate pull but heightened. Red is restless, and circles around me and almost beats me to it by calling out to Blue but she gives me the reigns and stands in the background, waiting. “Meg, you’re okay!” Jax almost shouted the words, his eyes searching behind me, alertly, engulfing me in his tight bear hug. Tears sting my eyes. Overwhelming joy and relief flood me. My heart feels as if it beats faster and a pained expression covers my facial features, though I am ev
Alpha, Not Luna 14- Punishing Me ?
MegAs if he too is in denial of what he knows to be the truth, he pulls me toward him again and rubs his palms over my entire body, as if waiting for me to hiss in pain. He's searching for bruises. Jax wants what he knows to be true to be a lie. We both know it. Should I confide my troubles in him? It’s not like he will be here to judge my fat belly later on. He told me he didn’t plan on staying long here. My wolf is very disapproving of my thoughts as much as she adores Jax and Blue. But how to bring it up? Like, “Hey, I know we haven’t been in touch for a while and this might be unexpected but uh, I’m pregnant?” Red’s tongue hits the roof of her mouth and her head goes from side to side, to emphasize her disbelief. What? I’m already conflicted with this drama in my life and you’re- judging me? ’s a lot Meg but you’re doing a great job on your own, you know? I am more than proud of you but what is your plan for your future? How are you taking care of this pup? Do yo
Alpha, Not Luna 15- Being Comforted
Meg “Red is here, but she says she can’t find Blue,” I commented, not fully alert to Red’s distress, fully already occupied by my own worries. Holding back my tears that are threatening to flow like the banks of an overfilled river, while avoiding clutching my chest. I reply to her and she goes into a semi-state of confusion. But I am in my little world of anxiety, to notice her movements. "She's funny.” Jax’s sarcasm is met with a sober expression. “But are you positive you are okay, Juliet?” And without warning, my legs giveaway and I crumple to the cold floor. His cry of alarm reached my ears as sobs wracked my tiny frame, each tear a testament to my friend whose warmth enclosed around me, kissing my hair and soothing me with his muttered shushes, patting my back. My feelings of overwhelm fade. He kissed the top of my head, tightening his arms when he heard my whimpering. Never have I been comforted in all my life, so it has me feeling some t
Alpha, Not Luna 16- Overwhelmed
Meg Red’s ears perk up when Blue says, Red frowns not understanding so I tell her he just means that it could be a rare happening. Red disappears again but not altogether, just from me. I can still feel her presence. I call to her, but she's gone. Blue also calls out but even he is ignored. Blue whines pitifully at her closed-off state. He is angry with me and might have said more but Jax stops him. Why is Blue coming at me? He seems to think I am the world’s biggest liar when it comes to our alpha, and now with Red? How did he know this? Red confided in him without me knowing? Of course, she did. Upset but also knowing it is selfish of me to not want her to do her own thing, I let Blue’s
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Alpha, Not Luna 83- Decisions
Megan’s POV Breathing out harshly, I stand at the window of the small office in Jax’s house, staring out at the woods that bordered the pack lands in the near distance. The morning sun filtered through the trees, casting long shadows on the ground, but I couldn’t focus on the beauty of it. My mind is elsewhere- on Soren, on Mackenzie, and on the pack that was slowly falling apart. On the three young boys that were plagued with fevers for the past two nights and what would happen to them after I left. Jax said it was normal for boys to get fevers that way but still I worried. The k*llings that were happening to the pack members and humans. The fact that Gail thought it was related to her own pack being slaughtered years back. But most importantly on Mackenzie and Soren. She needed her father and he, his daughter. Red is very stubborn and thinks Soren deserves nothing but my scorn and only softened because Soren being hurt meant her mate Logan being hurt as well. Will, had requested
Alpha, Not Luna 82- A Weakened Alpha
Alpha Soren's POV I paced the length of my office, my steps heavy, the tension rolling off me in waves. I’d spent my life protecting this pack- giving it my soul and it cost me my woman and my child! My fists clenched at my sides, and I could feel the frustration coursing through my veins, tightening my chest. Logan was almost a ghost of his former self. He barely stirred today, a faint shadow where there used to be power. He was slipping away. Five days is how long I have not seen Megan. Red has somehow blocked Logan and he has not been the same since. Logan is tearing me apart from the inside. It’s been five days since I last saw her, and the bond- what little of it I could still feel, is nearly gone. Her doing, of course. She has that power over me, over us. The pain is relentless, a constant throb in my chest that makes it hard to breathe. Logan can’t reach Red, can’t feel her, and it’s driving him mad. He’d clawed at me, howling in my head, begging to break free and find her
Alpha, Not Luna 81- Selfish Meg
Alpha Soren’s POV Her words hung in the air, colder than any wind that’s ever brushed over me. It could give the Arctic winds competition ‘I'll break your arm.’ The threat cut deeper than it should have. Meg's violet eyes, once soft and filled with something I didn’t deserve, were now hardened with the same venom she reserved for rogues. She wasn’t bluffing. I knew that, but it was the way she stood between me and him-like he was something worth protecting. It made my blood boil. I should’ve ripped his throat out the second he stood in my way. And as if sensing Logan’s desperation to break free and slice his claws across the delta’s neck, Will rushes everyone out, leaving Megan and I in privacy. Meg, standing there like I wasn’t even her Alpha anymore. The worst part was, maybe I wasn’t. She was different now. Stronger. Surer of herself than I’d ever seen her. And it made me realize just how much I had lost. She was everything any alpha would want and more too
Alpha, Not Luna 80- Smack Dab With the Truth
Alpha SorenFinally, it’s 10 am and with it, the dreaded meeting. Beta and two gammas are outside with another person- possibly the lab tech. Taking two minutes outside the door to appreciate Meg's scent, I bask in it. It's been too long without her.I was barely holding it together when I walked into the room, finding Meg and the delta already waiting- the bipolar in me again. The tension was thick, almost suffocating. Logan growls. Megan looked as though she hadn’t slept either, with dark circles under her eyes. The delta was seated by her side, a silent but steady presence. The sight of him fuelled my anger, and I had to fight to keep my wolf in check. A torrent of emotion surges through me. “We need to talk,” Megan began, her voice strained. “About Mackenzie.” Huh, I figured Logan would have done the ‘run and tell’ his mate I knew already being as she convinced him to hold himself in check and to try to contain me as well. Red was powerful enough to separate my wolf from me in
Alpha, Not Luna 79- My Daughter
Alpha SorenThe delta’s child tugged on my sleeve bringing me out of my shock mode and I asked her who told her that while I scanned the fighters behind her, a deep frown setting up house, on my forehead. The pack was full of malicious wolves and I will punish them. Mocking me as alpha is forbidden. And they were poking fun at me because of my luna playing house with another man’s baby. I knew it was only a matter of time before word got out but I was hoping Meg would have seen reason and forgiven me before that happened. Thus, coming home to take her place in my bed. “Nobody silly. I ask you.” She points to me with her tiny finger. “Mummy said my daddy is strong and brave. She say he special.” She was cute in the way she spoke missing out words- and she just saved the usual pack gossipers from a cruel whipping. Officially introducing myself to her, I lowered myself to converse better with her throwing her head back, showing she was tired of looking up. Plus, the loud breath she
Alpha, Not Luna 78- Wait Until Tomorrow
Alpha SorenThe Moon Goddess must truly despise me. Why else would she punish me so? I was barely holding on, teetering on the edge of my sanity. It had been weeks since I last saw Meg. Weeks of torture that only the Moon Goddess herself could have devised. Logan was growing weaker with every passing day. The absence of his mate was like a slow, excruciating death. And I felt every bit of it. Even if I had hoped to gather the strength to reject Meg, to sever the bond that only brought pain- at my strongest, I was powerless when it came to Megan. Both my wolf and I would accept death rather than live without our mate. I was pacing my office- I should not and save my strength but I am restless and agitated. A knock on the door pulled me from my spiralling thoughts. “Come in,” I barked, not in the mood for interruptions, though anything was better than this maddening speculation. when Beta burst through the door, his face flushed with urgency. “Alpha, they’ve arrived,” Will said, his
Alpha, Not Luna 77- Eyes Like Mine
Little MackenzieI like the park. It’s big, with lots of grass and trees, and I can run so fast! I can hear the birds singing in the trees and the wind whooshing past my ears when I run. Today, I'm playing with the other kids from the wolf pack. My shoes get all muddy, but Mummy says it’s okay because they’re just shoes. There’s this boy named Benjamin, and he’s kind of fun. He’s got a funny laugh that makes me giggle, and we run around and around until we fall into the grass, all out of breath. Beth, his mom, says I should be nice to him because we’re gonna be friends forever. I wonder if that means we’ll get married one day. Maybe. Mummy says she and Uncle Jax grew up together here, just like me and Benjamin. They were friends when they were small, and now they’re big and still friends. So, maybe I’ll marry Benjamin when we’re big, but only if he stops pulling my hair. Maybe I’ll just have him as my boyfriend. Gross. There’s a lot of people at the park today, grown-ups too. I l
Alpha, Not Luna 76- Admittance
JaxAfter getting a very tired Mackenzie inside and settled- poor child so confused by everything- we found ourselves alone, the weight of the impending confrontation pressing down on us. Meg stood by the only open window in the entire house- because it faced the forest and not the pack where someone could see it by chance- staring out at the dimly moonlit forest beyond, her shoulders tense with her unspoken worry. But I know her. Walking up behind her, I wrap my arms around her tiny waist, pulling her close. I kiss the nape of her neck and she sighs leaning back against my chest, letting go of a shaky breath, and relaxing against me, the tension slowly melting away as I hold her. “Jax,” she began, her voice barely above a whisper, “what if he doesn’t accept it? What if he tries to take her from me?” He can't. I love that little girl as if she were my own flesh and blood. It nearly breaks my heart to hear the fear in her tiny voice and to know this is what has been corroding her b
Alpha, Not Luna 75- Back
JaxIt’s been almost a month since we should have gone back to White Mountain Valley, but I kept pushing it off. Meg needed more time, and honestly, so did I. This wasn’t just about going back to the pack; it was about reintroducing Mackenzie to Soren- this time as his daughter. I knew it would be a bombshell, one that would change everything, and Meg wasn’t ready to face that on her own. She said she couldn’t do it without me, and I couldn’t leave her to handle it alone. Meg had been acting different these past few weeks. Clingy, maybe a little sad too. It was like she could feel the pull of the mate bond with Soren growing stronger as we got closer to the day we’d have to go back. I hated seeing her like this, torn between two men, and I hated even more that she thought I was trying to push her back to him. It wasn’t true, but the mate bond is a powerful thing, and it was eating at her, making her question everything. One night, just over a week ago, she broke down. We were sittin
