BonnieI wasn’t lying when I told Nicky that I knew that he needed to go and run, I could feel how tense he and his wolf were and I knew neither of them would want to lose their temper in front of me or Lexi but that wasn’t the only reason I convinced him to go. The truth is I needed some time on my own to work through everything.Don’t get me wrong, I’m so happy that he told me everything that he did and while it does explain a lot of things, it does still leave me with some questions but they’re questions that I don’t think he’ll be able to answer, not really or maybe he won't want to, I'm not sure, so for me to try and figure them out for myself I needed him gone because when he’s around it’s hard to breath, never mind think.Take away the asshole side that he carries around or at least the asshole side that he can appear to have and you’ve got everything I could have ever wanted in a mate. He’s tall, strong, and incredibly handsome. He clearly loves his family, pack and of course,
Alpha NicholasAfter a quick link to Shane letting him know I'm going for a run I take off for the forest without a backward glance. He tries to insist on coming but I quickly dismiss it. I only linked him as he is my Beta and is in charge when I'm not around. I appreciate his offer but I need some time alone.I let Storm lose and he runs with all he has. I can feel the anger rolling off him as he storms through the forest and as I feel the wind whip past us as he runs through the trees and the ground crunch beneath his paws I feel him slowly start to calm down and so do I. Reliving everything to Bonnie was so fucking hard. Yes, I've spoken about it over the years, more so the first few years after it happened but even then I've never given as much detail as I did to Bonnie. Still, she deserved to know as much as possible.She was so incredible the whole time but I could sense her pulling away towards the end and I know why. She thinks that I'm still holding back something. She thinks
BonnieThe freedom that I felt as soon as we hit the forest and Lexi let loose does not last very long, There is so much on my mind, and it's hard to stop thinking or feeling for even just the shortest amount of time. The moon goddess must have it in for me because I can't seem to catch a break. First losing my mom before I even got to know her, could even remember her, and then she let me grow up like I did and now, I have a mate who plays ping pong with my heart, and it feels like I'm about to explored.I keep going from upset to angry and while I want to curl up in a ball and cry until I pass out my anger is overriding it and right now I just want to scream and shout and destroy everything in sight. I've always been fairly quiet, had no choice but to be that way but for some reason right now I feel stronger than I ever have and ready to take down everything that's in my sight."We'll run for a while and then find you somewhere to let out all of your anger, it won't do you any good
Alpha NicholasI have every available guard searching for my girl including my brothers, Cole, Tony, and even my dad, and yet it's been almost an hour and we are yet to find her. Where the fuck is she? "We've searched the entire east border but she is nowhere to be seen," Tony grunts looking seriously pissed off. I know that I lost my shit with him earlier and blamed him for her disappearance but I didn't mean it, not really but he is blaming himself and I hate seeing it. "She is here somewhere, I just know she is." I'm not sure if I'm trying to convince him or myself but either way I pray that I'm right."Alpha we're picking up scents towards the north border." Cole's voice bellows through our link making my head raffle. "Scents... as in more than one? How many?" As I wait for Cole, I signal for several of my men to come to me, including my brothers and father. "Yes, Alpha. I'm picking up three different scents. We're by that odd-looking oak tree that sits in the middle." What the fu
Alpha NicholasWe keep searching for a few more miles but one by one the group searching mind links me to inform me that they have reached dead ends and it's starting to fuck me off. How can this be? I try to ignore the throbbing in my head but it's becoming impossible. They may be reaching dead ends but the more I search the stronger my mate's scent is getting and I soon realize that I know where we are heading, it's the cliffs that surround a massive waterfall and lake. Could she be up on them? It would explain why my men keep hitting dead ends, they are more than likely reaching the bottom of the cliffs.I link Robbie telling him that we are heading for the waterfall and leave him to inform the others as I continue moving forward. I kept tracking her scent until I too hit a dead end and it was just as I thought, It was a dead end because of the cliffs that surrounded the waterfall and lake but luckily for me, I know a quick way up them.As a teenager, I spent a lot of time explorin
BonnieAfter a few minutes of him running his hands through my hair and taking lots of deep breaths, he finally starts talking. "So you remember me telling you about Lottie's mom turning up here when she was 7, right?" I nod yes because well, how could I forget what she did? "Well, her wanting money for Lottie wasn't all she wanted when she came for that visit."She... when she first turned up she wanted me to take her as my chosen mate, to be a family with Lottie but that was never going to happen, and after she didn't get the response that she wanted she blackmailed me by demanding that I give her money or I would lose Lottie."I'm not that surprised that she wanted to mate with him "What else did she do?" He takes a deep breath and all I see is a pain in his eyes, and it feels like my heart is breaking for him so I reach out and take his hand in mine hoping to bring him even the smallest of comfort. He gives me a gentle smile but it doesn’t cover his hurt.“After I paid her she lef
Alpha Nicholas “Telling Bonnie that final part of what happened has left me feeling so many different things and above all else completely drained. I feel like I could sleep for a month but on the other hand, I also feel relieved that she knows but more than anything I feel pure terrifying fear. Once I knew I wanted her with every fiber of my bearing I was afraid that she would leave after all I had put her through but now…Well, now I’m fucking terrified that she will, and while there’s a part of me that still wants her to so that I know she will live and can have the chance of being happy there’s another part of me that never wants to let her go regardless of what could be. And while it sounds awful I’m only thinking that way because it’s been a few days since we met and yet she’s still alive so maybe we have a chance… Just maybe.I’ll pulled out of my wondering mind as my mate wiggles on my lap. She seems concerned but nothing like I thought she would be. I imagined she would be t
Alpha NicholasI don't think I have ever run so fast before in my whole life. When I sent the guards back with Bonine's brother and that bitch that calls herself my daughter's mom I give Tony some other errands to run for me to keep him away. Of course, I knew that he would want to go and see her after what she did. Of course, I knew that he would love nothing more than to kill the bitch and he may not know it yet but if it comes down to that then I'm going to give him the honour of ending her life, it is the least he deserves, but right now, I need her alive because I need to know what the fuck she's up to now. I've not seen her in almost 9 years so why is she here now?As I run with all I have to reach the cells where we keep all our prisoners I send Will a link to get several guards down there. I need to contain this as quickly as possible but it could all go very wrong very quickly and I want to make sure I have a few men there to keep Tony in line. He may be one wolf but he's als
Warrior TonyHearing my mate's story is already tearing my heart apart and yet, I have a feeling that it's only the beginning. To know that she has spent so long on her own without her family is hard enough, but to know that I literally walked over her safe house, to know that I was mere meters away from her and I left her there just guts me. If my math is right, then she was 14 when this happened, which means that if I had gotten her out of there that day, then I would have known that she was my mate.Granted, nothing would have happened nor would I have told her, but I could have made sure that she had a good life while I waited for her, and could have kept her safe and protected. Goddess, I would have done it for her regardless of her being my mate. She was just a child, and she had lost everyone she ever knew. I would have personally looked after her regardless of who she was to me, but instead, she has been alone all this time and I hate it."I'm sorry. I'm sorry that we didn't f
Alpha NicholasThe sight that I see as we head to my office causes a small amount of guilt to weigh fairly heavily on my heart. Tony is walking with Rosie right by his side as several guards surround them and, while it looks like they are protecting them, sadly, that's not the case. Sadly, they are guarding Rosie while protecting everyone else, because as much as Rosie is Tony's mate until we know everything and can be confident that she is no threat to us, then we have to be careful.We would always be careful in this kind of situation, but given recent events, we are on more of a high alert, and while it may seem unfair for her to be treated like this when she is more than likely innocent, the reality is that she could be a part of everything else that has been going on, and I can't take that risk and it sucks.Tony is my best friend and I want to be nothing but supportive and welcome his mate with open arms, but I can't, not yet anyway. There is too much at stake, too much that cou
Alpha Nicholas"What in the ever-loving fuck is going on around here? There have been more mates found in the last few days than there have been in the last few months. Is there something in the water or what?" Robbie grunts as he walks out of the guard room having overheard the newest mates that have found each other. A few chuckles can be heard from around the room, but Tony just remains still as he stares at his mate who is still in a cell."There has to be." Colt grunts, not seeming happy about the situation, but I guess that's because he's a massive man hoe and the last I knew he was in no rush to find his mate. Don't get me wrong, a week ago I would have agreed with him, but now I just think he's an idiot for thinking that way, because there's no better feeling than meeting your mate.Robbie doesn't say anything back to him, but he doesn't need to. I think most of us in this room know how much he wants to find his mate. I walk over to him and slap him on the shoulder. "Your time
Warrior Tony"Come on pick up the pace I've seen more go in a newborn pup!" I bellow at the small group of teenagers that are training with the effort of a bunch of dip shits. I often help with training sessions covering for Robbie while he's busy with other work but covering the teenager groups can be a major pain in the ass.Don't get me wrong, there are a good few that want to learn and put all of their efforts into the lessons but of course, there are also plenty of them that can't be bothered and would much rather spend their time on their phones or checking each other out and it's a major pain in the ass. I know that Robbie feels the same and I swear half the time that asshole does it on purpose, pretends to be busy so I have to cover his training session the ass wipe!“Tony, you there brother?” Nicky's voice comes through the link drawing my attention away from the teenagers that are doing a great job of pissing me off!“Im here Alpha. Is everything ok?” “Why? Just why?” I lau
BonnieHearing those words come from, Nathen I feel my spine instantly stiffen. It's pretty obvious that she's going to be scared, the girl has been dragged through the forest and thrown in a cell while all the other cells around her currently hold a bunch of assholes who I doubt are helping her situation, but the way Nathen said the words makes me think that it was meant differently.Is she scared of someone outside? Is she on the run and looking for help? Was she running from something and stumbled upon these lands by mistake and now she's fearing for her life? Is she running from the kind of pain that I am? My mind hurts with all of the silent questions that I'm asking myself but then the logical side of me wakes up and more questions quickly come to mind like is she here to cause trouble or worse is she here to add more heartache to our lives? I may not have been here for long but there are already so many people that I've grown fond of and none of those people have had easy caref
Alpha Nicholas If there's one thing that I've come to realize in the short time that I've known my mate it’s that she needs both words and actions to believe in anything and given her history it doesn't surprise me. She still doubts me and that's understandable after how we started, and she may not realise it yet but I'm all in and I'm more than happy to show her every single day of our lives if that's what it takes starting from right now.I lean in and kiss her until we are both breathless and I have no choice but to pull away. I watch as her chest rises and falls from her harsh breathing and have to tear my eyes away from her lush breasts before I lose control again. Believe me when I say that it is all I want to do right now. After tasting her last night I already know that I'm going to lose control often and I'm not sorry one single bit.I hook one single finger under her chin and lift her head until she has no choice but to look at me. I want her to see my face when I talk to h
BonnieI wake up, and instantly my whole body feels like it has had one hell of a workout, and then I can't help but smile when I remember that it has indeed had a workout. My life has mostly been clouded by darkness and whilst there was a loud voice that would constantly tell me that I wouldn't get a mate, that my mate wouldn't want me, I would still get my moments where I would imagine myself meeting my mate, him wanting me and, of course, I always wondered what my first time would be like. Although in my imagination it would take time before we got to that point. In no way did I ever imagine that it would happen so quickly, but I don't regret it, not at all.When I came to his room the thought of us mating hadn't even entered my head, but the moment he kissed me and then pinned me to the door, I quickly started losing all of my senses, then he went and said those words... those sweet words that I could see he meant, and I just forgot everything. He got me so worked up that my nerve
BonnieHe trails his hands down and then hocks his fingers into my panties and despite my nerves, I nod for him to continue, he slides them down my legs and throws them behind his head before moving up my body and kissing me while his hands work their way around my back and he unclips my bra before removing it and throwing it behind him. I'm completely naked and so fucking nervous but also so goddam turned on by him that my mind is clouded over by lust and want.He moves so that he's back to laying on his side but he's still slightly hovering over me and I soon feel his hand trailing over my breast and he gently starts to pinch and play with my nipple. A gasp leaves my mouth as his tongue darts out and he starts flicking it across my other nipple, he's licking, sucking, kneading, and pinching my nipples and breasts and I feel like I'm losing my goddam mind. Fuck, this feels incredible!He moves his mouth to my other nipple lapping at it with the same amount of attention as his hand mo
Alpha NicholasI climb onto the bed and get comfy laying on my side facing my beautiful mate before once again taking her lips and very quickly we get lost in a slow passionate kiss that drives me mad with desire. While we continue to kiss, I slowly glide one of my hands down her body and slide it under her top. I carry on the slow movement as I glide my fingers across her stomach causing her muscles to contract under my touch and I can't help but smirk at her reaction.As I continue to caress her skin, I don't miss the feel of the scars and bumps that litter her stomach, or the feel of her body as she slightly tenses and it instantly makes me angry, but somehow, by the grace of the goddess, I manage to hold my anger in. Anger has no place in the bedroom. Besides, this is anger that I will be dealing with later on and I can't fucking wait! I feel her tense up when I run my fingers across a rather large scar but I pretend I don't notice and instead move on to running my hand up her top