Alpha Nicholas"Going through all of that… I can't imagine how you even begin to move past it and what happened with Lottie is just mind-blowing but you said… You said that your reason for not wanting a mate was connected to Lottie, but if you never met her mother and she wasn't your mate then I don't understand.""I didn't meet Lottie's mom until she was 7. One day while she was in school her mom showed up at the pack house. She was dirty and smelly and looked like she hadn't eaten in months. At first, I thought she needed help but I couldn't have been any more wrong. Well, she did need help because it turned out that she was on drugs but she didn't want any help with that.""Did she come for Lottie?""No, she came for money. She turned up and demanded money for Lottie or she would take her and leave. There was no way on earth that she was taking my daughter so I paid her, I essentially bought my daughter from her. There were other ways around getting rid of her without paying her bu
BonnieI wasn’t lying when I told Nicky that I knew that he needed to go and run, I could feel how tense he and his wolf were and I knew neither of them would want to lose their temper in front of me or Lexi but that wasn’t the only reason I convinced him to go. The truth is I needed some time on my own to work through everything.Don’t get me wrong, I’m so happy that he told me everything that he did and while it does explain a lot of things, it does still leave me with some questions but they’re questions that I don’t think he’ll be able to answer, not really or maybe he won't want to, I'm not sure, so for me to try and figure them out for myself I needed him gone because when he’s around it’s hard to breath, never mind think.Take away the asshole side that he carries around or at least the asshole side that he can appear to have and you’ve got everything I could have ever wanted in a mate. He’s tall, strong, and incredibly handsome. He clearly loves his family, pack and of course,
Alpha NicholasAfter a quick link to Shane letting him know I'm going for a run I take off for the forest without a backward glance. He tries to insist on coming but I quickly dismiss it. I only linked him as he is my Beta and is in charge when I'm not around. I appreciate his offer but I need some time alone.I let Storm lose and he runs with all he has. I can feel the anger rolling off him as he storms through the forest and as I feel the wind whip past us as he runs through the trees and the ground crunch beneath his paws I feel him slowly start to calm down and so do I. Reliving everything to Bonnie was so fucking hard. Yes, I've spoken about it over the years, more so the first few years after it happened but even then I've never given as much detail as I did to Bonnie. Still, she deserved to know as much as possible.She was so incredible the whole time but I could sense her pulling away towards the end and I know why. She thinks that I'm still holding back something. She thinks
BonnieThe freedom that I felt as soon as we hit the forest and Lexi let loose does not last very long, There is so much on my mind, and it's hard to stop thinking or feeling for even just the shortest amount of time. The moon goddess must have it in for me because I can't seem to catch a break. First losing my mom before I even got to know her, could even remember her, and then she let me grow up like I did and now, I have a mate who plays ping pong with my heart, and it feels like I'm about to explored.I keep going from upset to angry and while I want to curl up in a ball and cry until I pass out my anger is overriding it and right now I just want to scream and shout and destroy everything in sight. I've always been fairly quiet, had no choice but to be that way but for some reason right now I feel stronger than I ever have and ready to take down everything that's in my sight."We'll run for a while and then find you somewhere to let out all of your anger, it won't do you any good
Bonnie"If you don't get your goddam ass down here right now, I swear to the Moon Goddess herself I'm going to get my fucking belt out and make you sorry!" My dad's voice sends chills down my spine and has my entire body shaking knowing the pain that it's going to endure very soon. My dad means what he says and, thanks to my prick of a brother, my punishment will be even more painful than normal."If I have to come and get you, you know what will happen mutt!" He keeps bellowing while I shift myself further backward in my closest while praying for a miracle or, at the very least, for a giant hole to appear in these old floorboards and swallow me whole. Of course, reality wouldn't be as kind as to create a hole for me. No, my reality will result in pain and a lot of it."Where the fuck are you!" His voice suddenly seems so close and a growl that can only belong to that of a Beta suddenly has the walls around me shaking. Shit, he's here! "This is your last chance to come out mutt. If you
BonnieI move as quickly as I can to get off of the floor and drag myself to my bathroom to try and clean myself up as best as I can before I go downstairs. The pain in my back is now more of a dull ache, but the cuts from the glass are stinging like a bitch. Luckily for me, most of the cuts aren't very deep and, from what I can see, they don't have any glass in them, so they will heal just fine. However, the one in the palm of my hand is deep and will take much longer to heal.I winch as I pull out the piece of glass quickly before wrapping a cloth around it to hopefully help slow down the bleeding. "I'm sorry I can't heal you, Bon Bon." Lexis's sad voice pulls at my heartstrings. "It's not your fault, Lex." As usual, she doesn't agree, but it's the truth. Yes, she's too weak to heal any of my bigger wounds, but she still heals my little ones and more importantly, she is here for me, which means more than she'll ever know.The reason she can't help me with the bigger wounds is because
Bonnie"Are you ok, Bonnie? Alpha's voice brings me back to the present and along with it a wave of embarrassment that I zoned out in the presence of our Alpha. "Sorry, Alpha. Yes, I am great, thank you. How are you doing today?" He nods smiling. "I'm perfect thanks, Bonnie. Please take a seat. I'd like to discuss something with you. I know you and Blue have school, so I won't keep you long."I nod at Alpha Harold and then take a seat next to Blue. She treats me the same as my dad and brother, but it's the obvious seat to sit in. "Is everything ok, Alpha?" I can see the confusion on my dad's face as to why the Alpha is here. Usually, as a Beta to the pack, he would know about any issues that need raising before the Alpha either personally address them or has him do it, but it's clear to see that he has no idea about what's going on right now, and I can imagine he is pissed about it."Yes Beta, everything is fine. We have already spoken about this issue, but I just wanted to personally
Alpha Nicholas"This ball is just stupid! What happened to mates just meeting in the usual way? At parties or normal balls like Alpha ceremonies and so on. Why does there need to be a ball just for mates to meet and why the fuck does every pack have to take it in turns to host it? Surely it should be the Alpha's choice!""Nice to see your usual happy personality glowing there, brother!" I flip Shane the middle finger while he laughs his ass off at me. "I swear the older you get, the more grumpy you become." I snort at his words while my parents walk into the room, both laughing. They've clearly heard our conversation. Stupid werewolf hearing! "Fuck off. I'm a dream to be around!" I grunt while I drink my coffee and try to block his annoying voice out."Are you complaining about the ball again, Dad?" Lottie, my daughter, asks as she walks into the dining area and takes a seat across from me. Lottie will be turning 16 in a few weeks and is my whole world. She has the typical teenage atti