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22. Journals
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2021-11-19 20:17:08Caterina
I could still feel its stare on me even as I sat on my bed at the penthouse. It felt dangerous and otherworldly, and I know it had its eyes on me. How did it know who I was?
Trying to shake off my fear, I walk towards my walk-in and scratch around for those hidden journals. I had to take my mind off of this bad feeling, and I think this will help. Climbing back onto the bed, I take a wet wipe from my handbag and wipe the leather covers to reveal a word: Волков.
I frown at this, then remove my phone from my handbag and search for a scan to translate app on the web. When I eventually found one and had the app translated, it did not surprise me at what it came up with: Volkov.
These must be the ancestor journals! When I open the books, I sigh as I realise that the owner wrote both of them in Russian. Feeling like a spy, I opened the scan-to-translate app again and started my investigation.
March 1801
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