Hey guys - So this week has been rough. I've had family in the hospital, a multi-day long migraine, and well, the US elections. Sorry that I've been so long getting everything up. We're back on track. After this week, my other book will be finished and I'll be posting two chapters each update.
I haven’t seen Nova all day and I’m excited to get to her room. I slept in my bed for a few hours, but it was shit sleep. Now that I know what it’s like to have my mate’s scent in the room with me as I sleep, I don’t know that I’ll ever be able to sleep without it again. I’m excited to see Nova, so when I walk into the room, I’m smiling as big as I can. Even more so since the nurse told me that she was awake. Turns out, the nurse didn’t tell me everything, because I see movement to the side of the room and I look over to see my parents sitting on the couch. “Hey Mom and Dad. What are you two doing here?” I ask with a furrowed brow. “I came to apologize to her, son. I need her to forgive me. I need her to know that I never meant – “ Dad’s voice cuts off as he starts to cry, his face in his hands and his shoulders shaking. Fuck! Fang curses in my head. She’s not ready for this shit. They couldn’t hold on to it for a few days so tha
Alpha Derek and Luna Annalise are staring at me from the couch like I’m the missing link in their world to finally attain peace. I’m assuming that Ivan told them that I’m his mate, though I still don’t quite believe that. My wolf didn’t recognize him. I mean, there is something about him that I can’t quite seem to be able to let go of. As much as he scares me, I also long for his touch. And with my wolf not recognizing him…well, I’ve heard people say that their wolf has talked to them. That their wolf has a name. Things that their wolf thinks and feels and wants. My wolf has never done that. I mean, every once in a while, I’ll get feelings of anger that seem to come from more than me. Especially when Roy was beating me. That’s when I would have bursts of defiance. Sometimes I would fight back. Sometimes I would partially shift. It was inconsistent and I could never predict it. But it was there. It made me wonder i
“She’s his mate?” Bryson asks for the third time since we’ve been out going to the rogue encampment that was found years ago. We’re on quads rolling through the woods since the terrain is too difficult for our trucks to get through. The woods are too dense as well. Easier to use the quads instead of hoofing it.We’re talking on the headsets in our helmet. It’s just me, our gamma Bryson, our delta Erick, and our head warrior Jakobi. Minus Ivan, we’re the strongest, most powerful, and best fighters in the pack. The fact that all four of us are out here means that this is an important mission.The thing that always rankled Alpha Derek and the rest of our father’s is that our land is so vast and there are so many hidden areas that these rogues had an encampment just a mile INSIDE our borders. They were able to rush over the border whenever we were near and had a secure place to hide from other packs and rogues. The only way in an out of their encampment was through a crevice betwe
I come out of the bathroom and he’s there. I come back from getting x-rays and an occupational therapy checkup and he’s there. I open my eyes and h’s fucking there. The goddess-damned alpha will not leave me alone. “Don’t you have something to do?” I ask, trying hard not to whine. He smiles up at me from the foot of my bed. “Like what?” He has to know that he’s annoying me. Is he getting pleasure from annoying me? Is this fun for him? Because it is SO NOT fun for me. “I don’t know,” I say, throwing my hands up in the air before waving towards the door. “Alpha things. Alpha things that make you leave this room and away from me. Preferably far away from me and for a long time.” He just chuckles and looks at me like I have rainbows shooting out of my ass. “You’re not used to having other wolves around much, are you?” I throw a glare at him, but it’s just when he starts stretching. With his arms way over his head, his shirt rides up showing a swath of tanned six p
That almost kiss, that teasing brush of our lips against each other, that fucking interrupted teasing taste of my mate has been fucking with my head ever since Sean interrupted us. I can tell that Nova has been thinking about it just as much as I have by the number of times her fingers go to her lips or she absently sucks on her bottom lip into her mouth. I want to touch her, claim her, kiss her so she knows exactly what I feel for her. But I also felt her body stiffen when she realized what I was doing. She isn’t ready for that. And I’m not allowing myself and my desires to scare my mate away. I’ll give her as much time and patience as she needs.She’s worth it. I can already tell that.She was still feeling some pain from the two broken ribs that she had, so walking was difficult for her. Hello, with broken ribs, just breathing hurts, but so do large body movements. So, she allowed me to push her in a wheelchair, to help her in and out of the car, and to get her into our ro
I wake up to the sound of banging on the door to the bedroom I’m in. “Luna! Luna! Open the door! It’s Ivan!” I kind of recognize the voice, but it’s not one that I know really well. I’m really groggy and I know it’s because of pain meds for my ribs. But the insistent banging on the door will not let me sink back into the oblivion that I had been a part of. I groan as I pull myself into a sitting position. The pounding hasn’t stopped. If anything it’s gotten more urgent. “Luna! Please open the door!” I call out, “Just come in! Geez. You’ll break the door down.” The pounding stops for a long beat before the door opens. And there is the huge giant of a man that is Beta Jude standing in the doorway. “Shit! I mean, I’m so sorry, Beta. I didn’t mean to be so disrespectful!” I’m trying to bend my neck to him while standing and maintaining my balance and there’s no way that I can do all of those three at the same time. I start to fall and the Beta runs into the roo
Jude sighs, taking a long pull off of his beer bottle. “And it’s not good, Ivan. I just…I want to make sure that you’re ready for this.” I can see the truth of what he’s saying in my friend’s eyes. He’s worried for me. For how I’m going to take this news. And that’s how I know that it’s going to be bad. I push my plate of food away from me, knowing that I’m not going to want to eat once I’m finished with this. The good mood that I had when I brought Nova home is gone as I reach for the journals. I sit there while Jude picks at his food. I don’t know how long I read or how much of it that I even fully comprehend. It’s just so…sick. So fucking evil. It takes my brain several moments to process what I’m seeing and I know that I read several pages, paragraphs, sentences over and over before my mind can process what has been done to wolves right here on my territory. She-wolves and pups were stolen by or given to the rogues for the sole purpose of human trafficking. Slaves.
Ivan carries me back to his room…our room, and we both shower. Thankfully, there is a seat in shower, so I don’t have to stand or have Ivan help me in there. Yeah, I kissed him, but I’m not ready for anything more than that. After getting dressed, Ivan helped me into the bedroom and onto the bed, then went to shower himself. I sit in the bed, waiting for Ivan to finish in the shower and think. I think about all the horrible tings that I’ve endured: the beatings, the rapes, the starvation, and the pain. The fact that I was turned into a rogue when I was 10 and that even when I was saved, I wasn’t really. I was just thrown into another kind of hell with Roy. I think about the mother that I can barely remember and how she left without taking me. How she left me with Roy, knowing what he was able to do to her, she left a 10-year-old in his care without a thought. How do you do that to your own pup? I don’t understand either my sperm donor or my incubator. I can’t call them
The rest of lunch is tense. Oh, everyone is cordial and conversation continues with very few hiccups. The men of the table trade war stories. Harley seems to like fighting – I mean really like fighting. There isn’t a single story that he tells that doesn’t have him kicking someone’s ass. It’s slightly disturbing. Especially with the way my mother stares at him with adoration. I mean, I really like Ivan, may even be falling for him. But she stares at Harley like the sun’s rises out of his ass. It’s nauseating. Almost like she traded in a world that revolved around Roy – because he was abusive – to revolving around Harley – because he isn’t. We’re about halfway through the meal when Jude and Lucy walk back in the room. Truth be told, I had expected her to reject him. I mean, the fear that was rolling off her in waves did not bode well for the start of a relationship. But when they walk back in, it’s a completely different story. Jude is walking close to her,
This is the first time since I met Ivan that I wish I had the ability to mindlink him. I need to know what he thinks of my “family” because these people give me the creeps.Honestly? Harley is the only one who isn’t giving me the heebie-jeebies.My mother is way too emotional for this. If she had really cared about me, where has she been for the last ten years?And my “sister?”Like I said before, we’re obviously not blood-related. Lucy has to be Harley’s daughter from before he met my mom because my mother is lily-white, and Lucy has the most beautiful mocha skin I’ve ever seen. Her tone nearly matches her father’s exactly.Besides, Lucy looks like she’s the same age as me, and I know my mother wasn’t with anyone but my father at that time. He barely let the female out of the house.Lucy chatters on at my left about her pack and all the clubs and social activities she’s a part of. Luna Annelise is speaking with my mother, and Ivan and Alpha Derek seem to be getting along well with Ha
Three days later…I’m so nervous that my hands are shaking. I can barely button up the buttons on my sundress. “Fuck!” I curse under my breath.“Here, let me,” I hear from behind me. Suddenly, Ivan’s large hands gently grab mine and squeeze. I sigh, looking up into his eyes. There’s so much emotion there. Emotion that I’m not used to seeing. I think it might be love.Ivan gives me a small smile and I try to return it, though it probably looks like more of a grimace than anything. It brings a light of amusement in Ivan’s eyes, though he doesn’t tease me as he does up the buttons for me.When he’s done, he kisses my nose. “Beautiful.”I just roll my eyes before sitting on the bed to put my shoes on. “I don’t know why I’m so nervous. It’s not like I’ve never seen her before.”“I get it. You haven’t seen her in years and you’re worried about how you two will get along,” he says.I cock my head at him. “Are you just saying that because you can feel my emotions?”“It helps,” he
I love that I can feel Nova’s emotions through my matemark on her shoulder. I can even hear her thoughts if they get really loud. All of that will change when she marks me. Then I can listen in on her thoughts whenever I want to. We won’t even have to mindlink each other, we’ll just be able to hear the other when we turn our minds to it. Though, I do need to initiate her into the pack again. I want her to be able to mindlink with anyone, especially if she gets into trouble again and I can’t get there. Just for the safety of my mate, I need her to be able to contact Jakobi, Erick, Jude, and Bryson. I’ll have to talk to her about it after breakfast. But as of right now, we need to get to the breakfast table. I’ve had multiple wolves attempting to break through my mental walls to mindlink me. I can tell by their mental signatures that they are my parents and my boys, probably trying to find out why we aren’t downstairs yet. Too bad for them, they needed to wait for me to di
Standing in the shower, I wash the soap out of my hair only to feel two strong arms wrap around me, sliding along my waist and moving up to cup my breasts.I can’t help but smile and lean back into Ivan’s chest. “Good morning.” And I can feel how good of a morning he thinks it is.“Mmmm,” he hums against my neck before he begins mouthing at my matemark.My body arches into his and my bottom lip immediately goes between my teeth. His fingers find my nipples and he begins to pinch and roll them between his thumbs and forefingers. The moan that flows from my lips elicits a growl from Ivan and he presses his cock against my ass.“Ivan, we can’t do this right now,” I say, though I’m not sure how convincing I am with the way that my ass is rubbing all over Ivan’s cock.“You’re my mate. I always have time to show you how much I love you. How fucking sexy you are.” One of Ivan’s hands travels down to my pussy, his finger splitting me open and finding my button. “Fuck, little rabbit.
I stand from the bed long enough to pull off my sleep shorts and then I’m straddling Ivan again. His cock, which had started to soften after he came in my mouth, is already back at half-mast again. Gotta love werewolf stamina. Still, there’s definite exhaustion slowing Ivan’s movements as he runs his hands up and down my arms as I prop myself up to look down at him. “Fuck, Nova. That was mind blowing,” he says, his hands moving to my waist and moving up my torso. His hands seem to have a magnet to my breasts, though I’m not complaining. I get a lot of stimulation from my nipples. The more that he wants to play with them, the happier I’ll be. Taking his hands and placing them on my tits, I smile at him. “We’re not done yet.” The exhaustion seems to melt from him as his fingers play with my nipples. My pussy, which was already impossibly wet from sucking him off seems to gush at the feeling of his fingers on my nipples. I use it to make my pussy glide over his nearly fu
The last thing I remember is running Nova’s hair through my fingers, the feeling of sparks marching up and down my skin as sleep tugged me under. I had to have fallen asleep. I have to be dreaming right now because I have the sweet scent of my mate all around me, the feeling of her body pressed against mine, and her taste on my lips. Of her own volition. Though Nova had willingly accepted all of my touches, but she has never initiated them herself. So this has to be a dream. I’d like to say that I was a gentleman. That I let her take the lead and take what she wanted from me. I’d love to be able to say that. But this is my dream, so I can do what I want, right? So my hand fists in her hair, holding her to me. My other hand wraps around her body and pulls her on top of me so that she’s straddling my suddenly raging hard on. And the growl that Fang and I emit is completely feral. And then I hear her moan. My eyes pop open and I see her looking at me, her gaze darkened with
We spent the whole rest of the day with Jude, Bryson, Erick, and Jakobi. The point was to let me get to know Ivan’s best friends, most trusted confidents, and inner circle. Jude is…dammit the guy is fucking hilarious. He finds a way to make a joke about everything. A way to put everyone at ease, even in the tensest of situations. He apologized to me for the way that we met that night after Ivan brought me to the pack house the first time and kept me laughing and relaxed the whole time. Bryson, his delta, is really sweet. Sometimes a little slow on the uptake, but the male has a great heart and is fiercely loyal. It was clear how much he loves his friends and he immediately welcomed me as part of the group like I’ve always been a part of them. Erick is fucking intense. As the gamma, his role is to be my protector from everyone and everything, including Ivan. He immediately sat between me and Ivan, getting me drinks and the best food until Ivan literally had to order him to b
I stare down at the male in front of me, the alpha of my pack. I should feel power at having him kneel in front of me. Smugness. Satisfaction. All I feel is a love. And a healthy does of fear. Because he could very easily be lying just to get me to stay. He could just be using me, like everyone else in this awful life. How do I trust him? Neither Bite nor I know what to do at this point. “I don’t know how to trust you,” I tell him. “Not just because of the mark. I’ve…There’s never been anyone other than Cody that I could trust.” His eyes soften, his tight muscles loosen as he looks at me. Carefully, slowly, he reaches out and strokes my cheek. “I am sorry, little rabbit. You have a had a heard life. And I have just made it harder for you.” Even with how angry I am, the sense of his betrayal still sizzling in my veins, I lean into his touch. He is my mate after all. I close my eyes and let my self sink into the feeling of sparks that flow across my skin. When