Voices and rushed footsteps outside my room forced me to rise early this morning.
For a moment, I’m confused, as I dress quickly and stride downstairs, avoiding frantic staff who hardly have time to murmur vacant apologies at me as they pass. The main foyer downstairs is far more busy, many people separated into small groups as they talk fill the space, none bothering to look up as I join them, looking for anyone I know who can give me answers.
Spotting Isaiah at the other end of the room, speaking to some unfamiliar face, I walk to meet him, hoping I don’t have to awkwardly stand behind him while he talks. Mercifully, the sullen looking man he was speaking to gives him a farewell nod and moves onto another group, allowing me to occupy the Alpha’s intention instead.
"What's with all the commotion?" I ask, motioning to all the well-dressed people. Isaiah too is well-dressed, opting for a black jacket with a crimson under shirt, each wave to his ebony hair smooth and purposefully placed.
"Important people are here," he says, as if he suspects someone should be listening into our conversation. Then his tone drops a note deeper as he speaks lowly to me. "Zire should have briefed you."
I blink. "He did."
Now that Isaiah mentions it, Zire did mention it to me a couple days ago. All these people are here for a meeting about attaining land in rural districts of the Pack, which is allegedly promising. Whatever they plan to use it for, I don’t care, it’s land being taken from the farmers, from those who had it passed down to them through generations. It took everything in me to quietly nod along with what Zire was saying, trying not to react.
"I wouldn't have taken your bed to be the best place to conduct meetings about work..." Isaiah mutters coldly. I think about last night, the words Zire and I exchanged. Isaiah interrupted us at a compromising point, so I can imagine what he is thinking.
It benefits me, I realise, for him to think something is happening between Zire and I.
"We weren't talking about work,” I respond easily, training my gaze on a pretty woman conversing with another, both looking bored of the crowd around them. Likewise.
Isaiah grabs my sheer sleeve of my dress, tugging it gently to get my attention. "What were you talking about?"
I glance at him, and for once, I see a hint of vulnerability within him. I’ve decided I like the way his deep, forest green eyes glisten when he is intrigued by me, and how the depths of gaze reveal hints to what he is thinking. He won’t admit it, but he has been thinking about Zire and I, and it’s been bothering him.
"Am I sitting in on this meeting, or just taking photos?" I ask instead, not wanting to divulge him in any details of Zire and I’s relationship. The truth wouldn’t work, anyway. Zire is seemingly on to me, and I blatantly threatened him.
Isaiah pauses, letting me bathe in a single, small victory, before he straightens, sighing through his nose. "Whatever you like."
"I'll sit in." The more information I get, the better.
"You won't be familiar with any of these people, and name's are not important," Isaiah explains, motioning to the group of people before us, still stuck in conversation. Names would be nice, so members of the Rebellion could do some investigating, but I’m not going to push it. Not when Zire has shaken my confidence. "I'm signing off on a deal to start construction on a new factory."
So that’s what the land is for. I slather a pretty smile onto my face, trying not to sound sardonic. "Wonderful."
"Hmm,” Isaiah merely muses, before turning to speak to someone as they approach them.
Only a few minutes later, everyone was hoarded into the formal dining area for the meeting. Everyone was served wine and platters of food was laid out to be picked from, most speaking about anything other than the land and the factories to be built on them. I sit right next to Isaiah, avoiding the probing gazes of everyone around me, trying not to think about the fact that any one of them could know of Kenna’s real identity and reveal me as the fraud I am to Isaiah.
"Isaiah...Where is your father?" a man from across the table asks, catching a few of our attention. Isaiah shifts uncomfortably, however bears that standard Alpha mask upon his face expertly.
"Away," he responds smoothly, although I don’t miss the way his fist clenches around his fork. "We don't need his authority, though."
The man speaking to him as if he is below the position of the Alpha is an older man with grey hair and an overindulgent eye, which shifts to me. My shoulders stiffen, my heart racing. I don’t care who this man is, but there is something about the way he looks at me, judges me that has an uncomfortable weight settling in the pit of my stomach.
"Who are you?" he asks gruffly, wiping the slight stain of wine from his upper lip.
"Alder's daughter. She's going to make a speech to some cameras,” Isaiah responds for me. I don’t look at him, even though I am grateful for him taking attention from me. He’s likely used to being judged by these people, all of high standing no doubt.
"Great!" the man exclaims, laughing hoarsely. He nudges the man next to him, but he doesn’t react, more concerned with Isaiah’s rank than the other, it seems. "Good to see you're getting others to do your dirty work, just like your father."
"It's my signature you need, remember?" Isaiah mutters flippantly, as if he is unbothered, yet I don’t believe that.
"Don't pretend you are anything more than what your father wants you to be,” the man growls, turning from joyous in mocking him, to sinister and cold.
I shiver. I get the feeling Isaiah could kill each of these men right here with his bare hands if he felt so inclined. He towers over them all, his stature impressive, and not just in comparison to theirs. Yet he continues to not react, looking away from the man with nothing but boredom in his eyes. With bated breath, everyone in close enough proximity waits until Isaiah gestures for them to continue their discussions.
The meeting continues for another few hours, borning uninformative. I was hoping for something of value, but right now the Rebellion needs to concentrate on this mission, not another to deal with all these hopeless excuses for men and women.
I catch up to Isaiah as everyone disperses at the end of the day, walking beside him out of the dining room. "They don't like you very much, do they?"
His eyes are cold as he looks down at me. "They don't know me."
***
I’m laying on my bed, flipping through a book when the curtain covering my open window is pulled away.
Flinching, I get to my feet, until I realise with relief that it’s Malin, quickly followed by Kadrick, who she begrudgingly helps through the window. We had discussed a route for them to get in here. With me in this room, they are free to enter here only, to speak to me. Although I thought we were going to do a few trial runs along the perimeter before they came right in here.
"Malin...What are you doing?" I gasp, rushing to close the door that was slightly ajar.
"We haven't heard from you, so we came to make sure you were okay,” Kadrick exclaims, wincing from what must have been a difficult climb up the thin trellis outside. I want to be relieved to see such familiar faces after the day I have, but I’m anxious to see them in this place.
"I'm fine," I mutter quietly, looking at Malin. "Did you know how little of a say Isaiah gets in political matters?"
"What makes you say that?" she says, frowning. She didn’t know that, and neither did I. Malin hates being a few steps behind, and me being here as revealed we don’t know as much as we thought we did.
"I sat in on one of his meetings and he didn't even read the papers they handed him. He just signed,” I explain, folding my arms over my chest. He didn’t even participate in conversation, or pretend to seem vaguely interested. I would have assumed something of such importance would be for the Alpha only to decide, yet it was up to all those wealthy men and women who are getting far too much out of it.
Kadrick steps forward, unkempt brown hair getting too long around his ears. "I'm sure he is well aware of the damage he causes."
"None of those there liked him very much either,” I mutter, thinking about how they mocked him, how they presumed he was weak and unworthy as Alpha. Is it because he is young? He is not weak, by any standard, and from what I know, not foolish either. They spoke highly of his father, so I would think he would demand they respect their son in his absence...Yet, it’s as if Isaiah’s name has been poisoned to them, instead.
Malin steps forward, grabbing a hold of my shoulders in a grip so tight it makes me wince. "Wake up Avia, no one likes him."
"I know..." I snap, brushing her off me, not wanting to look into those frightfully dark eyes, not when she is angry. "I just want to know more."
"Time is of the essence," she reminds me. "Get to him, and find out more now."
I nod quietly, glancing at Kadrick. Malin turns toward the window, figuring I have no other information for her, yet Kadrick lingers for a moment longer. He looks as though he wants to say more to me, but instead, follows Malin out the window without a goodbye.
This business is cold and unfortunate. And I just can’t wait for it to be over.
~AviaI go where I know I can run into him naturally.I’m not sure how long I stand in the kitchen, sipping from a glass of water, waiting for Isaiah to emerge from his underground room. Malin is right, this mission needs to move forward, and quickly. The longer it takes for me to get information from Isaiah, the longer I have to be here, which means at any moment, someone could realise I’m not the real Kenna.Finally, I hear soft footsteps from the adjacent hallway, so I turn to the tap on and refill my glass. All my senses are alert as I anticipate Isaiah’s entry. Speaking to him like this, in the middle of the night where he
~AviaI couldn’t bring myself to admit to Malin and Kadrick what happened in the kitchen last night between Isaiah and I.I’ve spent the better part of the day gnawing at my fingernails, leaving them raw and tender, pacing back and forth incessantly in my room. Proceeding from here is going to take a lot of caution, since I’m teetering on a very dark, unforgiving path. Had I succumbed to Isaiah’s wishes, what would have happened to me? I would be disgraced."You've failed. He truly doesn't want you,” Malin mutter, tossing her hands up. I sit with m
~AviaI lean back in my seat, letting the sun drench me."How are you and the Alpha doing?" Cherry’s sweet voice asks from beside me. I turn my head, looking at her. Myself, Cherry, Mari and Savea have found ourselves louding out the back of Isaiah’s manor, enjoying the heat from the sun. My morning was hectic with everyone running around trying to make sense of what happened to my personal guard, and since I’m not allowed out of sight without one, I’m forced to be in the company of three girl’s I struggle to have anything in common with."I'm gett
~AviaKadrick passes back and forth in my room, dappled streaks of moonlight tracing his person."I can't stand him,” he mutters distractedly, hands clenched firmly at his sides.I loung back on the bed, chewing mindlessly on a snack I retrieved earlier from the kitchen. Kadrick is struggling with the same initial feelings that consumed me when I arrived. He may not have experienced the consequences of Isaiah’s reign to the same extent I have, but that, and yet the anger he grapples with is fiery and hot, compared to mine, which simmers at a cold, dark intensity. I’ve had years to cry, to scream and truly feel
(TW: brief indications of abuse in the very beginning)~AviaI scrunch my nose up, trying not to sneeze.This morning I was summoned early to have breakfast with the girls outside in the formal garden under an impressively sized pergola. The morning sun warms my back as I enjoy my white tea with honey, even if I'm rubbing my nose every few seconds, silently cursing my allergies, even if the blooming flowers around us are beautiful."Who is Elise?" I ask mindlessly once the discussion between Savea and Cherry dies down.
~AviaIt's been a whole day, and Kadrick is gone.Earlier, I woke, walking out my room to see he has been replaced with another man, far older, although looks equally as physically capable. Surprisingly, it didn't unnerve me. This is what we wanted, for Isaiah to get jealous, and with Kadrick out of here, it means one less thing to worry about.Isaiah wasn't around for most of the day, tending to business elsewhere, and missed dinner. Now that it has fallen dark, my curiosity has lead me outside, after stalking through most of the manor trying to find him. I'm here for a reason, and it isn't to avoid him.
~AviaI stare out the window, brooding."Something on your mind?"Flinching, I whirl around, facing Kadrick. He stands across the room, looking at me with a raised brow. Ever since I left for the mission, he hasn't been looking at me the same. I know it bothers him seeing me going back to Isaiah so many times, especially when he has witnessed it himself, but I didn't expect him to still harbour those feelings when we aren't even talking about him.Even when I'm not looking at Isaiah, I'm thinking about him. It's plaguing me, that there is some kind of co
~AviaReleasing a long, slow breath, I relax back into my pillow.I've spent the better part of this morning following Isaiah and a few of his guests around. They were from outside of the Pack, so I was used to making Isaiah feel more approachable, more friendly and trustworthy. How well it worked, I'm not sure, but it felt strange trying to aid him and his reputation when in reality, I want this entire place to burn down around him.The sound of footsteps from down the hall rouse my attention, my eyes drifting up from my book. I've been enjoying lounging in the afternoon sunlight that cascades through my windows, and now it's about to be interrupted.
~AviaI hold Isaiah's hand tightly, looking at him as he looks at the house that reportedly held his mother in the duration of Isaiah's reign as Alpha.Over the past month, while transferring power, we have sent her letters, asking her if she wanted to return to the estate, but she refused. So now, we have come to where she has made herself a home, on the edge of the Passion Pack.Isaiah is anxious to see her again. It's been years since Kit forbid him from seeing her until he proved himself as Alpha.And now I get to watch them being reunited."Are you nervous?" I ask softly. Isaiah nods, swallowing tightly as he stares at the front door, which we are yet to approach. He's taking his time, drinking in the sight of his mother's home, which she is unwillingly to part with. I can't blame her. It's beautiful out here.Isaiah sighs. "More then I would like to admit.""When did she leave?" I ask gently. Making him repeat the story will make him remember who much he wants this. He's convinc
~AviaIsaiah's fingers press gently into my jaw, turning my head around so he can examine my face.Kit's hit has left a mark, which I've thankfully covered with makeup, although by the seething anger simmering in Isaiah's gaze, some of it is still visible. It's not good, considering it's Tai's wedding day to Elise, and important people will be present. But by the end of the ceremony, it won't matter."I'm going to kill him," Isaiah growls softly.He looks handsome, dressed up as he is, looking the part he is meant to play. Today, it doesn't hurt to see him like this, knowing we are going to escape this life, that he is mine completely, and soon, him and I can be together with no interruption."Me too," I sigh, fighting the urge to touch the tender flesh of my cheek. It only stoke my anger, my desire for revenge that I will be granted today."I can't believe he would hit you." He shakes his head, dark brows furrow."It won't matter after today, right?" I say lightly, trying to remind o
~AviaThe cool of the night does nothing to soothe my anger as I stride outside, wondering if I should run into the forest and never come back.I hate her. I truly hate her.Footsteps sound from behind me, and when I turn to look over my shoulder, I'm relieved to see it's Isaiah approaching, and not Malin. "Hey...hey, Avia, are you okay?""I'm done. I hate her," I tell him. I don't even think I can look at her again, let alone continue with the rebellion. It's not worth it anymore, if Malin is doing this. I should have backed away the moment she took my leadership position away from me, but Isaiah being involved encouraged me to stay and see this through.He envelopes me in a hug, pressing me against him. "It's okay...""No, it's not okay. She killed Kenna," I tell him, as if he truly ever knew who Kenna was. How could anyone take a life like that? I should have freed her much sooner...I should have saved her when I first started having doubts."She shouldn't have done that, I know th
~AviaRebellion meetings like this are risky.With Kit staying at the estate, he notices absences far more. So we have been sneaking out together in the middle of the night. It's exciting, doing this behind Kit's back with Isaiah. I'm beyond happy that I know longer have to keep this from him.Elise and I haven't spoken since she demoted me. The only reason I want to stay is because of Isaiah, otherwise I think I would have left by now. She went behind my back. I don't think I'll ever trust her again.But I've decided I like Kae. She is decisive and honest.Malin may be the former, but she most definitely is not the latter."It's our time to move soon. Kit may not be around for long, so we need a solid plan," Kae tells the group, steam from her coffee wafting up around her face. Everyone is overwhelmed by Kit's visit, knowing now is the time to make our move."I want to kill him. I'm going to kill him," Isaiah says. Everyone is still, knowing what it must take for a son to want to kil
*Mature Content Warning - Read At Your Own Discretion!*~AviaKit arrived a few days later, much to the dismay of everyone in the manor.Mercifully, I haven't seen him all day, keeping to myself. However, dinner time has come around, and I've been summoned to the dining room. I wish I didn't have to see him until the moment I can kill him, but Isaiah wants to announce me as his mistress so his father won't speculate about any affection we show toward each other.Striding into the dining room, I take my seat next to Isaiah, opposite Kit. Cherry and Zire are here, but Elise has finally departed home for a short period of time before the wedding."Kit, it's good to see you," I muse, forcing a tight smile upon my lips."You too Kenna. How is your father?" He asks, brazenly looking over me. I can feel Isaiah stiffen watching his father, but I quickly nudge his leg with my foot under the table, not wanting him to reveal his anger right now.I summon a calm breath. "Doing well.""Really? I h
~AviaWe sit at the table the next morning, silently eating our breakfast."You all okay? You seem tired," Cherry notes, looking at each of us in turn.Considering everything that is going on, Elise has made some kind of excuse to stay. Now we are all here at once, all in the rebellion and eager to deal with Kit. Cherry has no idea though, which Zire insisted continues. It's not that we think she will talk to anyone about it, we all just agreed that we didn't want her to have to harbour this secret."Hardly slept," Isaiah mutters, glancing up at me over the rim of his coffee cup. We got back late last night, and although part of me was tempted to spend the last few hours before dawn in Isaiah's room, I remembered the role I have to play here.And it's not as Isaiah's mate.Elise leans back in her seat, peeling away at her fruit. "Me neither.""I was...reading," Zire says, frowning down at his plate, avoiding Cherry's eyes. So much for the expert liar. When it comes to Cherry, he has n
~AviaI find Isaiah standing outside the compound, staring off into the small woods that flank it.He wears the shadows like a cloak, not looking my way as I approach. My heart pounds wildly, stomach fluttering. I'm frightened he will tell me he won't forgive me, that he doesn't want anything to do with me.But I'm also frightened he will tell me he does want to be with me, and everything will go back to being complicated.He continues to stare straight ahead into the darkness as I lean my back against the wall of the building next him. "I don't even know your name.""It's Avia," I whisper."Avia," he mouths, testing my name out on his lips.I've become so accustomed to hearing him call me Kenna that my stomach flips hearing my true name. I never thought we would get to this part, where he knew my name before his reign as Alpha has been taken down. But it feels right, as if the last puzzle piece has been slotted in to confirm we truly are mates, because the feeling that overcomes me h
~AviaI've never felt such horror.This is a trap, we've been caught. Zire told Isaiah who I truly am, and now they have infiltrated the rebellion, and I'm going to go to prison for a very long time. I feel like screaming, hyperventilating or even fainting. Anything to distract myself from the terrifying reality that my life is truly ending."What is going on?" I ask quietly, looking at everyone's shocked expressions in turn. None of them look angry, surprisingly, but it appears as though they didn't expect to see me here. Maybe this isn't a plot against me.Isaiah steps forward, all the warmth in his emerald eyes that I've become familiar with has leeched out, leaving an iciness in it's wake. "That is a great question."Malin grasps my arm, looking as panicked as I feel."We need to get out of here, Avia. We have been caught," Malin exclaims, backing toward the door. This is the first time I've seen her not in control of a situation, taken aback by the last people we expected to see
~AviaTears stream down my face as I drive, aiming for the city.I can't go back, not now. The mission is over, and I failed. All I can do now is hope Malin will take me back into the Rebellion, otherwise I'm going to have to create a life elsewhere. It hurts to think about leaving Isaiah, never seeing him again, but I can't risk him forcing me to stay with him, to be with him when I want nothing to do with leading this Pack.Eventually I make it into the city, my tears drying as a sense of responsibility drapes over me. I've known I wouldn't be able to make this work for a while, so this shouldn't have come as a surprise.I just wish I didn't allow myself to be so weak in that moment...I shouldn't have let him kiss me.Once I've made it deep into the city, I park and change quickly into clothing in the back of my car. I need to get some sleep, in this quiet parking lot, with what remaining hours of night time are left, and then head to the compound in the morning.I wake a few hours