Punished

Chapter 1.

-Tatiana’s Pov-

It was early morning when I found myself running down the stairs at the speed of lightning. I was being chased by the alpha of my pack. He has been my emotional abuser ever since my parents died when I was eleven years old. Alpha Alexzander Snow was sixteen.

it was at that age that our parents were out by the hills having a picnic together our parents were the best of friends his father and my mother were like two peas in a pod they did everything together and when they both found their mates the best friends of two became best friends of four.

It was my mother’s birthday and to celebrate they had surprised her with an outing at our famous hills that grow mother’s favorite flowers, lavender and poppies. Mother And alpha Ben Snow had planted them when they were kids and over the years they have grown wildly throughout our pack grounds. the sight of those hills is absolutely beautiful.

On that day, rogues had broken through our borders and killed the Alpha and Luna, along with my amazing mother and my bear of a father. My daddy was my whole world. He was my protector and mother was strength. They had decided to begin secretly training me at the age of five. Daddy was always saying that I needed to know how to defend myself in case I ever lost them.

Alpha Alexzander destroyed the pack house that day while in mourning for his loss. He was left in charge of me that day. We had been swimming in the lake when he received news of the attack, but it had been too late. Our loved ones were no more. I had never seen him so angry before, so when he lost it and begin breaking everything within his eyesight, I fled and hid in the woods.

I remember climbing the tallest tree all the way to the top and I cried my little heart out. At some point I had fallen a sleep and when I woke up I was being carried in Zander’s arms back to the house. My room used to be on the floor below his, but that night he put me to sleep in his bed while he sat in a chair in the corner of the room watching me the whole night.

When morning came the next day, he expressed to me that he felt it was my mother’s fault that his parents had died. He said that he will see to it that I live a miserable life since my parents weren’t alive to be punished for his parent’s deaths. At the time, I had never cried so hard. I felt betrayed. How could he act like I had not lost my parents to as if was the only one who had lost his family that day?

After he told me of his plans for me, I had been kicked out of the beta quarters and sent to live in a small shack that was meant to be used for storage behind the pack house. Zander had gotten his wolf and shifted two weeks before that horrible day. I remember that night like no other. His wolf was gorgeous. He was a dark grey wolf and in my eyes; he was as big as a mountain. Evey now and then I laugh to myself at how I used to see him as great and mighty.

But now, even though he is a very tall man, my heart sees him as a small, cruel man. The same day he kicked me out of my home, he was made the new Alpha of the red river pack. So there I was, a small eleven-year-old girl trying to psychically and mentally prepare myself to live alone in the shack separate from my fellow wolves. Even at that young age, I was wise enough to know I needed to mourn the loss of both our parents properly. Meaning I never gave myself a timeline. I cried when I needed to.

I never stopped my training. I would go the hills where our parents died and trained myself every night at their gravesite after the pack when to sleep. it was the only time I would get to myself and I found strength training with them watching over me. I’m seventeen years old now and six years have gone by since the rogues had attacked, taking the lives of the souls loved the most. Zander is now twenty-two years old and has been dating my ex-best friend for the last two years. Everyone knows they are not mates, but it has not stopped them from continuing their relationship.

For whatever reason, Zander’s dumb girlfriend Sarah has made me her enemy with no reason to. My best and only friend in this pack believes she has targeted me because she knows that Zander blames my dead mother for everything. I would be utterly alone if I did not have Shayla to keep the small light in my life burning.

So here I am, once again, running away from Zander. I know he will not be able to catch me because when he started chasing me, his pants were down to his ankles. Due to him screwing one of the house maids in the attic. Sometimes I wonder why he even bothers to claim he loves Sarah when he stays cheating on her with any willing shewolf.

I didn’t mean to walk in on them. I was only going to get more cleaning supplies to restock the pantry downstairs. I think what made him more angry was that I giggled because he was the one bent over. “She had been spanking him with his own belt, telling him he’s been a naughty boy.”

I only had one chance of escaping his wrath by hiding in Shayla’s room. Shay shay are you boning in your room right now?

Hello my dear, ugh I wish but no, my mother has me running errands for her. Why, what’s up? Are you hiding from that big buffoon again?

Hell yes I am. I sorta walked in on him getting spanked by one of the hoe bag maids! And don’t worry, I’ll share the mental image with you later tonight.

God, I love our special sitcom night. I’ll make sure to bring the popcorn this time. You know we should start calling the Alphas escapades the wet dog show! Ja ja ja gosh do I make myself laugh. How lucky am I that my best friend was born with special wolf powers, Tatiana? The fact that you can show anyone every thing you see is just crazy!

It’s a date, booboo, but I just made it into your room. I’ll hide out in here for a while k. And that’s our secret. remember no one can know about my powers, OK? So If you don’t mind, I’m going to take a shower and a nap while I hide from Mr. Fifty shades of grey.

Sure thing, sweet cheeks. See you later, Tati..

— My eighteenth birthday is in two days and I’m so happy that I get to meet my wolf! For whatever reason, the mood goddess bless’s every male with their wolf at the age of sixteen while us chicks have to wait until we turn the glorious age of eighteen. For years I’ve told Shayla that when I meet my mate, I’m going to leave this pack for good. I’m so tired of being punished for an act that had nothing to do with me and that was completely out of my hands.

Zander may not put his hands on me himself, but he has the head warrior do it for him. I’ve been whipped so many times I’ve lost count and slapped around so much by that loser shewolf Sarah. But what Alpha Alexzander Snow does do is call me every foul name in the book. His favorite nickname for me publicly is Little whore. I have yet to know a man, so I know he does it just to be a jerk. “Privately, he has the habit of calling me Lovey.”

Somewhere in that sick head of his, he thinks it will make up for all the shitty things he puts me through. He thinks that I don’t know because I’m sleeping at night when he does it, but oh how I do know his most precious secret. Every night, he comes into my shack with his own set of keys and climbs in bed with me. And he holds me in his embrace while I sleep.

“Never failing to whisper in my ear that I’m his only Lovey.”

I already had my shower and I’ve been lying down on Shayla’s soft fluffy bed, relaxing my mind so I can doze off peacefully. Her room has been the one place he does not come to find me. It has always been my safe place. Until today, once I had finally drifted off into my deep sleep, he for the first time welcomed himself into my safe place, Shayla’s room.

For whatever reason, my parents told me that I was born special and that one day, if they were not here anymore that my wolf would explain it all to me. But even when I am asleep, my eyes can still see when my eyelids are closed and I hear everything around me perfectly. My brain records everything that goes on around me and every single moment is packed away like files ready and waiting if I ever need them. So far, I only use them to show Shayla so we can laugh at the alpha together.

When I want to show someone what I have stored away, I just have to touch my head with there’s. With Shay, for instance, we just lay on the bed next to each other with our heads our touching. After I awoke from my nap, I looked at what I saw while I slept and I was left upset at what I saw. For the very first time, Zander has let himself into my friend’s room without her permission.

If her parents find out, it will be a mess since her dad is the beta he took over when my father died. He’s pretty freaking amazing and if it wasn’t for him, my life would have been worse, but he looks out for me as much as possible. Alexzander had come in, took his shoes off and climbed on the bed with me again. But like always, he laid on top of the blanket he never gets under the covers with me. Thank the Goddess for that.

But what was different this time was that before he left me alone again, he planted a gentle kiss on my cheek and whispered my Lovey only. This is why he upsets me, why be cruel to me for all to see and sweet and gentle to me behind closed doors. I will admit that I have fallen in love with him. I didn’t plan on it and I sure as hell did not expect it to happen, but one day I woke up like a love struck puppy.

Shay thinks I grew feelings for him because he spends his nights with me in my bed inside of my tiny shack. It is only because of him that I sleep through the night. His body heat keeps me warm. I used to freeze every night until he started coming to me when I turned seventeen. I honestly how he pulls that off with his girlfriend Sarah? Doesn’t she ever wonder where he is at night and why he doesn’t share his bed with her anymore?