99. Everything and Nothing

Emmy’s pov

How is it possible to feel so much at once and yet feel numb? It’s like I’m overwhelmed with everything I tried to press down, and now there is just too much pouring out.

All I want to do is sleep and forget, but my thoughts won’t allow me to forget. Facing one fear has opened up other memories I didn’t want to think about.

Being here is making me rethink everything, and it was easier before.

Before things made sense. I had to serve my alpha. It didn’t matter if I had a choice or not, because it was my duty. It never mattered what I wanted, and it was easier that way. But now that I did have a choice, it made me question everything.

If everyone here was right about how people should treat their mates, then what I went through was abuse. Then I was a victim.

I didn’t know if I wanted to be a victim.

‘So you’d rather feel guilty all the time?’ Meave asked me.

The funny thing was that even if I accepted that I had been treated wrong, it didn’t take away the guilt I felt