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Aysel: Leaving
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2023-08-14 22:30:19The words echo in my mind, reverberating like a haunting melody. It keeps me awake all night long, refusing to let me rest even for a wink. I try hard to not remember anything because that would only lead to a bleeding nose and ears, and splitting headaches.
When morning arrives, not quick enough for me, I get off the bed. Neither the chirping of birds nor the fresh air does anything to calm my senses. I step out of the room and squint at the view outside.
The day is brighter than I like.
Under the harsh light of the morning sun, the revelation strikes like a lightning bolt, electrifying my senses. My body sways a little
Yet again, I am lost in a labyrinth of emotions, unable to find my way out. I hold the nearest pillar to keep me from collapsing on the ground. Thankfully it is quiet and devoid of guards.
This kind of betrayal feels different, it is the betray
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