Chapter 3

(Kezer POV)

"Has Hannya come home? Have you seen her again?"

My brother Enzo asked. We are going to the X-NightClub here in Grancia. He was riding in my car because he left it somewhere else and he doesn't know where to find his car.

"Yeah."

"Hmp, do you have a plan to tell her about your feelings and end your unrequited passion towards her?" He said and lit a cigarette.

"Tsk, maybe..... I told you, no smoking inside my car, right?" I punched him in the shoulder.

"Fine." He said and threw the cigarette.

"So, back to Hanya, what are your plans now? I just found out that our cousin Gale also wants her."

"I don't know, can you, stop me with your questions. I don't feel like answering any of it, anyway."

"Geez so cruel."

How can I answer his questions, I don't even know what I'm going to do now that Hanya is back in town. When we were still in high school, I did a lot of bad things to her. Just like destroying her relationships. I don't know, should I leave but every time I see her with another man I get angry, so I do everything to break them. After highschool graduation she left the town and I know he was very angry with us especially with me. I just thought, everyone who became her boyfriend has no difference to me, tall, rich, good -looking, but why not just me? The one who will take her home. She would talk at lunchbreak or go out with her every weekend. But why isn't it just me? Why can't I? At first I thought it was just a joke and I was just mad at her because I do what she wants even if she doesn't even pay attention to me or look at me, but I noticed that I liked her and I felt jealous every time I saw her with others so I slur everyone who gets to have a relationship with her.

"We're here!" Enzo said after I parked my car in the club parking lot.

"Get inside first, I'll just smoke."

"'Kay"

Enzo walked to the entrance. I grabbed a cigarette and walked to the smoking area of ​​this club. I once left this town, but after 4 years I came back here. Life is about doing the things you love, so that’s what I do. After college of architecture I set up my own firm in the city, so saturday and sunday i just come home here to town. But if there are urgent projects, I can't go home here.

"Di ba si Kezer yan? He is really attractive." I heard a whisper. I just listened.

"I heard, he's the one with the design at the end of the casinoresort here."

"He looks confident, maybe he has nothing to worry about in life."

"With his looks and status in life, he can easily get whatever he wants."

I threw away the cigar and stepped on it. They're wrong, because not everything Kezer Alegre wants he gets. I can't even forget and end these unrequited feelings inside me, that have been torturing me 9 years continues until now. I was about to enter the club when I saw Hanya coming out of the club. She ran somewhere. I followed her. My eyes have always followed her, and so it is to this day. She was about to fall so I caught her right away.

"You fine?"

"Who are you?" she asked with her head down.

"It's me, Keze."

She lifted his face and looked at me. I smiled at her.

"Tsk so annoying. You're still smiling like that after all you did to me in the past!"

"Haha, you still have a grudge on me huh?"

"How can you laugh shamelessly? How dare you?!"

"I'm sorry."

"What do you want?"

"Well, I just want to help you."

"Do I look like I need help? Can you stay away from me? I'm sick of the way you look! "

"Geez, maybe you've been drinking too much."

She manage to be so charming even in this state, she's drunk, her cheeks are red and she can't open her eyes widely enough to see me.

"I want to vomit. Help, I want to vomit." She said.

"Come here, there is a public toilet near here, come on."

I help her to go to the toilet. After she vomited almost everything, she collapsed. How could this woman getting drunk alone. I cleaned her and gave her water to drink. Our family's resthouse is near here so I thought of taking Hanya there.

When we arrive at the resthouse I laid her down on the sofa and took a blanket and pillow. I just looked at her. She was sound asleep and seemed to be dreaming. Does she have a boyfriend now? She looks like she will have a boyfriend soon. I brought my face close to hers and kissed her. I was surprised when her eyes opened and she pushed me away. I sat down.

"What are you doing?!"

"I'm sorry."

"You haven't change, you're still a bully and a jerk. Not everything goes through sorry!" she said and got up.

I approached her and kissed her again. She slapped me. I have to put an end with this feelings, I have to tell her about it and say sorry.

"I'm even more guilty of you. Back 4 years ago, when you were drunk I also kissed you and even touched you." I explained.

Her eyes widened. "You are lying!" She said.

"I wish I was just lying. But I did that. I did those awful things, I'm the worst right. I nearly rape you back then! Haha I'm disgusting. I am despicable."

"You jerk, what are talking about?! Stop joking around!"

"I'm not joking. You are drunk and I drank too. I did those perverted things to you."

"You are shameless, you played with my body. I despise you to death Keze! I hate you."

"I did it because I wanted to. I'm so jealous seeing you happy with some other guy. I keep asking my self, why not me? Why can't you love me. I really like you then up till now. That's why I ruined your past relationships. I'm horrible right?". I cried, I couldn't even look at her.

"Hey, stop crying."

"Please Hanya, I can't stop these unrequited feelings inside me alone with out confessing it to you. Help me end these. Hurt me, say bad things or beat me to death. I'm so sorry. If you can't hurt me, or push me. Just leave me alone. Please,

it's only natural for you to be angry with me.So do whatever you want!"

I was shocked when he hugged me.

"I didn't know you had a side like that. Crying in front of a girl? Confessing and begging forgiveness, man you are pathetic.You know what, because of you I'm unable to love again. I'm afraid to love because I'm so afraid to get hurt again. But I can't think of anything to do now but to comfort you. You are a confident and tough guy, so stop crying." She said and hugged me tightly.

"Damn! You are so savage! How can I end these feelings? Whichever angle you look at, it’s as if you’ve given me hope. Right now my heart is in ferment, I still choose to continue loving you."

"And I still hate you."

I hug her back. Atleast I told her my shamelessness, I hope he forgives me. It's 9 years ago but still I am unable to make her fall in love with me. Is there any hope she will love me, after this? Or will I just leave this town and never show up with her again? ...