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AIA. 13 - 'Cause what if I'd never love again...
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All I Ask AIA. 14 - I believe your honesty, it's already in your eyes
Lost in spaceMariake Rojas – VejarJanuary 02, 2008Tulala ako. I felt... different. Was it the alcohol or was it because he's too... well... convincing?I was naked under the sheets and he was sitting on the other side of the bed, naked too. Uhm, we just had sex and the proof that I had lost a part of me that I could never take back is in the middle of the white sheets. I am crying. Hindi pwede ito. Bakit ba kasi ako pumayag?I had known Kairos Vejar for two years and for some matter, hindi niya naman talaga ako kinakausap. We are the Vejar airlines' face. Siyempre naging OTP na rin kami ng tao. Iyong marketing team, pilit kaming ipinagbibili na kami na "raw" I know that it's just for show, ganoon na ang nangyari nang halos isang taon. Wala namang kaso.It's like dating someone pero not really dating kasi kapag magkasama kami, hindi naman siya palasalita. Kapag lumalabas kami, kasama niya iyong Ate niya o kaya man iyong kapatid niyang gay."Uhm... uuwi na ako." Sabi ko sa kanya nang
Huling Na-update : 2023-05-10All I Ask AIA.15 - And I'm sure, my eyes they speak for me
PresentCatherine Fe'sThe flight was long and tiresome but the kids were too excited to be where we are now. In CLPH where things seemed to be all green and luscious. Iniisip ko pa kung tama nga ba itong desisyon ko – na sumama ako para naman magkaroon na ako ng sarili kong peace of mind. Iniisip ko kung peace of mind ng aba ang hanao ko o sakit lang ng katawan at puso. I shook my head.We were staying inside a family cabin – hindi ko alam kung kay Mazikeen ba iyon o doon sa isang pinsan pa nila Kairos. Basta malapit lang iyon sa cabin ng pamilya nila. The kids were too happy about the place."Mommy! Can we now wide the bikes?! It's like the subuwbs!" Rem yelled at me too excitedly that morning when we were walking around the cabin area. Naisip kong puntahan rin kasi si Elisha. Hindi ko na siya nakausap – mga two days na. Malamang bumawi ang bakla dahil sa cabin daw nila Uncle Zeus at Tita Gianna natutulog ang mga nak nila. Malamang bukas makalawa buntis na naman si Elisha. Si Alele
Huling Na-update : 2023-05-10All I Ask AIA.16 - No one knows me like you do
Inom tayo, Be.Catherine Fe'sHindi ako mapakali nang sabihin sa akin ni Alejandros na umalis na daw si Mariake dito sa CLPH. Kabang – kaba ako. Hindi naman kasi tama itong nangyayari. Hindi siya dapat umalis. Siya ang asawa. I sighed.Ang gulo – gulo nang lahat. Mukhang hindi naman kasi dapat ako magpunta dito. Akala ko, magiging okay ang lahat. I sighed again. Wala ako dapat dito. Dapat pinanindigan ko na lang iyong desisyon ko noon.Bakit ba kasi umaasa ako?Sapat na bang mahal ko pa rin siya?I closed my eyes.Umakyat na ako para tingnan iyong kambal pero nagkagulatan kami ni Kairos nang papasok sana ako sa silid ng mga bata pero lumabas naman siya. He sighed."I put the kids to sleep..." Sabi niya sa akin."Okay.""Uuwi na ako." Sabi niya."Okay..."He took a step away. I called him. Agad naman siyang bumalik."Be, inom tayo." Yakag ko sa kanya. Nakatitig lang siya sa akin."You're drinking meds, Cachi. Hindi pwede.""Oh, where's the fun in you?" I asked him. Hinawakan ko siya sa
Huling Na-update : 2023-05-10All I Ask AIA.17 - And since your the only one that matters, tell me who do I run to?
MasakitCatherine Fe'sMay mga bagay yata talagang hindi meant to be. Nakangiti ako habang tinitingnan si Kairos na hawak ang kamay ni Eros habang may kausap sa phone. Hindi ko alam kung anong nangyari na sa kanila ni Mariake. Maliban kasi sa naubos namin kagabi iyong isang case ng Sam Mig Lights ay wala na kaming napag-usapan maliban na lang sa kung ano sanang nangyari sa amin kung nagkita kami noon.Nawala iyong mabigat sa puso ko matapos naming mag-usap na dalawa. Kahit paano ay naintindihan ko naman siya. Sabi nga ni Uncle Ben with great power comes great responsibility. Nabanggit niya sa akin na muntik nang mawala ang kompanya nila sa kanila dahil lang sa nanghihina na si Uncle Zeus noon. The board doesn't apporve of Alejandros because he is gay - isang bagay na kinagalit ni Kairos nang husto. Unfair nga naman kasi iyon."Mommy, are we still going back to Seattle? I miss Uncle Daddy." Napatingin ako kay Rom. Kumakain siya sa tabi ko. Si Elisha ay nakatingin rin sa anak ko."Don't
Huling Na-update : 2023-05-10All I Ask AIA.18 - Don't get me wrong, I know...
Surprise!Catherine Fe'sAng tagal kong binabasa iyong marriage contract namin ni Kairos. Hindi ko alam kung anong magiging reaction ko. Ibinigay niya sa akin iyong lakas para sirain ito. He didn't say anything. He just gave this to me. Nakalatag iyon ngayon sa kama ko at habang naglalaro si Rem at Rom ay pinagde-desisyunan ko kung anong gagawin ko.I will think lik Kairos now.Pros vs. ConsPros.1. Perks of being a Vejar.I smiled to myself. Is that even a perk? Mayaman man sila, napakagulo ng pamilya nila. Narinig ko si Alele noong isang araw lang na apat na investors sa airlines nila ang umalis dahil lang sa nalaman nila ang controversy kay Kairos. Nakikinig – kinig ako sa balita at doon ko naririnig na hinanap ng major talk shows si Mariake para magbigay ng side tungkol sa nangyari. Hindi pa rin naman nakikipag-usap si Kairos sa kanila at palagay ko wala naman talagang balak magsalita iyong gago – kasi nga gago siya.Cons.1. Makakasalamuha ko si Dione.Ayoko kay Dione sa ngayon.
Huling Na-update : 2023-05-10All I Ask AIA. 19 - Let this be the way we remember us
BallsCatherine Fe's"Kailan ka babalik ng Seattle?"Katatapos lang namin ni Kairos makipag-usap sa abogado para sa apelyido ng mga bata at katatapos lang rin namang magpirmahang dalawa. Napagpasyahan naming maglakad sa lake side para naman makapag-relax. The twins were with Alele and Elisha. Sila na talaga ang naging bantay noong mga bata. Nakakatawa, hindi ko talaga iniisip na magiging sila whatever happens.Napatingin ako kay Kairos matapos niyang itanong sa akin iyon. I smiled."Next week sana. Pinag-uusapan pa namin ni Luis kung pupunta siya dito o kung uuwi na kami ng mga bata. Hey, you can visit them anytime you want!" Tinapik ko pa ang balikat niya. I was smiling at him. Ang gaan lang kasi ng loob ko ngayon."Mama's gonna miss them for sure.""They can go here every summer. That is June to August. September babalik na sila sa akin kasi may school sila. They can spend New year's here. They can decide whatever or wherever they want to study kapag nasa college na sila."Ngumiti s
Huling Na-update : 2023-05-10All I Ask AIA. 20 - Let this be the way we remember us
MistakesMariake Rojas'"I'm sorry. He's just, well..."I looked at Paolo. He was staring at Danielle who was still asleep. Masaya ako kahit paano dahil natutulog siya. It was a mess, lalo na kagabi. Lalo na noong dinid na dinig ko ang pag-iyak niya."I can't explain why he's like that now. He was always calm. I'm sorry, Paolo.""It's, alright, Mary. Siguro na-aalala lang siya sa bata. Naisip ko rin na baka I'm overstepping some boundaries. Siya naman kasi ang ama. Hindi nga naman kasi dapat ako makialam." I simply smiled at him."But, still, thank you for the offer. And the clothes..." Nabasag ang boses ko. "And for bringing us here last night.""Shhh..." Nagulat ako nang hatakin ako ni Paolo papunta sa kanya. Niyakap niya ako. And I hugged him back because I know that I needed the hug. Hanggang ngayon ay nanginginig ang buong katawan ko. Hindi ko alam kung anong mangyayari kay Danielle. Stage three... that's very dangerous. She needs to undergo coma para mapabuti ang kalagayan niya.
Huling Na-update : 2023-05-10All I Ask AIA. 21 - I don't wanna be cruel or viscious
Most awaited.Kairos Gregor Rouvin Consunji – Dela Monte VejarDecember 31, 2007I pulled up in front of Catherine's house. I wanted to see her after a long vacation with my family. I felt the need to because I've missed her so much. I still couldn't believe that we passed the friendzone status. It was too much to handle – my feelings for her pero buti na lang at nasabi ko iyon. It was something that I should be proud of because... well, I'm not really good at expressing my feelings.I was pretty happy because I get to see her again. She was always asking me kung may naaalala daw ba akong nangyari a few days ago – sabi niya, importante raw iyon at kailangan kong maalala pero hindi ko talaga alam. Hanggang sa sinabi na lang niya na h'wag na lang daw isipin. Catherine is weird. Ang naalala ko lang naman kasi talaga ay kung paano ako pinagalitan ni Papa dahil nakukulangan siya sa ginagawa ko para sa company.It's as if, hindi ko talaga ginagawa ang trabaho. Hindi ko kasalanan kung iniisi
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All I Ask Seduced. 17 - Closing
Alejandros'"You didn't tell Sabino you're back? Pinasundo mo lang siya papunta dito sa CLPH? Bakit? Dapat ikaw ang sumundo sa kanya, Alele. He cannot walk."I was having a morning walk with Ate Amal that morning. Kahapon ako dumating galing Seattle at kahapon ko rin nalaman ang tungkol sa katotohanan kay Sabi. Ang hindi ko maintidihan ay kung bakit kailangan niyang gawin iyon. I know, maybe it's about love or because he didn't want to feel alone.I feel responsible for whatever happened to him. Ako talaga ang may kasalanan noon kasi naman iniwanan niya ang pamilya niya para sa akin at kailangan kong harapin iyon. Kahit na hindi ko na siya mahal sa paraang nais niya, he is still my responsibility. Hindi ko siya pwedeng iwanan basta. Alam kong dapat akong magalit sa kanya but as I looked at him that day, I realized that he changed as I did.Pareho kaming nagbago. At sa pagbabagong iyon, naiwanan ko si Sabino."Ate, Sabi can walk. He's been trying to hide that for a long time. Not sure
All I Ask Seduced. 16 - Miracles
Elisha's"Momma is Papa gonna be alright?"Eros was sitting beside me. His hands were clasped together and he was looking at me with his wide almond shaped eyes."He is going to be fine, Eros. He promised you and Ate right?" Ginulo ko nang bahagya ang buhok niya. Nasa waiting area kami ng ospital at naghihintay sa kanila. Si Alba ay nasa kabilang couch at nagbabasa ng libro niya. Alba is a wide reader, isang bagay na namana niya sa Papa niya. I remember seeing a lot of books in his rooms when I was a teenager. He loves reading, mana si Alba sa kanya."But will we be able to eat the candies in his coat pocket after it's done?" Eros asked me."Of course! But Papa needs to eat many broccolis because he needs to get healthy after it's done." He smiled at me. Napangiti na rin ako."I miss him already Momma. After its done, I'm letting him hug you because he helped Rom. Rom's gonna be alright after this, too right?" He asked again. I could only hope. I am hoping and praying that everything
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Alejandros'"Papa, are you still bakla?"I was going upstairs with Alba in my hands. Pikon nap ikon ako kay Elisha. Kung sino-sinong lalaki ang kinakausap niya. Inabot na siya ng tanghali sa labas! Hindi naman niya kasama si Eros. Kahit pa sabihing may baby sitter doon. Anong magagawa noong baby sitter?! Sasabunutan ko na talaga itong babaeng ito! Hindi siya nag-iisip!Ini-stress niya ako samantalang bukas na ang operation namin ni Rom! Hindi niya baa lam na bawal ma-stress ang beauty ko?!"Anak, stop asking me that." I plainly said to my daughter. She shook her head."According to google, baklas don't go around punching people if they're upset. They slap people around, pulling their hair, then they don't have kids. "Cause they're baklas. Papa, I don't think you're a bakla nymore. I think you love Momma that's why you punched Mr. Jarvis. He's Mommy's friend and he gave us two bottles of cow milk for Rom. You're jealous, Papa. You're in love with Momma."Hindi ako nakakibo. Tinitingnan
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Alejandros'"Thank you, Alejandros ha."Pagpasok namin sa apartment ay iyon agad ang sinabi ni Elisha sa akin. Thank you. Nagpapasalamat siya dahil pumayag akong maging donor para kay Rom which is never really a problem kasi pamangkin ko naman ang pinag-uusapan at isa pa kailangan talaga ni Rom ng tulong. I saw the kid. He was too weak. Kamukha siya ni Rem pero mas maliit siya at mas maputla at mas payat dahil nga siguro sa sakit nito."It's nothing. I'm glad to help." I told her. Sinusundan ng mata ko si Eros. Kanina sa plane ay magkausap na kami. Natutuwa ako sa kanya dahil para bang ang independent niya tulad rin ni Alba. Now, he's taking out all his toys and the he looked at me."Hey, Papa, let's play with my cars and lego! Faster!" Gigil na gigil siya habang kinakawayan ako. Napatawa ako tapos ay agad na nagpunta sa kanya. He gave me some lego blocks and told me to build whatever I want. Alba joined us and played too."Papa, are you going to marry Momma?"Natigilan ako. I looked
All I Ask Seduced. 13 - Come fly with me
Alejandros’“Come fly with me, Alejandros.”I couldn’t decide on what to do. Gusto kobg sumama kay Elisha pero hindi ko basta pwedeng iwanan si Sabi. But then, looking at her now, in front of me makes me want to fly with her – gusto kong sumama sa lahat ng lugarna pupuntahan niya. Gusto ko na siyang makasama at ituloy kung anuman ang naudlot noon. We have kids. Two of them at hindi ko hahayaan na mawala na naman sila. I have missed seven years of Alba’s life. Hindi ko hahayaang madagdagan iyon. Hindi ko rin hahayaang mawala sa akin ang anak konh si Eros. The way he looked at me earlier - iyong para bang kinikilala at tinatantya niya akong mabuti ay sobranh awakward para sa akin. Hindi naman dapat ganoon iyon. I sighed."Please, Alejandros. Let's fly to Seattle. Please..." Hinawakan niya ang braso ko and I swear, I felt fireworks all over me. Napabuntong - hininga na lang ako."I will arrange our plane, Lisha.""Oh my god! Thank you, Alejandros!" Bigla na lang niya akong niyakap. Natig
All I Ask Seduced.12 - Back for more
Eight years later...Kindred Hospital Seattle – First HillElisha's"Momma, will he be okay? I mean really, really okay? I am really really worried about him. Rem keeps on asking me if Rom is going to die. Mama Cathy doesn't want us to think that Rom is going to die. Rem said that if Rom dies, he wll die too, is that true? If that is, where are we gonna bury him? In Qatar, here in Seattle or in the Philippines? It's so confusing because we have like dual citizenship."Alba keeps on talking while we walk around the hospital to find Cachi. I just got back from picking Alba and Rem from their school and since we got in the car, hindi na tumigil si Alba sa kakasalita. Hindi ko maintindihan kung paanong naging napakadaldal nang anak ko samantalang noong baby siya ang tagal niya bago natuwid sa bulol niyang pagsasalita. She's now seven years old. Two months from now, eight years old na siya, I was thinking of giving her a birthday party. Ngayon lang kung sakali siya makakapag-party."Rom is
All I Ask Seduced.11 - The After
Elisha'sWe are now walking back to the main base of the CLPH. Alejandros was holding my hand while we walk. I couldn't contain my happiness. Basta masaya ako at mukhang masaya rin naman siya."Hey, Alele!"Napansin kong may golf cart na huminto sa tapat namin. In there, I saw his cousin, Apollo Vejar kasama ang girlfriend nito. They were laughing while talking to Alele."Saan kayo? Tara, sakay na!""Sure! Saan ba kayo pupunta ni Wewe?" He asked. "Si Lisha nga pala." He looked at me then he grinned. "Jowa ko." Napansin kong kumunot ang noo ni Apollo."Jowa?" He repeated what Alele said."Girlfriend iyon, Pol." Sabi noong maliit na babae. Hindi naman nagsalita na si Apollo pero halata sa kanya ang pagtataka. Inalalayan naman ako ni Alejandros hanggang sa makaupo kaming dalawa sa likod ng golf cart. Hindi niya pa rin binibitiwan ang kamay ko. I am happy – so happy. Mahal ko naman kasi si Alejandros. Iyon nga lang, hindi ko alam kung mahal niya ba ako. Paano kung hindi, paano kung ganito
All I Ask Seduced. 10 - Building up
Elisha's"Ateng, lalaki na ba siya? Parang lalaki na siya... feeling ko lalaki na siya."Taa nang tawa si Catherine Fe sa akin. Nasa bahay niya ako nang umagang iyon. Naghahanda kasi siya sa pagdating ng Mommy niya. Excited ang lukas. Sabi niya nga bantayan ko siya dahil baka atakihin siya ng epilepsy sa sobrang excitement niya. Ganoon daw kasi siya kapag mataas ang emotions. Inaatake siya."Hindi ko alam." She smiled. "Malay mo naman. Ano nag-wrestling ba kayo?" She asked me."Hindi. Umiyak kasi si Alba, so I had to attend to her. Ewan ko ba. Parang napapaso na rin ako. Umalis nga ako sa kabila, tulog pa rin si Alele. Sa iisang kama kami natulog eh. Bahala na, basta." I sighed. Nasa play pen si Alba, habang si Rem at Rom ay nakahiga sa crib nilang dalawa at para bang nag-uusap."Everything has to be perfect. I don't want Nanay to think that I am losing it." Tumawa siya. "Anyway, h'wag mon ang pakaisipin si Alejandros. Kung gusto ka niya at kung may nararamdaman siya sa'yo, gagawa siy
