“What am I doing?” I mumble to myself, putting my phone back down on the kitchen counter. I told myself I was going to wait to text Gavin. It’s already been a handful of days since I saw him, and I can’t stop thinking about the man.I run my fingers across my lips, thinking about that kiss. It was something else. I don’t think I’ve been kissed that way in all my life, but it’s not exactly like I’ve gotten a ton over the years. Men don’t play me anymore—I play them.Long ago, I wiped away my desire to have a partner in life. What’s the point really? All they bring you is pain and heartache. I can take care of myself; I’ve been doing it all my life. Gavin made me question that, and it scares the hell out of me.I almost believed what he told me about not being with anyone in almost two decades. It wasn't that far-fetched to me. I could relate to it, but I’m not a man. Everyone knows men only care about one thing, so there’s no way a man like him hasn't been with anyone in that long. Eve
Hosting parties at the estate is always a lot of work, but good for the community. Unfortunately because I’m hosting, I’m pulled in a lot of different directions all night. Thankfully this year I’ve managed to keep myself out of the bachelor auction, but Apollo has been entered instead. I’ll need to remind him of that before he has to go on stage.Out of the corner of my eye, I see him waiting on Celeste, and my heart aches.After I left Ariana’s house, I saw him in the car with a young woman. It surprised me, because although I’ve expected Apollo to date, he never has. So seeing him with someone was a bit of a shock. Even more so when I slowed down and watched his car turn into the driveway of the little blue house I just left. I parked at the end of the road out of sight and waited just to be sure. When I saw Ariana come out and speak to the young woman in the car, then the two of them go inside, my suspicions were confirmed.I didn’t know how to react to this discovery, and it felt
My legs tremble as Gavin keeps me at his side and introduces me to one person after another. I’m not sure if I should be annoyed or not. On one hand he’s parading me around like a show pony, but at the same time he only wants everyone to know I belong to him. The worst part is that I want to belong to him.I’d worn the dress to get at him, and maybe he was right about me getting off on making him lose his mind. Everyone always says how cool and collected Gavin is, yet somehow, I shatter that control. It makes me feel powerful.Most men just want to get in my pants or for me to be some dirty secret. It helps wash away the guilt of conning money out of them. With Gavin, I don’t have that luxury. Everything I’ve seen of him so far is good. I keep telling myself he’s a job, but it’s a lie. I’m falling for him, and I’m pretty sure my daughter is falling for his son.“Can I leave you alone for a few moments? I need to go get my son,” Gavin whispers into my ear.“What is that supposed to mea
From the end of the road, I wait for Apollo to pick up Celeste for school. It’s early, but I wanted to wait until Ariana was alone to talk to her in person. I texted her over the weekend, and she never responded, not that I could blame her.Once I see them turn in the opposite direction, I pull out of my spot and drive to Ariana’s house. After I park in her driveway, I go to the door and knock softly. I didn’t even bother dressing for work today. I’m in a T-shirt and gray sweatpants. As soon as I woke up, I was ready to see her.There’s a sound inside, and I hear her come closer. “Did you forget something, sweetheart?” When she finally opens the door and looks at me, she starts to close the door in my face.“Wait.” I put my hand on it to stop her. “Let me talk.”“I don’t want to hear what you have to say.”She steps out, and I see she must have woken up not long ago. Her blond hair is piled high on her head, and she’s in a pale blue tank top and sleep shorts. She’s not wearing any mak
When there’s a knock at the door, I smile as I check the time. He’s early. I’m not surprised, but he told me he might end up being late tonight because of his son’s race. I know there’s no reason to carry on with this cat and mouse game when it comes to Gavin, but old habits die hard.Taking my time, I walk slowly to the front door, making the man wait for absolutely no reason. For someone who has spent the last decade leading men on, I should be better at this whole dating thing, but before now my feelings weren’t involved. It’s normally only a job, and there’s no real investment in it. With Gavin, I’m all in, and it’s scaring the crap out of me. I barely turn the door handle and Gavin is already opening the door on his own and pushing his way into my home.“I need a key,” he says before he’s on me and his mouth claims mine. I moan as he lifts me off my feet and he pins me to the nearest wall. “Fuck, I missed you,” he says between kisses. “Need inside of you.” His words are broken, b
“Did I wear you out? You’ve gone quiet on me,” Gavin asks when we make it back to his beautiful home.“Maybe a little.” I am worn out, but it’s not from a night of dancing.Gavin takes my hand, and his fingers thread through mine as we walk inside. The farther inside he takes me, the more like a con I feel. The weight of it is pressing down on me and then anger at all the guilt I feel too. I remind myself that I’ve done what I had to in order to keep Celeste and myself safe.“If you lived here you wouldn't have to pack a bag, you know,” Gavin says, jerking me from my spiraling thoughts.“We’ve gone from you wanting a key to my house to the two of us moving in together?” I tug on my hand, but he doesn’t let go.“You don’t think it would be nice to live together? We wouldn’t have to sneak around.”“We can’t live together, Gavin.” I shake my head at the stupid thought. Then the anger I already have inside of me builds. I want it. But wanting things you can’t have is dangerous. I don’t le
“Ariana, answer the damn door or I’m coming in.”I’ve been miserable without her. She not only took my car the last time I saw her but left the island for a weekend in the city. I know because I kept getting alerts on the charges. At one point, the hotel manager called me because she was trying to buy a three-thousand-dollar handbag, and I told him if he denied her so much as a cup of ice, I would buy that hotel and fire him first.After that, she really put my card to work, but I didn’t give a shit. She could take it all, because none of it mattered without her in my life.I’ve been watching her house all week and driving in circles around the island, stalking her. Every morning when she takes Celeste to school, I follow them. Maybe I should be ashamed of just how crazy she’s made me, but I don’t care. She won’t answer my calls, and I don’t want to show up when Celeste is home. We need to do this in private, and I know once I get my hands on her I’m not letting go. But I’ve had enoug
“Gavin.” This time her voice cracks, and I see the worry in her eyes she’s always trying to hide.“I wanted to know everything I could about you. That’s why I had someone look into your past. Maybe it was too much, but I’m not sorry. Finding out what you’d done?” I shrug. “That just sealed the deal for me.”“Why?”“Because I knew that there wasn’t anything you could have done that would make me stop loving you.”“You don’t mean that.” She looks in my eyes, and I can see the tears in hers beginning to form.“I do mean that, with every part of my soul. I’m never letting you go because I love you, Ariana. I love you even if you've done things in the past you’re not proud of. I love you because you did what you had to do to get away from your horrible home life. I love you because you protected you and your daughter, no matter, the cost. I love you, and I will never, ever leave you.”The tears fall from her eyes, and I lean down to kiss them away. She tries to blink until they’re gone, bu