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23. Letting Go
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2022-04-04 11:25:29-Asena Cai (Jian's mom)-
A Glimpse Outside
From my kitchen window, I watch my son outside with the girl, Aline. He's found her at last.
There is a stubborn set to her jaw and a fearless up tilt to her chin as she stares Jian down from her shorter stance. Her loud complaints about finding him packing make me smile. Seems she's got a bit of a mouth.
Good.
By the looks of her and the glimpse I caught of her future before I paused my powers, she needs this fighting spirit in spades if she wants her happy ending. Pursing my lips and staring at my dishpan hands, I avoid examining how I feel about my son's life entangling with hers.
The soapy suds of the dishwater cling to my skin as I wash a barely dirtied pot and consider at the couple. I know what Jian is. In fact, I know what they both are. He thinks he's protecting me by keeping his werewolf self a sec
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