I didn't even wanna think about yesterday, the only thing I wanted was to get the hell out of this house.
"What are you doing?" My little sister.... half sister to be specific, asked walking in without even knocking.
She and I share the same father and a different mother.See my parents broke up when I was still a kid, around 7, my father got married a year after the break up and a had a baby... What I loved about them is that they still kept their differences aside and stayed in contact for my sake. He never missed any birthdays or school meetings.. let me just say he was still my dad..the difference was that he didn't sleep home.. he slept at his house with his other family.
The baby(Sindy) grew up, we knew her since she was born and she knew me as her big sister, which I actually was.
We were and still are very close. Her mother is okay, she treats me like her own daughter so I honestly thanked God for blessing me with two amazing women in my life when I was growing up.
After high school I got an opportunity to study in New York Academy for Art.. and I have been there for the past two years.
This year started amazing, That was until I got a call from my father telling me I gotta rush home, my mom was in a car accident.
You know the unexpected.. how death can just hit you when you least expect it. I was on a flight back home to spend time with my mom, she was getting better, I was told, recovering from the accident.. but then suddenly... just suddenly, she died after I landed.
Imagine that... coming home to spend holidays with your mother and then they die when you are not even over an hour away.. they just die.
I didn't know whether to still believe in God or not.
The past week has been shit. And yesterday was the funeral. I haven't said anything to anyone since I was told she passed away.."Thandy... wait... what are you doing? Why are you packing your staff..." my little sister asked again, taking me away from my thoughts, I shrugged and for the first time said, "I have to get out of here..."
She stood there a bit shocked.. I mean I didn't blame the kid, I wasn't speaking with anyone, I haven't opened my mouth for anyone in a week and then when she asked me the most simplest question I responded..
"But... where are you going? Christmas is in a around the corner."
"Sindy... I can't stay here, I'll lose my mind. I have to go.. I don't know where to, maybe back to New York..." I said zipping my bag and she kept quiet.
I turned to her and she was crying, I sighed, "Sindy.... please don't do this..."
"Don't leave me please...." She pleaded.
"Sindy you don't understand... She is gone, what's the use of me being here... Why should I still be here if she's not?"
"She was my mother too you know... it hurts too, please don't leave please..."
Without even thinking I blurted out, "Don't you dare say that. Your mother is in there breathing..she's not dead. So don't you dare act like you know how much it hurts....."
I regretted those words as soon as I spit them out. Coz when I turned back around she looked like she had seen a ghost... She immediately turned on her heals and ran out before I could even stop her.
Like I said, my family was pretty close.. so she knew my mom as much as I knew hers and they loved us so much.
I sighed defeated and thought to myself, 'nice work Thandy... nice work in pushing everyone away...'
....I got out of my bedroom pulling my bags and immediately my eyes locked with Maa Sophia, Sindy's mom."Thandy....."
I shook my head and said nothing.
She held my hand and all the eyes of the people who were finishing up with the dishes were on us. I hated this, I hated how they pitied me.
"Honey we have to talk... please don't do this.."
I shook my head again, trying by all means not to let the tears that were threatening to escape get their wish. If I cry she'll honestly stop me, I needed to be strong.
She pulled me to a nearby corner, "Thandy at least wait for your father to come back. please..."
I pulled her into a very tight hug and then whispered, "I love you Maa... but I can't be here any longer.. just allow me to go please..."She pulled away, "but Thandy this isn't how..."
I cut her off by shaking my head and leaving her there.
I walked straight to my car and threw the bags at the back then got in immediately and drove away.In honesty, I had no idea where I was heading but I hoped it was better than where I was coming from, because if I had stayed in that house one more day, I was going to lose my mind.
I drove...sometimes faster and sometimes slower. Tears closing my vision now and then but that didn't stop me from driving, somehow, the idea of me getting in a car accident like my mom and dying didn't scare me. Somehow it made me feel at ease.
So I continued driving as I allowed myself to get lost in my thoughts again. That woman raised me, I am who I am and where I am because of her and her upbringing. She was my best friend, my sister, my mother. She was my mother... She was my everything.And for her to just die now, only when I was less than an hour away. To just give up and not even wait for me to say goodbye. It broke me, made me so mad at her and God. They should have waited... just a little longer until I was there... just so I could....
My thoughts were suddenly disturbed by a car honk. I immediately tried to hit my breaks but I guess it was too late for that action as I heard a sound of collision and my body moving forward but the seatbelt pulled me back with speed and I hit my head on my seat.
I closed my eyes, "fuck!"
My head...
My left arm...
They hurt like hell...
I heard a knock on my window. I opened my eyes slowly and saw a white woman knocking there.
I opened my window and she sighed in relief, "thank God you are okay.. you need to get out of the car, I think there's a leak..."I shook my head, I was good here, "no... just just go..."
"Honey no, I am a doctor, so I am not going to leave you here to die... open the door...."
I tried to move but couldn't, so I shook my head again a bit, "I can't... my hand..."
"Oh God...." She said before trying to open it from outside. She tried a few times and finally managed to.
She undid my seatbelt and pulled me out. She rested my hand on her shoulder and walked me a distance away from the cars.Sirens came blaring out loud, giving me the baddest headache ever, two ambulances and a fire department car.
As I sat there while this woman was busy talking to other paramedics, it downed on me. I almost died. I looked at myself, for bruises but there was nothing. The only thing I was feeling was pain...And fear... of death.. I then thought about my dad, he just lost my mom, he wasn't going to be able to take my death.
I thought about Sindy and Maa Sophia... God, What the hell was I thinking? Driving under this condition... also... I almost killed an innocent woman because of my stupidity.I sooner started crying. These emotions building in. My dad, my little sister, this poor woman I almost killed.
"Hey... Honey.... it's okay, we are okay.. I am so sorry I wasn't looking..." She said appearing next to me.
I tried to shake my head but pain struck me. She held my head softly making me face her, and weirdly I felt electricity struck me from where she was holding me. She furrowed her brows at me probably wondering if I felt that too.. then she spoke, "shhh you have to stop doing that, you hit your head remember....""I'm sorry...." I apologized, "I'm sorry I almost killed you...."
"I'm okay... it's just a little scratch on my eye... it's you I'm worried about...are you okay? Is there anyone I can call...."
God.. no..
"No I'm fine..."
She rolled her eyes, "really? So where to from here..."
'I don't know. Anywhere but here..' I said in my head but smiled a bit, "Umhh I... a friend... I'll see a friend...""Are you sure there's nothing I can do? I mean the insurance has everything now, they'll fix your car within a week... And I'll settle everything.. I'm just worried about you.. I can call your friend..."
"I'm fine really... don't worry..."
She stood there and looked at me. And now I took this time to take her in, she was beautiful ... I mean hot for someone her age, she didn't look that old probably in her late thirties... She had on jeans and a blouse.. She cleared her throat..Fuck... She caught me checking her out..
"Your eyes...."
Without even thinking I blurted out, "maybe they like what they see....."
Her eyes shot wide open and her jaw dropped probably in shock.... what the hell was wrong with me?
"Umhh... flip... my Umhh... concussion... I think I hit my head too hard now I'm blurting staff it doesn't mean...."
She cut me off, "Man! Somehow deep down I was hoping that you meant it..."We stood there looking at each other a bit weirdly. The atmosphere had changed by now. I was feeling a bit hot.. I mean she was old, but not that old.
She cleared her throat after a few seconds and asked, "Umhh so there's nothing I can do for you... like nothing?"
I smiled a bit, I swear if I didn't know I'd think she wanted me to want her to do something for me.. or maybe she was just being genuine... I mean we did crash on each other...
God I seriously needed to tell my hormones to stop getting attracted to strangers and on odd occasions... but then again I was like this, I just couldn't stop.. And I think I needed this to try and forget about everything I've been through....for now.
"I don't know... I'm not sure about what I'm thinking...." I said and she furrowed her brows, "What's that?"
Remembering that we don't even know each other I groaned, "God... I didn't get your name..."
"Katherine...And you?"
I smiled and then I cleared my throat, "Umhh Katherine.. I'm having a really awful day, which probably resulted into me contributing on this accident..."
"I'm here. If you need someone to talk to.."
I shook my head, "Don't test me... I might take you up on that offer...""No I mean it... we all have awful days... but that doesn't matter, the only thing that matters is how we get up from them....taking to someone is the first step.."
I sighed, "you're right..."
"So can we go for tea... or anything to drink..."
"Sure... where?
She smiled, "I didn't get your na...."
"Thandy... with a Y.... my name is Thandy...." I said with the biggest smile on my face.
This might not be a bad day after all.
We slowly walked into the restaurant, I had an arm sling on. Katherine had a plaster over her eye.Honestly I was glad she was okay. She smiled and pulled out a chair for me, I smiled, "Oh thank you..."She rolled her eyes, "I can use both my hands, Don't flatter yourself.."I laughed and joked, "ouch... I was kinda hoping that was you showing me your romantic side..""You gotta see the psychotic side before the romantic one..." She said with a wink then sat down.I rested my left hand on my heart and pretended to be terrified, "woooah I am so scared right now..."She shoved me a little playfully before the waiter arrived, "Hello Mrs and Miss... welcome to Leguasle Le Rasturante... what can I get for you while you decide on what you wanna eat?"Katherine smiled and took the menu from him, "we will call you..."We then looked at each other as soon as the guy went away, "Leguasle Le Rasturante...." and then both laughed.I s
I woke up with hands cuddling up on me. I lifted the hand up on my waist and opened my eyes... they soon met a picture of me and Maud back at high school. She was my date at prom. She looked hot.I felt her pull me closer to her and resting her head on my back. I roughly pulled away not caring if it wakes her up on not.."What?" She whined and I mumbled a, "I'm not Tshepo... stop touching me inappropriately...idiot..."She mumbled a whatever and I put on her gown and went to the kitchen. I left my phone on the charger this side avoiding my family coz I knew they'd call.When I saw my phone flash indicating that I got missed calls, a little part of me hoped it was going to be Katherine.. but then again, how would she call if she didn't know my numbers..And why the hell was I thinking about Katherine so early in the morning...But then, in a serious note, I hope she was okay, No headache and her eye was recover
After hanging up I turned to my best friend who was smiling innocently. I was going to buy this, she messed up."So...?" I said and she rolled her eyes, "So what?""Don't give me that... Maudy don't... why the hell did you put me on a spot like that? Why did you even Google her numbers?" I said raising my voice a bit.She bit the inside of her cheek a bit nervously, "Look, she called you, that's good. So what does she want?"I rolled my eyes and got up, "I need to change... She practically ordered me to go so her so she can check if nothing is wrong...""Ordered you huh? I bet it would be good that someone dominate you a bit, you've always been the dominant one..." She said wiggling her brows at me. I furrowed my brow at her.What on earth was wrong with her? Why was she making this Katherine woman a big deal, "Maudy, Katherine and I just collided okay and we almost killed other... we didn't meet at a restaurant and
She parked outside another mansion and got out of the car. This place wasn't really far from her offices, it was probably a 20 minutes distance away..I followed her and she kept on smiling a bit. And she was being weird, acting as if she was nervous or something. I brushed it off and we both got inside her house. It was so beautiful, your vintage style but very classy. We walked to the kitchen, the theme color was black white and red. It was really beautiful I don't wanna lie, so I nodded to myself, "this is nice..for an 80 year old..."She laughed, "the 80 year old says thank you..."Then she looked around, "Mike.....Mikey babe I'm home..."Fuck...I said mentally as she called for Mike... so she wanted me to meet her husband. This was fucked up and giving me a headache."I'll be back... let me go check on him..." She said leaving, not even waiting for my response. I swear to God I went to my pockets loo
I drove back home. There wasn't as many people as there was when I left, in fact It was super clean which made me happy. I parked outside and went to knock at the door..."Who is it at this time?" I heard my dad complain before he opened the door, when he realized that it was me he quickly pulled me into a hug, "Hey honey... God where have you been I was worried thinking you went back to New York..."I hugged him too and inhaled his fragrance, "I'm so sorry dad... I just couldn't stay here at home.. I had to get away for a bit..."He pulled me inside and closed the door behind me. I turned to my little sister's hug. I hugged her and kissed her forehead, "how are you Sindy..."She shrugged and pulled away, "okay now that you are here..."Maa Sophia was already standing behind her daughter. She gave me a very tight and long hug, "Hey Maa....""Come sit down.. do you need anything to eat or drink..." She asked while walking me to the couch.We
That weekend went by slower than a snail. I wasn't talking to my dad at all and Katherine never called, which I assume is why my weekend felt so long.I wanted to call her, I tried calling the office but hang up before it could ring. I mean I was a bit scared, we had a moment which we almost kissed and she didn't look at me after that and now she was not talking to me at all. That stung a bit coz I thought we were fine when she apologized.But then again maybe we had a moment coz she was emotional that she lost a patient, maybe she wasn't thinking straight and she needed comfort and I then happened to be the only thing next to her.. maybe it's why she was distant, coz she came to her senses.... So I should just forget about it.A knock on my door startled me also removing me from my thoughts. My sister walked in, "can I come in?""Aren't you already in kid?"She smiled, "yah well I got a problem..."I patted the corner of my bed instructing
Starting to feel hot, I pulled away from her to catch some breath. I looked at her and she looked at me. Her blue ocean eyes were a bit darker now. God! This woman was making me feel things I haven't felt in a long time...or even never felt before...I cleared my throat, "can we sit down?"She nodded her head and I sat on the chair I initially was at as she sat on the one that annoying butch sat on."You look beautiful..." I said after settling in. She shook her head eyeing me from my head to my toes,"God have you seen you?"I looked at myself and remembered that I truly was fire. I laughed a bit, these cocktails I been having for the past hour were kicking in. I felt a bit tipsy."You are such a great kisser for a 82 year old woman.. you still got game, I bet your husband enjoys kissing you..." I slurred a bit.She smiled a little, "I told you to keep on writing different lines, you are not funny..."I pulled her face clos
I woke up cuddled up to a naked Maudy and that's when what happened last night played over and over in my head.I fucked my best friend...shit!She looked so peaceful sleeping there. I slowly got up and sat at the edge of the bed.. I closed my eyes and I could hear her begging me to do it, her telling me not to stop, asking me to keep going. Until she pulled my hair tight when she had her orgasm.God!I opened my eyes and shook my head. I shouldn't have done it. I shouldn't have let it happen..First thing I did was go inside the shower and bath. Every time I closed my eyes last night's events kept replaying. I sighed.. God how could I be so stupid. Maudy is my best friend... She was like a sister to me.. She was a sister. I got out of the bathroom when I heard my phone ring. Of course when I reached it, it had already stopped ringing and surprisingly it was an unknown number. I dialed the number back and a woman a