Chapter 31 Mothers

(Lydia)

The next few weeks passed by in a blur – not the swift, quick kind. My life had transformed into a haze in that I could no longer understand what was happening any longer.

Thomas had called me several times. I had neither picked up nor declined. And I had not called him back.

Truth be told, I had been hoping that he would show up again in person. My heart had been aching at the thought that he could consider getting back together with Sarah. After all those tall claims he had made, too – after chasing after me and waiting on me hand and foot.

But there was a silver lining in all this: I had come to learn of my own strength. I had thought that if I lost Thomas a second time, I would be as devastated as the first time around – perhaps, even more so.

But things did not pan out that way. I was disappointed and, without a doubt, in pain but I did not crumble this time around.

I was glad; I would never want to be the way my mother was to me to my children. I was thinking of her afte