It’s been three days since my son died. Three days of keeping myself holed up in my new apartment and crying myself to sleep every night. Three days of darkness and gloom.
I wake up frowning because the rising sun currently peeks through the sheer white curtains, bathing the room in brightness when all I want is to keep wallowing in darkness and grief. It suddenly hits me that I’ve not received any response from Henry ever since I served him our divorce papers more than forty eight hours ago. I pick up my cell phone and scroll through the endless list of missed calls. There’s none from my soon-to-be ex-husband. Henry never called me even once. Suddenly driven by anger and frustration, I dial his private number and wait impatiently for him to respond. I end the call when I get no response twenty seconds later and get to my feet. Henry still thinks I was playing around when I asked for a divorce. I’ll pay him a visit today and illustrate just how serious I am about leaving his deadbeat ass. *** An hour and thirty minutes later, I walk into the building that houses Wilson Construction. It took that long because I had a mini meltdown after spotting David’s picture on my dresser. I won’t exactly say I’m dressed to kill, but my short black dress, black heeled sandals and dark sunglasses make me look sophisticated and also point out that I’m still grieving my child. I arrive at the receptionist’s desk and her eyes brighten with recognition when I take off my glasses. “Mrs. Wilson.” She greets and I physically cringe. Not for long. “Hello, Maddie.” “The boss did not inform us that you’d be coming.” “That’s because he’s not aware of my presence. Is he in the office?” She nods. “Sure. You can go right up.” I smile my thanks and get into the elevator. Within seconds, I arrive at Laura’s desk. I’m disappointed to find it empty. I would’ve loved to give that bitch a piece of my mind. I pause outside the door to my husband’s office and take a huge, shaky breath. I might come off as strong and uncaring but deep down, I’m broken. When I got married to Henry two years ago, I was so in love that I never imagined a day would come when we would separate on such messy terms. I was so stupid, and now I have to pay the price. My son is gone, my marriage is gone and all that’s left is this hollow emptiness in my chest that only gets wider by the second. I shake my head and push the door open without wasting any more time. When I step into the huge, luxuriously furnished office, it’s empty. “I thought the receptionist said he was here.” I whisper to myself. I’m about to turn around and leave when a strange sound reaches my ears. My heartbeat accelerates and I turn sharply to my left, towards the direction of the sound. Two seconds later, I hear it again. It almost sounds like… a strangled moan. A woman’s moan. Wait. Could it be…? I don’t know what demon possesses me, but instead of leaving like I’m supposed to, I follow the sound and discover that it’s coming through a half open door on the far end of the office. And I was right. It’s a woman’s moan. “Ungh! Faster, Henry. Please…!” I freeze. That was Laura’s voice. I’d recognize it even in my dreams. It suddenly dawns on me that I was right all along. That bastard has really been cheating on me with Laura. Even though my mind is already prepared for what I’m about to see, my heart still twists painfully when I push the door open and I’m bombarded with the sight of Laura bouncing atop Henry, her eyes shut and her head thrown back in ecstasy. They’re both naked as the day they were born. And they both seem to be thoroughly enjoying themselves. I turn to leave quietly but at the last second, I unconsciously push the door and its low creak pierces the air like a bloody trumpet. I freeze, but it’s already too late. I’m startled from my daze by Henry’s panic-filled voice; “Fuck, Amani! What the hell are you doing here?” I turn around and run towards the entrance as fast as my feet can carry me, but he’s still faster. I can hear him running behind me. Before I can even touch the doorknob, Henry grabs my arm and roughly pulls me against his naked chest. I react violently, thrashing and kicking at him with all my might. “Let go of me. Let go!!” Henry pins both my arms behind my back and growls. “Calm down, Amani. Calm down for fuck’s sake. Stop with the drama!” I become deathly still when he utters that last sentence. I look up at his sharp green eyes, wondering what I ever saw in this monster. “Drama? I’m being dramatic? I catch you and your secretary, whom you’ve repeatedly lied to me that you’re not sleeping with, going at it like wild animals and I’m the dramatic one?” He scoffs. “I never lied to you. I wasn’t sleeping with Laura before. You disappeared for two days, Amani. What was I supposed to do? A man’s got needs.” I stare at him incredulously. “A man’s got needs? Your son died three days ago, you low down bastard. I’ve been grieving, depressed. You never bothered to call me or even check up on your own grieving wife because you were too busy shagging your secretary. You should be ashamed of yourself, Henry. Shame on you!” My voice drips with disgust. My blood is boiling. His grip on my arm tightens and I wince in pain. “Let go. You’re hurting me.” His eyes flash with anger. “You never used to be like this, Amani. You’ve become quite bold. Disrespectful, too. I need you to remember that I am still your husband and you must give me the respect I deserve. Do you bloody understand?!” “Henry, darling. Let go of her.” A voice says from behind him. Laura. “I understand that you’re upset, but you might hurt her. You don’t need any scandal in your life right now.” Henry releases me immediately and I stagger against the table, trying to catch my breath. It doesn’t go over my head that he only released me after his mistress asked him to. Bile rises in my throat as I watch Laura hand him his pants. He was naked the whole time! By the time he’s done wearing his pants, I’ve recovered from my bout of panic. Despite the burning anger in my veins, my back is ramrod straight and my chin is lifted, “I sent you the divorce papers. Why haven’t you signed them?” Henry’s eyes are murderous. “And I already told you that we’re not getting divorced. Look, David is dead and there’s honestly nothing that you and I can do about it. I know I’ve made some mistakes, but life goes on. What do you need to move past it? A new house? A new car?” My disgust is tripling by the second. “You cheated on me—“ “All men cheat, Amani!” He roars. “Besides, it was a one time thing. If you want to divorce me just because of this, then you’re making a grave mistake. There’s no man on this planet who doesn’t cheat on his wife. Live with it.” A sarcastic laugh slips past my lips and I shake my head. “Just because you’re a disloyal bastard doesn’t mean all men are like you, Mr. Wilson. I regret the day I ever set my eyes on you. I regret the day we got married. You should be ashamed of yourself, sleeping around with your secretary just three days after the death of your only son!” I pick up my bag from the floor and turn towards the door. “Where are you going?” Henry snaps. “Come back here immediately!” I pause with my fingers on the knob and shoot him a death glare. “My days of being your humble, submissive wife are over. You no longer have the right to order me around. Sign the divorce papers, Henry. If I take you to court myself, I might change my mind and actually lay claim on half of everything you own.” I turn to leave but stop once again, my eyes straying to Laura who currently has a smug look on her face. “Congratulations, by the way. You both deserve each other. Two rotten beans in a pod.” “No man will ever marry you if you leave me. Do you hear me? You’ll be single for the rest of your life!” He roars. Even if his words hurt like hell, I scoff. “Don’t threaten me with happiness, Henry.” Then I give him the middle finger and walk out of the office with my head held high… *** HENRY “Damn stubborn woman.” I mutter under my breath. “She makes me so angry.” I turn to Laura who’s standing quietly behind me and take both her hands in mine. “I’m so sorry about that, baby. Amani never used to be like this.” She shrugs and blood rushes to my cock at the sight of her hardened nipples poking through my shirt. “Aren’t you tired of her?” She whispers softly. “I mean, all she ever does is nag. Don’t you need some peace of mind already?” “I’m tired, but—” She places a finger against my lips, staring at me with those seductive eyes that never fail to make me weak in the knees. “If you’re tired, then give her what she wants. Divorce her. Marry me and adopt my children as your own.”At exactly three PM the next day, I stand outside my matrimonial home, clutching the strap of my bag in a death grip. Henry had called me an hour ago with news that he’d finally decided to sign the divorce papers, but I was expected to pick it up at our house. I didn’t want to come here but he was adamant. I can already feel tears pricking my eyes. This house holds too many memories of my dear David. I finally summon the courage and knock once. The door opens almost immediately and Zeya, our house keeper, appears. “Who is it…?” Her eyes widen in surprise when she sees me. “Mrs. Amani! Oh, it’s so wonderful to see you again. How’ve you been?” The middle aged woman pulls me into a bear hug and I almost burst into tears as her familiar peach scent fills my nostrils. “It’s wonderful to see you too, Zeya.” With my best friend in another country and my aunt always busy with work, Zeya was always my only companion on those nights when Henry never made it home because he was too b
AMANII can swear on the single sunflower that keeps growing atop my parents’ graves that wild banshees just held a concert in my brain. I peel my eyes open with great effort, hissing as the blinding white lights assault my poor eyeballs. I try to lift my hand but little pin pricks of pain shoot through my entire body. “It hurts…” I whimper helplessly.As if on cue, the sound of shuffling feet reaches my ears and seconds later, my aunt’s face fills the peripheral of my vision.“Amani, you’re awake! Oh, darling. I was so worried about you. What happened?” Her worried tone snaps me to the present and I wince in pain as she helps me to a sitting position.“Aunt… what are you doing here?”She pulls me into a bear hug and despite the fact that my entire body is sore, I draw comfort from her warm embrace. Tears prick my eyes as I suddenly realise how much I’ve missed her.“Aunt…”“Hush, my darling. That’s enough.” She pulls back and gives me a wobbly smile, running her fingers over my fa
AMANIThe last time I felt this shocked was the day Daisy, one of my weird ass classmates in elementary school, ate a live bug right in front of me. I blink at Bhyron, waiting patiently for him to inform me that that was an unsuccessful attempt at a joke. He doesn’t. “What the hell are you talking about? What kind of medication costs twenty million dollars? I fell from a flight of stairs, not a damn skyscraper.”His lips curve in a dangerous smirk that sends cold shivers down my spine. Without answering my question, he grabs one of the visitors’ chairs and starts walking towards me. Suddenly, I lose the ability to breathe properly. “Where are you going?”“Where do you think? I want to sit beside you.”Panic. I’m panicking. “There’s absolutely no need for that. I could hear you just fine even when you stood at the door, which is exactly where I prefer you to stand.”Bhyron ignores me as usual, choosing to do what he wants. I almost forgot that Bhyron Macaulay listens to no one. Oh,
AMANI — SIX YEARS AGO ( AGE 19)***“Sweetheart, you look so excited this morning. What’s going on?”I grin at my aunt and twirl, showing off my little white dress. I decided to wear this dress today because white is my fiancé’s all time favourite colour.“I have a date with Bhyron. He asked me to look extra nice today because he has a special surprise for me. I’m so excited.”Something flashes in Aunt Ophelia’s eyes, but it disappears so quickly, I’m left wondering if I’d imagined it. Her lips stretch in a wide grin.“Oh, that’s wonderful. You look gorgeous, my love. I hope you have a wonderful time.”A part of me registers that her excitement seems a bit forced, but just like the naïve nineteen year old that I am, I choose to ignore it.Aunt Ophelia has been taking care of me ever since my parents died in an unfortunate boat cruise accident early last year. She has two grown children but decided to raise me as her own. I love her so much. Without her and Bhyron, I would’ve probably
AMANIFool me once, shame on you, fool me twice, shame on me. And I swear on my dead son, I will never allow another man to fool me more than once.It’s the next day and I’m currently staring at myself in the mirror at my apartment, wondering if the hollow-eyed, bushy haired woman staring back at me is really me. One thing is certain — I need to do away with her. Immediately.After I threatened to sue Bhyron’s ass yesterday, he rolled out from underneath the bed, helped me to my feet and walked out without saying a single word.I don’t know how I did it, but I managed to get myself discharged from the hospital without calling my aunt.She kept blowing my phone with endless calls last night, but I wasn’t ready to speak to her yet. Last night was for crying my eyes out about my son and our new financial problem. At least it’s new to me.This morning, the sun is up, the birds are chirping and Amani Wilson is a new woman. I’m ready to give Aunt Ophelia a piece of my mind.There’s somethin
BHYRON“…that’s what she said, boss. Miss Amani did not accept the invitation.”I’m currently seated in my office, staring at the crumpled invitation on my glass desk and wondering when the high-spirited, carefree Amani I once knew became so stubborn.I get to my feet and pace to the floor-to-ceiling windows of my office, pressing a button on the wall to part the heavy draperies.The design of my office alone screams luxury. Every single item I use here is gotten from outrageously expensive sources all over the world. I have everything I could ever want in life. Except her. And I want Amani. Badly. Obsessively. I can almost imagine her saying those exact words, her lips pouting perfectly like they always do.“Chocolate chips will have to fall from the sky, huh?” Fiddling with my pencil, I turn to Jay.“If Amani wants Chocolate chips, then she will get chocolate chips. Assemble your men. You have work to do…”***AMANIAfter Bhyron’s messenger leaves, I no longer have the strength to
AMANIIt’s settled. I do believe that I have descended into the mangrove of craziness, straight into Crazy town and landed in Crazy river. Because why am I actually contemplating Bhyron’s offer?He’s right. Aunt Ophelia and I actually have less than twenty four hours to cough up twenty million dollars, otherwise, we might as well kiss our family company goodbye. I’m supposed to be looking for ways to repay the loan, but all I’ve been able to do for the past few hours is stare at pictures of my dead son and cry my eyes out.I sure as hell know we’re not coughing up anything before twelve noon tomorrow. We might as well choke in the process.So it’s settled. I’m attending the grand opening of La Mariée Dansante. Great.Even though I’m currently in a hateful relationship with the Macaulays, especially with their golden first born son; even though I’m still mourning the death of my precious boy, I cannot sit around and watch my parents’ hard work go down the drain. I have to do somethin
AMANIBut not for the loud music blasting from the speakers, the entire club would’ve heard my voice. Instead, the only people who are aware of our little quarrel are the people around us.I’m almost standing toe-to-toe with Bhyron, my chest heaving heavily with anger while he simply looks down at me with those icy blue eyes. Instead of apologizing, he looks over my shoulder at Richie, the millionaire tech. guy.“That was supposed to be a joke, Richie. But if you’d excuse me, I’d like to speak with Miss Amani in private.”“Of course. I understand.” Richie nods and walks away.Bhyron looks back at me, his sexy lips set in a hard, straight line.“Let’s go to my office. We need to talk.”Everyone has gone back to minding their business, but I can still feel some curious eyes on us. I fold my arms, lift my chin and stare him down.“I don’t hear an apology.”I fully expect him to brush me off or make some sarcastic remark. However, to my surprise, his eyes darken with a strange emotion an
BHYRONAmani left with grandpa a few minutes ago but I’m still seated behind my desk, staring at the CCTV footage on my computer and watching the bags I bought go up in smoke.My intention was to apologize to her. I guess that failed, woefully.I don’t give a shit about the amount of money I spent. I can make that back in seconds. What matters is the look of pure hatred I saw in Amani’s eyes. That will haunt me forever.I bury my face in my palms and take a deep breath. Amani looked angry. Enraged. How she knew I was watching her through the CCTV, I’d never know. But for a moment, it felt like she was looking straight into my eyes, like she knew I was there. I get to my feet and pace the room. My wedding is set to happen in the next thirty minutes. I’m already dressed up and waiting to be notified to come downstairs for the ceremony. My long term goal of marrying the one woman who has the power to set me ablaze with just one look is finally about to be fulfilled, but I’m restless.Dr
AMANIJay flinches at my harsh tone but stands his ground. “Miss Amani, I assure you that the boss does not consider you a whore. These are just wedding presents and he’d be pleased if you accept them.”I tilt my head to the side, struggling to rein in my temper. That’s the thing — I never, ever want to partake in any activity that pleases Bhyron Macaulay. I still regret my little mistake from a few hours ago.I wanted to please him and it backfired right in my face.I look up and my eyes coincidentally lands on the CCTV camera positioned high up on the west wall. My fingers twitch with annoyance as a devious thought suddenly crawls into my mind.“Your boss is watching us right now, isn’t he?” I ask Jay, not bothering to take my eyes off the camera.Jay follows my line of vision and lets out a small curse when he realizes I’ve seen the camera. His tone suddenly changes, becoming defensive;“Miss Amani, I…”I shoot him a look filled with annoyance and he clamps his mouth shut.“There’
AMANITHREE HOURS LATER…My wedding is set to hold in the next two hours and I’m an emotional wreck.I stare at my swollen eyes in the mirror, willing my mind to forget everything that happened in that room three hours ago.“Girl, we don’t have time for this. The makeup artist has been waiting for you for almost two hours. You haven’t even tried out your wedding dress. I’m not sure you’ve even taken a bath!” Zuri half-yells, pacing the room nervously.“At this pace, we’ll never be ready on time. Not that I want you to marry that sonofabitch, but grandpa will be upset…”I keep staring at the mirror, trying to figure out the hollow-eyed woman who stares back at me.Anger, bitterness and shame swirls in my guts when I remember the smugness in Bhyron’s eyes after he successfully fooled me. The bastard tricked me. Once again, he proved that I can never trust him.“…and you won't even tell me what happened! Where were you this morning? What happened to you?” Zuri babbles non stop, pacing r
BHYRONI don’t know how much longer I can keep this up and I think it’s high time I told myself the truth.Hurting Amani’s feelings is not as satisfying as I thought it would be. Taking my revenge does not fill my heart with joy like I thought it would.The hurt and confusion in her eyes breaks me every single time. This was supposed to be easy, goddamnit! I was never supposed to feel anything for her. My job would’ve been goddamn easier if those bright, chocolate eyes didn’t appeal to my dark soul every single time.My goal was to take revenge for all the pain that Amani and her family caused me, but I barely stopped myself from pulling her into my arms just five seconds ago. All I wanted to do was clean her up, hold her and make sure she got a few hours of sleep before the wedding. And that was not the bloody plan!I slam the door behind me and lean against it, trying to calm my pounding heart.Anger, raw and venomous stirs in my veins. I’m angry at myself for hurting her and furiou
AMANI“…suck my dick, Amani. If you’re able to make me cum, I’ll let you wear the dress.” Shock, mixed with violent arousal explodes in my belly, leaving me weak and temporarily unable to think properly.My arms around Bhyron’s neck slips but he catches me at the last minute, cupping my lower back and pulling me against his chest in a half-embrace. I’m completely enveloped in his intoxicating heat and my heart is a large, melted puddle of goo. If not for his support, I’d have fallen flat on my face a long time ago.I should slap his face and stomp out of the room, but my brain is already conjuring images of his thick, swollen cock deep inside the walls of my throat. I gulp helplessly.It’s settled. I’m fucked.“What’s it going to be, little caramel?” He whispers huskily, trailing his fingers across my heated cheeks. “Will you suck my cock or do you want to live without my forgiveness? I can already feel your wetness on my thigh. If I touch you down there, my fingers will come back d
AMANI“You can forget about the dress. It’s not for you. You don’t have to wear it…”I never wanted to wear Bhyron’s dress. I never wanted a dress that was made specially for some strange woman whom he’s obsessed with. But those harsh words coupled with his cold expression hits me like a goddamn punch in the gut.He’s clearly saying I’m not worthy enough to wear the same dress as the woman of his dreams. Jealousy burns like a fever in my throat. I’ve never wanted to beat up an imaginary woman so badly in my entire life. I’m almost ashamed of myself. Almost.I stiffen against him, holding his gaze while trying not to burst into stupid tears. I wouldn’t even know why I’m crying in the first place. So what if Bhyron is in love with some unnamed dancing bride? I don’t like him. I shouldn’t be bothered.The logical thing to do would be to step away from him and lick my wounds while I still can, but the last time Amani was logical, George Washington was still president.Instead of counting
AMANIBefore I can get my thoughts together, Aunt Ophelia hurries forward and grabs my arm, her eyes wide with a haunted expression that sends chills down my spine; “Amani, dear, you have to leave. You cannot be seen in here.”Now I’m more confused than ever and even more determined to find out what the hell is going on. I’m convinced that Aunt Ophelia knows something. She’s definitely hiding something from me.She tries to pull me towards the exit but I stubbornly dig my feet into the ground, refusing to move. Noting my hesitation, Aunt Ophelia looks over her shoulder and lifts one questioning brow; “Sweetie, what are you doing? We have to leave.”The forced cheer in her voice and the tiny, fake smile plastered on her lips makes me even more resolute to go nowhere.I pull my arm from her grip and fold them, looking her straight in the eyes;“Okay, aunt. Spill. What are you hiding?”A flash of panic lightens her eyes before she’s able to hide it beneath a confused expression.“What
AMANII’m shocked to my bones. I’m in awe. I’m blown away.I move closer to get a better look. The closer I go, the grander it becomes.I barely have the words to describe it — It’s beautiful. It’s gorgeous. It’s definitely expensive… and also seems familiar as hell.I search my memory on a quest to figure out where I’ve seen it before. It’s very unique, very unlike anyone of its kind out there. A second later, it finally dawns on me, leaving a strong bitter taste at the back of my throat. I remain rooted to the spot, blinking rapidly in shock as the pieces slowly fall into place. The current object of my obsession is a wedding dress. It sits alone on a raised platform in the middle of the room, sparkling and shimmering like a rare creature in all its glory. The platform is made of black onyx stone and probably costs far more than what my parents’ entire company is worth.And the dress itself… I lack the words to describe it. It sparkles from top to bottom, and a closer inspection
AMANII can’t sleep. I tried to, but images of Grandma Alice crying her eyes out against Bhyron’s chest literally chased me around a rocky path in dreamland, armed with a sharp knife.I shoot awake some moments later, breathing like I just engaged in a sumo wrestling contest. Sweat pours down my face in torrents despite the cold AC that blows my heated skin.Looking around the dark room, goosebumps rise on my arms and my heart tightens with fear at all the shadows hanging around. I hate darkness with a passion that rivals Hades. I cannot sleep without the lights on and practically glaring. Zuri hates me for it, which is why we can never share a room.The only reason the lights are off is because Zuri opted to sleep with me tonight after I practically clung on to her when everyone left. My chest tightens painfully as I recall the strange feeling of abandonment that weighted my shoulders when I realized the entire family was upset with me, Aunt Ophelia inclusive.Memories of that sla