It’s been three days since my son died. Three days of keeping myself holed up in my new apartment and crying myself to sleep every night. Three days of darkness and gloom.
I wake up frowning because the rising sun currently peeks through the sheer white curtains, bathing the room in brightness when all I want is to keep wallowing in darkness and grief. It suddenly hits me that I’ve not received any response from Henry ever since I served him our divorce papers more than forty eight hours ago. I pick up my cell phone and scroll through the endless list of missed calls. There’s none from my soon-to-be ex-husband. Henry never called me even once. Suddenly driven by anger and frustration, I dial his private number and wait impatiently for him to respond. I end the call when I get no response twenty seconds later and get to my feet. Henry still thinks I was playing around when I asked for a divorce. I’ll pay him a visit today and illustrate just how serious I am about leaving his deadbeat ass. *** An hour and thirty minutes later, I walk into the building that houses Wilson Construction. It took that long because I had a mini meltdown after spotting David’s picture on my dresser. I won’t exactly say I’m dressed to kill, but my short black dress, black heeled sandals and dark sunglasses make me look sophisticated and also point out that I’m still grieving my child. I arrive at the receptionist’s desk and her eyes brighten with recognition when I take off my glasses. “Mrs. Wilson.” She greets and I physically cringe. Not for long. “Hello, Maddie.” “The boss did not inform us that you’d be coming.” “That’s because he’s not aware of my presence. Is he in the office?” She nods. “Sure. You can go right up.” I smile my thanks and get into the elevator. Within seconds, I arrive at Laura’s desk. I’m disappointed to find it empty. I would’ve loved to give that bitch a piece of my mind. I pause outside the door to my husband’s office and take a huge, shaky breath. I might come off as strong and uncaring but deep down, I’m broken. When I got married to Henry two years ago, I was so in love that I never imagined a day would come when we would separate on such messy terms. I was so stupid, and now I have to pay the price. My son is gone, my marriage is gone and all that’s left is this hollow emptiness in my chest that only gets wider by the second. I shake my head and push the door open without wasting any more time. When I step into the huge, luxuriously furnished office, it’s empty. “I thought the receptionist said he was here.” I whisper to myself. I’m about to turn around and leave when a strange sound reaches my ears. My heartbeat accelerates and I turn sharply to my left, towards the direction of the sound. Two seconds later, I hear it again. It almost sounds like… a strangled moan. A woman’s moan. Wait. Could it be…? I don’t know what demon possesses me, but instead of leaving like I’m supposed to, I follow the sound and discover that it’s coming through a half open door on the far end of the office. And I was right. It’s a woman’s moan. “Ungh! Faster, Henry. Please…!” I freeze. That was Laura’s voice. I’d recognize it even in my dreams. It suddenly dawns on me that I was right all along. That bastard has really been cheating on me with Laura. Even though my mind is already prepared for what I’m about to see, my heart still twists painfully when I push the door open and I’m bombarded with the sight of Laura bouncing atop Henry, her eyes shut and her head thrown back in ecstasy. They’re both naked as the day they were born. And they both seem to be thoroughly enjoying themselves. I turn to leave quietly but at the last second, I unconsciously push the door and its low creak pierces the air like a bloody trumpet. I freeze, but it’s already too late. I’m startled from my daze by Henry’s panic-filled voice; “Fuck, Amani! What the hell are you doing here?” I turn around and run towards the entrance as fast as my feet can carry me, but he’s still faster. I can hear him running behind me. Before I can even touch the doorknob, Henry grabs my arm and roughly pulls me against his naked chest. I react violently, thrashing and kicking at him with all my might. “Let go of me. Let go!!” Henry pins both my arms behind my back and growls. “Calm down, Amani. Calm down for fuck’s sake. Stop with the drama!” I become deathly still when he utters that last sentence. I look up at his sharp green eyes, wondering what I ever saw in this monster. “Drama? I’m being dramatic? I catch you and your secretary, whom you’ve repeatedly lied to me that you’re not sleeping with, going at it like wild animals and I’m the dramatic one?” He scoffs. “I never lied to you. I wasn’t sleeping with Laura before. You disappeared for two days, Amani. What was I supposed to do? A man’s got needs.” I stare at him incredulously. “A man’s got needs? Your son died three days ago, you low down bastard. I’ve been grieving, depressed. You never bothered to call me or even check up on your own grieving wife because you were too busy shagging your secretary. You should be ashamed of yourself, Henry. Shame on you!” My voice drips with disgust. My blood is boiling. His grip on my arm tightens and I wince in pain. “Let go. You’re hurting me.” His eyes flash with anger. “You never used to be like this, Amani. You’ve become quite bold. Disrespectful, too. I need you to remember that I am still your husband and you must give me the respect I deserve. Do you bloody understand?!” “Henry, darling. Let go of her.” A voice says from behind him. Laura. “I understand that you’re upset, but you might hurt her. You don’t need any scandal in your life right now.” Henry releases me immediately and I stagger against the table, trying to catch my breath. It doesn’t go over my head that he only released me after his mistress asked him to. Bile rises in my throat as I watch Laura hand him his pants. He was naked the whole time! By the time he’s done wearing his pants, I’ve recovered from my bout of panic. Despite the burning anger in my veins, my back is ramrod straight and my chin is lifted, “I sent you the divorce papers. Why haven’t you signed them?” Henry’s eyes are murderous. “And I already told you that we’re not getting divorced. Look, David is dead and there’s honestly nothing that you and I can do about it. I know I’ve made some mistakes, but life goes on. What do you need to move past it? A new house? A new car?” My disgust is tripling by the second. “You cheated on me—“ “All men cheat, Amani!” He roars. “Besides, it was a one time thing. If you want to divorce me just because of this, then you’re making a grave mistake. There’s no man on this planet who doesn’t cheat on his wife. Live with it.” A sarcastic laugh slips past my lips and I shake my head. “Just because you’re a disloyal bastard doesn’t mean all men are like you, Mr. Wilson. I regret the day I ever set my eyes on you. I regret the day we got married. You should be ashamed of yourself, sleeping around with your secretary just three days after the death of your only son!” I pick up my bag from the floor and turn towards the door. “Where are you going?” Henry snaps. “Come back here immediately!” I pause with my fingers on the knob and shoot him a death glare. “My days of being your humble, submissive wife are over. You no longer have the right to order me around. Sign the divorce papers, Henry. If I take you to court myself, I might change my mind and actually lay claim on half of everything you own.” I turn to leave but stop once again, my eyes straying to Laura who currently has a smug look on her face. “Congratulations, by the way. You both deserve each other. Two rotten beans in a pod.” “No man will ever marry you if you leave me. Do you hear me? You’ll be single for the rest of your life!” He roars. Even if his words hurt like hell, I scoff. “Don’t threaten me with happiness, Henry.” Then I give him the middle finger and walk out of the office with my head held high… *** HENRY “Damn stubborn woman.” I mutter under my breath. “She makes me so angry.” I turn to Laura who’s standing quietly behind me and take both her hands in mine. “I’m so sorry about that, baby. Amani never used to be like this.” She shrugs and blood rushes to my cock at the sight of her hardened nipples poking through my shirt. “Aren’t you tired of her?” She whispers softly. “I mean, all she ever does is nag. Don’t you need some peace of mind already?” “I’m tired, but—” She places a finger against my lips, staring at me with those seductive eyes that never fail to make me weak in the knees. “If you’re tired, then give her what she wants. Divorce her. Marry me and adopt my children as your own.”At exactly three PM the next day, I stand outside my matrimonial home, clutching the strap of my bag in a death grip. Henry had called me an hour ago with news that he’d finally decided to sign the divorce papers, but I was expected to pick it up at our house. I didn’t want to come here but he was adamant. I can already feel tears pricking my eyes. This house holds too many memories of my dear David. I finally summon the courage and knock once. The door opens almost immediately and Zeya, our house keeper, appears. “Who is it…?” Her eyes widen in surprise when she sees me. “Mrs. Amani! Oh, it’s so wonderful to see you again. How’ve you been?” The middle aged woman pulls me into a bear hug and I almost burst into tears as her familiar peach scent fills my nostrils. “It’s wonderful to see you too, Zeya.” With my best friend in another country and my aunt always busy with work, Zeya was always my only companion on those nights when Henry never made it home because he was too b
AMANII can swear on the single sunflower that keeps growing atop my parents’ graves that wild banshees just held a concert in my brain. I peel my eyes open with great effort, hissing as the blinding white lights assault my poor eyeballs. I try to lift my hand but little pin pricks of pain shoot through my entire body. “It hurts…” I whimper helplessly.As if on cue, the sound of shuffling feet reaches my ears and seconds later, my aunt’s face fills the peripheral of my vision.“Amani, you’re awake! Oh, darling. I was so worried about you. What happened?” Her worried tone snaps me to the present and I wince in pain as she helps me to a sitting position.“Aunt… what are you doing here?”She pulls me into a bear hug and despite the fact that my entire body is sore, I draw comfort from her warm embrace. Tears prick my eyes as I suddenly realise how much I’ve missed her.“Aunt…”“Hush, my darling. That’s enough.” She pulls back and gives me a wobbly smile, running her fingers over my fa
AMANIThe last time I felt this shocked was the day Daisy, one of my weird ass classmates in elementary school, ate a live bug right in front of me. I blink at Bhyron, waiting patiently for him to inform me that that was an unsuccessful attempt at a joke. He doesn’t. “What the hell are you talking about? What kind of medication costs twenty million dollars? I fell from a flight of stairs, not a damn skyscraper.”His lips curve in a dangerous smirk that sends cold shivers down my spine. Without answering my question, he grabs one of the visitors’ chairs and starts walking towards me. Suddenly, I lose the ability to breathe properly. “Where are you going?”“Where do you think? I want to sit beside you.”Panic. I’m panicking. “There’s absolutely no need for that. I could hear you just fine even when you stood at the door, which is exactly where I prefer you to stand.”Bhyron ignores me as usual, choosing to do what he wants. I almost forgot that Bhyron Macaulay listens to no one. Oh,
AMANI — SIX YEARS AGO ( AGE 19)***“Sweetheart, you look so excited this morning. What’s going on?”I grin at my aunt and twirl, showing off my little white dress. I decided to wear this dress today because white is my fiancé’s all time favourite colour.“I have a date with Bhyron. He asked me to look extra nice today because he has a special surprise for me. I’m so excited.”Something flashes in Aunt Ophelia’s eyes, but it disappears so quickly, I’m left wondering if I’d imagined it. Her lips stretch in a wide grin.“Oh, that’s wonderful. You look gorgeous, my love. I hope you have a wonderful time.”A part of me registers that her excitement seems a bit forced, but just like the naïve nineteen year old that I am, I choose to ignore it.Aunt Ophelia has been taking care of me ever since my parents died in an unfortunate boat cruise accident early last year. She has two grown children but decided to raise me as her own. I love her so much. Without her and Bhyron, I would’ve probably
AMANIFool me once, shame on you, fool me twice, shame on me. And I swear on my dead son, I will never allow another man to fool me more than once.It’s the next day and I’m currently staring at myself in the mirror at my apartment, wondering if the hollow-eyed, bushy haired woman staring back at me is really me. One thing is certain — I need to do away with her. Immediately.After I threatened to sue Bhyron’s ass yesterday, he rolled out from underneath the bed, helped me to my feet and walked out without saying a single word.I don’t know how I did it, but I managed to get myself discharged from the hospital without calling my aunt.She kept blowing my phone with endless calls last night, but I wasn’t ready to speak to her yet. Last night was for crying my eyes out about my son and our new financial problem. At least it’s new to me.This morning, the sun is up, the birds are chirping and Amani Wilson is a new woman. I’m ready to give Aunt Ophelia a piece of my mind.There’s somethin
BHYRON“…that’s what she said, boss. Miss Amani did not accept the invitation.”I’m currently seated in my office, staring at the crumpled invitation on my glass desk and wondering when the high-spirited, carefree Amani I once knew became so stubborn.I get to my feet and pace to the floor-to-ceiling windows of my office, pressing a button on the wall to part the heavy draperies.The design of my office alone screams luxury. Every single item I use here is gotten from outrageously expensive sources all over the world. I have everything I could ever want in life. Except her. And I want Amani. Badly. Obsessively. I can almost imagine her saying those exact words, her lips pouting perfectly like they always do.“Chocolate chips will have to fall from the sky, huh?” Fiddling with my pencil, I turn to Jay.“If Amani wants Chocolate chips, then she will get chocolate chips. Assemble your men. You have work to do…”***AMANIAfter Bhyron’s messenger leaves, I no longer have the strength to
AMANIIt’s settled. I do believe that I have descended into the mangrove of craziness, straight into Crazy town and landed in Crazy river. Because why am I actually contemplating Bhyron’s offer?He’s right. Aunt Ophelia and I actually have less than twenty four hours to cough up twenty million dollars, otherwise, we might as well kiss our family company goodbye. I’m supposed to be looking for ways to repay the loan, but all I’ve been able to do for the past few hours is stare at pictures of my dead son and cry my eyes out.I sure as hell know we’re not coughing up anything before twelve noon tomorrow. We might as well choke in the process.So it’s settled. I’m attending the grand opening of La Mariée Dansante. Great.Even though I’m currently in a hateful relationship with the Macaulays, especially with their golden first born son; even though I’m still mourning the death of my precious boy, I cannot sit around and watch my parents’ hard work go down the drain. I have to do somethin
AMANIBut not for the loud music blasting from the speakers, the entire club would’ve heard my voice. Instead, the only people who are aware of our little quarrel are the people around us.I’m almost standing toe-to-toe with Bhyron, my chest heaving heavily with anger while he simply looks down at me with those icy blue eyes. Instead of apologizing, he looks over my shoulder at Richie, the millionaire tech. guy.“That was supposed to be a joke, Richie. But if you’d excuse me, I’d like to speak with Miss Amani in private.”“Of course. I understand.” Richie nods and walks away.Bhyron looks back at me, his sexy lips set in a hard, straight line.“Let’s go to my office. We need to talk.”Everyone has gone back to minding their business, but I can still feel some curious eyes on us. I fold my arms, lift my chin and stare him down.“I don’t hear an apology.”I fully expect him to brush me off or make some sarcastic remark. However, to my surprise, his eyes darken with a strange emotion an
BHYRONThere’s something very suspicious about this entire situation. After the disaster of our wedding, I went on a fucking rampage. I burned and destroyed every single last one of King Murder’s properties that came within my reach while he went into hiding. Thinking about it now, my blood heats with the fierce hint of violence.I have to give to him, he was wise enough to hide. Because only the devil would’ve been able to look at his body once I was done with him, if I’d gotten my hands on the bastard then. I hold Amani’s soft, smaller hand in mine, still amazed by her show of strength. Yes, I would rather she stayed back at the office and out of harm’s way, but there was something about the defiant spark on her eyes when she told me she’d like to confront King Murder that stirred my stony heart.I make sure to keep her behind me, shielded by my body as we make our way down the hall. I flick a glance at our joined hands and my heart beats a painful, comforting rhythm.She didn’t p
AMANII try to sit on my own, worried that my weight is a burden to Bhyron, but a low growl rumbles in his chest and he clamps his arms around my waist, keeping me locked against him. I look up and our eyes meet. I nearly melt from the heat in his gaze. He frowns at me, telling me exactly what he thinks about my attempt to escape. So I stay put. I wiggle against his chest, wrap my arms around his hard, solid belly and stay snuggled around my husband.“The guns in Grandpa’s house. The fierce-looking guards. The underground tunnel. Oh, and the tinted cars that kept taking you guys to God knows where at night.”His lips curl in a mysterious smile and he leans forward, running the tip of his nose across the shell of my ear.“How did you know about that? Were you watching me, little caramel?”I shiver in his embrace and lower my head, my cheeks reddening with awareness. “A little bit. You’re very interesting to watch.”To my surprise, Bhyron throws back his head and laughs. My head snaps
BHYRONLeft to me, I would never bother to relive those horrible memories. They’re with me day and night, haunting my nightmares and my waking moments.But it’s not left to me anymore. The moment Amani became involved, it was no longer in my hands. I need to say it out loud. I have to get it off my chest. Maybe, just maybe, doing this will silence the demons that haunt me till this day. So here goes;“When I was eight years old, I was kidnapped. It started out like a normal day, I’d gone to school as usual but on my way back, the unexpected happened.We were ambushed by three trucks filled with men all dressed in red. They killed my driver and two bodyguards. My bodyguards.” I pause for a moment, shivering as the worst of the memories come tumbling in.Amani presses closer against my back, silently lending her support. Believe it or not, that gives me the strength to go on.“The goons didn’t just shoot my guards, they tied them to a wooden stake and roasted all three of them alive wh
BHYRONAn hour and thirty minutes later, we’re all seated in Bhyron’s spacious, luxuriously decorated office. There are five of us — me, Zuri, Amanda, Bhyron and Duke.Amanda and Zuri were already waiting when we arrived. Zuri holds my hand, silently lending her support while Bhyron stands behind his desk, opposite us. There’s a strange look in his eyes, an interesting mixture of pain, sorrow and fear that tempts me to run across the room and hold him.Dread clings to the stiff atmosphere like the smell of petrichor on a dusty rainy day. Whatever Duke, Bhyron and Amanda are about to tell us will be horrible. I can already feel it. “Let’s go straight to the point and get it over with, shall we?” Duke begins. “But before we start, we’d like to show you a video, Amani.”My heartbeat accelerates painfully. Duke turns his laptop, giving me access to the video that’s already playing on the screen. My eyes are glued to the screen, scared that I’ll miss something if I even dare to blink.A
AMANIBhyron lunges across the room in a heartbeat and seconds later, I’m enveloped in the fierce heat of his arms, drowning in the comforting deliciousness of his scent.The moment my head touches his chest, all my worries instantly disappear but at the same time, my heart breaks all over again.I’m holding a man who was once a victim of my parents’ greed. Bhyron suffered so much… and somehow, I believe it’s all my fault. He didn’t deserve what they did to him. He was just a child!He pulls me closer, holding me like he’d never let go… like he never, ever wants to let go. I can feel the love and warmth that he’s pouring into me, and I feel giddy with joy at the thought that this powerful, overbearing man is my husband.“I’m so sorry.” I bring myself to whimper. “I’m so, so sorry. Please forgive me. Please…”Beneath me, Bhyron stiffens. I can hear his heartbeat quicken as he pulls me away from his chest.For long moments, those dark, hooded eyes simply appraise me. His gaze is so raw
BHYRONToday is the shittiest day of my entire life. The absolute worst.I left Duke back at the warehouse to handle business and now, I’m tearing down the freeway like a madman on steroids, heading back to the hospital.I should never have left her behind. I thought she was safe. What’s the worst that could happen? According to Duke, the chief medical practitioner walked in and spilled the news to Amani while she was still trying to recover from the shocking news of her parents’ deception.My grip around the steering wheel is so hard, my knuckles turn white. She wasn’t ready, goddamnit! She wasn’t ready for all of this shit.Less than fifteen minutes later, I arrive at the hospital thanks to my less-than-laudable driving skills. I storm out of the car and make my way to the private ward.I have no idea how Amani will receive me after finding out that she’s carrying our baby.Is she angry? Will she push me away, ask me to leave? I will never leave her. Not again. Even if she holds
BHYRON“You’ve got to be fucking kidding me.” Duke growls, lunging for Axel.One moment, Axel is on his knees, giving me a death glare and the next, he lies sprawled on the floor, writhing, groaning and nursing his broken, bleeding nose.Believe it or not, Duke gave the fucker a sucker punch. “Why would you do that?!” He whines like a little girl.I always suspected that Axel was gay. He flirted with me every time we met for business, but since he never mentioned it, I was bent on believing he was just playing around.Betrayal and frustration churn in my throat, demanding release. My fingers itch to put a bullet in his brain. But suddenly, I’ve decided that I’m done. I’m done getting my hands dirty. I’m done killing and torturing people. Never again. I no longer wish to be involved in the dirty business of the underworld. A free life with Amani and our baby is all I need.“You’ve worked for me for five years, Anton.” I begin, instead of lashing out like I really want to. “How did yo
BHYRONThe sharp sound of the car door slamming as Duke storms out jolts me back to reality.For a moment, I sit still, running facts and memories over and over again in my mind, contemplating Duke’s words. It dawns on me with startling clarity that he’s right. My siblings and I used to be best friends when we were little. But after getting kidnapped by Amani’s parents and going through the most traumatic experiences of my entire life, our relationship never, ever remained the same. I was damaged for life. That one unfortunate incident created a permanent rift in my relationship with my family and everyone else. I locked up and pushed people away. The only people I’ve let close in the past years are Duke and my grandfather.With a twinge of guilt, I realize that my siblings have actively tried to keep in touch. They never gave up on me. Brielle sends me flowers on my birthday every year. She calls me every single day but I never answer, so she resorts to leaving voice mails which I
BHYRONI can’t breathe.My shirt collar isn’t too tight, but I pull it away from my neck all the same. I can swear there’s a noose around my throat and what’s worse? It keeps tightening as the seconds tick by.An hour ago, I paced the empty hallway of the hospital, impatiently waiting for Zuri to emerge so I could go back to sitting by Amani’s side and holding her hand.When she walked towards the door, I’d honestly thought she was ready to leave. I never once suspected that the devious little minx planned to lock me out. My fingers twitch by my sides and I take long, deep breaths, trying and failing miserably to stop the redness that crawls into my vision.Memories of the pure horror on Amani’s face when Zuri started speaking are permanently burned into my mind. She wasn’t ready, goddamnit! My baby had just woken up. She needed time!I pace the length of the driveway, trying to relieve myself of the demon that came upon me when Zuri locked that door. What happened to me at that mome