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it was the summer before

Author: Gentle J
last update Last Updated: 2023-06-16 16:23:16

It was the summer before my senior year. I was driving around Savannah doing some errands before heading back to school, listening to the local top 40 radio station, when a Bruno Mars song finished and the cheesy-ass announcer came on.

“You’re gonna be hearing big things out of this next band, a rock group out of Athens, Georgia named Bigger. Bigger what, you might ask?” he asked with a suggestive smirk in his voice. “You be the judge… but I think they’ll be bigger stars than anybody out there, if their first single is any indication – it’s Bigger, with ‘Girl, Please Stay’!”

The guitar intro was really good – a beautiful melody expertly played.

For some reason, even though the songs didn’t sound anything alike, I thought of “Under The Bridge” and a day, long ago, spent in a basement singing along to Katie Perry and Beatles songs.

And then, like a ghost appearing in the seat next to me, Derek’s voice – sexy, deep, seductive – filled the car.

I met a girl who turned my head

She took me
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