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At war with myself
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2024-10-29 19:42:56Following the whole scenario in father’s office and Adonis walking out, leaving me to stand there alone to face my father and brother.
I could feel my whole body stiffen as Sean almost glared at me, but before he could snap at me my father stepped in,
“Arya, I’m afraid to say that rejecting Adonis now after already starting the mate bond process is not going to be easy.
I honestly never would have thought that he would be you’re mate, I’m sorry that I insisted you even come to the dining hall last night,” I felt the tears stinging behind my eyes as an even bigger lump formed in my throat but I said nothing.
Sean crossed his arms while still staring me down,
“Well, she can’t reject him in this week of training. That will render them both useless to the fighters, it’s going to be virtually impossible to keep them away from each other while on the training field, but as soon as training is done Arya is to be kept in her chambers.
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