I looked away with a heartfelt sigh. He gave me a moment to reply, but I didn’t. He’d already said it all.“That’s why she resents your coming home late, and that you’d rather jerk off with a little oil than fuck her.”“Why d’you always have to be such a blunt son of a bitch?”“Me?” He chuckled, refilling our glasses with some five-figure Californian white wine. “For giving voice to what you already know? Or for giving you a taste of all you don’t find with her?”I met his eyes with a thoughtful frown. “Why d’you do it?” I blurted out. “I know I’ve already asked you this, but you never give me a real answer. I mean, what’s in there for you right now? What d’you actually get from edging me into your horny pet? Not like you even get hard over it.”The bastard spun on his seat to keep from spraying my face with half-chewed food while he laughed out loud. He took a minute to calm down, wash the basin and come back to his seat, still giggling.“Jesus, boy! How can you be so fucking blind?”
I rolled my eyes yet again, stepping down from the tall chair to pick up our polished dishes and take them to the basin. I heard him step down too and open the fridge.“I’m afraid I only have pistachio with chocolate chips and aniseed cream,” he said.“Shame on you. Where d’you have bowls?”“In the cupboard.”I brought two fancy crystal bowls to the island while he reached out to grab spoons from the first drawer, leaving two packs of ice cream before him.“I’ve got a challenge for you,” he said, filling the bowls. “Last week, in New York, my wife brought it up and—”“You call your boyfriend wife?”“What? No. Lou’s my partner and my wife is my wife. Actually, she’s Lou’s big sister.”“Gross.”“Not really. I’ll explain some other time. We haven’t divorced ‘cause I want her to have access to my money for anything she may need. We’re good friends, you see.”“Go figure, if she’s okay with you fucking her brother.”“She set us up.”“And you let her go?”He blinked, taken aback, and then la
“Let’s do something,” he said. “You finish the seminar and push your project as far as you can. It’s a good one, and I already have a couple of ideas to use it, but first I gotta see what you guys actually make of it. In the meantime, I’m gonna try to get some of my wife’s prototypes to get the coding started. And once you’re done with your project, you can hop in to join mine.”“Sounds good,” I said. And it was true, it did.“Great. By the way, I’m gonna need a test subject.”The way he smirked made me frown. “Forget it.”He raised his eyebrows. “These things need lube.”“Oh, you son of a thousand bitches.”“Great. I knew I could count on you.”I snorted, about to grumble some more, but my eyes fell on the wall clock. Almost nine! I’d be lucky if I didn’t find my few belongings packed outside my apartment’s door.“Shit!” I grunted, standing up. “Sorry, but I really gotta go.”He stopped me with a smile when I grabbed my phone to call an Uber and took his to make the call. Weird. It w
He stopped on the driveway and led me to the front door, where he pointed at another touchscreen by the doorframe.“There. Use your finger and your key,” he said, smiling at my suspicious frown.I did and the front door clicked. He pulled it wide open. Three soft warm lights came to life in the ceiling, revealing a cozy living area and a kitchen at the other end. The stairs to the upper floor were against the wall on the right.“C’mon in,” he said, waving for me to walk in.I stopped just past the doorway, still trying to understand what was this place and why he’d taken me there.“This is one of the guesthouses,” he said in a casual tone, coming to stand by my side. “There’s a toilet under the stairs and two bedrooms upstairs.”“And we’re here why?”“Next time you need a break, you can come here. Nobody will disturb you, and you can stay for as long as you want, be it a couple of hours or a couple of years.”I turned to him, speechless. Behind us, the soft roar of a fine engine grew
Of course I left. I ran away like a damned chicken.Steph didn’t even glance at me when I got home, which gave me the priceless chance to take my chicken ass straight to the shower. I lingered under the warm rain, trying to decide whether I felt relieved or regretted declining Big Ellie’s last temptation.The bed was vacant when I finally left the bathroom, still incapable of telling how I felt, so I got in it. Time for Steph to try the couch. Yeah, anytime. She could be proud and stubborn, but she was no fool. She wouldn’t give up her half of the comfy mattress.I rolled over, turning my back on her, and she got in bed without a word, staying as far from me as the king size allowed her to, so we didn’t brush each other even by mistake.Midnight found me awake, listening to her slow, deep breathing from what seemed a world away, while I tried to find some kind of clarity in the swamp my mind was.I didn’t want to give up on her, on us, just yet. Couple have rough patches now and then.
But every time I went back to that night, I felt my belly about to turn.How come I wasted a single minute on that? On him!The son of a bitch had turned my world upside down. He’d threatened me with sending me back to prison for life if I didn’t let him play with me. He’d disrupted my whole life. He’d screwed up my relationship with the girl I loved.And I missed him?How many levels of fucked up was that? How could I possibly harbor any feeling other than hate for him?Not to mention the pronoun.I wasn’t about to turn gay overnight, especially not over that arrogant prick, and let him bang my ass like he did his pretty Mr. All Fours. Because that was all he wanted. He’d stated awfully clearly over our famous dinner.Then why on earth did I keep checking my phone and the locker, to see if there was any sign of him? Why the hell did I wish I could let him tie me down and play with me till he made me beg? How come I was so not right in the head that his sick games made me feel good, n
Steph wasn’t home. Weird. She hadn’t left any kind of note or message to let me know her whereabouts. Well, fuck her too.Just like last Sunday, I was angry and fed up.If she didn’t put her pride aside and give any sign of her will to mend things between us before Monday, I’d find another place and move out.As to make a statement of my determination, I ordered seafood, turned on the TV to wait for the Lakers game and went to the bedroom to change my clothes. And since dinner would take about forty minutes, I could take a dump. No freshener.Ten minutes later, back to the living area, I was surprised to find Steph standing by the breakfast bar, scrolling something on her phone. Especially because she turned to me with a furious glare in her eyes full of tears.“Son of a bitch!” she cried. “How long have you been lying to me?”Before I could ask what she was talking about, she crossed the room in three strides, slapped me hard and put the phone in my face. It wasn’t hers, it was mine,
I breathed deep and shook my head.“He...” I trailed off and needed a moment to put the words together and find my voice to utter them. “He touches me.” I shrugged. “He edges me.”Steph narrowed her eyes, studying me. “And you like it?” she asked in a whisper.I held her eyes, setting my jaw.Her whispering turned into an angry accusation. “You like it!” She was back to her furious bellowing. “You fucking like it, you filthy slut! You don’t care it’s a man as long as it’s a hand on your fucking dick!”My only defense was getting angry too. “So what? At least he cares if I fucking come! Wish I could say the same about you!”“Son of a bitch! You let him fuck you in the ass for a blowjob!”“What? He doesn’t fuck me in the ass! I’d never let him! Told you I’m not gay!”Her mocking scoff took me aback. “Jesus, D! You’re so fucking naïve! He’s gonna have your ass sooner than later, ‘cause that’s what he wants! And once he gets what he wants, he’s gonna discard you along with the rubber.”“W