He stopped on the driveway and led me to the front door, where he pointed at another touchscreen by the doorframe.“There. Use your finger and your key,” he said, smiling at my suspicious frown.I did and the front door clicked. He pulled it wide open. Three soft warm lights came to life in the ceiling, revealing a cozy living area and a kitchen at the other end. The stairs to the upper floor were against the wall on the right.“C’mon in,” he said, waving for me to walk in.I stopped just past the doorway, still trying to understand what was this place and why he’d taken me there.“This is one of the guesthouses,” he said in a casual tone, coming to stand by my side. “There’s a toilet under the stairs and two bedrooms upstairs.”“And we’re here why?”“Next time you need a break, you can come here. Nobody will disturb you, and you can stay for as long as you want, be it a couple of hours or a couple of years.”I turned to him, speechless. Behind us, the soft roar of a fine engine grew
Of course I left. I ran away like a damned chicken.Steph didn’t even glance at me when I got home, which gave me the priceless chance to take my chicken ass straight to the shower. I lingered under the warm rain, trying to decide whether I felt relieved or regretted declining Big Ellie’s last temptation.The bed was vacant when I finally left the bathroom, still incapable of telling how I felt, so I got in it. Time for Steph to try the couch. Yeah, anytime. She could be proud and stubborn, but she was no fool. She wouldn’t give up her half of the comfy mattress.I rolled over, turning my back on her, and she got in bed without a word, staying as far from me as the king size allowed her to, so we didn’t brush each other even by mistake.Midnight found me awake, listening to her slow, deep breathing from what seemed a world away, while I tried to find some kind of clarity in the swamp my mind was.I didn’t want to give up on her, on us, just yet. Couple have rough patches now and then.
But every time I went back to that night, I felt my belly about to turn.How come I wasted a single minute on that? On him!The son of a bitch had turned my world upside down. He’d threatened me with sending me back to prison for life if I didn’t let him play with me. He’d disrupted my whole life. He’d screwed up my relationship with the girl I loved.And I missed him?How many levels of fucked up was that? How could I possibly harbor any feeling other than hate for him?Not to mention the pronoun.I wasn’t about to turn gay overnight, especially not over that arrogant prick, and let him bang my ass like he did his pretty Mr. All Fours. Because that was all he wanted. He’d stated awfully clearly over our famous dinner.Then why on earth did I keep checking my phone and the locker, to see if there was any sign of him? Why the hell did I wish I could let him tie me down and play with me till he made me beg? How come I was so not right in the head that his sick games made me feel good, n
Steph wasn’t home. Weird. She hadn’t left any kind of note or message to let me know her whereabouts. Well, fuck her too.Just like last Sunday, I was angry and fed up.If she didn’t put her pride aside and give any sign of her will to mend things between us before Monday, I’d find another place and move out.As to make a statement of my determination, I ordered seafood, turned on the TV to wait for the Lakers game and went to the bedroom to change my clothes. And since dinner would take about forty minutes, I could take a dump. No freshener.Ten minutes later, back to the living area, I was surprised to find Steph standing by the breakfast bar, scrolling something on her phone. Especially because she turned to me with a furious glare in her eyes full of tears.“Son of a bitch!” she cried. “How long have you been lying to me?”Before I could ask what she was talking about, she crossed the room in three strides, slapped me hard and put the phone in my face. It wasn’t hers, it was mine,
I breathed deep and shook my head.“He...” I trailed off and needed a moment to put the words together and find my voice to utter them. “He touches me.” I shrugged. “He edges me.”Steph narrowed her eyes, studying me. “And you like it?” she asked in a whisper.I held her eyes, setting my jaw.Her whispering turned into an angry accusation. “You like it!” She was back to her furious bellowing. “You fucking like it, you filthy slut! You don’t care it’s a man as long as it’s a hand on your fucking dick!”My only defense was getting angry too. “So what? At least he cares if I fucking come! Wish I could say the same about you!”“Son of a bitch! You let him fuck you in the ass for a blowjob!”“What? He doesn’t fuck me in the ass! I’d never let him! Told you I’m not gay!”Her mocking scoff took me aback. “Jesus, D! You’re so fucking naïve! He’s gonna have your ass sooner than later, ‘cause that’s what he wants! And once he gets what he wants, he’s gonna discard you along with the rubber.”“W
I didn’t close the door while I packed my clothes and my few personal things in a duffel bag. Steph didn’t come, and I knew damn well why: she didn’t believe I had the guts to leave her. Well, that made two of us, and yet, there I was, packing to leave.She waited in the living area, with that smug smirk still pursing her lips, even when she saw me head to the front door with the duffel bag.“If things go south, I won’t mention you,” I said, putting my jacket on. “But if push comes to shove and they discover you’re here too, I’ll tell them you don’t know I’m in town. I’ll tell them I came looking for you and still haven’t found you.”She nodded, rolling her eyes. She really didn’t believe I could ever leave her and live to tell the tale. Jeez! How arrogant was that? I opened the front door and hung my keys by hers.“Take care, Steph.”“Good luck with your CEO,” she replied.“Thanks. I’m gonna need it.”I met her eyes for the last time.There she was. My girl. The love of my life. The
The kitchen reminded me of the West Wing’s, only smaller. The fridge was stocked for a year-long lockdown, like the cupboards.“Son of a bitch,” I murmured when I found several bags of seafood in the freezer.Since I’d missed my dinner order, I grabbed one of the seafood bags and put it in the microwaves before going back to the fridge. The autopilot didn’t consult me to take out my phone and type a text.“No six-packs. Lousy host.”I only reacted after sending it. Shit! I didn’t want to contact him! There was no way the control freak didn’t know I was there, but I didn’t want to make any fuss about it either.He didn’t reply right away. Good. He was busy, surely enjoying Friday night with Mr. All Fours, so he wouldn’t see my text till morning. I didn’t intend to stay there more than one night, so I’d be gone by the time he read my stupid joke.Cooking always distracted me, and to make things even better, the flat TV past the table showed me the Lakers game had just started. I was lay
He rang me the moment the quarter was over, to let me know he was coming and I didn’t need to get the door. Sure, of course his thumb opened every damn door in the whole campus. I heard the cart stopping outside as the second quarter started, and he showed up in the kitchen a heartbeat later.“What did I miss?” he asked.“Nothing,” I replied from the table.He left two six-packs and the family pack of ice cream he’d brought in the fridge and came to sit down at the round table with me. I was still eating, and we didn’t waste our breath in further greetings, too focused on the game. We only exchanged casual comments or exclamations until the halftime. Then I picked up my things, took everything to the kitchen and opened the faucets to do the dishes.“Are you staying the weekend?” he asked, turning in his chair to look at me.“Nah. I’m leaving in the morning,” I said, keeping my back turned to him. “Where?” I glanced back from over my shoulder and saw him raise his eyebrows. “Brokers d