Josh rolls his eyes, shaking his head, “Jesus, Cole. I thought you decided you were letting this Shayla thing go man?”
“I am!” I shout angrily. “She fucking left. She left work. She’s leaving home; she’s leaving me tomorrow!” I groan and turn my head to look at Josh. “Will you take me to her?”
Josh laughs, shaking his head. “No. You show up at her door like this she’s going to think you’re a moron. The only place you’re going right now is to bed, my friend. You need to sleep it off. You’re going to see her tomorrow anyway. You can tell her whatever you need to tell her there.” He explains, and I groan staring out of his window up at the black sky.
An hour later, Josh carries, half drags me through my apartment to my bedroom. “No, no, no,” I mumble, pointing at Shayla’s bedroom. “In there.” Josh nods and carries me over to her bed and drop
“Who said it was for nothing? I gave you my word, and I kept it. That might not mean anything to you, Cole, but to me, it means everything.” She tells me, her sincerity evident in her green eyes. “Look, I’m sorry I had to go behind your back. I didn’t do it to hurt you or get one over on you. I honestly don’t want it, Cole, I don’t. If you really want to do something, take that money, and give it to those who really need it. Be the guy who leaves his mark by making a difference in the world. However, big or small, that difference may be.” I stare into her eyes, and she smiles, but it doesn’t reach her eyes. “I have to go.” She whispers, and I reach out and take her hand in mine.“Can I drive you anywhere?” I offer, but she shakes her head.“No. I drove here, so I’m good.” She replies, looking into my eyes, and I can see them watering. She reaches up and brushes her fingers a
Is there a pain worse than watching the man you're in love with break down in your arms after losing someone he loves dearly? This was the man he looked up to growing up, and he just watched him die right in front of his eyes. The way his head fell into my lap and his heartfelt sobs would haunt me for an awfully long time. Grandpa Joe held my hand so tight they hand to pry his fingers from mine. I couldn't suppress the whimper that escaped me, especially when I heard Elaine's screams of despair over losing her father. I know that feeling all too well. Grandpa Joe died surrounded by his children and grandchildren; even if he didn't recognise any of them, in the end, he died in peace with the image of the love of his life before his eyes.Someone once told me that right before you die, the angel of death appears to you as the person you love the most, and to Grandpa Joe, that was Grandma Maisie. I may have only met him a couple of months ago, but I grew to love him just as I di
I lift my gaze to hers and nod, "Of course. I appreciate the apology. My marriage to your son may not have lasted, but you were right, we're not right for one another, but I do care for him deeply and wish him nothing but happiness in whatever he chooses to do next." I explain blinking back the tears that I feel burning the back of my eyelids.Elaine smiles sadly and pats my hand, "You're an incredibly unique girl Shayla Hart and the love and respect you've shown my father in his last moments will forever have a special place in my heart." She sighs wiping away her tears. "You'll come to the funeral, right?""I'd like to if that's okay with you," I ask, biting my bottom lip and she smiles nodding."Of course, you will be there. I would have it no other way." I smile a little and nod gratefully. "Would you mind if I give you a hug?" I look at her, surprised and shook my head. She wraps her arms around me and hugs me tight, her hands brushing my hair. "Good luck w
There he stood. All six-foot-four of him, looking just as wrecked as I was feeling. Our eyes meet, and he looks at me and shrugs before he walks in and pulls me into his arms, burying his face into my neck. "I can't breathe. I feel like everything is closing in around me." He cries. "Can I stay with you tonight?" I look over at Aimee who places her hand over her chest, her eyes filling with tears."Of course," I whisper, wrapping my arms around his neck and he squeezes me tightly. Why does he keep doing this to me, and why do I keep letting him? Why can't he just let me go? We pull apart, and I close the door once he walks into my apartment. He greets the girls with a nod, and they both walk over and hug him, which he returns."We're so sorry for your loss Cole," Jo says when they pull away from the hug. Cole nods and shrugs."Thanks, girls and I'm sorry to show up like this. I just couldn't bear being alone tonight." Aimee and Jo both nod in understanding.
I nod, "Exactly, we can't be just friends, Cole." He tries to interject, but I press my fingers to his lips, and he watches me. "Look at us, is this how two friends hold each other," I whisper, and he shakes his head, his eyes never leaving mine. I brush my fingers along his jaw. "Is this how two friends look at one another." He shakes his head again, his eyes flicker down to my lips and back up to my eyes again. "Is it still a friendship if I can still remember just the way you taste." Cole stares at my lips and swallows hard. I curl my fingers at the nape of his neck and press my forehead to his. "How could you think I'd be your friend," I whisper to him closing my eyes. I bite back the tears just itching to fall. "You have to let me go, Cole, please," I beg him sorrowfully."I'm trying Shay, believe me, I'm trying." He breathes, sweeping his nose over mine. "It's just so hard. I think I have feel—"I shake my head and cover his mouth with my hand. "No. Don't.
Two weeks...That's how long it's been since I walked away from Shayla after that night, I spent with her. The last time I saw her was at Grandpop's funeral a week later. I didn't know she'd be there so when I saw her, the emotions I'd been suppressing bubbles up again. She sat two rows behind me on the other side at the church. I kept looking back at her, and her eyes would find mine, and we'd stare at one another until she breaks the eye contact looks ahead. Sophie was stuck to my side the entire time, so I couldn't even speak to her properly, which fucked me off royally. After the burial, she disappeared without a word, and I still remember my gut twisting in disappointment. I made her a promise that I would let her be and I'm trying to keep my word, but it's just so hard.That morning I woke up in her arms. I must have fallen asleep while she read to me. I can see why Grandpop loved it when she read to him. Something is soothing about the way she reads that calms y
Adjusting to life without her has been challenging. I threw myself into work much like I did before I met her. I took on project after project, flew all around the world to keep myself distracted so that I wouldn't think about her. I put all my energy into my relationship with Sophie, and it was going. Day's drug on, nights even longer when I lay in bed with Sophie and Shayla's face creeps into my mind, or I see her in my dreams. I wonder what she's doing at least ten times a day. I miss her terribly, her laugh, her voice, her smell, the way she would glare at me when I annoyed her, and I wonder if she misses me too or even if she thinks about me. I want to call her. I get tempted at least ten times a day.One month goes by, then two, then three but the gaping hole Shayla has left in my life doesn't seem to be disappearing."Baby?" I look over at Sophie, who smiles at me lovingly. "What are you thinking about. You look as though your miles away." She questions and I sh
It was my turn to groan in disappointment when she breaks the kiss and sits up, her dark hair falls around her like a curtain as she positions herself, pressing my cock against her entrance, our eyes lock, and she slides down the length of me slow, her mouth falls open as I stretch her out whilst I push deeper inside her. We moan together once I'm fully immersed inside her, and she starts to rock her hips back and forth slowly. "God sweetheart, you're so perfect." I burr huskily, holding her hips and grinding mine up, meeting her thrusts. Once she finds her rhythm, she picks up the momentum rocking harder and faster until she clamps down on me hard and I follow her over the edge, I thrust my hips up hard and explode deep inside her. "Ohhhnn baby fuck, fuck, uhhhh." We collapse on the bed, breathless."Oh my God, I think that was the best sex we have ever had, baby." Panting I open my eyes and look over and see Sophie staring back at me. Ahh, fuck me. Did I just fantasise that