I look down from the bridge and waited for her to come through the surface. I wait and wait, but she doesn't seem to emerge from the water. The cold wind started to blew a mizzle of rain over us. I cross over the edge, planning to jump and save her. There's another way down to the bridge but It'll take much time.
"NO!!! KYLE, STOP!" Allen shouted, as he and Hue run towards me.
"I HAVE TO SAVE HER!! CALL AN AMBULANCE, HUE!"
"I SAID NO, KYLE! THIS IS TOO DANGEROUS! You both could die!" Allen gripped on my arms.
"Or survive, Allen! Do you want her to end up like your brother? We have to save her!" He looked at me in the eye and slowly released my arms. I can see that he's frantic, but we don't have any choice. I'm the only one who's capable of doing this. Allen can't swim and Hue is drunk.
"Call an ambulance!" I said before I jumped off. I'm frightened too. I don't want to die yet, but I'll feel responsible if I didn't do something. I just thought that if I didn't die from that car accident, then I'm not gonna die tonight. Not until I find my real identity.
I saw her instantly when I got under the water. I don't know if she's not breathing anymore or she just chose not to struggle. I swam towards her immediately, hoping I wasn't too late. The moment I touched her hand, I felt a sudden pressure on my chest. It hurts. I pulled her upwards while all I think about is air, desperately. I'm getting weak but I still gave all my strength. I won't allow any one of us die tonight. When we finally reached the surface. I, at once, gasp for an air. But the girl seemed not breathing anymore. I kept paddling with only my right hand, and pulling her shirt with my left until we get to the shore and prepared to give her a CPR. But when I saw her face, I was stunned.
I can't believe this is happening right now. It's impossible. I was unable to speak and react. I'm just staring at her, not doing anything to save her. My heart is racing like it's going to stop any second. It really hurts.
This isn't happening. This is not real."Kyle! Kyle!" Allen called while running towards me. When he saw the girl, he fell down from shock and got confused for a moment. Then he stood up and grabbed my collar aggresively.
"Kyle, look at me!" I can hear him clearly, but my mind is foggy. I can't focus. I can't process what I'm seeing right now. There's ringing in my ears and it's making me more confuse.
Am I hallucinating again? Is this an another detachment episode?"KYLE! Kyle It's real, this is real Kyle. You're not hallucinating!" Allen said as if he heard my thoughts.
I can already hear the siren of the ambulance approaching. I realized that this is really happening. But how come this girl, looks exactly like Luna? I came to my senses again and looked at Allen straight in the eye and then look back to the lifeless girl.
"She's not breathing!" I said as I crawl over to her immediately and looked for a pulse on her neck, but I found nothing. I started performing CPR on her. Good thing that I know what I'm going to do. I've learned this years ago from the swimming team. Two blows and thirty pumps, but there's no response. I repeat it twice, still no response. I'm getting weak. Fortunately, the paramedic arrived and ready to take over. But just before the paramedic start perfoming CPR, she finally coughs, gasping for air. And immediately, she was taken to the hospital.
We followed them and check how she's doing. Her Doctor asked us what happened and I told him I saw her drowning and we tried to save her. But I didn't tell him the whole truth, that she intentionally jumped off. Then he praised me for doing a great job on saving her.
I changed my clothes in the car. They really brought my stuffs.
Just when did they get all these?
I put on my black hoodie, I feel like I'm going to have fever again. My throat hurts, I think I've swallowed a lot of sea water.
I stayed in the car for a few minutes, thinking. I'm so nervous, my knees are shaking while I bite my nails. I think of what will happen next. Am I going to find out who I really am, my real name and that she's my sister? I can't believe she's real. Well, I expected she is but, part of me still doubted that fact. But here we are, Luna and I, finally met, in this real world. It feels... surreal.
I go to Luna's room and the three of us, waited for her to wake up.
"Hey.. what are you thinking?" Allen asked. He notice I'm anxious. I'm fidgeting.
"This is real right? I mean, she's real. She's not an effect of hallucination. It means, she's really connected to me."
"We'll find out when she wakes up, don't assume things already." he advised. He's very cautious.
We notice Hue was staring at Luna.
"Hue, what's up?" I asked.
"Kyle, I can't believe this. Now that I'm sober, she really looked like Luna." he said. Allen and I almost laugh.
"You just notice that?" Allen asked.
"No, dude! I mean, in Kyle's painting, Luna has a mole on her left cheek, near her neck. That girl, she has it too!"
Allen and I both looked at Luna, and Hue was right. She really has a mole in that very position. I didn't notice that earlier and it made us wonder even more.
"How is this possible?" Allen said. He finally admitted it, just now, that this is really unexplainable.
"I think she's a ghost!"
"Shut up, Hue!"
"There's no way this is happening!"
I woke up by an indistinct chatter from a distance. Not too far, it’s like we’re just in the same room. I don’t know where I am but it reeks of alcohol in here. It smells like flu, or some kind of an air-borne sickness that you can smell and taste when you breathe it in with your mouth. I hate it. As I slowly open my eyes, I realized right away that I’m in a Hospital. A bit confused, I look around and see three guys standing and staring at me, like I’m some kind of a ghost. Clearly, I don’t know them, but I can see that they’re just around my age. I'm not sure if I heard it right, but they're saying things like being a ghosts or something. I felt very hot, winded and I started feeling dizzy, so I closed my eyes again. I can feel the pulsing of my head. “Call the Doctor! Hurry!” One of them shouted and one of them run off through the door. I tried to remember what happened to me. All I can reca
I was on my way back to the hospital when Kyle called me saying Raina already ran away, and that she's said things like he's going to kill her. I got worried that she might attempt to suicide again. She needs help, I saw it in her. Those familiar sad eyes desperately seeking for someone to save her. It's the same as my brother. That was five years ago when he took his own life. I was there. Watching him do it. And until now, it tortures me. If only I didn't ignore his constant feeling of sadness and despair, maybe he'd still be here. I knew he needed someone. Somebody he could talk to. About his pain. I knew that it could be me, but I'm too afraid to ask. Afraid that I can't be of any help, so I stayed silent and just watch him lose interest in everything. I've seen it all. Until one day, students were all panicky as they gathered in the school yard, looking up to the guy who is standing on the edge of the rooftop. I wa
"I'm not going home with you, Dad." I say. I don't want to leave yet, not until I finally talked to Raina. I can't believe Dad come all the way here just because he was worried. A colleague of him saw us on the ambulance rescue last night as they patrol in the area. My phone's dead because it got wet so I didn't know he was calling me. He called Hue and Allen too but they're just too occupied of what's happening too. "I don't wanna be the anti-hero here, Kyle! But you acted so stupid! You could've drowned there for God's sake!!" Dad said furiously. The three of us are just bowing our heads, arms at the back as though we are being scolded in the military. "And I've never been dissappointed in you Allen!" He added. Everyone has high expectations with Allen, he's so easy to trust. Hearing those words, I know he feels terrible, and I notice he bowed his head eve
Before going into my apartment, I went to the rooftop where a lot of used stuffs left by the residents of the building. It's quiet up here, I have no plans on jumping again, I just don't want to feel cornered in my room. I haven't eaten anything in two days, my stomach is hurts really bad. I wonder if I did the right thing ignoring those people who saved me and wanted to help me. I can't tell if people are being genuine anymore, but they seemed desperate to know me. In fact, I'm curious too, about what Allen said earlier. I wonder why did Kyle thinks he is connected to me. After the sun goes down, I finally had the courage to go back to my apartment. But as soon as I got there, a bag full of clothes are outside the door and it's already locked. I knew already that the landlady did this. I realized that I am now officially a complete homeless. I looked at my phone and it's almost dead. I'm
I can't fall asleep. I kept thinking about Raina who's in the guest room. I got her call earlier when I checked Allen's phone, hoping she would call. And in my surprise, she really did. I had a strong feeling that it was her when I answered it. Then when she asked for help, Allen and I rushed to her. But as soon as we got there, we found her so drunk.The most thing that bothers me right now is that her neighbor called her Catherine."Catherine, do you know them?" the lady next door asked Raina."Catherine?" I asked."Hey, Cathy! Are you okay?" she asked Raina again, "Did you drug her?" she accused us."No, we're her friends, I think she's drunk!" Allen said.She smirked, "Drunk? That's ridiculous, I just gave her one can of beer!" she said. Then in that moment, we heard a growling sound all of the sudden. That sound wa
Part of me wants to believe them. I have so many questions that I really want to be answered. And what If they are telling the truth, then is it really me on that painting? I am dead curious about it.All my life, I lived in fear. Nobody knows me and I stayed hidden just to keep living. But now I realized, existing doesn't mean I'm alive. I maybe breathing in and out but, that doesn't mean I'm alive and that I have the same quality of life with others. I am empty. I have no purpose and future. I wasted so many years thinking about how I'm suppose to hide from my killer. I was consumed by the darkness that I fell inlove with the storm and I never realize the beauty of sunrise on sunny days.Right now, I've decided not to run away anymore. I want to believe Kyle and Allen, but that doesn't mean I have to trust them. My gut tells me that they don't really mean any harm to me but why do I always feel a twist in my stomach when I'm starting to
I remembered something.I told to Doctor Prynne, even though what I saw is still a little bit vague. But for the first time in 15 years, a piece of a random memory from my accident finally pop up in my head. I lost conciousness for like two minutes and when I woke up, Allen told me that Raina already left. I wanted to look for her but Allen stopped me. He's had enough and he wants to immediately take me to my Doctor. I'm a little bit annoyed by the fact that I might never going to see Raina again.After a quick consultation with Dr. Prynne, I asked her to keep this to Dad for now. I don't want to tell him yet, that I'm searching for my past again.We walk back to the parking lot and drive back home. Raina is still asleep soundly. From a single-minded, bad-tempered-girl to an innocent one."You're going to let her stay at your place then?" Allen asked. I nodded. "But can you please be a little more nicer t
I never knew how relieving it feels like after letting go of the loads I've been carrying for so long. But I still beat myself up for trusting and believing in him, I'm afraid that I might regret it. I locked myself up in his room to think more. There are so many paintings on the wall, just like that house by the beach. I wonder if he painted all of them, it's really impressive. It reminds me of my Dad because he used to paint too. He loves to paint different types of fish, mostly Koi fish. It's his favorite because of the Chinese Tale his Mother used to tell him when he was young.I can hear them talking downstairs. I wondered if those people are really reliable, but I do hope they can help me, because this is my first time trusting my judgements in people. I guess I'm done playing hide and seek.I finally went out of the room and go down. They had a dazed look on their faces the moment they saw me."Oh, hi, again."