Before going into my apartment, I went to the rooftop where a lot of used stuffs left by the residents of the building. It's quiet up here, I have no plans on jumping again, I just don't want to feel cornered in my room.
I haven't eaten anything in two days, my stomach is hurts really bad. I wonder if I did the right thing ignoring those people who saved me and wanted to help me. I can't tell if people are being genuine anymore, but they seemed desperate to know me. In fact, I'm curious too, about what Allen said earlier. I wonder why did Kyle thinks he is connected to me.
After the sun goes down, I finally had the courage to go back to my apartment. But as soon as I got there, a bag full of clothes are outside the door and it's already locked. I knew already that the landlady did this. I realized that I am now officially a complete homeless. I looked at my phone and it's almost dead. I'm
I can't fall asleep. I kept thinking about Raina who's in the guest room. I got her call earlier when I checked Allen's phone, hoping she would call. And in my surprise, she really did. I had a strong feeling that it was her when I answered it. Then when she asked for help, Allen and I rushed to her. But as soon as we got there, we found her so drunk.The most thing that bothers me right now is that her neighbor called her Catherine."Catherine, do you know them?" the lady next door asked Raina."Catherine?" I asked."Hey, Cathy! Are you okay?" she asked Raina again, "Did you drug her?" she accused us."No, we're her friends, I think she's drunk!" Allen said.She smirked, "Drunk? That's ridiculous, I just gave her one can of beer!" she said. Then in that moment, we heard a growling sound all of the sudden. That sound wa
Part of me wants to believe them. I have so many questions that I really want to be answered. And what If they are telling the truth, then is it really me on that painting? I am dead curious about it.All my life, I lived in fear. Nobody knows me and I stayed hidden just to keep living. But now I realized, existing doesn't mean I'm alive. I maybe breathing in and out but, that doesn't mean I'm alive and that I have the same quality of life with others. I am empty. I have no purpose and future. I wasted so many years thinking about how I'm suppose to hide from my killer. I was consumed by the darkness that I fell inlove with the storm and I never realize the beauty of sunrise on sunny days.Right now, I've decided not to run away anymore. I want to believe Kyle and Allen, but that doesn't mean I have to trust them. My gut tells me that they don't really mean any harm to me but why do I always feel a twist in my stomach when I'm starting to
I remembered something.I told to Doctor Prynne, even though what I saw is still a little bit vague. But for the first time in 15 years, a piece of a random memory from my accident finally pop up in my head. I lost conciousness for like two minutes and when I woke up, Allen told me that Raina already left. I wanted to look for her but Allen stopped me. He's had enough and he wants to immediately take me to my Doctor. I'm a little bit annoyed by the fact that I might never going to see Raina again.After a quick consultation with Dr. Prynne, I asked her to keep this to Dad for now. I don't want to tell him yet, that I'm searching for my past again.We walk back to the parking lot and drive back home. Raina is still asleep soundly. From a single-minded, bad-tempered-girl to an innocent one."You're going to let her stay at your place then?" Allen asked. I nodded. "But can you please be a little more nicer t
I never knew how relieving it feels like after letting go of the loads I've been carrying for so long. But I still beat myself up for trusting and believing in him, I'm afraid that I might regret it. I locked myself up in his room to think more. There are so many paintings on the wall, just like that house by the beach. I wonder if he painted all of them, it's really impressive. It reminds me of my Dad because he used to paint too. He loves to paint different types of fish, mostly Koi fish. It's his favorite because of the Chinese Tale his Mother used to tell him when he was young.I can hear them talking downstairs. I wondered if those people are really reliable, but I do hope they can help me, because this is my first time trusting my judgements in people. I guess I'm done playing hide and seek.I finally went out of the room and go down. They had a dazed look on their faces the moment they saw me."Oh, hi, again."
I saw how her eyes widened and her body froze with horror the moment she opened the text message. The fear took hold of her. I asked her why but it seems like the terror sealed her throat, so I just took her phone, and shocked with what I saw."He's here." she said with shuddered breathing. I grabbed her arms and pull her to run until we got home. I locked the door and all of the windows.Raina can't move, as if the fear paralyzed her. I don't know how to calm her down, because anxiety eclipsed my thoughts too. I've decided to call Dad, but he's not answering, so I called Allen.Few rings then he answered,"Hey, what's— ?""Allen, he's here! Raina's killer, he followed us!" I said."What?! How?""I-I-I don't know how but he's after us! We need to get away here!" I said."Alright we're coming!"
I woke up by the sunlight as it hits my face. I sit up and look around, Kyle and Hue is still sleeping. I wonder where Raina is. I remember how anxious she is last night, while waiting for Ginger and Kyle talking outside."Are you okay? You just passed out." I said to her."I'm fine." she answered. "Thank you, Allen, for helping me." she said. My heart started pounding wildly and my ears are burning as I can feel it turning red. I guess it's because I'm overwhelmed with the fact that I was able to help her.But as we wait, I can't help but stare at her without being noticed. I realized that she's crazy beautiful. Her hair is short and I don't think it was cut with style — it looks more like she cut it herself – but it's not bad. In fact, it suits her. Now, I'm thinking about her again, like I'm going insane.Ginger came out of her room, with her pajamas on and a reall
I can't seem to fall asleep that night. I've been so anxious lately because of these people. I don't want them to be involved with this dangerous mess I'm in. But even If Irun away, or try to make them stop, they wont. I'm not sure if they're just taking my situation lightly. My anxiety got worst when I saw Ginger's sister. She's so innocent and loved by so many people.I find myself standing in front of her room, I want to come inside and see her face. Maybe that way, I could ease my mind a little. Then suddenly, she opened the door, I was startled. It's so late and I thought she's already sleeping."Come in!"she signed and pulled me inside. Then she showed me her writing tablet: I can feel you standing in front of my door for a while."Did I wake you up?"&nbs
I made a mistake. I shouldn't have push her. I was so eager to find that mysterious man because everytime she opens up her story, it makes me so mad. I just thought that she doesn't deserve all she'd gone through until now. Thinking she's been suffering for so long makes me want to end it as soon as possible. I don't want to see her living in fear anymore. But maybe I've been deluding myself from the thought that I could help her. That I could save her.She wants to forget everything in the past while I seek for mine. Allen assumed that some things that reminds her of her past is the trigger, that's why she reacted that way before she passed out. Now, I think even in her sleep, she can't seem to relax, I can see her sweating so much."What are you planning to do now?" Allen asked.My eyes adjusted at Raina.I maybe don't know her deeply but seeing her so many times in my hallucinations grew quite