Chapter 75ALICIAI'll do it.I'll do it.I'll do it.The words sound on repeat, in my mind, rankling me to no end. It feels like I'm underwater as I turn to face Ash, but he's already looking at me with that damn smirk sitting pretty on his perfect face."Don't you dare!" I say, lifting a finger and shaking my head. "I don't want -""Take her away," Ash says, still looking at me. I know he's trying to tell me, with his eyes that he has to do this, but I don't give a flying fuck for all that male ego bullshit. I just want to get out of here now - with him in one piece - and go home.I feel someone coming close to me, so I whip around. "Don't you dare touch me!" Koldis' head rears back, and he moves a step back from me. He stares at me like I've just slapped him. Not yet, but if he dares lay a finger on me, I just might."Please. . . baby." Ash's pleading tone brings my gaze back to his face, and I shake my
CHAPTER 76ALICIAAny moment now. . .Boom. boom.Any moment now. . .Boom boom.Any moment now . . . I'll be caught and taken home, and then I won't be able to do help Ash not act out my vendetta. I shake my head to rid it of the clouds gathering as my heart beats like it actually wants to pop out. I tiptoe toward the ramshackle building. The gun I'm holding with my two hands in front of me is heavy, a testament to how dangerous what I'm about to do is.Euphoria and anxiety take their toll on me the closer I creep to the building. I stop at the side and lean against the crumbling plaster before looking around. No one is running toward me to stop me, neither do I hear anyone calling my name. My plans are working out. . . so far, but I won't celebrate yet until I'm inside.I take a deep breath and tiptoe to where I believe the room Ash and his twin are fighting it out, then I stop and listen. I don't hear any so
Chapter 77EIGHT HOURS LATER"Alicia, please try to calm down," Koldis says to me for probably the hundredth time, but just like the previous times, I ignore him and continue wearing the floor thin.After what seems like a while but I know can only have been a few minutes, a nurse walks in our direction and I immediately rush to her. "How is he? How is he? How is he?"It's funny how the human mind thinks. Saying words three times or even more will not lend your words a sense of urgency. It will only make the recipient of the questions irritated, like now. A look of annoyance passes over the nurse's face like a shadow, but it's gone in an instant, making me feel I imagined it."He's in surgery, ma'am, and the surgeon is doing his best to remove the bullets from his chest."She tries to pass, but I hold onto her hand as tears pool in my eyes. "Please. . . he's the father of my unborn child." My voice is scrat
Chapter 78THREE MONTHS LATER"Hey, babe, I'm going out for a walk with Clarissa, will you be alright alone?"Hazel eyes smiles at me but I can clearly see the strain in her eyes. It's all because of me. I trace my eyes across her features and dip lower to her boobs - they're fuller and bigger, straining against the tee shirt she's wearing. My eyes continue their descent until they stop at her baby bump. It's bigger and definable.My kid is in there - our kid. I smile, knowing that in a few months, I'll welcome we'll daughter into the world. The smile slides off my face as I look back up at Hazel eyes. She's assessing me, the same way I'm assessing her."Are you alright?" Lines appear on her forehead as she gazes at me. Lines that weren't there some months ago."Yeah!" I nod. "Go on, get some air, you need it." I get comfortable on the bed as I change positions, but once she's gone, I sit up and stretch.I
Chapter 79 A heavily pregnant woman = all forms of insecurities raised to infinity. I grimace as I pass the full-length mirror on my way out of the room. I feel and look like a cow, maybe a whale is better suited to how I look. I used to walk sprightly before, but now putting one leg in front of the other takes serious effort, and I'm only six months gone. These days, it takes a lot of effort to do anything, if I can be honest. I can't even bend to wash my feet during bath time. Ever since he was discharged from the hospital, Ash takes pity on me and gives me a bath, seeing how difficult it is for me to help myself. As I walk down the stairs, Clarissa sees me and gifts me with a wide smile. "There she is - the most beautiful pregnant woman in all of Los Angeles." I smile, but I know it looks more like a grimace. "Oh, don't look so glum, pretty sure Ash can't take his eyes, and hands off you because - damn, girl, you're glowing." If I never told you my best friend was sweet, well
Chapter 80"Will you marry me?"Ash"s soulful brown eyes stare up at me beseechingly. The way he's gazing at me makes me feel he's waiting with bated breath, ready to hang on to my every word. It's as if my acceptance will save his life, and if I dare refuse, it would crumble right before my very eyes. This is the same Ash who has been blowing hot and cold toward me.Actually . . . more cold than hot, to be honest.I take a step back and let out a nervous giggle in the process. I don't know what to think. Is this a prank? I lick my lips and look around for something, anything, to make light of this tense moment. Maybe he's videoing this in order to use it to laugh at me later on, I don't know, but this is freaking me the fuck out.My baby girl kicks me and I wince as I touch my belly. Ash notices and walks toward me, still on his knees. That's gotta hurt. He's going to have scraped and bloody knees by the time
Chapter 81Pregnant women have weird cravings. They say it has something to do with the hormones while others say it's a disorder which rears it's ugly head when women are pregnant. The cravings of some pregnant women are quite weird and they range from sitting close to the toilet in order to inhale the smell of shit, to eating sand.Thank goodness mine isn't anything that ridiculous."I want more fries." I tell the waiter.Ash stares at me like I've grown a second head. "But you've eaten two helpings already, plus half of my burger.""What? I'm eating for two now, or have you forgotten?" I say with an edge to my voice.His incredulous look changes as he begins to laugh and shake his head. So yeah, my pregnancy craving is food - junk food - something I hated with a passion and wouldn't touch with a ten foot pole. Right now, it's the second love of my love. The third, actually, after Ash and my baby. The waite
Chapter 82 ASH This can't be fucking happening right now. I take in Hazel eyes determined stance and I mentally groan. When I told her Leonard was still alive, I never knew she would request to see him. She didn't just request - she hammered and wore me out, asking to see him, so much that I had capitulated, and here we are. Whatever bond they had, it's gonna have to end very soon 'cause Leonard will definitely not see the light of another day. Rather, the four walls of the room he's currently in. "Leonard." Hazel eyes mouths breathily and my anger flares, but I stamp it down because this is not the time to have a jealous fit. Something tells me she won't appreciate it. Leonard, dazed from being in the four walls of this room for months on end, opens his eyes but can't focus. He squints at her, blinking repeatedly until a semblance of recognition streams into his eyes. From the look on his face, the fool can't believe she's standing in front of him. Probably thinks he's seeing an
Chapter 108"Fuuuuck! Must you place this shit around my neck so tightly?" I ask Night eyes with a frown.Night Eyes rolls his eyes but doesn't say anything except to tighten the tie around my neck like a damn noose. He says I've been acting like a prissy bitch since I woke up this morning and realized it's the D-day. My six trusted men, now my groomsmen, are sitting around dressed up in white tuxedos drinking champagne while I'm sweating buckets inside this suit that's more like a straight jacket than any other thing."Will you get your feet off my precious table, Moro?" I say, tugging on my collar as I eye him from the corner of my eyes.He just smirks and continues sipping on his drink like I didn't just give him an order."Ouch, fuck! What the-? Will you take it easy? My neck's not a damn concrete, Night eyes.""Quit bitching, Ash, anyone hearing you would think you're not dying to get married to Alicia,
Chapter 107 The ride is fraught with tense silence and not even Ash's hand in mind does anything to alleviate the tightness in my chest and the dryness in my mouth. I'm freaking the fuck out. He keeps rubbing circles on my open palm with his thumb trying to soothe me but it's pointless. Getting to the meeting place doesn't take long because there's not much traffic. I look up at the large white building as Ash drives into the driveway and my eyes immediately home onto the bold signboard displayed on the front of the building in red capital letters that reads - THE CAMORRA. "You've gotta be kidding me!" Ash chuckles. "I told you they rule everything in Italy so don't be surprised about that." "I understand that, but they kill, and steal, and-" "Ah, ah, ah! Don't say that to anyone here, Hazel eyes, they rule everything, yes. . ." He nods. "Even the police, so hanging up a big old signboard isn't going to make it less real." My heart sinks, because what he just said is even worse
Chapter 106 When I wake, it's still dark outside and there's no one on the bed beside me. I sit up as panic begins to claw its way inside my chest but when I hear the shower going, I know what happened last night was real and Tanya is alive. Even though I haven't gotten much sleep, I feel energized. I feel happy.We're going to have to face them tomorrow.My heart plummets when I remember Ash's words from the night before. He sat me down and told me there would be reprisals and that I needed to get prepared for whatever the five dons that run the Canmora will do. He was a bit evasive about what the reprisals were but I don't need to be a rocket scientist to know it has to do with shedding blood.I'm petrified as his words wash through me but as soon as the door to the bathroom opens, I shake it off and paste on a smile as Tanya comes back inside the room. Her blonde hair is wet and longer than I've ever see
Chapter 106The ghost of Tanya doesn't float toward me as I initially thought, she walks toward me instead, smiling mischievously exactly the same way Tanya used to when she was alive. I blink repeatedly but she's still there, still smiling, and still looking at me."T.... Tanya?" I say once again, noting the tremor in my voice.Tanya's ghost smiles wider. "Hi, sis."Instead of fainting, as most women would, I let out a piercing scream loud enough to wake the dead. A hand snakes around my waist and it takes a few seconds for me to realize Ash is speaking to me.". . . relax, it's alright, please."I focus on his face as his words finally break through my consciousness. "Is. . ." I lick my dry lips. "Is her ghost still there?""I'm right here, sis." Tanya's ghost says from right behind me.This time, I'm not able to take it as the cold hands of oblivion wrap around me and enfold me in their arms.*". . . going
Chapte 105 Ever since I was kidnapped, I had slept fitfully, always keeping an eye open for when Rita and her minions would come to torment me. Not that it would stop her - no, but at least I would be somewhat ready. Now that I'm free, I feel a sense of peace steal through me as the hum of the car engine wraps around me. Soon, I few my eyes close as the movement of the car lulls me into a deep sleep. I don't know what wakes me up but the car has stopped and Ash is coming down. I blink repeatedly to remove the vestiges of sleep still clinging to my eyes and cloudy head before I come down from the car and look around. What I see in front of me gives me pause for thought. It's a plane. Ash is standing in front of it shaking a man's hand as he nods to something he's saying. He turns to me and beckons for me to come over. My legs feel a little wobbly from being cramped up in the same position for goodness knows how long but I manage to walk over without falling. Ash introduces me to the
Chapter 104Ash carries me up the stairs and doesn't let go, even when I tell him I'm okay and can walk, still he doesn't allow my feet to touch the ground. I try to tell him that carrying me - bridal style - will only slow us down but he's not having it.He's fast on his feet, I must admit but that niggling fear is sitting pretty on my chest once again and not allowing me to breathe well. As soon as we get up the stairs and into a hallway, he slows down and looks left and right. His eyes have gone keen and sharp and I don't need to be told we're both in danger. If they see him carrying me out of here, we're both dead.At least I will be.The scorned woman will forgive Ash. . . maybe.I watch his face as he watches the surrounding before moving stealthily. I feel his muscles flex and bunch as he carries me. His strides eat up the floor as he moves toward a door at the far end. I slide my eyes from his face an
Chapter 103I don't know how long I've been kept in this basement. I can't really say for certain, but what I do know is that I've been tortured with icy water that was dunked on me. I've been slapped around and beaten within an inch of my life. I've almost been raped but the scorned woman said she didn't want any of her men to touch me so I could be tight enough for all the men I would get to sleep with at the brothel I will be taken to eventually.The funny thing is, with every taunting word, every action, and every little thing I go through, I grow more hardened, more determined to live. If this is how people are reborn into criminals, then I'm going to be a living example and I'm not backing down. The scorned woman comes to see me every day expecting me to grovel and beg for freedom as well as for my life, but when she sees the blazing fire in my eyes and the determination, it only drives her around the
Chapter 102"She did WHAT?" My voice screeches on the last word and it's all I can do not to throw a hissy fit.Fuuuuuck!"I warned her! I told her about the danger of leaving this house. Does she even know what will happen to her if Dominatrix gets her hands on her?"Clarissa is practically wilting at my outburst. I know I shouldn't take it out on her but it was her responsibility to try to keep Hazel eyes here at home, where she belongs."Tell me once again what happened and don't even leave anything out." I sit on the bed and listen as Clarissa stammers her way through."We. . . I m. . . m. . . mean she-"Someone bursts into the room without knocking and I don't need a crystal ball to let me know it's Night Eyes. He must have been informed by Hilda about my roaring 'cause that's all I've been doing ever since I came home an hour ago. It's fucking two in the morning and Hazel eyes isn't at home. I had to he
Chapter 101It takes me a few seconds to realize I'm swaying - not like a pendulum - but it's a movement not caused by me.It takes me another few seconds to realize I'm unable to move my limbs- what the fuck?It takes me yet another minute to notice everywhere is dark and that I'm blindfolded. That's when the stark realization hits me in the chest -Not again. . .I've been kidnapped.I begin to thrash against the bindings holding my hands hostage at my back and those at my legs. My only joy is that my mouth is not bound, so I open it and scream, but even that is fleeting when I feel the solid nudge of something against my temple.It's a gun. It has to be a gun."One more word out of your pretty mouth and I'll pump lead into your head. Nod if you understand me."I nod immediately and a small sense of relief flits through me when the weight of the gun against my head is removed. I close my eyes, even though I'v