So we have come to the end of Ambivalence and I am so sad. Dionnah and Michael were the ones who kept me going. I hope someone who reads this will know and understand true love. Love doesn't know race, colour, or social status. When you love someone, you simply just love them. I'm not afraid to love who I love and I will always put my happiness first. I hope many of you reading this will do the same. Thank you for your support. I really and truly appreciate you all. XOXO ~ CASSANDRA LENNOX.
DIONNAH'S POVIt was almost the end of my final year in high school, the moment I was dreading the most. The moment when I had to part from my one true love, the man of my dreams, the one who held my heart, Derick.Derick and I had been together forever. We were always doing everything together, from studying to going to church, going to school, or even just hanging out. Our parents were really good friends. I knew they were secretly planning our wedding and even picking out baby names behind our backs.Who could blame them, I was also doing some planning in my head.Since Derick took my virginity, we'd become even closer. I felt confident about our love and hoped that we would be together forever.It was the Friday that Derick was going to leave for college."Dionnah, Derick's here," I heard my mom say as she knocked on my door.Derick was leaving for college in a different state and I was flying out with him. It was hard for me to accept at first but I eventually did. Derick reassur
SEVEN YEARS LATER DIONNAH'S POVBeep! Beep! Beep!I didn't get a chance to settle in my office before my phone started to buzz..."Delaney designs, Dionnah Delaney speaking how may I help you?" I answered"Good you're in," Chirped my assistant on the other end of the line..."What is it, Amelia?""Listen boss I'm coming by your office right now, we have matters of utmost importance to discuss.""Fine," I sighed into the receiver before hanging up.I knew what was of grave importance to my pushy little assistant. She had been nagging me for a month now about going on a blind date with a friend of hers from college. I didn't do blind dates because they usually turned out to be disasters, but I finally said yes because I needed Amelia to lay off my back. I told myself that I would just find an excuse on the day of the date I thought to myself. But Amelia was not having it.Five minutes later Amelia was in my office pestering me about what I was going to wear on my little date."I'm just
I reached home at around 6:10 pm. I was in no mood to face my sister because I knew I would be ridiculed when I tell her the blind date didn't go well. I entered the house and headed for the stairs. "Hey, back already?" It wasn't my sister who spoke, it was Jonathan. "Yeah," I answered. "I take it your little date wasn't to your liking." "Not really, he was just not what I pictured when Amelia described him, I mean he was... but wasn't if you get my meaning," I tried to explain. "Not really. Why don't you elaborate." Jon spoke, looking confused. "Well, he was perfect. Tall, very well built, very, very good looking, and well put together. He even smelled amazing." "Then what was the problem?" Jon shrugged. "Amelia didn't tell me he was not African American." "So?" Jon scoffed. "Jon he was white and I had never dated a white man before, I don't think I want to." I snickered. Jon wasn't laughing. I immediately sensed that he was offended. "Well I mean no offense to you or any
MICHAEL'S POVI arrived at the restaurant 20 minutes early and got a table. Agreeing to this blind date was something out of the norm for me. When Amelia told me about her hot, educated, ambitious boss I knew I should give it a shot.Being a seal made it hard to keep a woman. I missed being with a woman, someone to call my own. We occasionally went to places where we would meet hot and horny girls eager to fuck or even just suck a seal's cock. I never fucked any of them, only got my dick blown, and then I would call it a night. I realized I needed more than just one-night stands.So I decided when I returned home I would take out Amelia's boss. Amelia didn't tell me many details, only that her name was Dionnah. She was 26, an accountant, and African American.I thought the name Dionnah sounded familiar but I didn't question Amelia about it.I didn't know if I should trust Amelia to set me up on a date. What if this chick was hideous or even a man pretending to be a woman? I love Ameli
DIONNAH'S POVI got out of bed at 8. Even though it was a Saturday I didn't like sleeping in. I was always a morning person. Thinking about the day ahead and the new possibilities to do great always got me going.I loved the smell of the crisp morning air and the smell of Danielle's early morning breakfasts that I looked forward to.The only thing I had on my mind was relaxing and spending my day by the pool. I got up and fished out a red and yellow polka dot bikini before heading to the bathroom to brush my teeth and take a quick shower.I put on shorts and a tank top then headed downstairs. Upon entering the living room I noticed it was empty. I strolled to the kitchen to find it empty also. A note was sitting on the counter.'Morning Dee didn't want to wake you. Jon and I are gone to pick up his brother. Be back in a couple of hours. XOXO Dani.I sighed, "So much for an early breakfast."I decided to make an egg omelet with toast. I was wavering between having orange juice or mimos
If I had a weak heart, I would be dead. I could die of fright and no one would know why, except for the tall, built, handsome, oh so sexy man standing in front of me. While on our date, I didn't get the chance to appreciate how good-looking he truly was.He wore a Navy-blue T-shirt that hugged his strong, toned torso, his charcoal-coloured jeans pants covered his long-toned legs that could run a hundred marathons without buckling and caving in underneath him. His outfit was completed with sneakers that matched the colour of his jeans. I could see the ink that covered his right arm. It was from his wrist leading up to the length of his arm and disappearing under the sleeve of his shirt. I could make out some of the images. I saw a rose with a name scribbled on the stem, Jesus Christ with his hands clasped, and some teardrops flowing from his eyes. I never thought about tattoos being sexy, but looking at his, I got an uneasy feeling in my stomach. My eyes lingered on his arms, appre
His eyes were like two laser beams burning into my soul. I couldn't take it anymore. “What?” I inquired. He just stood there still, assessing me, scanning me with those damn eyes of his and then he spoke. “Why did you run out on our date?” He asked.“Why didn't you tell them we've met before?” I countered.“Would you rather I did?”“Actually, no,” I blurted. “It was my first blind date, and I wasn't expecting someone like you.”“Someone like me?” He asked with eyebrows raised.“You know, Amelia didn't tell me you were white, and that threw me off. I mean, I've never dated a white guy before. I, much rather prefer men of the same colour as me,” I said, hoping I didn't sound like a bitch.“Oh, now I see. Are you prejudiced?”“Of course not. My sister's fiancé is white, and he's remarkable. It's just not my preference.”“OK I get it,” He smiled.“So, have you ever been with a black girl? – I mean, dated a black girl,” I corrected.“I date all different types of women of all shades, colo
The rest of the weekend flew by quickly. I stayed in my room mostly, so I could finish up some documents on my computer. The fashion show was only a few months away, and I needed to be on track with everything.When I woke up Monday, I felt refreshed. I got up to take a shower when I heard movements in the hallway. I placed my ear on the door and I listened. My heart jumped when I heard a small knock on the door. I bit my bottom lip in order for me not to scream, and then I waited and heard feet shuffling away. I took a deep breath before I opened the door. My eyes landed on the trinkets down below and my breath caught in my chest. There was a light-brown teddy bear wearing a red bow. It was almost as tall as me. A box of chocolates lay perfectly in a heart-shaped box next to a well-put-together bouquet of Lilacs. There was a huge white box with a red bow. I looked up and down the hallway to see if I saw anybody, but I didn't.I hurriedly moved the items inside. I flung the bear on my
THIRD PERSON POV Two Years Later It was noon, the weather was great and the scene ahead was even more amazing. Dionnah sat with her husband and their now four year old daughter, who was preoccupied on her tablet to even notice what was taking place. Danielle was sitting to the left with the twins beside her who were also busy with their devices. Jonathan stood at the alter right beside his best friend Joey who looked dashingly handsome in his tux. The doors of the church swung open and in walked the cutest little flower girl. Bethany sauntered inside, throwing a handful of flowers with every waltz. "She's so beautiful," Dee turned to Michael and said. "Yes she is," he beamed. Bethany reached the altar and stood in her position. Everyone stood as the pianist started playing the wedding march. Stefanie graced the entrance looking like the most beautiful bride on earth and marched slowly to the altar where her groom awaited her anxiously. The minister performed the wedding ceremo
DIONNAH'S POV"Oh yes Dionnah, just like that. Oh fuck," Michael moaned as I bobbed my head up and down over his cock."You like that," I said as I lifted my head and licked my lips."You have no fucking idea how much. Come here." I climbed up to the bed and sprawled out on his chest. He began kissing me passionately and I moaned. "Come up to my face," he lifted his lips from mine."What?""I need that sweetness of yours in my mouth," he said as he pulled me along his body."Whoa," I exclaimed in surprise He was laying on the bed and he made sure I was straddling his head. His mouth found my cunt and he licked. "Oooh." "Let me please you." "Please me, Michael, please me." He began sucking and teasing my most sensitive bundle of nerve and I felt my juices running. He inserted a finger past my folds and into my slickness and I gasped."Oh god. It feels so good."He continued licking and sucking on me. The sweet sensation began to tug at my core. I then involuntarily began to grind
DIONNAH'S POVOne month laterIt was a Thursday afternoon when I got the call. I was at work and Dani and I had just finished a meeting with some potential clients for Delaney Designs. When I answered I didn't recognize the voice immediately, until the person spoke my name. It was Gregory."Why are you calling my phone? What do you want you bastard?""I think we need to talk," he said on the other end of the line."Talk? I have nothing to say to you." "Please" he pleaded before I could hang up. "Just two minutes Dionnah, hear me out.""You have one minute," I said as I pressed the record button."Thank you," he said and I rolled my eyes. "Dionnah I'm sorry from the bottom of my heart for what I did to you. I was just going through some stuff and seeing you triggered certain emotions. You know I always wanted you but I didn't think my yearning for you would lead me to try to rape you." "Thirty seconds," I said checking my time."My point is I'm truly sorry and I would appreciate it i
Dionnah's POVIn the evening we were on babysitting duty since Danielle and Jonathan went on a dinner date. We made Macaroni in a pot, not the microwave kind. After bathing them and getting them in their PJs Michael and I decided to let them watch a movie. We picked out the Smurf movie and the kids settled to watch it. They giggled and laugh as they watched it and my heart was contented seeing all three of them so happy and innocent.The movie ended at 8 o'clock and all three of them were fast asleep.Michael brought up Jonah and then came for Janel. I brought up Kehlani and tucked her into bed.I went to take a quick shower and then got into my pajamas.I returned downstairs to find Michael setting up a movie to watch. His hair was damp and he was now wearing a gray T-shirt and black shorts. "Why is your hair wet?""I took a shower in the guest bathroom." "Oh okay," I said sitting down on the couch with my legs crossed."I was thinking we could watch a movie to kill some time, you
DIONNAH'S POVAfter bringing me to the hospital to ensure that I was okay, Michael insisted that I went to the police and file a report. I was hesitant at first, then I finally agreed. While at the station they sent a squad car to check out the location but when they got there Gregory was already gone. After filling out all the paperwork for the report, Michael finally took me home.It was almost 10:30 when we got home. Danielle and Jonathan were waiting for us when we got there."Dionnah I'm so glad that you are okay," Dani said as she hugged me."I'm fine, Danielle." "I was so worried. But Jonathan came and said you weren't physically hurt but you were shaken up. I felt relieved. Gregory is gonna pay for this.""I guarantee he will," stated Michael."Thanks for looking out for me guys. I'm gonna go upstairs now, I just want to see Kehlani.""Okay. Go and get some rest too," said Danielle."Dani I'm so grateful for a sister like you. I can never repay you for always looking out for
DIONNAH'S POVThe inside of the building had a lobby area. It looked like an abandon hotel and it was under construction."What is this place?" I asked as he led us to an elevator."It's my next venture." He simply said with a smile."Oh. So what do you plan on doing with this much space?" "Why so hasty? I'll tell you everything when we are settled and more comfortable," he then pressed the number four on the elevator buttons. The elevator stopped and we got off. We entered a room that looked like a high end night club. The walls were black with gold accents, it had some small tables with love seats around them. The ceiling had gold and silver light fixtures and the corners had gold columns all around."What is this place Gregory?" I asked as we reached a huge love seat in one of the corners of the room."Please have a seat and we'll talk.""Okay," I said awkwardly."So there I was a couple months ago taking a drive to clear my head," he began as he took up two wine glasses and a bo
DIONNAH'S POVThe next couple of days were weird between Michael and me. I slept in my daughter's room and the only time we spoke was if it was about Kehlani. I noticed that Michael wasn't sleeping in our room either, in fact, he wasn't sleeping at all. "Good morning," I said as I brought Kehlani down for breakfast.Michael was the one who made breakfast but I wasn't in the mood for any. I hadn't been feeling well since the following morning. I would get these slight headaches and get sick at the slightest scent. "Good morning Dionnah, good morning Lani bear," Michael said before kissing Lani. "Dada," Lani said and I smiled."Can you please give her breakfast? I have to go get ready for work.""Aren't you going to have something to eat?" "No. I'm fine. Just ensure that Kehlani eats hers," I told him."Okay," he said then I left the room.That's one thing I loved about Michael. He knew how to give me the space I needed. I loved him with all my heart, but sometimes he did things tha
DIONNAH'S POVWhen I got to the apartment building I was very careful. I ensured that I parked where they couldn't see my car but I could see them. It's safe to say I went into full detective mode. But I was shocked when I didn't see Michael's car anywhere near the apartment. I looked up and down the street and there was still no sign of the car. I waited for almost twenty minutes and still no sign of Michael. So I decided to call him. The phone went straight to voicemail. I made two more attempts and it was the same result. I was becoming angrier and angrier at the situation I was in. Why was Michael doing this? I thought.I got fed up and decided to head home. On my way home Dani called and told me that Michael just got back to their house. I hung up and pressed the accelerator. I managed to navigate my way through traffic and in record time I was home."Where is he?" I asked Danielle as I entered the kitchen."He's upstairs," she answered."Mamaaaa," I heard my daughter's sweet voi
DIONNAH'S POVWhen Michael's punishment was over he made up for lost time. A girl wasn't complaining but I was sore in most places and had love marks all over my body. It was now the weekend and I had to do a bit of grocery shopping for the house. We had a thing where every week we would take turns to do the shopping and this week was mine. I left Khelani with Michael who told me he was gonna head over to Jon's. I told him that was a great idea since Dani was coming with me to do some grocery shopping of her own. It was almost noon when we reached the store, it wasn't too packed and I was thankful for that because I hated the hustle and bustle of that situation. We were almost finished with our shopping when I glimpsed the woman called Stefanie, she had Bethany standing beside her holding a LOL doll. Our eyes met and I gave her a smile and a nod. Dani and I then walked up to the check-out line with our two trolleys in tow. There were only three persons ahead of us as we waited. A fe