[ Clarissa Grey ]
I stare at the girl in the mirror,who is me to ensure I look presentable and fit for a high social class party.I wear a bottle green colored dress with sparkles,it is a descent dress covering my body till knees and puffed full sleeves to hide the old scars on my forearms,a result of last week's beating.
I bought this dress years ago with my savings but never got a chance to wear it so having nothing to wear for a big party,I thought it will work.
"You look pretty my baby."Mom's happy squal brings me back in the present.I check my side profile to convince my low confidence about dressing like a real lady.
"Do you really think so?"I arch my right brow at her for more clearance.
She walks upto to me holding a box in her hands.I never saw it before in her handful personal stuffs so I look down at it suspiciously.
"This is for you.I want you to wear it tonight Clar."She placed the square brass box with beautiful carving on the dressing table and open it.She picks out a pair of emerald earrings and a thin white gold necklace with a heart-shaped emerald pendant.
"Mom where did you get this?"I gasp in surprise,my eyes blinked ferociously to believe on my eyes,"I mean they look so expensive and we are hardly keeping our head under the sheets."I look at her for explanation.
Rather than replying to my questions,she picks the necklace and tied it around my neck,the cold metal on my warm skin send a shiver all over my skin but indeed it goes well with my green dress.
"I have kept it safely from the eyes of Willie all these years because I wanted to gift it to you on your wedding but since you still not find your mate,I thought tonight you'd need it.It belongs to my great grandmother.You know she was the daughter of an Alpha of Bloodstone Pack.My great grandfather gifted it to her on their marking ceremony since then its passed to us."She explained me.
"This is the most beautiful piece of jewelry Mom."I hugged her tightly,"Thanks for passing it over to me.I promise you that I'll try my best to keep it safe."I kiss her cheeks.
"Hey girl now get ready fast.Your lover boy is waiting for you impatiently down the building."Mom grins mischievously,she thinks as I still don't find my mate,I can have a chance with Derek,who is only a friend to me.
Her words shot through my already wounded heart.Someone else must be yearning for me but he pretends that I don't even exist.
Alas!We hardly shared a word with each other.
I didn't tell her either about my mate,who indirectly rejected me.I can't tell her that,it's too much for her weak heart to bear because no one better than her knows the pain of loosing a mate.
"He is just a friend Mom so don't rock your hopes high and he is a human so we have no chance."I give her a duh look.
Meanwhile my phone rang flashing Derek's number on the screen.
"I should get going now Mom.Take care of yourself hmm.I'll try to come back before eleven okay."I give her a loose hug before dashing out of our apartment.
"Sorry Derek I took more time."I apologize to Derek who has been waiting in his car tapping his fingers on the steering wheel while I seated on the passenger's seat.
His face turned to me and I can't miss the stunned look on his tanned face.
"You're looking stunning girl.Where was this Cinderella before?"He examins causing my cheeks blush.
"C'mon Derek we know you're just exaggerating.I am no Cinderella,in fact you would definitely find a Cindrella in the party."I laugh.
"Well I am actually looking forward to it,perhaps I find my soul mate there."He ignite the engine of the car and begin driving to our destination.
To say,it was like dreaming,fits my imagination as soon as I step down from the car.The new seven star hotel of Elliot Group stood magnificently in front of my eyes,bathed in lights.The wide compound,with trimmed grass and flowers in the artificial lights looks like I jumped into one of those parties,I've seen in the movies or T.V.
Suddenly I feel out of the place,all the men and women,mostly belong to rich high class in their expensive limited edition clothes are talking in sophisticated manner,not sparing a glance to a person standing a step away from them.And the second reason,instense multiple stares on me by other wolves present in the party,definately they are filled with disgust,one chance,if only one chance id given to them,I'd be laid in my bones and skins but I am glad that its a party full of mundanes.The pack wolves won't do anything stupid in a public place.
"Let's congratulate Mr. Elliot first,then we'll enioy ourselves Clarissa.I don't want to stay here for long.This is not my type of party,what do you say?"Derek pulled me in the direction in a certain corner where swarm of media can be seen which means Mr. Elliot is interacting with them.
"I think we should wait till he is done with media."I said to Derek feeling uncomfortable by the weird sensation inside me.Mia is becoming restless,pacing anxiously in my head but what is the reason of her unexpected activeness.
"I can smell him,our mate.He is near us Clar."Mia becomes excited when I finally hear her voiced thoughts.
"I don't care Mia.He must be sucking the life out of that bimbo."I said bitterly to shut her mouth,it pains me everytime I imagine him with another women.
"Hey Cotton Candy I have been observing you since we entered in the party,you seem lost.Are you feeling okay?"Derek asks me with concern.
"No I am alright it just I want to use washroom."I wave my hand in the air to assure him but the reality is far from it.I am feeling vulnerable and pathetic.
"Okay let me escort you there,come with me."He placed his empty glass on the nearby table and gesture me to follow him.
"I can manage on my own Derek trust me.You should enjoy the party hmm."I stop him before he join me to the washroom area as my mate is here and I do not want to give him a wrong idea of hanging with another man like he does.
"You sure?"He asks again to confirm.
"Yup,don't worry I'll be back before you realise I am missing."I smile at him and made my way inside the hotel to find washroom which isn't very hard as there are guards in each corner.
Somewhere in my heart I have a faint hope,may be he realise his mistake and come to me,his mate,his true mate.
But I know its like crying for the moon.I enter in the ground floor and luckily I find female staff in their blacl uniform.I approach one of them.
"Umm excuse me,would you tell me where are the toilet located?"I ask a young woman who stand by a large hallaway instructing the guests who perhaps come inside to rest or use washrooms.
She glanced upon me,by her smell,I recognized that she is a wolf but by the neutral expressions on her face,I can say she doesn't want to kill me right there.
"Please come with me,"She nods her head and signal me to follow her lead,I silently pray the Goddess moon to spare my life if she is taking me somewhere out of anyone's reach to kill me.
"The toilet at ground floor are for human's use so I thought its better to take you upstairs where we rest.Its a safe place for werewolves."She says.
"But I could have used the toilet downstairs.I mean I don't intend to stay here for long."I reply.
"No Miss its not safe for you to wander around when everyone knows here who you are specially our Alpha.Our beta's mate strictly ordered us to protect you."She reveals and I feel thankful to Thea who is very thoughtful of my safety and also feel guilty of doubting her.
I must apologize to her once I get back in the party.She showed me the desserted toilets and I wasted no time in finishing my business.Though,Thea ensured mh safety,yet an angry or outraged wolf doesn't care about orders so its better if I leave as soon as possible.
I hardly took five minutes to finish my business and hurry my way back in the garden when strong scent of pine and mint tantalize my mind and Mia becomes alert.
"Our mate is here and I can also smell his arousal.Lets find him and mark him before he think of rejecting us Clarissa."Mia begin taking over my human self.Her crave for our mate is slowly unleashing and before I can register anything,she drag us to the second floor,where there are set of manu rooms,his cologne becomes more stronger means he is inside of these rooms,I quicken my pace oh its Mia not me.
At the end of the corridor,there is a large wooden door,means a special room for vip guests.His smell is coming from the same room so I,without thinking or stopping Mia,begin striding towards the room.In his arousal,a male wolf can't hold back his needs around his mate.There are high chances that he would claim me as his mate.
"We are almost near our mate."Mia howled in happiness.
Just when I was about to push the door opens,I hear a female scream.
"Oh my God!Move faster baby yes I love your beast side.Oh yes move fast."
"Fucking you is the best experience Charlotte."Trevor's heavy pants along with her moans feels like someone poured molten lava into my ears.
I keep rooted on my spot.
[ Clarissa Grey ]Suddenly the door fly open and Trevor walk out in his powerful aura.His eyes snap at me whereas I fail to react on his intense gaze upon me.His stormy grey eyes reflect anger and remorse but why.A sudden chill run down my spine.I forget his betrayal on our mate bond and I can't help myself from staring at his devilishly handsome features."Miss I was looki-"The staff woman come running there but paused in her mid sentence when her gaze fall on him."I am sorry Alpha.I didn't know she come here."She bows her trembling figure in front of him.An Alpha!My mate is an Alpha male!It breaks my heart more because a male alpha is the most possessive creature on the earth for their female mates."You're fired."His voice boomed in the empty corridor,"I don't want to see your face tomorrow,neither here nor at pack house Lyla."He adds and storms out,the whiff of his scent mixed in another women's smell fills my nostrills."This is what happen when you defy your master,you l
[ Trevor Sherwood ]"The little rogues are more frequent near our borders,I fear they are upto something big.Well that's what the report says.Last night our petrol team sniffed a rogue's scent at our mountain borders."Gamma Brandon sighs while I read the paper work of our upcoming meeting with Alaskan packs of werewolves.There are five of them,fighting among themselves over the barren,ice covered lands.Pathetic foolish wolves.But right now a new crisis has emerged out of nowhere.Some rogues tried to sneak into our terroteries.It rarely happens when someone tries to come near us,The Lackside Pack,at least since I take up the position of Alpha."I don't appoint you and Jason to report me every damm thing like some kindergarten kids.Grow up Brandon.I have already too much on my platter so it means its your and Jason's responsibility to deal with cheap shits."I barked on him as my patience run low since I spotted her at the doorstep of hotel room.Its only an hour but Zade isn't letti
[ Clarissa Grey ]I don't realise when time fly,the party is almost on its end.Most of the human guests had already left around eleven in the night.I should have also taken my departure but Mia and her parents aren't letting me go.I have a strange feeling that they are intentionally trying to expand my stay but I must go back as its almost one in mid night and poor Derek has to stick with me.Its not like I didn't insist him to go back but he is way stubborn.He simply refused saying he has promised my Mom that he'd drop me back at home safely."So Clarissa tell us something about your family?"Theodora asked me and it is the subject I haven been praying to be untouched."Umm I live with my Mom and my step father,who works as a driver for some rich family in the city.My biological father died a few years ago."I tried to keep my answer brief.I am not willing to disclose about our hardships we faced because our pack refused to keep us in pack land without a bread earner."Oh I am sorr
[ Trevor Sherwood ] "Alpha where are you?Come here Old Alpha is wounded while saving the rogue wolf."One of our warrior wolf's voice echoed in my mind. My blood froze in my veins as soon as he finished.I was doing a paper work for the meeting preparation with Alaskan packs when I heard the commotion inside my head. "What the hell did you just say?"I growl at him in my Alpha tone.Its impossible,my father used to one of the best wolf warrior in America and hardly got injured during atracks. "I am sorry Alpha but it's true.We were about to kill the rogue she wolf when he came in front of her and our Gamma Brandon fell over him."His voice trembles when he narrated me the incident. "Damm just don't let anyone go near him.I am coming there in two minutes."I shut all the mind links and immediately let Zade take control over me when we shift. My mind drifted to many worse scenarios.My father is being attacked by my Gamma,one of the strongest wolf in our pack for whom...the pathetic rogu
[ Clarissa Grey ]The whole ride back to my house was unbearable both for me and Mia,specially her because our mate not just humiliated us but also made clear that he won't accept us.Why?Because I don't belong to a pack or unfit in his criteria for his Luna.Is it a blessing or curse by Goddess Moon written in my fate that I have a heartless man as my mate who isn't going to love me."We are here Clarissa."Derek's voice snaps me out of the memory of an hour ago.I controlled my tears and quickly get out of the car before Derek fires his questions at me but I think I am too late to think of it."What happened back there Clarissa?I know its something bad I can feel but I don't remember anything so would you care to explain because your tears are telling everything."Derek grabs my hand and pull us in the corridor so the residents of my building don't misunderstand us as thieves at three am in the morning."Its nothing trust me Derek and you should head back to your home now.We have h
[ Clarissa Grey ]The ride from my apartment to the place where I took an oath to never return just a few hours ago,was full of anxiety and nervousness residing inside me.I fear Trevor's anger when he sees me back at his terrotery.He clearly warns me to stay as far as possible from him and his pack but Theodora's unexpected call to meet her at their private residence sprouts many questions for me."Mam I am sorry but this is a private property of Sherwood family and no outsider person is allowed to cross it without their permission.I can drop you here."The cab driver looks back at me.I peej out of the car window and realise,the dense private forest area has begin means I am at their pack's land."Its fine I will manage from here."I pay him the fare and step down on the bricked road.The fresh natural air soothe my unstable mind.I close my eyes and prayed Goddess Luna to help me endure this last meeting with Sherwoods."What do you mean its our last visit to the Sherwoods?"Mia per
[ Trevor Sherwood ]"No way in my wildest dream I am going to marry her and that's my final decision Mom!"I yell on my mother probably first time in ages.My parents have gone nuts specially my father on a sick bed.He announced my marriage with the excuse of a pathetic wolf names Clarissa in front of the council without taking my consent over the matter of my life.My fucking life which he controls like a cruel dictator since I grow to become the Alpha but it was fine as he is my father and his advice helps me in running the pack successfully but marriage!My mother ran behind me after a heated argument between I and my Dad.She has been pleading me to consider their decision wisely.It is very important for the pack and reputation of Sherwood family.No one has ever rejected his or her mate in our family from generations.We keep the tradition intact which earned us respect and indisputable status of Alphas for centuries but my scandalous affairs with different women came like a blow
[ Clarissa Grey ]I stare at my reflection in the giant sized mirror.I am wearing a pearl white wedding gown which is tight fitted on the upper body whereas the bottom has free layers of fabric.The hand embroidery with silk and pearls give it a touch of royalty emphasized by the diamond jewelries.The girl in the mirror is mocking at me.She is far from being the person I want to be.Its my own reflection though I always lived on my own terms and conditions but I'll no longer hold the same power as I do until this moment.Everything is going to change forever.I will become Mrs. Clarissa Trevor Sherwood in less than an hour.I hate to admit but the man who is my mate,will hold my strings.I cringe at the thought of being played on someone's wish but I have no choice in this.Since Trevor's parents found out that I am his mate,they pestered me to marry him for the sake of their son's future.I declined their request at the very instant when his dad first proposed the idea but my own moth
[ THIRD PERSON'S POV ]The day has finally come when Trevor's health completely healed from the wounds, the day when he is going to address his pack which has been hanging on the loose cord of insecurity and constant fear of an invasion."You look stunning in this blue tuxedo, Alpha." Jason compliments him as he get ready for the big event.The pack has no idea of his recovery as his family keeps it a secret for his own safety while Clarissa did her best to run the pack like him, having sleepless nights and hectic days. They haven't talked properly except some pack related topics since the moment Zade woke up from his coma which makes Trevor restless."Where's is everyone?" Trevor asks him but his eyes are impatient to have a glimpse of his mate."Mom, Dad and Thea have already reached at the meeting hall and Brandon is waiting for us in the living area."Jason replies deliberately not mentioning Clarissa. He can see the changed behavior of his friend."Where's the Luna? She must mark
[ Clarissa Gray Sherwood ]"Do you believe that they won't upsurge again?"Thomas asks me as soon as we walk inside the waiting room of the hospital."Do you have an alternative plan to deal with this family feud.I mean your nephew wants to challenge your son's inheritance?"I reply with a question which has been playing with my cords.He looks away from me,"I am not framing you child but I don't think they would surrender under the rule of a female leader, a rogue I must say."He walks to the glass window which gives a view of Trevor's room but he can't see us."I know you are disappointed in me. I should never act upon my will but Trevor would definitely try to influence my decision perhaps changed my decision if I met you two in the afternoon.Please forgive me for my recklessness."I apologize to him."No please don't apologize for something you only did for my son's welfare.I wish if he could see your efforts and accept you as his true mate but he's been sulking over that human witch.
[ Clarissa Grey Sherwood ] [ Clarissa Grayson Sherwood ] "Luna, the pack wants you to inform them about our Alpha's current health condition."Brandon's voice brings me back in the reality from my reverie. I don't realize that I have been dwelling in the last few days' events.My husband lost his ability to walk, his wolf isn't connecting with him or with me.It isn't good, not for him nor for anyone. "Can't we delay it for next twenty four hours?"I asked him in a low voice. He stared at me sympathetically, it is very strange that he had respect for a rogue. It's not acceptable in most of the packs,a rogue among the pack members let alone a Luna. "I am sorry Luna but we can't avoid them anymore. Alpha's cousin is trying to spread rumors against the Alpha fo secure his claim on the future Alpha's position."He said with lowered head. "What kind of rumors exactly?"I frowned. "That..that he isn't capable of handling the Alpha's duties anymore nor he can provide an heir to this pack."H
[ Clarissa Grey Sherwood ]Two days, it's been two days since he gained his senses.He met everyone, even the lowest rank wolves, who came to offer their well wishes to their Alpha but he doesn't allow me to see him.Whenever I ask doctors or nurses to let me go inside and see him ,they give a plenty of excuses .I know Trevor instructed them to keep me away from him and it pains both I and Mia.Mia is over the edges as she can't connect to Zade,it breaks both of us but we're helpless in this situation.Right now, I am sitting outside the ward room of Trevor so I can feel at ease by this closeness when I hear something shattering from inside followed by Trevor's growl.Currently, the doctors, his parents and Jason are inside. Theodora asked me to stay here when I was planning to go back to the pack house. Their faces had a grim expression. Something isn't right with Trevor's condition, I have this gut feeling stirring in my heart."It's bullshit, I am absolutely fine and able to run the
[ Trevor Sherwood ]Every single muscle in my body hurts like I fell off from a cliff and broken half of my two hundred six bones.I try to move my body but I can't as I feel my legs and hands heavy.Am I dead?No, I can't be dead, there's no way I can be in this much pain if I was in the abode of Goddess Moon.I try to shift my weight again but it doesn't move.My eyes are still closed but I can hear people whispering to one another.I can hear the beeping sound of a machine.Am I in a hospital because as far as I remember, I try to save a biker and hit the divider. My body was crushed in the car and rest goes in blank.Remembering of the accident, my heartbeats accelerate."Zade, can you hear me?" I try to connect with Zade who doesn't response."Zade, can yoy hear me? "I repeate again with a fear creeping it's way to my heart. I can't bear to loose my wolf, my other half or I'd be leaving a life worse than of an Omega."Trev..vor.."After a minute or two I hear him,his voice is weak
[ Clarissa Grey ]"It's mate, Clar.I can feel that he is in some kind of trouble.I can't connect with Zade.Please try to mind link with him." Mia ,for the uncountable time pokes me from inside and for some strange reason I also feel uneasy.My mind link is also blocked by him means I can't connect with him to make sure that he's okay.I don't even have his phone number.I feel totally helpless, caged in his house.It's almost eleven in the night."Call his parents or his sister and ask them if they know where's our mate because as far as our pain indicates,he was with his human slut."Mia says again and her words reminds me of the pain I felt a while ago.He was intimate with Charlotte.He degraded our mate bond,it's a sin in the eyes of our law, that's why he chose to stay in the city.I debate with my heart and mind and finally my heart wins over my pride and mind.I grab my phone and dial Thea as Jason knows about Trevor and his whereabouts.She picks up after a few rings."Hey, Clariss
[ Trevor Sherwood ]"You mean that you fucked her?"Charlotte's red painted lips tremble in fury," You let your wolf take over you and fucked that whore."She banges her fist on the table gathering unwanted attention on us."My patience is running very thin so better tell her to keeping her guttery mouth shut or I don't know what I am going to do with her carcass once we walk out of this place." Zade growled.I feel torn apart for having two different lives and now it's taking a toll over me."Char, you're making a scene over here. Please calm down and let's talk in a private place."I warn her in a low whisper."You want to justify your fucking lust on the name of a fucking animal bond."She rolls her eyes dramatically. I want to laugh on her childish act as I was clear since the beginning of our affair that it's purely based on sex."Let's not go there, Char.You don't know anything about it so keep your nose out of my personal life."I glare at her with my black eyes.A wave of terror
[ Trevor Sherwood ]I felt like a complete moron who crossed his limits first time in his life.I forced myself on a woman.I fucked numerous women but not until they're willing to submit to me."There is no use to cry over the split milk Trevor, you hurt her to no extent.Her wolf isn't talking to me.Its all your fault and mark my words man that if...if our mate distanced herself from us, I'd rip your whore in shreds." Zade growled inside my head.For the first time I had no words to counter back at his accusation but the conditions put by the Alpha king Zurus made me loose my sanity.His words kept resonating in my head along with her crying face when she begged me to spare her life.I rubbed my temples to ease the increasing headache in my head as I leaned on the chair of my office.I dropped her at my house in the pack and directly came to my office to clear my head off from the pack and Clarissa related stuffs."May I ease your tension, love?"Charlotte's seductive voice floats in
[ Clarissa Grey Sherwood ]I keep running in the thick woods not caring for my paws which have twigs stuck and the wounds bleed but I don't care as the bleeding in my heart by my mate's hatred and opinion shoots burning pain in my chest.I halted on the cliff from where the gap between death and life is very thin,one more step and I'd find my salvation from this miserable life.He only wants to mate with me for a child!He made it clear three times last night as he fucked me roughly unleashing his beast on me whereas I laid there like a prey animal on the mercy of his predator,for the first time,Mia too felt the pain inflicted upon us by our mate. It is a horrible experience for both of us and despite of being excited to bear a child of my one,I pray the Moon Goddess to keep my womb barren.I can't have a constant reminder of his torment growing to become another replica of him.I know he'd train his son to become like him and hate his mother for being a rogue and unwanted mate of his