AMIRA
I had lost count of how many times I had sighed in the last ten minutes. It was time to water Dad’s plants, a task that shouldn’t take me more than a few minutes, but I’d been crouched in the middle of the small garden for almost an hour, unable to do anything.
“What is wrong with me?” I muttered angrily as I plopped onto the floor instead of standing up and getting some work done.
It wasn’t as though I had no idea of what was wrong with me. I knew but I hated that it was such an issue that wasn’t letting me get any work done.
I couldn’t get the image of Ivannah and Soren hugging out of my head. I was so jealous even when I knew I had no right to be but I couldn’t help it.
I promised myself that I wouldn’t turn back after I walked away last night, but I couldn’t stop myself from turning back at the last minut
AMIRAI locked myself in my room and buried my head in my books. I decided to study so I could take my mind off everything that’s been bothering me lately.There was a knock on the door, breaking my concentration and I looked up from the pages of my book for the first time in over an hour.“Come in” I called and twisted in my seat so I was facing the door which allowed me to see who was coming in more easily.Koi entered with a cheeky grin on his face and I knew he was up to no good.“I’m not going to be one of your victims today. I have to study” I groaned playfully, eyeing the hand that was hidden behind his back.“I promise I’m not here to pull tricks” he chuckled, glancing towards the opened books on my table. “Studying?”“Yes” I whined, before closing the opened book, knowing that there was no way I was going to get any more work done with Koa here. “I had nothing else to do”“Ami, I’m sure you are the only one in the entire pack who studies when they are bored” he chuckled, taki
SORENI finished training and decided to go in search of Amira. We were supposed to train together but the instructor had insisted that we trained without her to work on my self-control without her present.I wasn’t happy with the idea, but I also wanted to test my limits, so I agreed, and it turned out to be better than I had expected. I thought I would have been easily angered by the teacher and lash out, but he had been really patient with me, and we went through the entire training without any issues.Their apartment looked empty when I arrived, so I decided to go inside the house without knocking just in case Ami had buried herself in her books and music. She was addicted to music and couldn’t almost not study without them.I had no idea how she managed because goddess knows I’ll close my book and focus on the music instead if it was me.My face contorted into a frown when I opened her bedroom door, and the room was empty.“Soren?” I turned to see Noah with a smile on his face “A
AMIRA“Amira, where are you? You’ve spent over an hour there already” Dad asked through the mind link in a worried tone.“The queue is very long, dad but it’s almost my turn. I’ll be on my way home soon” I told him with a tired voice.Dad asked me to go to the major store inside town to get him some things but today was Saturday so almost every family was doing their shopping to stock their houses since the shop wasn’t open on Sundays.I couldn’t remember the last time I came here on a Sunday so I had forgotten how crowded it got and I wasn’t happy at all because I had been standing for over thirty minutes just to get to the counter so I could pay for my stuff.Mr Azariel needed to get more people working at the counters because there were not enough to hold it during the weekends.“Just hurry back. It’s almost late. You know I don’t want you to walk back here from town when its late”“I know Dad. I promise I’ll be home soon” I assured him, glancing outside the shop at the sky that wa
AMIRAI ran the rest way home, throwing my plans to take a walk into the bin after what happened. Ever since I discovered that I could manipulate people into doing what I wanted at the age of 10, I’ve never used it again.And no, that is not the reason why I was able to get Soren to calm down. I had never used my powers on him or anyone else and I planned to never use it because I hated to control people into doing what I wanted.I discovered my powers when I was playing with another pup from the pack. Dad took me to the park to play when the boy had taken my doll. I got angry and commanded him to give it to me.I remember being so scared at how lifeless he looked when he handed the doll over and walked to his mother.Dad had been the only one to see the entire thing. He had picked me up and held me in his arms as he ran home, locked us in the room and warned me never to tell anyone about what I could do if I didn’t want the alpha to kill the both of us.Ever since that time, I had ne
SOREN“That’s amazing, Soren. You’ve cleared the stage alone and can now proceed to level 3 difficulty solo rescue mission” Elris announced once I reached the final point of the stage.I was panting with sweat dripping down my hair down to my waist. The level I had just cleared was almost impossible to do alone and in human form but I had so much anger in me lately to be let out and I channeled it into the level and managed to clear it.I found myself getting angry very easily these past few days. I knew I always had bad anger issues but recently, the littlest things were pissing me off and I was getting more worried with my birthday drawing close.Now, I kept pondering about what Ruelle said about something big happening on my birthday. I wondered if it would be me doing harm to my pack and friends.“Soren!” Amira gasped in surprise when I turned to see her stepping into the simulation room with a shocked look on her face.She glanced at the ceiling where the level was displayed with
AMIRAI walked out of Sparta without another word to Soren because I felt like if I had talked at that point, I would have said something I would regret and I didn’t want that.The hurt look on Soren’s face was stuck in my head but there was nothing I could do to prevent him getting hurt. It was either walking away or saying harsh words and I would always choose the former.I was embarrassed and frustrated at myself and my performance in Sparta. It was my lowest score ever and I knew it was because I had been distracted.No matter how I tried to avoid it, I kept visiting the night where I had carelessly used my powers and almost put my family in danger because of it.I had told myself a million and one times that I did the right thing but my father’s explanations kept coming to my head and I hated that now he sounded more logical and correct.It would have been easy for me to handle those drunk men without using my powers. I had travelled past my angry stage and now I felt guilty and
AMIRAIt was barely one hour into the date and I already felt like I could be somewhere else instead of here. I wanted to go home.It was stupid of me to think that I could sit for goddess knows how long and watch Ivannah rub herself all over Soren while he sat there with his wandering thoughts, not giving a care about what she was doing.“Is he okay?” Koa whispered to me while he nudged his head at Soren who was sitting opposite us with Ivannah wrapped around his hand as she talked his ears off about a topic, I had no knowledge of.“I don’t know. He wouldn’t talk to me” I told him with a worried sigh as I glanced at Soren again.Koa turned his attention to Ivannah who called his name and they began to talk. I turned my attention back to Soren.“Hey” I called through our private min link and his eyes snapped to me “You’ve been distracted all evening. Are you okay?”Soren smiled, his eyes lighting up for the first time that night and pride bloomed in my chest that I was able to make hi
SOREN“Soren, your father calls for you” a pack member nudged me softly, drawing me out of my head.That was all I seemed to be able to do lately. The worries had piled up to the extent that I spent days thinking about everything but finding no answers.“Thank you, Jom. I’ll go and see him now” I told the young wolf who nodded before he scurried off.I got on my feet to go to my father knowing that if I lingered, I may forget about it when my thoughts invaded my reality again.My father was in his office and I knocked twice when I arrived to inform him that I was here.“Come in, Soren” He called from behind the door and I opened it and stepped into the office that would become mine when I took over the pack.“You called for me?” I asked, taking the seat, he gestured to with a frown on my face. I didn’t like meeting with my father because the majority of the time when he called for me, it was never good.“Yes. There is something urgent I must talk to you about” He finally lifted his hea
AMIRAHas the land outside the borders always been this quiet? Each step further away from the felt heavier than the previous step. The strain on my body and heart was painful and I wanted nothing more than to turn back. When we had gone to save Lucas, my body didn’t feel as heavy and reluctant as it did. It must be because it knew we weren’t abandoning our home. “Dad would be so heartbroken”I whispered to myself as my vision turned blurry with the unshed tears that had welled up in my eyes.I turned back to the barely visible borders and saw that Valeria had disappeared.The hairs at the back of my neck stood up suddenly as an eerie feeling engulfed me. Danger screamed at me to run but where was I even running to?A low growl had me halting my steps. I knew that growl and it was not just an ordinary rogue. The dark ones.“Fuck” I cussed as I dropped to the floor beside the nearby tree to hide. My vision wasn’t as good as Koa’s but I could still see the forest a little bit. The
AMIRA My world was ending, and I couldn’t breathe. Each item I took and stuffed inside the bag I would be taking with me weighed a thousand more than they should. If someone had told me three weeks ago that by the end of the month, I would have a mate, be pregnant, and abandoning my mate and the pack I knew as home, I would wish the goddess' deadliest curse on the person. I was desperate for it to be a dream. I was foolishly hoping that someone would wake me up and tell me that it was all a dream and that I didn’t need to leave so I was stalling. “Are you stalling? No one is coming to save you, and dragging out the time won’t change anything.” Valeria's snide voice broke me out of my thoughts, forcing me into the painful reminder of my brutal reality.A harsh truth I was constantly reminded of without her help by the ache in my chest. The pain that I knew belonged to Soren. I dropped the shirt I had been holding and whirled around to face her, irritated and mocked by her smug exp
I lingered in the pack hallways after Koa had told me that Soren had been summoned by his parents and the worry that had been looming over my head doubled.I didn’t dare to go in search of Soren because I knew that I may not be able to stomach more of Alpha Alistair’s words should he still be spewing the harshest words about his hatred to his son.It made me wonder if Soren would hear those words and how he would react? I worried for him and prayed that the anger he had never been able to control without me didn’t get the best of him just as I worried what the Alpha called him in for.I don’t know how long I stayed in the pack house before I saw Soren storming his way out of the building like a wolf on fire.I didn’t need to be close to him to feel the rage from him and the way the pack members scrambled out of his way was enough proof that he had fought with his parents again and deep down I knew it must have been about me.I hated that the strain between Soren and his father was bec
SORENI could feel my blood boiling as I stormed out of the room and the door shut behind me with a loud bang, startling the people who had been passing in front of the room I had just stepped out from.“How dare he threaten Amira” I howled in my head. I was so close to snapping his head off but I had to hold back.My entire being itched with hunger to hurt him and make him regret his words for thinking he could hurt Amira and get away with it. I was itching for blood and I needed to get away from him before I would make choices I may or may not end up regretting.“Ripping the door off its hinges would not stop the mating between you and Ivannah. You have no choice” My father’s mocking tone invaded my head through the mind link I had subconsciously let down.“Fuck you” I growled, not giving a fuck about the consequences before forcefully pushing him out of my head and putting up a wall before he could give me a reply. 'I hated the bastard as much as I developed a hatred for the pack
SOREN“I’ll see you later,” I told Koa when we got to the entrance of the pack house. He had come to find me on the roof where I had disappeared to think.I had tried reaching out to Amira before I closed my mind link to tell her where I was in case she came searching for me but I couldn’t so I assumed she must be busy and may not come to the pack house soon.“You won’t tell me what is making you worry but I won’t pry any further. Just know that I am here for you man” he told me with a clasp of my shoulder.I patted his hand on my shoulder with an appreciative smile “It’s nothing I can’t handle. Thanks, man”“See you later then” he said and left the pack house to Sparta. He had training with the war master.I watched him disappear before going in search of my parents. I didn’t want to see them, but they had summoned me and said it was important. I knew Ivannah must have told them about me not wanting to continue the mating with her.Ivannah was wrong if she thought crying to my parent
AMIRA“Have you seen Soren?” I asked, stopping the first person I met as soon as I got to the pack house. I tried contacting Soren through the mind link, but he had blocked everyone out and it made me worry.With everything that had happened lately, I was paranoid and Soren blocking everyone out was not a good sign to me. I wondered if he talked to his parents, and they disagreed like my dad had but I doubted it.“I saw him going to the roof about thirty minutes ago, but I don’t know if he is still there” he answered.“Thank you” I told him and turned in the direction of the hallway that led to the stairs that would take me to the roof.My worry intensified because Soren barely went to the pack house roof. He only went there when the thoughts in his head got too much to handle or when he was very mad.Strangely, I couldn’t feel him like I did before, and it scared me. I was getting paranoid, and I itched to see him as soon as possible. It felt like I would only be able to calm down wh
AMIRAI dragged Rulle further away from the house. I was fuming with rage but at the same time overwhelmed with fear. I hated Valeria and at this moment, I hated my father for bringing her into our lives.How could she do this to me? Who gave her the right to come into my life and ruin it with her ambitions? How dare she and her daughter treat me like the outsider and the thief when they were the ones greedy for what never belonged to them?Tears clouded my eyes, but I fought them back. If I cried then I would need to explain to Ruelle why I was crying and I wasn’t ready to tell her about it yet, at least not until I had made my decision on what I wanted to do.I felt Ruelle try to probe through my thoughts and quickly put a shield on my mind link, blocking everyone else from reaching me. I couldn’t risk letting anyone else near my thoughts.Ruelle halted her steps and made me stop walking as well. She turned me so I was facing her, and I masked the emotions I had been letting run wil
AMIRAMy legs were so heavy as I dragged them tirelessly back home. Inara’s words were like a heavy weight on my chest, making it almost impossible for me to breathe.There was a strong urge to place my hands against my belly but I was too conscious that people might suspect the truth I desperately wanted to hide for now.I was pregnant.I was 18, had just gotten a mate for the first time in werewolf history in over a century, was without a wolf, and was pregnant.I suddenly wanted to throw up as fear consumed me. Everything was happening too fast and it felt like my life was going down a negative spiral.Turning 18 should have been the point where my life started to steer in the direction of my carefully planned future.It wasn’t supposed to be a time when everything went wrong, and I had no answer or idea of what I had to do to save myself from events that were threatening to tear the life I knew apart.“What do I do?” I whispered to myself as tears clouded my eyes but I willed them
AMIRAI woke up with a foggy mind. I couldn’t even say I woke up since I wasn’t able to sleep a wink last night.The entire night my head was filled with thoughts and worries of everything that transpire the day before.From my argument with Dad to Valeria’s threats and to Soren’s promise to make sure everything would go right in for us.I was plagued with doubt, worry and fear and I had no idea what I needed to do to get out of this dump I was in.I could also not tell anyone. Not even Ruelle or Koa even though they might have some good advice for me but I couldn’t risk it.“I feel so sick” I groaned and curled into myself.My body and my head ached and I had no energy to even get up from my bed.“Everything is going so wrong. I don’t have my wolf, I found my mate and now that might not even work out. Does the moon goddess hate me?” I whispered.If I had my wolf, maybe they would have been able to tell me what to do, but now I was stuck, alone, and tired.My stomach churned, and I st