Just like I thought, no one will ever look for me. Not a surprise though, I rather expected it. The silence was the one that woke me upo in this darkness. I blinked a couple of times. Again with this familiar aching all over my body. I'm used to it but I don't wish to feel it anymore. Especially when I felt how good it is to wake up without any pain on my body. I want to feel that again. I have two choices. Live my live free from this torture or free from this life. I'll try the first one. If I failed, I will do everything it takes so that they can't torture me like this anymore. I stared at the sky. It's already so dark. It was so clear and I could see the stars sparkles beautifully sprinkled the night sky like twinkling little diamonds. And there the moon... I gulped, whinched as it felt like I just swallowed a sharp rock. My eyes set at the big Moon above me and I lifted my hand as if I wanted to reach it. "P-please.." I wanted to pray, I wanted to talk to Her. To a Goddess
It was him in his wolf form. I thought Haris was the most intimidating giant werewolf ever. But when I saw this wolf in front of me. I was so mistaken. He was so big. I wonder why I didn't think that his wolf would be as glorious as his human form. He was taller than Haris or Alpha Jordan, bulkier than them, and even though Haris and his father is scary, I still saw how Alpha Cillian is more intimidating than them. This giant, black wolf figure stood in front of me. Those golden, vivid eyes stared at me didn't even spare a blink. He growled lowly, when he saw me. From so many years of experience with their abusive treatment towards me. I knew he was going to attack me. I closed my eyes and whimpered in pain. I know I said that I want to die as my second choice if this turned out fail. But I wish it didn't hurt too much... "JUST THE FUCK WHERE YOU'VE BEEN?!!" He roared and the ground shook. I didn't dare to open my eyes. My body trembled and I laid still. He was looking for me?
Once again, I woke up in a warm, comfy bed. I usually woke up from banging on my doors, nightmares, or stomach ache from hunger. But this time I woke up from a very delicious smell of foods that entered my nose. I sat up straight and noticed that this is the guests room where Alpha Cillian stay. He brought me here again? I didn't remember what was happened before I black out. I only knew that it was him that chase me all the way to the pack's broderline. Why he brought me here? I thought he would just kill me or abandone me to die anyway... But than again. Those foods on the table not too far from the bed where I am right now, were too tempting. It made my stomach hurt even more. I tried to remember when the last time I chew a bite or two little meal since yesterday.I looked around. That sweet scent from Alpha Cillian still quiet strong, I think he's here a moment ago. I felt better. I don't feel pain. Just stiff in some parts. My dress got change and body seemed and felt clean
"F-Feed y-you..??" My eyes widened when I heard him. Not that I'm suddenly became deaf. But this thing out of sudden...He looked at me without much change on his expression. Right, it must be because I am here to attend his need. I am currently bound to him because of this mate bond as it is him to me. Well, the think is I didn't know which one he preffere. Soup with bread? I think so right? I glance at the bread and him. He still waiting for me. I should not make him wait any longer, or he will be angry at me. I took a large pinch of the bread and put it on the warm soup for a while. I used it as a spoon and handing it out to his mouth. He opened his mouth and bite the bread. I knew I wasn't supposed to blush but I couldn't help it. His face was too much close to mine. I even heard his slow groaned while his hand grabbed mine to keep feeding him the rest of the bread in my hand. He did this while his gaze on me. I felt like he was not only eating the bread but also me as his pr
I looked myself at the mirror and I felt ridiculous. The one that staring back at me looked so funny to my eyes. The beautiful dress that she wore didn't match with how dull her skin and eyes were. She was much more skinny than any woman that would fit perfectly with this dress. It was a long, purple dress. Some sparkle diamond thingy around the waist. So soft and beautiful. Hm, what a waste. This dress could be more beautiful if someone like Laura wear it instead of me. There is no way that Alpha Cillian blinded by this mate bond right? I sighed and took a hair brush from the dress table then began to comb my hair gently. It's been a while since I take care of my hair. I usually tied it to a bun or just a pony tail without truly brushing it. Not that I don't have time. But it's always painful for my scalp since I always had wound on my head. Or any part of my body. Now, I don't feel the pain at all. I could brushed it gently from my scalp to the end of my long hair and braid it o
I looked outside the carriage, staring at the trees and beautiful landscape that I've never seen before. It was refreshing. I never set a foot outside The Rock Mountain borderline, this was the first time since Alpha Jordan brought me. I left that pack. Finally. I looked at my hands on my lap. It was my dream to leave that hellish place. Now, not only that I free from the Denmir's grasp, I am on this journey with some companion, not alone like I always imagined. And one of them is my mate. I felt a black shadow from pass from outside the window. I turned my gaze and it was him. Alpha Cillian in his majestic form. A giant, black wolf. I mean he always looked dashing in human or in his wolf form, but it was my first time seeing a werewolf this big. He almost towering this carriage. This carriage he took from The Rock Mountain and attached their horses to it. Alpha Cillian, his beta, I learnt from Lana that is her brother, and some of their men were in their wolf from running side
"Wh-what? C-can I...?" I was so speechless that my stutter became worsened. "Hm? You don't want to?" He lifted his perfect eyebrow and I quickly wiped his shoulder and chest with the cloth. Even though it made me embarras but I need to do this for me to also had my fill in dinner. He chuckled when he saw my attempt cleaning his mucles body. I hope I didn't irritate him with my disgusting blushing face. "You'll get use to this. You will do something like this often now." He said. Made my movement halt for a second. I shouldn't felt it. But still, I felt a pang in my chest. Somehow his words remind me how dirty I am as a she-wolf in this world. I did everything those men asked me to do to please them, if I refused, not only that I got their punch but also Haris or Alpha Jordan will beat me to the point I couldn't walk. This should be easy. He only ask something like this and nothing more, right? But then my eyes caught his men's eyes on us. They looked at me with curiousity from b
He let my lips go as quick as he came up with that kiss. I sucked in the air as much as I could and he said a tiny sorry. Before took his plate with him and left the carriage in hurry. "I am sorry, Chloe. You should rest after dinner. We have a long journey ahead." He left and walked to his men near the bonfire. I blinked saw him walked rubbing his head harshly through the window. Ah... That's right. Did he just find me disgusting now? Why don't he think of that earlier? Why it didn't cross his mind earlier that I am a dirty, ugly woman that happened to be his mate? Or, he did think about it, maybe he was merely curious...I felt sorry for him. He is a fine man. He deseves better than this. No matter what the rumours said but he seemed to be a nice person. I wonder if all that talks true, because even if he despise me and keep me by his side only because of this mate bond. He didn't even once beat me or hurt me with his hand. I just when I turned my gaze back to my plate. I heard
CHLOE'S POVI thought Cillian would make the potion himself, but instead, he took us both to another area inside the Castle that I had just found out about, and handed the flowers that had been stored inside a medium-sized and heavy wooden chest to one of his men there.He called them “the scientist” and I could see that they were working with glass tubes of various sizes and shapes, some even curved like snakes, wearing huge glasses on their eyes, face mask, and gloves. That white room had the brightest light I’ve ever seen, not to mention the cleanest.“Okay, Alpha, we will do it right away.” Said the tall man in a white coat and very thick glasses.“You can finish it tomorrow, right?” Cillian asked him.“Sure, Alpha. We’ll get to it right away,” He said quickly.The man turned to me and his eyes widened slightly. I had been standing next to Cillian from the start, quietly, not saying anything.“L-Luna Chloe! I’m sorry I didn’t greet you first,” He said while bowing respectfully. “M
The room behind the waterfall was a level lower than the one outside. So we had to go down some steps.“Be careful, it’s slippery,” I said, still holding her hand, leading the way to a small, dark, alley in front of us. As we entered, a small, dim yellow light bulb automatically turned on, making Chloe gasp.“Relax, love. It’s a sensor light,” I said to calm her down.“There’s… s-something like t-that?” She asked in awe. Now we could see our surroundings clearly.I looked at her and grinned, “Of course there is. Hmmm…” I thought, “I should really take you to the human city if we have some free time again. You’ll find a lot of unique things there.”She smiled at me and nodded in agreement. I couldn't wait to show her the world. She'd been stuck in that hell of a pack for too long. I'd show her other parts of the world that might interest her, and make her happy.I saw her smile shyly. She seemed like she wanted to say something but decided not to. Ugh, I was so curious and wanted to kn
CILLIAN'S POVI made her sit on my lap, I calmed her down, let her cry as much as she wanted. I chose one of the park benches near that small waterfall, so the sound of the water could help calm my hurt and sad mate.“Let it out, love,” I whispered to her. She was still holding me, her arms around my waist, her head resting on my chest. She nodded slowly. I could still hear her soft sobs.Seeing her like this made my heart feel like it was being torn apart. I thought taking her away from that hell hole would heal her instantly but I was wrong.The wounds she experienced were deeper than I thought.She was afraid that I would hate her, she was afraid that I would throw her away for something even though she was the victim of all the evil that people did to her.I hugged her tightly, telling her through this hug that I want her forever. That I will protect her no matter what, even with my life.After a few minutes, she seemed to have calmed down. She still wouldn't look at me directly,
Cillian took me to the east area of the Castle, where there was a building separate from it, and had a semicircular structure made of glass. The building was located in the middle of the yard, and was guarded by several fierce-faced guards.“This is the Garden House, do you like it?”I nodded smiling. Ah, this is what they've been building all this time? No wonder I couldn't get into this area the other day, apparently they were building this Garden house. I didn't even notice it from the balcony.I took a deep breath. This castle is really big. And I never see anything like this.Cillian took my hand as we walked together. The guards on duty bowed respectfully as we passed.From a distance, the Garden House looked big and tall, and it turned out that there were several steps that we had to take before entering it.“T-That Wolfsbane are here?” I asked.“Hm,” He nodded. “I’ll take you to see it. We’ve been growing it for years actually, but Wolfsbane isn’t an easy flower to grow. And i
It turned out that the rain didn't stop until two days later.And today, the two of us had breakfast in the main kitchen. Every now and then I took a sip from the glass in front of me not because I was thirsty, but to cover my blushing face from embarrassment.During those two days of non-stop rain, Cillian kept me in the bedchamber, more precisely on the bed. Cillian even ordered the servants and maids to prepare our food and bath in the bed chamber.I always curl up under the blanket whenever they prepare our food or bath water. Since then I just found out that Cillian is really a pervert. He didn't allow me to get dressed while we are in the our bed. So, I was pretty naked all the time to him.Now, we are enjoying breakfast outside the bed chamber for the first time since the rain poured on Silver Moon two days ago.I glared at him. My back and thighs was still so sore, everytime I walked my feet quiver. I thought maybe this was what it felt like to be hit by a wild, prevert wolf..
I felt Cillian's heavy arms around my waist. We shared warmth and didn't want to let go of each other.“Go back to sleep, don't think too much,” He said then I felt a series of small kisses on the back of my head.“Hmm…”We were still in bed this morning. Snuggled up in the warm, thick blanket and Cillian still clinging to me. Because neither he nor I, we both still didn't want to get out of bed.It has been more than a week, it has not rained in Silver Moon. But this morning until now the rain still has not stopped. The melodious sound of the rain plus the cold air, made me curl up even more in Cillian's arms.Besides, it had been days since we spent time together like this. Both me and Cillian, we were both very busy with our own schedules.I had a list of activities and Cillian took care of the work outside the Castle, including training his troops and going to the mines, as well as patrolling the various borders of the pack. We hardly even saw each other unless it was late at nigh
With his limping legs, Netra got up and walked towards the wall full of photos that near us. He took off a frame whose photo had caught my attention.I squeezed Cillian's hand tighter, as Netra placed the photo on the table, in front of me.He sighed as he sat back down. The atmosphere in the house that was originally comfortable suddenly became tense. We all sat in silence. The only sound that could still be heard was the roaring sound of the waterfall.“Luna Chloe…” Netra looked at me with a serious look. He seemed to be looking for something from me, I dared not to lower my gaze.Nobody can hit you just because you look at someone directly here, Chloe, I said over and over in my head.“...Which of the people in this photo do you know?” Netra asked me.I took a deep breath and exhaled slowly. I looked again at the faces in the photo.Once again, the faces of the two people. Those faces of the man and the woman made me feel sad… longing...I felt like I miss them both but I don't rem
CHLOE'S POVWe sat on the living room sofa, inside Netra's house. The room was not big, but it was very comfortable. The windows were quite large and numerous, making the room quite bright. I could see that Netra was a wool yarn craftsman from the many threads in the baskets in every corner of the room.I saw some photos hanging on the wall. And recognized Melda there. One old photo caught my attention. I stood up and approached the wall, taking a closer look at the photo that caught my attention.“What’s wrong, darling?” I heard Cillian ask, but didn’t answer right away.The black and white photo showed a group of people, they were smiling, arm on each other’s shoulder, some men and women, they looked happy and so close to each other. I could recognize Netra when he was young.Right next to him, a burly man with a taller body and a wide smile. My heart was pounding, I felt like I recognized him. But I couldn't remember who he was or even his name. But I swear, I knew him in the back
Chloe and Cillian walked side by side, hand in hand. Neither of them was walking in a hurry, but Chloe couldn't wait to meet the person Cillian wanted to introduce to her.Yesterday, on the edge of the sea cliff, Cillian told her that he had discovered facts about her childhood that Alpha Jordan had deliberately hidden.“Don’t call him Alpha, he’s not your Alpha, there’s no one in this world who’s higher than you,” Cillian told her as she often called the man who used to be her adoptive father, Alpha.Cillian's hatred for Alpha Jordan seemed unstoppable. Chloe felt the same way, but she wasn't used to expressing her feelings so clearly in front of others.Seeing Cillian so defensive and protective of her, warmed her heart. As the time goes, she felt that leaving this place was not the right thing to do.“I-Is it s-still far?” Chloe asked him. They had been walking from the castle to the pack houses for fifteen minutes now.Cillian stopped in his tracks and turned to Chloe with a frown