5. Regret Losing Her

ALEXEI IVANOV……

“Alpha Alexei, how long are you going to stay alone? It's been three years since Luna Angelica died in that accident. I think you should choose a Luna for you now. Your Pack needs a Luna. Women can't come to you with their problems. If there is a Luna it will be easier for them to share their problems. And you also need a partner. You can't live alone your whole life. Consider my suggestion.”

Alpha Clyde tried to convince me to get married again which was impossible for me. I deserve to be alone. I deserve more punishment for what I have done to Angelica.

“I have made up my mind that I will not marry again.” Alpha Clyde let out a defeated sigh upon hearing my words.

“You loved your wife so much. She was lucky to have you in her life. Maybe, she's smiling at your words from above. But trust me, she won't be happy to see you in this condition. She loved you dearly. Everyone knew how much she loved you the way she treated you. She looked at you with her eyes full of love as if her world only revolved around you.”

My heart clenched tightly in my chest hearing his words. Everyone noticed her love for me, but I was too blind to notice that. She wasn't lucky to have me in her life. In fact, I was lucky to have her in my life. But I never cherished her. I never tried to see her efforts.

I never noticed how much she loved me and that she would obey my every order. I never pay attention to her efforts to make me happy. She would stay awake until I came back from work late at night. She would never forget to make my favorite dishes on our wedding anniversary. She was everything a person would want in their life partner.

She deserved a better person than her mate. I'm not worthy of her. Making her my Luna was a mistake when I loved someone else and treating her badly was my sin when she was the only one who truly loved me.

“She was a gem that I lost and am going to regret all my life.” I was talking to Alpha Clyde when suddenly a smell of peach and raspberry hit my nose. It was a familiar smell. My eyes were searching for the person whose scent it belonged to.

I didn't know why suddenly I was attracted to this scent. My eyes were roaming around the ballroom when suddenly my gaze met with a pair of choral grey eyes which made my heart skip a beat. They were the same as someone who was close to my heart.

My Angelica.

When I looked at her properly I was taken aback by her appearance as she looked like a ditto copy of Angelica. Only her hair was black. My eyes weren't leaving her.

“Rosaline Davenport, Alpha Enzo's only daughter. She's really rude and arrogant but I must say, a very talented designer.” Alpha Clyde spoke up beside me.

“Why have I never heard of her?” My brows wrinkled as I never heard that Alpha Enzo had a daughter who exactly looked like my late wife.

“She was a spoiled brat since childhood so her parents sent her to her Grandma in Colombia. I met her there, that's why I know her. It's the first time she showed up with her family.” He informed me and I nodded without taking my eyes off her.

“Stop looking at her like that. Even if you like her, forget about her. She's not your type. She's a walking evil you will never want to mess with. If you get in her bad book she will make your life hell. You will regret thinking about why you were even born.”

Her introduction made me even more curious to know about her. She was really an interesting character. I would like to know more about her.

“Hasn't she found her mate yet?” I inquired and he squinted his eyes at me suspiciously.

“Don't tell me, you fall in love with her at first sight.” A chuckle left my mouth and I shook my head.

“It's nothing like that.” And he chuckled.

“Even though you haven't fallen in love with her, you are taking interest in her. And it's the first syndrome of liking someone. And you will never realize when you will develop feelings for that person. It's human nature, dude.” He patted my shoulder and I shook my head.

“No, I'm just a little curious about her as she resembles Angelica.” His eyes went wide and he started laughing, throwing his head back.

“Don't joke with me please, Alpha Alexei. You are comparing an angel with a devil. Stay away from her. It'll be better for you.” He advised me, but who was going to listen to him? Suddenly his Luna came looking for him and he left with her.

My eyes were again searching for her, and suddenly, I found her sitting on the bar stool, ordering drinks for her. This was the perfect time to approach her.

“Get me some vodka.” I slipped into the chair across from her and ordered my drink. The bartender nodded and served me three glasses.

I picked one glass and gulped it in one go before speaking to her. “Hello, Miss Davenport. Nice meeting you.” I extended my hand to her for a handshake.

“I hope I could say the same to you.” I was taken aback by her response but I should have known that a response from her like that was obvious based on her character. So people were right about her. I pulled my hand back before someone noticed this embarrassing situation.

I took another shot and looked at her again who was pouring herself another glass of scotch.

“You look like someone I know.” Suddenly, she started laughing, and I looked at her in pure amazement. Though she was making fun of me, her laughter mesmerized me. It was soothing music to my ear.

“Don't you think it has become an old pickup line, Alpha Alexei?” I pressed my lips together and picked up the last glass and gulped it down before answering her.

“You believe it or not. But you look exactly like someone who was close to my heart.” I said, looking right into her eyes, and she kept staring back at me without blinking her eyes. But it was for a brief moment that her expression changed into a dark one.

“Listen, if you are trying to flirt with me, then don't. Because I'm not interested in men like you.” Saying that she stood up from her chair to leave. But I stopped her.

“What did you mean by men like me?” She let out a chuckle and turned around to face me.

“An arrogant bastard who thinks so highly of themselves. Who thinks they can get everything with money? Who doesn't know how to treat girls? Who thinks girls are just sex toys? Who thinks girls don't have feelings?”

Her every word gave a whack over my heart. How could she comment on my character when she doesn't even know me?

“You can't insult me when you don't know me.” I retorted and she let out a chuckle.

“Oh, come on. Who doesn't know about you and your wife's story? Everyone knows……”

“Rosaline,” A voice interrupted her and she looked behind. It was Nathaniel.

“Come with me, Princess. Dad is looking for you.” He wrapped his arm around her shoulder and took her with him not before sending a death glare at me. He was giving me a silent warning through his eyes to stay away from his sister.

“It was clear from our conversation there was no way she was Angelica. My Angelica was never like this. It was just a misunderstanding. I had a feeling that she was my Angelica that's why I approached her. But now it's crystal clear that she is not my Angelica. She's really dead.

I didn't find her dead body. But the informer said that she died in the bus accident when she was trying to save people from fire. Everyone survived but she couldn't make it.

I left the party after that encounter as I wasn't feeling well there. Her presence was making me feel sick. So I left early. I closed my eyes as the driver started the engine. As I closed my eyes that night’s incident replayed in my mind when we got married.

I made it clear to her on our wedding night that I loved Charlotte. The next day, when Charlotte left the pack without a wor,d, I blamed her for her departure when I knew very well she wasn't the reason. But it is human nature they will always blame the person who they hate.

It's not that I never noticed the efforts that she put into making me happy. It's not I never noticed how she looked at me with those beautiful grey eyes. But she never noticed when I used to stare at her. I didn't realize when I developed feelings for her. I always believed that I loved Charlotte and I could never love anyone else until Charlotte showed up in my life back.

I found her in a bad condition. Her mate abused her always So I brought her back to my pack. I thought I still loved her, but when that night she tried to get close to me, Angelica’s beautiful face flashed in my eyes. And I pulled back from her.

I understood that very night that I didn't love Charlotte anymore. My feelings for her were long gone and replaced by Angelica’s love. And I didn't even realize it till that night. I wanted to go and check on her as I knew she must be sad about Charlotte’s return. But Charlotte held my hand and pleaded with me to stay with her saying she was scared. I believed her world not knowing it was all her act to keep me away from Angelica.

The next morning, when Angelica told me she spent the night on the terrace under the open sky, I felt shocked. I was so mad at myself that I just walked away from her. It was my mistake not to show my feelings for her. I was afraid to tell her about my feelings for her. I didn't express my feelings, and it was my biggest mistake, and Charlotte took advantage of that situation. She used a duplicate of Raina and framed Angelica in a murder case and put Angelica in jail.

She even used my name to order the jailer to torture her in the jail. I wouldn't know all this if I hadn't found Raina in Spain. I threatened her with her life to confess. And she told me everything. It was her release day when I reached the royal jail. I waited for her but I couldn't find her. I looked for her everywhere but couldn't find her. The next day I found out she met with an accident and died on the spot in a fire.

I lost the love of my life and it was too late to regret. That's why people say, “Cherish and appreciate those who love and care for you before it's too late. Once they are gone, regret is all that remains.

I wish I realized my feelings for her before it was too late. Then, she would be alive with me today. I wanted to kill myself for making her go through all those hardships. But death was an easy punishment for me for what I had done to her. I will spend the rest of my life with the weight of regret in my heart. And it's my punishment.

Angelica, please forgive me if you can. I wish to get you as my mate in my next life so that I can repent my mistake. I will love and cherish you with all my heart and all my life.